miss a useless name

19.

"Yu Yan, why don't you go in?"

Yan Jing urged from behind, and a word caught the attention of the two people who were facing each other inside.

When their eyes met, Cheng Shen was obviously taken aback.

The class teacher of Liyi is a math teacher named Yang Hongbing in his early thirties. He is young but his hairline has receded significantly. He is nicknamed "Yang Bald" by the students in private.

Seeing Yu Yan, he found a breakthrough with more words: "Where did you get the confidence! Back then, when you were able to go to the experimental class, you were so arrogant and arrogant that you didn't go, and you dismissed the place where so many people crowded their heads to get in! Now it's a third year in high school! You still mess around at the critical moment! You can't convince me! Either call your mother and I'll tell her!"

Cheng Shen rubbed his eyebrows helplessly: "Teacher, it's useless for you to call my mother, she will only persuade you to let me go abroad."

Yang Tu persuaded Cheng Shen Er for 10 minutes, saying all the good things and bad words, bluffing like a firecracker for a long time, and almost called the dean from downstairs, but Cheng Shen couldn't be persuaded just like that.He had no choice but to turn around and start looking for reinforcements: "Teacher Yan, tell me what this kid is thinking!"

Yu Yan is a frequent visitor to the office, and the teachers all know him.

Yang Tu pulled Yu Yan over again: "Yu Yan, tell me! If it were you, do you want this recommended spot!"

Yu Yan was still in a daze, his reactions and emotions slowed down significantly.He was pulled in front of Cheng Shen, and his eyes were fixed on the other's short school uniform pants, and the high-top black canvas shoes blocked his ankles, so he couldn't see much of his exposed skin.

His thinking was sluggish in a short period of time, no matter whether he chose to be sent by recommendation or to go abroad, Cheng Shen couldn't stay with him for too long.Did they get along for a year?

They were still talking and joking together in the morning, so is it only me left in the future?Yu Yan's heart sank every inch, it was related to Cheng Shen's future, and he couldn't shake it with just a few words.

Cheng Shen frowned: "Mr. Yang, why are you embarrassing Yu Yan? This is my own..."

"Give it a walk." Yu Yan suddenly said softly, "Welcome...it's pretty good."

At least he can still go after him, no matter which city or school Cheng Shenbao sends to.

If they can’t go to the same university, they can go to the same city, and if they can’t go to the same city, they can go to the same province. No matter how bad it is, they can still stand on the same piece of Chinese land.

Thinking this way, Yu Yan seemed to be able to accept it.In just a few tens of seconds, he thought about many possibilities in the future, each of which could bind them firmly.But he didn't realize that it's very common for them to go their separate ways after the college entrance examination. They will make new friends and start a new life. If they still have contact, they will go back to their hometown every year for a small gathering, and then go on to their own lives.Why test a school, test a city, he has not yet thought about why he made such a decision.

Later, what Yang Tu or Yan Jing said, Yu Yan didn't listen to a word.

Cheng Shen left the office first. When Yu Yan left, Yang Tu was still behind with emotion: "Mr. Yan, I think Yu Yan is really good in your class. He is well-behaved and sensible, and he is not noisy. There are very few boys who are so obedient now. Results It’s not bad, if it wasn’t for the lack of physics, I would definitely give him the recommended spot!”

Yu Yan wanted to laugh a little, and even started to fantasize that if it really happened to him, he might disappoint the teacher, because he really wanted to take the college entrance examination with Cheng Shen.

·

Cheng Shen sent a text message to Yu Yan, and Yu Yan turned off his phone just by looking at it.

Cheng Shen asked him, "Do you really want me to recommend you?"

Yu Yan didn't reply, he wouldn't lie, he didn't want to say anything against his will.But more, he should respect Cheng Shen instead of kidnapping him.

Yu Yan was in a daze all morning, he didn't listen to much of the class, and he didn't do a few questions.

Maybe Cheng Shen was really determined and gave up the recommendation against the teacher's wish.But there is a difference between closeness and closeness, can he still defy his parents' wishes and stay in the country?Or, he decided to obey the arrangement and leave from his side no matter what.

The more he thought about it, the more anxious he became, and every word he wrote was messed up.

But one day, it seems that the world has turned upside down.

