Two or three things about having a crush on Mr. Dazai

Dazai's breathing became irregular, not sure if it was due to pain or something else.

"Uh……"

A little sound came out of Dazai's throat, and before that sound could form words, I kissed again.

Sealing his soft lips, swallowing his terrible words that pierced the heart like a sharp knife.

My nose and mouth are filled with the smell of Dazai's blood, but my taste buds are full of bitterness and astringency.

In Dazai's shocked iris pupils, I saw my crazy self.

I used both hands to suppress Dazai, unable to wipe off the blood from his cheek, I could only lick the blood on his lips with my tongue.

Extremely precious, extremely sad.

"Mr. Dazai, you know, I like you."

"So I can't stand that when I am pleasing you, you are pleasing others."

"Even if you want to...please, don't let me see...don't do this."

I whispered a prayer in his ear.

When Dazai kissed him frantically, the strength of his struggle became weaker, and he lay down on the ground and let me do whatever he wanted.

I rubbed Dazai's cheek with nostalgia, and then let go of the restraint of my right hand on him.

I spread out the palm of my right hand, and an expensive clip-on tremella chain lay quietly on it, and the crystal falling at the bottom shone with a faint blue light.

It was held in my hand just now, together with my fists and feet, it brought damage to Dazai.

"You say it suits me well."

I asked bitterly, "How does it compare to the delicate and beautiful lips of women? It's probably the same, and it's not even as good as the exquisite jewelry on their bodies?"

I tightened my fingers and grasped it again, then threw it hard at Dazai's face:

"But—I'm different from them!!!"

The silver chain "da" hit Dazai's face, Dazai turned his head and closed his eyes.

The silver chain made faint red marks on Dazai's face, and then slid down to the ground next to his ear.

I took one of his hands, broke his fingers into a pistol-like shape with the thumb and index finger open, then raised it up and pointed the "muzzle" at my temple.

Time to end.

"Mr. Dazai, please talk. Tell me how much you hate me and drive me away from you."

The reunion with Mr. Dazai was so wonderful. His eyes no longer looked at me with disgust and indifference, which gave me the illusion that I was in happiness.

but it is not the truth.

"Please, drive me away."

I said calmly and sadly, but my voice was trembling.

Cry trembling.

I am about to pay for my actions, and I must face the consequences of this madness.

He should hate me.

Dazai was held up by one hand, and looked at me expressionlessly, his gaze was a deep whirlpool.

Suddenly, he laughed out loud.

"Ah……"

This smile reminds me of him in the past in black suit and black trench coat.

Dazai also showed such a simple smile the day I beat him unconscious in the sparring with Akutagawa.

But now and then it seems a little different, I can't tell.

Taking advantage of my unpreparedness, Dazai threw me over with force.My strength and courage have been exhausted just now, and I didn't make any resistance, and the back of my head hit the ground with a "boom".

Dazai and I switched positions, he was above, I was below, facing each other, very close to each other.

Dazai was panting heavily, and the breath spewed on my face, and I couldn't help but think of the feeling of touching his lips and breathing with him just now - I thought it was the last time I felt close to him in my life.

Dazai said: "Cough, cough...you are really willing, I thought I was going to be killed by you...cough..."

As he spoke with difficulty, blood spilled from the corner of his mouth.

Every cough and gasp he made was like a blunt knife cutting through my heart.

"No." I retorted distressedly.

There is no way I could kill him.No way.

"So why are you so ruthless?" Dazai complained in a coquettish tone.

Dazai's reaction caught me off guard.

There was a smile and a strange brilliance in his eyes, but there was no disgust, no hatred, not even a hint of blame.

This turned my panic into shock and sudden panic.

"Qiu, you idiot."

The brown-haired young man smiled again, his eyes gradually lost sight, and the weight of his body was pressing more and more on me.

Dazai lost consciousness, closed his eyes and fell towards me.

I panicked completely.

"Mr. Dazai...how do you..."

"Quick, it's up there, there's a lot of fighting! Mr. Dazai is under attack!!"

Many footsteps sounded chaotically.

I heard someone approaching, but my mind was still muddled.Therefore, he didn't react at the first time, Dazai's posture of pressing me on top of me, losing consciousness and falling towards me, looked from a distance as if he was pressing me to the ground and kissing me forcefully.

"What are you guys doing???"

The footsteps were getting closer and closer, Kunikida shouted furiously beside him, "Dazai! What are you doing to minors?!"

I was blocked by Dazai's body, and when Kunikida approached, I saw that he was going to kick Dazai's foot.

