Two or three things about having a crush on Mr. Dazai

[Somewhere in Tokyo]

When a supernatural war broke out in Yokohama that would shock the whole of Japan if it were released, Kuroko Tetsu, who was an ordinary high school student at Jorin Middle School in Tokyo, knew nothing about it.

He was obsessed with basketball games for three years in high school, and he also had to work hard for his studies during the graduation season.After completing the central examination and self-examination, Heizi intends to tell Takeshita Aki, a special mafia friend whom he has known for two years, that he is about to graduate.

If possible, he would also like to invite Akira Takeshita to participate in the grand ceremony of his graduation ceremony.Takeshita-kun, who has never been to high school, should be willing to attend as a friend and watch the lives of ordinary people.

However, Heizi found out that he and Aki Takeshita hadn't been in touch for a long time because he was busy with his studies some time ago.

The last time I received a letter from Akira Takeshita, it was he who said he wanted to change his phone number, and he would contact me again when he had a chance.

Hei Zizhe also failed to reply in time because of his review, and later found out strangely that Aki Takeshita said he wanted to change his number, but he hadn't informed himself of his new number for a long time.

Hei Zizhe also tried to dial Aki Takeshita's old cell phone number.

Naturally, I couldn't get through.

But there is no hint that it is an empty number.

It may be because Takeshita-kun works in the mafia, and he does not use popular social software as often as his peers. All the messages Heizi Tetsuya sent through social software accounts have disappeared, and there has been no news.

Heizi couldn't help feeling a little confused.

That day, when Heizi was taking Tetsuya No. [-], a Shiba Inu he picked up from the park, for a walk, Tetsuya No. [-] suddenly ran wildly as he passed an alley.

Heizi followed it for a long time before chasing number two back.

Heizi picked it up, and No. [-] stared at him with eyes as round as Heizi, and Heizi was about to teach it a serious lesson.

At this time, a conversation came from the side of the alley.

"Hey bro, did you hear that, the ghost is dead!"

A voice that was subdued and still excited.

"What ghost?"

Another voice was casual.

The excited voice explained: "That's the ghost! The ghost assassin! The number one killer in the world! Port Mafia, you know?"

Coincidentally, although Heizizhe is not familiar with the ghost and the killer world, Heizizhe also remembers the name of the underworld organization where his friend belongs-it is the port Mafia mentioned by this person.

Out of curiosity, Heizi temporarily gave up on No. [-]'s ideological education, and decided to eavesdrop on the conversation next door.

The so-called eavesdropping - Relying on his weak sense of existence, Heizi went straight to the corner with No. [-] in his arms, and saw two tall men in the alley over there, wearing black sunglasses and smoking a cigarette, squatting by the wall.

Although they are wearing black suits, they have a kind of air that can't be seen on the stage.In Kuroko Tetsuya's memory, once he had a quick meeting with a friend who came to Tokyo for work and didn't have time to change clothes, Takeshita-kun's upright and elegant demeanor made him unforgettable at first sight.

At that time, he knew that in the same underworld, there are also great differences between people.

……

"Hiss... speak clearly."

Another man spoke, and Heizi and No. [-] in his arms turned their heads to look there at the same time, waiting for the next words in the same posture.

Just listen to the well-informed man say:

"I heard that there was an accident in Yokohama. What kind of supernatural organizations fought against each other, and there were countless casualties. I have a brother in Yokohama who told me that many people died in the port Mafia, and even a cadre died. That accident It’s possible to fight, the sky is dark, the sun and the moon are dark, it’s extremely terrifying! Because the government blocked the news for fear of causing panic among ordinary people, it didn’t upload it here in the open.”

"Who wants to hear this, I have also heard about Moby Dick Falling. I want to hear about the ghost assassin!"

"That is to say... During that battle, the ghost assassin also died. It caused a great sensation in the assassin world, and the ranking of the assassin world was reshuffled. The former No.3 assassins competed to raise their prices on the black market. Killer No.1 after fighting for the ghost with all his heart, really makes me laugh."

"Are you sure the information is reliable? The ghost is really dead?? Isn't it?"

"Really, absolutely true. Go to the police website and check to see if the police's warrants for ghosts have been revoked? They are either dead or arrested. But you think, the reason why ghosts are called ghosts is not Just because no one can see him, let alone catch him! There is also a theory that the ghost is actually one of the five cadres at Port Mafia..."

He even slapped his hands at the key point, "It was said that Mafia lost a cadre in the war - this is not exactly right!"

……

Something happened in Yokohama?