After finally making it to the lunch break, Yu Yan took a plate to eat, and just found a team to stop, when a person leaned over behind him.

Cheng Shen appeared out of nowhere, with an empty plate maliciously pressed against Yu Yan's back.There was a crease on the top of the school uniform, Cheng Shen oppressed him condescendingly, and asked him, "Why didn't you reply to my message?"

Yu Yan was caught off guard and took a small step forward.Cheng Shen couldn't spare him, so he took a small step after him.

"Are you still hiding?" Cheng Shen simply removed the plate, and posted it with his whole body: "You want to ignore me for a week again, don't you?"

Who is ignoring whom!Yu Yan was bitten back for no reason, and couldn't help turning her head back: "Please explain clearly, who is ignoring whom?"

"I ignore you." Cheng Shen immediately confessed: "If I don't say that, can you talk to me?"

Yu Yan turned back angrily, and it happened to be him in line. He wanted a bowl of rice, a spicy chicken, and a mapo tofu.

Cheng Shen looked at the back of the walking away, and hurriedly said, "Wait for me!"

After eating, Cheng Shen caught up in two or three steps, found a table for four and sat down.

The cafeteria seats are tight, and the other two seats are also occupied.As soon as Cheng Shen sat down, he gave Yu Yan the chicken tenders and curry potatoes on the plate: "You haven't answered me yet, why didn't you reply to my message?"

There are questioning and grievances in the voice, like a little daughter-in-law who has been treated coldly.The two people next to him couldn't help but look at him.

Yu Yan stopped Cheng Shen's chopsticks, and said in a low voice, "Don't give it to me, I can't finish it."

In such a comparison, Yu Yan is a ruthless heartless man.

He returned the chicken tenders and potatoes to Cheng Shen one by one, and then bit the tip of his chopsticks and said, "I didn't see it, the phone is out of battery."

This reason is also perfunctory, if the person opposite is of a different gender, he should suspect that Yu Yan is making things up.

But Uncle Cheng knew he was talking nonsense even if he didn't change his gender, but he didn't care: "Then answer me now."

Yu Yan didn't want to discuss this issue at all, let alone discuss it in front of two strangers.He lowered his head, even the bright red peppers on the plate could not arouse his appetite.

The people next to him got up after eating, and Cheng Shen was still staring at Yu Yan, waiting for his answer, while Ding Jian and Gao Le saw each other in time.

"Hey? Cheng Shen, running so fast after school, I thought you were here to grab meat, but you were looking for Yu Yan!" Ding Jian sat down, "There's no one here, can we sit?"

Cheng Shen breathed out his nostrils, and his gaze could poke a hole in Ding Jian.

Instead, Yu Yan breathed a sigh of relief, grateful to those two who rescued the scene in time.

Yu Yan ate the meal quickly, and Ding Jian was the only one talking non-stop during the whole meal.He swallowed his last mouthful of food: "I'm done eating, you take it easy."

Without waiting for a response, he walked away.

Ding Jian looked at the half of the food left in the bowl, and said worriedly, "Oh, he ate so fast, did he digest it?"

Cheng Shen dropped the chopsticks, although he didn't chase after them, he didn't eat them either.He looked at Ding Jian coldly, took out 20 yuan from his pocket and threw it to the opposite side: "After eating, go to the infirmary to buy a box of Jianweixiaoshi tablets."

Ding Jian was stunned: "I eat slowly, I can digest it..."

"Who told you to give it to you?" Cheng Shen completely ignored the brotherhood: "After buying it, I will give it to Yu Yan."

·

After self-study at nine o'clock in the evening, Cheng Shen directly stopped talking at the stairs, for fear that this kid would run away without saying a word.

Yu Yan's mood is still not high, he still bites the bullet and makes himself look the same as usual: "What are you doing here?"

After a day of mental construction, he felt that he could handle it well.

Cheng Shen went downstairs with him: "I'll wait for you, who knows if you will leave by yourself."

Yu Yan pretended not to hear what Cheng Shen said, and picked up people's comments all the way, thinking that he was covering it up very well, but in fact he couldn't say a word, and he looked sullen.

He is really too simple, likes and sorrows are written on his face.

The bicycle was driving on the small road by the river, and the sultry evening wind added another irritability to my heart.

