Suicide

Tang Xiyue and I were walking in front of and behind the rising moon, dragging our shadows, and I faintly felt her indecipherable eyes hovering over me like a sword aura.I suddenly walked a few steps quickly, stopped, turned around, and raised my hand, as expected!She bumped up, and my raised hand immediately blocked her at an arm's length.

"Let's walk side by side. I don't feel very relaxed with you behind me."

"Okay!" Tang Xiyue smiled happily.

Soon, came to my residence.This is an old courtyard, full of stale atmosphere, just like my experience, the only thing that has any business is the two bunches of flowers in the flower bed, which are always in full bloom, maybe they bloom too presumptuously The reason is that it always makes me fantasize about its tumultuous appearance, but it seems unmoved, and even the grass and seedlings around it are covered with red light!In fact, I know the reason for this, but I just don't explain it.

"Why are you coming back late? Today", Aunt Bai asked.

"Some things are delayed on the way, you don't mind me, go to sleep! Oh, by the way, this is my classmate, she won't go home tonight, please find a room for her to stay overnight, and find a few more things Change clothes for her."

"I think you should have completely forgotten your mother's last words. Now you dare to openly bring a girl to spend the night? It's still a girl who behaves like this! Tell her to go, I won't take her in." Aunt Bai's atmosphere speak out.

I looked at Tang Xiyue and found that her face was pale and her lips were moving, but she didn't say anything.I guess she wanted to explain the whole story, but she was ashamed of her self-esteem or she was scolding Aunt Bai and those hooligans, no matter what, I made her so pitiful.So against Aunt Bai's anger, I dragged Tang Xiyue into the house and went straight to my room.

"You can sleep here tonight, I'll get you some clothes to change." After finishing speaking, she ignored her, closed the door and went downstairs.

I went to my mother’s former room to get the white dress she loved most when I was alive. When I came back and passed the living room, I saw Aunt Bai staring at the picture of my mother. My advice, because she is the only one in this world who can treat me well.Thinking of this, I gently walked over and patted her on the back, and said weakly: "Just once, that's all."

Aunt Bai turned around slowly and said: Is it worth it for you to ask for your mother's clothes?

"I just want to see my mother in this white dress again with my own eyes. I miss her very much, but she doesn't often come to my dreams. Does she not love me anymore?"

"No, she just wants to make you stronger so she won't see you. Don't think about it, go up! Your classmates are waiting for you."

I stood at the door of the room, calmed down, pushed the door open, and saw Tang Xiyue staring intently at the picture of her mother on the wall. She didn't even notice that I came in. I coughed lightly and saw that she still didn't respond , let go of the voice and preached: This is my mother's clothes, can you put it on and show me?

She didn't seem to understand what I meant, so she oh first and then asked again: Am I really similar to your mother?

I am silent.

She said again: I'm just afraid that I won't look good when I wear it, and I will tarnish your mother's impression in your heart in vain.It's enough for you to just give me a piece of clothing, okay?

"I'm out, you change it quickly!" I said annoyed.In fact, ask yourself, I believe she is well aware of the selfishness of my bringing her back today.

I was alone in a daze when I heard her say: Come in!I was a little nervous, is it because of my mother?Anyway, when I saw her smiling at me in that white dress, my tears flowed down uncontrollably.That moment was so long, my mind replayed thousands of times my mother's struggles, shouts and desperate eyes in the madhouse...

"Suddenly a hand dangled in front of my eyes, and I took it as the devil's claw that separated me from my mother, and I exerted great strength to grab it."

"Take it easy! I don't want to spoil your mother's image, I just blame you for not listening to my advice."

Hearing this, I finally woke up, let go of her hand in embarrassment, and said after calming down: Thank you!My wish was fulfilled, and I stared at her blankly after I finished speaking. In fact, she looks different from my mother in many ways. Her face is not as soft as my mother's. It looks like the thick lines in painting. A lot of youthfulness, but for some reason, her temperament is very similar to that of her mother, with that kind of soft and dizzy light.This may be the reason why she can easily arouse my emotions, and this may also be the reason why those little hooligans lost control. Natural beauty is really a thing that people don't know how to evaluate!But I hurt her, how can I make it up?Forget it, why bother to make up for it, it will definitely have nothing to do with it in the future.

"Aren't you tired of staring at me?"

She might be afraid that I would squeeze her hand again, so she retreated far away from the wall before asking loudly.I lowered my eyes and said: "Thank you very much, go to sleep, you have class tomorrow."Just as I was about to leave the room, I heard her call my name: Zhang Xiaoyu, come here, I have something for you.I turned around and saw her walking over with a dark green pendant.

She stretched out her hand, and the pendant floated back and forth in the air, but the thread was firmly wrapped around her hand.

"Why, my eyes reveal an unspoken suspicion, even a pig can understand that I don't want to accept her gift." She directly pulled out my hand, and then wrapped the thread around her hand, Everything is so reluctant and so logical.I didn't throw it away. To a certain extent, I am not good at communication, but according to my usual way, I will not accept gifts from others, and I am in a dilemma.

Tang Xiyue said: I picked this little gift today and gave it to you tomorrow. I didn't expect such a thing to happen, so I plan to give it to you tonight. Let me thank you for your life-saving grace today. You must To accept.From now on, I will be your good friend.If you have any troubles, just tell me, you don't need to tell Taolin alone...

"What did you say? Taolin!" I interrupted her suddenly, what did you hear?Do you know all about it?you say!I couldn't control my fear for a moment.

"Don't be nervous, I will never tell anyone, I can swear to God, I will never tell anyone about you. I really want to be friends with you, and the gift in your hand is a testimony, really ,You believe me".

"Tell me, why are you so curious about me? You even went to Taolin, don't tell me it's a coincidence, I won't believe it, who would go there for no reason, to a remote corner with no scenery and humidity" .

"Whether you believe it or not, I didn't intend to offend your privacy. It was purely an accident where I went that day. I was planning to go there to sketch, but you started crying as soon as you came up. I didn't dare to make a sound, and the result was... ..."

"You don't have to say any more, I interrupted her, you go at dawn! I don't want to talk to you anymore. I walked over and opened her hand, put the pendant in her palm and closed it again. I I won't be friends with you, don't try to sympathize with me and pity me.

"Trust me! I want to be friends with you so honestly, why don't you believe in other people's sincerity?"

"Don't think about it! I'm not going to make friends with anyone, so don't worry about it."I turn around.

"How can you understand the joy of having friends if you are so self-enclosed?" She said anxiously because she was afraid that I would leave.

I sighed sadly in my heart: Pity is also a kind of injury. I am afraid that one day I will become a sad character like Xianglin's wife. No one is willing to listen to the old stories. It looks miserable!

He quickly walked out of the room.