Two or three things about having a crush on Mr. Dazai

When I went to Hong Kong Hei with a new hairstyle the next day, I could almost hear new rumors in the Hong Kong Hei toilet.

I met Akutagawa on the road, and I greeted him in a good mood: "Morning, Akutagawa."

I found Mr. Dazai, so I won't tell him.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke: "?"

In the same calm tone as always: "Are you fighting?"

Fight your head, you battle mad.I have to find Mr. Dazai after get off work, so I don't have time to fight with you.

I said to Akutagawa: "I see that you haven't changed your hairstyle for a long time, do you want to recommend a hairstylist to you?"

Akutagawa looked at me with a very strange look - the kind of "ghost are you crazy at last" look, and then walked away without saying a word before I lost my temper.

...Forget it, why are you fussing with him, and he doesn't know where Mr. Dazai is.

When reporting on work, Zhong Yuanzhong also stared at me for a long time: "I left work early yesterday to do this?"

"Correct."

"Are you going to leave work early today?"

"Yes, can it be approved?"

Zhong Yuan said inexplicably: "Yes."

He didn't ask further.

This is probably the style of Hong Kong and black, not asking about personal matters.

I hesitated for a while whether to tell Chuya Nakahara that I found Mr. Dazai.

But according to the degree of hatred they had seen each other in the past, and Dazai's status as a gangster in Hong Kong, it is hard to guarantee that Zhong Yuan would run over and kick him to death.

For the sake of Mr. Dazai, I decided to hide this secret.

"By the way, Mr. Nakahara, are you interested in changing your hairstyle?"

Central Plains: "???"

Zhong Yuan: "Is your salary not enough?"

Me: "...No, just asking."

Before I got off work, I was summoned by Mori Ogai to give an assassination mission. The mission time limit was three days and the location was in Tokyo.

As soon as I saw it, I happily decided to postpone the execution until the third day.

Mori Ogai looked at my head and smiled meaningfully, and said, "It's very suitable for Takeshita-kun, very handsome."

"Thank you."

I didn't have the guts to ask him if he wanted to change his hairstyle.After all, the dignified leader of the port mafia always feels that his hair is specially taken care of by a personal hairstylist.

I asked: "Boss, can I transfer my work to the night shift in the future?"

Go to Butei Club to see Mr. Dazai during the day, and go back to work in Hong Kong at night, a perfect arrangement.

Mori Ogai readily agreed without asking why.

Now I even feel pleasing to the task target with a big belly.

When I came to the old building with reddish-brown bricks and tiles again, it was still very early, only three or four in the afternoon.

My destination is the first floor of this building, a cafe called "Spiral".

Ordering a cup of hot milk in an antique beverage shop, listening to classical and melodious piano music and waiting for Mr. Dazai to get off work, I can’t find anything more enjoyable to pass the time than this.

Since it's in the same building, Mr. Dazai must have frequented here as well.

I pushed the door, and the waitress smiled sweetly and said, "Hi, welcome~"

I nodded to her and walked in.

Before I took two steps, I heard a familiar voice from the depths of the shop with my extraordinary ear: "Miss, today you are as beautiful as a spring poem, your small and rosy lips are more beautiful than the stamens of the branches in early spring." It's more beautiful, and it makes my heart beat."

Hearing what the familiar voice said, my blood instantly turned cold.

His tone was so earnest that the young woman giggled: "Mr. Dazai, you are so good at talking...Your appearance is the one to admire, and you are also a young talent of the Armed Detective Agency."

"Really, it's a great honor to be appreciated by a young lady like you!"

A dozen meters away, separated by a decorative wall and a screen, there was a man and a woman talking happily, toasting to each other.

I turned my foot, found a seat by the door and sat down.

The waitress asked, "What would you like? Here is the menu."

I silently locked my eyes on one place, as if I could see through all obstacles and see the young men and women who were having sex inside.

Mr. Dazai's voice sounds very happy.

"Guest? Do you need service?"

I was called several times by the waiter before I realized it.I shook my head silently at her, then realized my palms were clenched into fists and my whole arm was shaking.

The melodious piano music not only failed to soothe my mood, but made me more upset.

Yes, this kind of coffee shop is not only suitable for lonely people to pass the boring time, but also suitable for dating lovers, isn't it?

I took what Dazai said casually yesterday to heart, and came earlier today on purpose so that I could give him a massage.

But he's dating someone else.He forgot about me.

Or in other words, he doesn't care, doesn't need to.

Osamu Dazai, 20 years old, handsome in appearance, outstanding in temperament, knowledgeable and knowledgeable, a high-quality single male.