Heizi blinked, and vaguely recalled a conversation two years ago in the series of "what about the ghost" between the two of them.

——Mr. Heizi, in case you encounter the underworld, you can report the name of "Ghost" or "Akira Takeshita", which can be more or less deterrent.

——But a friendly reminder, don't mention any titles related to "ghosts" in the police.

The memory of two years ago was recovered, and he was a cadre at the port of Mafia, so Heizi still didn't know who the "ghost assassin" was.

It's his friend Takeshita-kun.

Ghost dead?

……No way?

But if nothing happened, why didn't Takeshita-kun send him a new number for so long?Didn't send a message to contact him during this period?

When people receive a huge shock, they will subconsciously find countless reasons to refute, and then find the same number of reasons to convince themselves after calming down.

Kuroko Tetsuya's heart was beating wildly, and then he immediately contacted Takeshita Akimi, the last member of the trio who came to Tokyo to meet, Kobayakawa Keiko.

"Kobayakawa-kun, may I ask when was the last time Takeshita-kun contacted you? What's the matter?"

"Ah, it's Mr. Heizi. It was probably... more than half a month ago? He said he wanted to change his phone number or something, but he didn't send me a new number, and he didn't reply when I asked."

Heizi Tetsuya's hands trembled a little: "So, you don't know his recent situation?"

"I don't know. What's wrong with him?"

Ever since Aki Takeshita and his Mr. Dazai semi-confirmed their relationship, the frequency of contact with her has decreased, not too frequently. He also tried not to contact her for a longer time than this time before, and Kobayakawa didn't find anything unusual.

"It's okay. I'm sorry to bother you. Good luck with your work."

Hei Zizhe also hung up the phone calmly, but he did not inform Kobayakawa before verifying the facts.

He found the business card token that Akira Takeshita gave him, picked a company in Mafia, the nearest port, and took a taxi there, and said to the front desk, "Hi, I'm looking for Mr. Akira Takeshita from your company."

The lady at the front desk saw the business card and said that she had no authority to handle it, and Hei Zizhe needed to wait for a while.

Heizi sat at the reception desk in casual casual clothes with No. [-] in his arms. After a while, a young man in a suit and leather shoes sat across from him.

The man's status is not low, but he is very polite to Heizi.

He said: "Mr. Heizi, hello, you are Mr. Takeshita's friend. I am Mr. Takeshita's trusted subordinate before his death."

Heizi Tetsuya: "..." During his lifetime?

Man: "I'll just say it straight, Mr. Takeshita has been confirmed dead—more precisely, he disappeared."

"Since you have his private number, you must be his valued friend. His tombstone is at xxxx. The port Mafia experienced a heavy casualty some time ago, and most of the dead are buried there. If you want to visit the grave, please Take it easy."

"Mr. Takeshita has done a decent job, he chose to perish voluntarily."

"Please grief."

……

Hei Zizhe also thanked the other party blankly, his mind was in a mess.

Parting was so unexpected.In the 18 years of life that Heizi was filled with basketball, it was the first time that Heizi experienced a sudden and cruel parting called death in such a shocking way.

He still remembered the young man's blue eyes were clear and gentle, he shook the milkshake with a smile, and when he raised his hand, he revealed the bandage wrapped around his wrist: "Let's get together next time."

"Next time we meet, if I'm with Mr. Dazai, I'll ask him to have dinner with you."

...It turns out that there will be no next time.

How long has it been since Aki Takeshita disappeared?

If the people from the Armed Detective Agency were to ask, they might be able to tell an objective and accurate number against that date; but for Osamu Dazai, this became a difficult question to answer.

It seems that Aki Takeshita has been away for a long time, and it seems that he has just left.

Dazai turned on his phone, and could see the text messages he sent at any time.

——"Mr. Dazai, please remember, I love you."

i love you.

i love you.

Mr. Dazai, I love you.

Aki Takeshita said it too many times.

Osamu Dazai has no doubt that if Takeshita Akira wanted to say the last word to him before disappearing, it would be the same: Mr. Dazai, I love you.

Osamu Dazai's thoughts are deeply hidden in his heart, and people usually don't know how much he has seen and how far he has seen.

They didn't know that when Osamu Dazai caught the fallen Akira Takeshita, he thought "maybe he will disappear in the next moment"; and when Akira Takeshita disappeared in his arms, Osamu Dazai thought "this day is finally Arrived."

They didn't know that when Kunikida Doppo yelled at him because of Aki for the first time, Dazai thought of Kunikida's struggle after learning of Takeshita Aki's identity; when Takeshita Aki rejected Dazai's invitation to join Butei as a joke for the first time , Dazai understands, martyrdom for love and martyrdom, Aki Takeshita will die for one of them one day.