I was shocked, and all the strength in my body came back.I reached out and hugged Dazai's waist, avoiding the kick with our overlapping bodies.

I yelled, "Don't touch him!!!"

Dazai-san is full of injuries!

——It was all my injuries!

This cry made me cry again.

Kunikida: "???"

He kicked in the air and almost staggered.

Tanizaki who went back and forth: "Where is the attack?!"

The clerk who tipped off the news: "There was a loud noise here just now... Ah, there are bloodstains on the ground!"

Tanizaki: "The source of the blood is..."

Clerk: "The... mouths of the two gentlemen?"

Tanizaki: "..."

Clerk: "..."

Kunikida: "..."

Kunikida's gaze fell behind me, and after noticing Dazai's comatose state at the moment, he looked at me with a dangerous look: "It's you..."

Feeling Kunikida's killing intent, my whole body tensed up.

I have already prepared.The original plan was like this: After attacking Dazai, he was hated and insulted by him, and was regarded as an enemy by the members of the Armed Detective Agency. I fought with them, but I will not kill them, I just cut off my dating with Dazai thoughts...

"It's him!"

A warm body was pressed against my back, and Dazai protruded a furry brown head from my shoulders, reciting in a cadenced tone: "It's him! My suitor can't love me, From love to hatred, and then caused a terrorist attack on me!"

I was taken aback by him along with Kunikida.

I hurriedly supported Dazai with my backhand, and then I noticed that what he said was exactly the reason he made nonsense to Kunikida when we met the day before yesterday.

Kunikida held the notebook with the words "ideal" on the cover, his eyes twitched: "Yes, is that so?"

Dazai: "Cough...you can ask him if you don't believe me?"

Kunikida looked at me.

I thought about it for a while, and I realized that not being able to love, hate because of love, and terrorist attacks really barely make sense.

Me: "...it seems to be the case."

Dazai: "Look, right?"

Kunikida: "..."

Tanizaki: "..."

Clerk: "..."

They were all dumbfounded.

After freezing for a moment, Kunikida took a deep breath and roared: "Boy! Who is pursuing others like this? Ah?? Should I say that I am worthy of being the suitor of Osamu Dazai?? Just love but don't hate because of love Did making such a big noise at the entrance of the detective agency scare the clerks?! Pursuit is not your way of pursuit!!"

Tanizaki smiled wryly and said, "It's really a sharp complaint..."

Kunikida: "Don't interrupt! I'm not done yet! Kid, who is the blood on the ground??!"

"Don't worry about such a small matter." Dazai lay wearily on my back and said softly, "Kunikida-kun, it's a private matter."

Kunikida had nothing to say: "..."

Dazai closed his eyes again: "Qiu, take me home, do you know where... Alas, the snacks in Chinatown are gone. You liar."

How can you say I'm a liar?I lied to him this time.

Yet he was also thinking about the date I lied about.

I said: "...Okay, Mr. Dazai."

The clerk murmured: "Mr. Dazai's love debt is really serious, it can beat him to such an extent that he is almost out of breath."

Tanizaki: "Yes."

Kunikida pushed his glasses, full of resentment: "It's better to kill him."

I looked back at Dazai, he suddenly woke up to save me, then passed out again on my shoulder.

I carefully carried him on my back, and nodded to everyone in the Butei Club: "I'm taking Mr. Dazai home first, and I'm very sorry for causing trouble to everyone."

I do know where Dazai's residence is.

After seeing him a few days ago, I followed him back to his residence once, in a state of "nothingness".

I took out the key to Dazai's residence from the bottom of the shoe cabinet at the door, and opened the door.He helped Dazai lie on the sofa first, and then followed his memory to find the switch to turn on the light in the living room.

For a moment, the cold and dark room was filled with bright light.

"Mr. Dazai, wake up."

I knelt by the sofa and softly called out to the sleepy brown-haired youth.

I trace the contours of his face with my eyes.

Having not seen each other for two years, Dazai's facial features are not much different from two years ago, but after removing the bandages and gauze on his face, his face is more clear and mature than before, exuding a compelling charm.

While I was intoxicated by it, it also attracted more women.

Have they kissed his eyebrows, his cheeks, his lips and teeth?

An unknown fire rose from my heart, my fingers stroked his tall nose with possessiveness, and touched the bruises on his pale skin along the contour of his jaw.

"hiss……"

The fingertips trembled and stopped.

Dazai woke up from my touch.

"I'm back." Dazai murmured.

"Ah."