"Dazai, I don't care how many women you have affairs with." Kunikida Doppo said yesterday.

"Chu, I don't want to have a serious relationship. Is it okay?" Dazai asked me the same way.

And my answer at that time was--

"Well, I see, it's okay."

……Innocent.

I scold myself.

Dazai and the woman's conversation and laughter entered my ears sentence by sentence.

I stopped instinctively just now, but now I can't wait to rush over to see what kind of woman makes Dazai "heartbeat", and then separate them to two different time and space and never meet again.

As soon as this thought appeared, I suppressed it.Mr. Dazai hates my loss of control and irrationality the most. If I disturb him rashly, I will be disgusted by him.

After all, I'm just his suitor, what right do I have to disturb him?

But after thinking about it, it is normal for ordinary people to feel uncomfortable seeing their sweetheart having sex with others, and it is understandable to try their best to interrupt their date.

The reason why I am still sitting here and not rushing over is just out of respect for Dazai and to see how far he will go.

Dazai had a very pleasant conversation with that woman, as if they were soul mates, every detail agrees, and if they go further, they can agree to spend the rest of their lives together.

I sat in the corner of the entrance of the coffee shop sullenly, turned my head to look at the street and the people hurrying by outside the glass window, the fire of jealousy burned my internal organs.

Holding my breath in my chest, I couldn't do anything, and I didn't want to say anything.

what should I do?

"Is Mr. Dazai in there?"

Someone asked at the entrance of the cafe, it was Junichiro Tanizaki from Buteisha.

The waitress who received me just now smiled and said: "Oh, he is dating a lady inside."

Through the reflection of the glass, I saw Tanizaki Junichiro scratching his head and explaining: "Ah, I have a new commission, Mr. Kunikida asked me to call Mr. Dazai back to work, what should I do now..."

"If you don't mind, I can help." The lively waitress volunteered.

"Great... I'm sorry to trouble you, thank you very much!" Tanizaki breathed a sigh of relief.

It can be seen that the members of the detective agency are quite familiar with the staff of this coffee shop.

"Hey, Takeshita-kun? Are you here too?"

Tanizaki sat across from me.

"Yes."

"The words just now..."

"I heard it all."

"Uh……"

Tanizaki gave me a bewildered smile.

I calmly asked, "Is Mr. Dazai like this often? Date a girl here?"

Tanizaki said: "Mr. Dazai and I have not known each other for long, and we have met three or four times. I don't know if it is frequent."

"It's all at this time?"

"A more formal date is after get off work."

I nodded.

My ugly face was reflected in the glass window, and the silver earrings gleamed dazzlingly in the sun.I took off the earrings roughly and held them in my hands.

Then a decision was made.

A decision that could have put me in the same position as before.

"Are you alright?" Tanizaki asked cautiously.

"do not worry."

Dazai's figure appeared in my line of sight, and I called out to him: "Mr. Dazai." The voice was very steady.

"Hi, Cho? It's so early today."

Dazai greeted me with a smile on his face, as if nothing had happened just now.

Dazai greeted me with a smile like this. Four years ago, that was something I would never have imagined.

However, after this dream came true, I found that I was not as happy as I imagined.

"Yes, I'm here waiting for you to get off work."

"What are you doing when I get off work?"

"How about going to Chinatown for snacks?"

"Okay, looking forward~ See you after get off work!"

After Dazai happily agreed, he left the cafe with Tanizaki.

Tanizaki looked back at me worriedly before going out.

My palms were clenched into fists behind my back, and the tremella chain in my hand was deeply embedded in my palm.

He agreed.

In the same tone that he promised the next date with that woman, he agreed to a date with me.

what is this?

What am I?

I was so sad that I asked myself almost desperately.

I sat alone by the glass window, and after a while, I raised my hand to signal to the waitress: "Please have a glass of milk."

When ordering, I invited her to sit across from me, and asked her about Dazai's affairs at the Armed Detective Agency and at this cafe in detail.

She was a little surprised at how carefully I asked, but patiently told me her impression of Dazai.

She said that Mr. Osamu Dazai acted freely and had a eccentric style. Although he had just joined the detective agency not long ago, he left a deep impression on her and her colleagues who worked in the coffee shop.

She said Mr. Dazai was very annoying.The clerks and regulars of the Spiral Cafe are used to seeing Mr. Dazai pissing Mr. Kunikida so angry that his stomach hurts, and then Mr. Kunikida strangling Mr. Dazai's neck and dangling.

She also said Mr. Dazai was popular with women.