They also didn't know that when Dazai Osamu and Takeshita Aki kissed each other, Dazai had already thought about how he would miss the departed Takeshita Aki for the rest of his life.

How to miss?

He is not such a formal person, he misses this kind of thing and does it whenever he wants.When I think of Odasaku, I borrow Lupin's matchbox to express my feelings. Every death day, I go to the beach to be with Odasaku who is buried underground for a day.

Autumn is about the same.

Let that day be his death day. Mafia erected a tomb for him, and Osamu Dazai went to see it. The location is quite good, and Chuya should have intervened in it.

It has been so long since the brain hell incident, everyone has accepted the fact that Aki Takeshita passed away.

Dazai probably did too.

Death is like a lamp being extinguished, leaving no trace of whereabouts, and one is freed completely.Those who remain in the world are missed day and night.

Compared with nostalgia, Osamu Dazai felt that he might be more suitable to be the one who died.But for some reason, he, a lover of suicide, has survived to this day, and has become a person who misses others, which is really surprising.

Osamu Dazai thought that thinking about Qiu would be the same as thinking about Oda Saku.

He had thought so.

The bustling street is full of people.

The slender, brown-haired man put his hands in the pockets of his long beige coat, and walked leisurely against the flow of people.

Because of his handsome appearance and outstanding temperament, tourists frequently cast their eyes on him.

Dazai was alone in the bustle and laughter, he couldn't tell why he came here, maybe it was because the air around him would be more lively, or maybe he was tired of drinking in the tavern and wanted to get drunk in another place.

Takeshita Qiu disappeared, and it cannot be said that he was not sad.But the grief is real, and so is the peace.It was hardly a shock that an inevitable thing had happened.

What a casual thing it is to live, whoever leaves can't live?

You see, even Qiu, who was so stubborn four years ago, has survived, and Osamu Dazai will not seek death or life.

It's just that the shared memories between Osamu Dazai and Akira Takeshita are too rich, and if he is not careful, he will rush to his face, leaving him nowhere to escape.

As soon as you arrive at the Butei Club, the cautious expressions of the members and the deliberately avoided topics always remind Dazai that Qiu should have been by your side, but he left.

Let's go home, Dazai is distressed by all the daily necessities for two people and the ingredients in the refrigerator that he can't use for cooking.Oh, and there's that big box of milk that's half-drunk. He doesn't drink milk as water for three meals a day in Autumn. He has to drink it until the year of the monkey.

Get rid of everything?Dazai didn't want to do that for now.

In this way, there are too many things that can be touched by the scene.Dazai is busy enough just thinking about it.

When living with these things, he often confuses whether Takeshita Akira just went on a short-term business trip or disappeared forever.

Takeshita Akira was too cunning, he tried his best to stay by Dazai's side all these years, and managed to make Dazai feel that someone really should look at him so tenderly.

Dazai raised his hand above his head to cover the glare of the sun, and squinted between his fingers to look at the bright blue sky.

Does the color of the sky resemble Qiu's eyes?

There was a lot of noise around, Dazai glanced around, saw something, and stopped breathing.

That figure looks like...

Dazai instantly forgot what he was thinking last second, and quickly ran to the place where the person he saw just now was, the hem of the long windbreaker fluttering.

Getting closer, the figure with short navy blue hair.

But the closer it gets, the less it looks like.

Not who he was looking for.

Dazai stopped in front of a store.The panting appearance is completely different from the calm posture of strolling on the street just now.

He looked around, full of strangers.No one noticed his embarrassment, no one stopped for him.

"what……"

Dazai sighed angrily.Then he walked to the wall and beat himself violently with his head against the wall, squatted down on the spot, put his head in his hands and meditated introspection.

Passers-by were stunned by his series of sudden actions, and thought that the young man was invited by the shop to do performance art to attract customers.

"Qiu, you scheming ghost. Why are you disappearing, creating an illusion that you will come back."

Dazai squatted without image, the more he thought about it, the more helpless he became, and he said to himself, "Where have you been? Are you hungry in nothingness? Is it cold? Is it fun? Are you coming back? When will you be back?" "

He looked sideways at the air beside him, as if waiting for someone to answer.

The sun was just right on this day, and the ground was burned dazzlingly.

There was no one around Dazai.

"Ah."

Dazai wiped his face and chuckled vaguely.

"Qiu, look at me. Does it look like you before?"

No bones seen, eternal hope;

Without death, without liberation.