"Yu Yan," Cheng Shen waited for a day, and finally found the opportunity: "Can you answer me now? Do you want me to recommend it?"

Yu Yan couldn't lift his spirits up, but he nodded seriously when he heard the words: "It's very good to get sent, you don't need to take the college entrance examination, and you are so tired in the third year of high school, you don't have to suffer."

"You really think so?"

Yu Yan responded, "That's right."

Cheng Shen tilted his head to look at him, feeling the sincerity and sincerity.He was inexplicable, judging from Yu Yan's one-day reaction, he shouldn't be so calm from the bottom of his heart.

"But my mother wants me to go abroad." Cheng Shen didn't let go of Yu Yan's subtle expressions, malicious temptations, trying to see what he wanted on that docile face.

Yu Yan blinked lightly, and inadvertently paused for a second: "Oh, going abroad..." He gripped the handlebar tightly, and the headlights of the car facing him swung uncontrollably with the dazzling high beams.

But soon stabilized, Yu Yan said casually: "Going abroad is also very good, when you come back, you will be a returnee."

Cheng Shen took a series of his actions into his eyes, and continued to say calmly: "Is that so, I think so too."

Yu Yan pursed his lips.

Cheng Shen said: "I don't want to be recommended. I just want to study a major I like when I go to university. I don't want to face physics books all day long. If I go abroad, the range of options is more, and the overseas information network is developed, so I can realize my dream earlier. Maybe."

Yu Yan looked at the road ahead in a daze, when he went abroad, his dream hit his head, and his reason told him to be happy for Cheng Shen. Are they lucky that one of them can realize their dream?But the reality is in front of him, and he needs to accept that this hard-won friend is about to go away.

But when the words of blessing rolled to his lips, he couldn't speak anymore, as if his language function had degenerated, and he couldn't speak a single word.

"What do you think?" Cheng Shen asked him with a smile: "My mother said that I will prepare to apply for foreign schools in the next semester, and I may not come to the attached high school then."

Yu Yan was out of his mind and had been in a daze all day until now, and a huge panic struck.He seemed to be a prisoner who had been sentenced to death, or a patient who had been notified of a critical illness. The air in his lungs suddenly lost, and he felt oppressed and suffocated.

It turns out that so many psychological preparations are useless at this time.

Cheng Shen sighed slightly: "Not only for the next semester, but if everything goes well abroad, it might not be possible to return to China in the future. Maybe I will stay there for the rest of my life..."

"squeak--"

Yu Yan slammed down the handbrake, his feet were a little sore when he landed, and he took a few steps back before he stood still in embarrassment.

Cheng Shen also stopped, and asked suspiciously, "What's wrong?"

"Aren't you coming back?" Under the street lamp, Yu Yan's face was quite normal, and his expression was well controlled: "Always..."

He didn't continue, his trembling voice fully exposed the master's emotions.

Cheng Shen turned a blind eye and asked ruthlessly, "Didn't you say going abroad is good?"

"I..." Yu Yan lowered his head in panic, the thing he was most afraid of happened, and it was even worse than expected: "I think it's very good, but I never thought that you would...would you return."

"So you don't want me to go abroad?"

Yu Yan categorically denied it: "No! I didn't. You have your own way to go and your own choice. I...I respect it."

Cheng Shen was not stupid when he parted with a smiley face in the morning, and then avoided him and refused to reply to the message. He could only attribute the reason to the accident in the office.

The homeroom teacher wanted him to be recommended, and his mother wanted him to go abroad. He never mentioned these things to Yu Yan. He didn't want to leave because of nothing else. He wanted to go with Yu Yan.

But Yu Yan's reaction was obviously wrong, reluctance, loss, and he was still forced to smile even though he was out of his mind.

Cheng Shen understood what was going on with him, but he didn't know about Yu Yan, and he didn't want to speculate about him by himself.

But now, Yu Yan's series of reactions gave him a chance, and even gave him an unreasonable thought. The protection and cherishing in the past were not fake, and the loss and sadness now are also real. Maybe Yu Yan is the same as him.

Cheng Shen put down his legs, and walked around from the front of the car to Yu Yan: "Then who are you showing your distraught look?"

driven to distraction?Yu Yan looked at Cheng Shen puzzled, did he have it?