"His appearance is so handsome, just a face is enough to be omnipotent! Besides, he is so talkative, when he wants to please someone seriously, no woman can resist - even if he knows that he is a passionate man, There are still many women who are willing to date him. But it seems that Mr. Dazai has never been with any woman officially."

"That's all I know. I don't know much about Mr. Dazai's work in the Armed Detective Agency."

I listened carefully, and finally thanked her: "Thank you."

"You're welcome~" the waitress asked curiously, "Can I ask the handsome guy about your relationship with Mr. Dazai?"

"It's okay to tell you," I said, "I've liked Mr. Dazai for many years."

"oops……"

The waitress showed a mixture of annoyance and sympathy, "That's really... sorry."

Yes, she said sorry.

Even she would feel sorry for this, but Mr. Dazai seemed to take it for granted.

However, how can it be taken for granted?

How could he think that I would happily accept such a thing as if nothing had happened?

After catching him on an intimate date with another woman, continue to gleefully wait for him to go to Chinatown for snacks after get off work?

I can't do it, Dazai-san.

Dazai probably knew that I was cheating on him, and I had no intention of going on a date with him at all, but he definitely couldn't guess what I wanted to do next.

Because such decisions and practices almost violated the most important principles in my past life.

But now I have to.

Facing the apologetic look of the waitress, I smiled calmly and said, "It's okay."

Anyway, I probably won't come here again.I think.

Do something like that to him...

Definitely won't be forgiven.

When I was off work, I took the elevator upstairs and leaned against the wall next to the entrance of the Armed Detective Agency office, watching people I knew and I didn’t know walking past me.

Both Kunikida and Tanizaki greeted me.

Dazai was the last one to come out.

I don't know if it's a coincidence, or he knew I had something to say to him, so he deliberately stayed until the last to go out.Most likely it's the latter.

A handsome young man with brown hair in a long sand-colored coat appeared in my sight humming an unknown tune.

"I've been waiting for Qiu for a long time! Good afternoon!"

"Good afternoon, Mr. Dazai."

I smiled sadly at him and approached him step by step with fists clenched.

"What do you want to do?" Dazai noticed something was wrong and asked.

"Offended."

My movements suddenly accelerated and I punched.

Dazai's expression changed, and after he quickly blocked me a few times, he was punched in the face by me.

I was not willing to hit hard, but finally withdrew my strength.Even so, Dazai coughed a few times while covering his face.

"Qiu...you really surprised me." Dazai let out a smile from between his fingers, coughing and laughing.

"...I'm sorry, Dazai-san."

I clenched my fist tightly, restrained the surging emotions, and continued to tell Mr. Dazai with my actions.

What he does, I don't accept.

Didn't it say "A more formal date is after get off work"?

Didn't you say "I haven't seen Mr. Dazai officially date any woman"?

Didn't you say yesterday, "It's almost time to get off work, come here earlier next time"?

How could Osamu Dazai not know that I would care about every word he said, how could it not be counted, I would come over before get off work, just in time to meet his date.

I know him as he knows me.

Mr. Dazai did it on purpose, he wanted to see how much I could endure, and then test my bottom line step by step.

Since Mr. Dazai intends to test me, I must respond.

I had to tell him that I was different from them.

Standing in front of you is Takeshita Akira, the one who has endured your trampling and ignoring him for many years.

I don't accept that you treat me as a dispensable person, casually agree and then forget;

I don’t accept you dating other women in front of me, and after you go to their appointments, come to mine;

I don't accept that you show mercy to me without showing mercy, and you come and go when you call me.

You can not love me, you can ignore me, you can even hate me, but you can't compare me who has loved you for so many years with those women who met by chance.

I have to tell you, Mr. Dazai.

I don't know what is supporting me to punch, every time I hit Dazai, I say "I'm sorry" in my heart.

I was still holding back my strength before, but when Dazai's counterattack also hit my abdomen, I no longer suppressed my strength, and used the skills honed in countless battles to hit the opponent's slender and soft body from the most tricky angle.

I slapped Akutagawa ruthlessly.

At the age of 15, Nakahara Chuya said, "As long as you want to, you can beat Dazai hard."

This year, I'm almost there, and I finally verified this statement.

Dazai was so beaten that he couldn't move. He lay on his back, his face was pale and painful, and blood was overflowing from his lips.

I locked his hands and feet, half-kneeled on top of him, and bound him with absolute strength.

People who I worshiped as gods in the past are now beaten down to such a field by my own hands.

Desire grows wildly in the chest cavity with love full of pain.Unscrupulously, I bent down and bit the young man's lips and teeth, trembling in the sweet smell of blood——

"I'm sorry, Dazai-san. Allow me to tell you how much I love you."

"It's best not to let me see the way you try to please women."