"Qiu, what are you doing? You haven't hit enough, and you want to add to my injury?"

"...No." I withdrew my hand and turned my head away.

"What are you thinking about?"

"Wondering if other women or men have touched you like this." I said honestly.

I want to know the answer.

"No, you are the first."

Dazai pointed to his lip that was bitten by me.

"Hiss...it hurts."

My face suddenly felt hot.

I stood up abruptly, turned around and wanted to leave: "Mr. Dazai, I will take my leave first."

As soon as the words fell, Dazai said: "Wait a minute!"

My feet were immediately stuck to the floor of Dazai's house.

"...what else?"

"Sigh... In the past, I couldn't drive you away, and I tried my best to stay, but now I don't want to stay by my side for a second."

Dazai's aggrieved voice came from behind.

I:"……"

"Qiu, don't you want to just throw me at home with all my injuries?" The more Dazai said, the more surprised he became, and the more he said, the more he couldn't believe it, "Do you know how hard you hit?"

I know."

"Know and say goodbye?"

"Because I don't want to get in your eyes!"

As soon as I spoke, I realized that my tone was too aggressive. I had never spoken to him like this before.

But what I said was like splashed water, I couldn't take it back, I could only stand there stiffly.

Dazai sighed: "When did I say you were an eyesore? You thought I hated you, and you asked me to drive you away, it was all just your own imagination."

...is it just my imagination?

Dazai's voice weakened, as if the pain was unbearable: "Come help me... take the medicine, cough cough cough..."

Hearing his uncomfortable cough, I immediately turned around, knelt down by the sofa again, and asked anxiously, "Where is your medicine box?"

Dazai told me.

I took out the medicine box.Dazai took off the clothes on his upper body, and I helped him remove the bandages around his body in circles.

His naked upper body gradually appeared in front of my eyes, but there was no charming atmosphere.

This body, which has been wrapped in white bandages all year round, is like a canvas polluted by overturned paint, with scars scattered and horrifying.The fresh scars I caused were over the top, clearly visible.

Even though I had anticipated such a consequence when I took the shot, when I saw it with my own eyes, my heart felt as if I had been stabbed by myself, dripping blood continuously.

"……sorry."

I bowed my head in front of Dazai.

"When you grow up, you should have a temper."

Dazai said with a pale face and a smile.

At this time, he seemed to not care about these injuries at all, and comforted me: "This is how it is, and it doesn't matter if it's a little more."

Dazai grabbed a tissue in distress and handed it to me: "Crybaby, wipe your tears, give me medicine soon."

He did not pursue my offense, but made me feel more pain inside.

With my fingernails stuck in my palm, I said with difficulty: "But you were not like this before. Every molecule in the air around you hates me and tells me to get the hell out of here. These are definitely not things I imagined on my own." Yes."

That's why I thought he'd drive me away as easily as he did.

Dazai was taken aback.

Then he coughed uncomfortably as if choking.

"Cough cough cough cough..."

I quickly filled him with a glass of water and tried to calm down.

I said to Dazai: "We are all at fault for this matter. My fault is that I was too impulsive, acted to extremes, and guessed wrongly about your opinion of me."

Dazai-san didn't hate me, my plan failed.I hurt him, it was my fault, unforgivable fault, and I will never absolve myself.

"However, you did something wrong. You shouldn't use this method to irritate and tempt me. Mr. Dazai, you know my heart very well. The torment in my heart is no less than the wound on your body."

Before I knew that I was the only one who had kissed him, I was almost insanely jealous of Dazai's date, and even had the terrible thought of making them all disappear for a moment, and completely hiding Dazai from seeing others.

Dazai actually let me bump into his date on purpose.

In the past, Aki Takeshita might not be able to bear it, and now he can't bear it even more.

While applying medicine for Dazai, I said to him seriously: "On the other hand, you asked for it yourself."

"Cough, cough, cough, cough..."

Dazai coughed louder.

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ps: Explain the problem of attacking and receiving.

The text of this article is aimed at an unclear perspective, which means that there is no clear attack and subject setting. It has been marked like this since the beginning of the article, and has not been changed.

This is because I didn’t think about who will attack and who will suffer when I wrote it. The characters are set up like this and the plot is like this. There is no special hint of attack and victim in any plot. have the "Unknown" tag).

So there is no need to ask who attacked and who suffered, it depends on Qiu and Dazai, what they like to do in the future, the pure author doesn't know (cough

pps: It's normal for people to have different opinions on the plot, please communicate gently and don't attack others _(:_」∠)_