Cheng Shen bullied him: "Afraid I'll leave and never come back?"

Yu Yan avoided that scorching gaze, he was afraid of being seen through.But Cheng Shen didn't let him hide, he lifted Yu Yan's chin to force him to look up, and stared at him: "You don't want me to go."

"No... no!" Yu Yan had no choice but to look at him, afraid that Cheng Shen would misunderstand him, and that he would feel that it would be better for him not to see others, so he grabbed Cheng Shen's wrist nervously and eagerly, but the words he said were so sour: "I hope you Well, I hope you can realize your dreams too."

"Oh, that's it." Cheng Shen nodded, his fingers exerted force: "Then why are you like this?"

Yu Yan couldn't explain it, his black and white eyes were stained with water vapor.

Cheng Shen pressed a red fingerprint on Yu Yan's chin: "Why are you unhappy?"

Yu Yan's pupils shrank suddenly: "I..."

"This morning," Cheng Shen's face gradually became gloomy, and he spoke with anger: "Did I say that I will take the exam by myself, and I will not recommend it, nor will I go abroad."

"You panic, you mess up, you lose your mind all day, why?"

Yu Yan was puzzled, and Cheng Shen was even more puzzled, impatiently asking for an answer: "We've only known each other for over a month, do we have such a deep relationship?"

Yu Yan froze completely.

He never thought about the reason, why he was so scared when he heard that Cheng Shen was going to leave, and was so flustered that he couldn't control himself.Why is it so sad for Cheng Shen to distance himself from him, as if a piece of his heart has been ripped out.Why are you afraid of Cheng Shen getting caught in the rain, why are you afraid of him getting hurt, why you stay up late to take notes for him, why you like the bookmarks he gave you so much, and why you want to take the same exam with him.

He thought it was friendship, and he didn't want Cheng Shen to leave him, but there wasn't so much care and possession beyond the limit in friendship.

Yu Yan let go of his hand abruptly, and took a step back in fear.But Cheng Shen was also quick, pinning the back of his neck to prevent him from escaping.

"Tell me, Yu Yan." Cheng Shen was so close to him, "Why are you unhappy?"

"...I just," Yu Yan's ignorant consciousness opened up a new corner, he seemed to suddenly understand something, and ran away desperately unwilling to admit it: "I just don't have a friend like you."

He explained to himself: "Although, although we haven't known each other for a long time, we have a very good relationship. You know, I don't have any friends. I finally found someone who can talk and go home together after school. How could I... ..."

"Is that so?" Cheng Shen interrupted him: "Look into my eyes and say it again, is that so?"

Yu Yan blinked, struggling to meet Cheng Shen's eyes to prove what he said was true.It's just that his set of rhetoric is too perfect, and he can't find faults in both emotion and reason. On the contrary, the speaker is guilty and the listener is skeptical.

He really doesn't know how to lie, and a little trick will reveal everything.

"You're lying." Cheng Shen said firmly, "You don't want me to go abroad, and you don't want me to be escorted. You want me to stay here, by your side. You care about me, don't you?"

Yu Yan trembled uncontrollably, and those blurred boundaries suddenly became clear.When two hearts are clear and plain, spread out, and all emotions can be traced.

"is not it?"

Yu Yan's heart was beating wildly, he couldn't speak, he could only call the other party's name: "Cheng Shen..."

"Isn't it!" Cheng Shen's face suddenly became fierce, as if he was about to burst out of patience, even the veins on his forehead were clearly visible, he didn't want to guess again: "If you don't tell me, I will prove it myself!"

He couldn't bear it anymore, lowered his head, and kissed the lips that refused to say anything or admit anything.

Whether Yu Yan was silent or said something against his will, Cheng Shen felt that this mouth was made of copper and iron, so hard.Until now, when he bumped into it in such a frenzy that he lost his mind, he realized how soft it was, as soft as he imagined.

Then, he left, brushing the corner of Yu Yan's mouth with his fingertips.

This night, Cheng Shen did all kinds of bad things, but at the last moment he carefully showed his tenderness: "Yu Yan."

He softly called the person who was immersed in sluggishness: "Yanyan, I will take the college entrance examination with you."

The author has something to say:

I finally wrote this, and the next chapter will switch back to the present.