All the hardships in the entertainment industry

Han Xiuyan returned to the dormitory in a daze and fell on the bed. Can I forget everything that happened today?Just treat it as a nightmare, I have never met a boy named Quan Zhilong, and I have never fallen in love with that boy named Quan Zhilong, just pretend that I am still the proud and confident Han Soo-yeon, okay?

After crying hard for a while, Han Xiuyan fell into a deep sleep not long after, but after falling asleep, her brows were still frowning as if she was having a terrible nightmare.

Han Soo-yeon trains hard with the sisters in the group every day. She learns how to play the image of Sister Han who has nothing to do in front of the sisters, and how to play the image of a well-behaved trainee in front of the room manager and even the directors. As before, I called my mother to ask about my father's situation. Although the answer every time was my mother's helpless sigh, she still smiled optimistically.But Han Soo-yeon knew it was different, she was no longer the Han Soo-yeon who could laugh and cry whenever she wanted to and could face it optimistically even if she had a cold war with her father.

Knowing that she has finally grown up a bit, she is not as naive as she used to be. She loves to cry, laugh, and make trouble; she starts to be steady and learns to be independent. pain!

Han Xiuyan felt that strange feeling of nausea but couldn't vomit again. After rinsing her mouth, she suppressed the nausea effectively, but her chest was still stuffy and uncomfortable.Han Xiuyan looked at her pale face in the mirror and grinned slightly. Be strong, Han Xiuyan, you are the bravest.

Han Soo-yeon and her sisters were practicing the new dance in the classroom, and the nauseating feeling surged up from her chest again, but because there was no feeling of vomiting, everyone didn't see the problem.Immediately after a dance, Han Soo-yeon talked to her sisters and left the classroom to go to the bathroom. In the past few days, she has been going to the toilet like this. Han Soo-yeon felt very embarrassed when she had such a problem, and felt deeply that she had delayed the training of her sisters. sorry.

When Han Xiuyan returned to the classroom, she didn't drink water like the other girls, she just sat on the floor and rested silently.

Lee Soon Kyu saw that Han Soo Yeon didn't drink water all day, looked at her worriedly and asked, "Sister Han, don't you drink water?"

Han Soo-yeon was touched and smiled at Lee Soon-gyu and explained, "No, I don't know why I always go to the toilet recently, so it's better not to drink water."

Huang Meiying immediately said: "Yes, you seem to go to the toilet a lot more frequently recently, and sometimes you have to go to the toilet once in less than half an hour. Do you want to see a doctor? Your health is important."

Kim Tae-yeon and the others also nodded, no matter how slow Han Soo-yeon's behavior of going to the bathroom was, they felt something was wrong, and they all asked Han Soo-yeon to go to the hospital for a check-up, and if there was a real problem, it would be easier to cure.

Han Xiuyan also felt that something was wrong with her, so she nodded and promised to find time to go to the hospital tomorrow.

Only Lee Soon-gyu looked at Han Soo-yeon full of doubts. She had a terrible guess in her heart. She was very unwilling to believe that this was the truth. She even hoped that she was really overwhelmed. I deeply remember that Han Soo-yeon didn't have her period last month, and it's time for this month but she still didn't have her period.

Because Lee Soon Kyu made frequent mistakes and Han Soo Yeon also maintained a new habit of going to the bathroom frequently, the girls decided to go back early to rest.After Li Shungui pulled Han Soo-yeon back to the room where he lived, he closed the door and looked at Han Soo-yeon solemnly.

Han Soo-yeon asked inexplicably, "Sister Shun Kyu, what's wrong with you?"

As a young girl, Shun Kyu felt embarrassed when she asked this question, but she still gritted her teeth and asked, "Tell me honestly, did you go out with your boyfriend that night?"

Han Xiuyan smiled wryly, there was no need to hide that they broke up, so she nodded and said, "Yes."

Lee Soon Kyu didn't know what to say at once, in fact, it's normal for a girl to fall in love, but it's really rare for a girl like Han Soo Yeon to have so many sequelae.She closed her eyes and pondered for a while before opening them and saying, "Do you remember when your last period came?"

Han Soo-yeon looked at Li Shun-kyu inexplicably, and said somewhat incomprehensibly, "I forgot, I never remember this."

Li Shungui gritted his teeth and said, "I'm sure you didn't have your period last month, and you didn't come this month either. Have you prepared any safety measures after that night?" Li Shungui still hoped that his guess was wrong.

Han Xiuyan shook her head, she finally remembered what she forgot that day.Thinking of her inexplicable nausea and embarrassing frequent urination and her long-overdue period, although she was not sure yet, she had already begun to determine in her heart that this guess was likely to be true.

Li Shungui looked at the girl with her head down and did not speak, but she could not bear to comfort her and said: "Maybe I guessed wrong, after all, it is normal for menstruation to be late, isn't it true that some people don't have menstruation for half a year, don't worry, don't scare yourself Own."

Han Xiuyan also pretended to be relaxed and said, "Well, I'm fine, I'll go out to catch my breath."

Seeing Han Soo-yeon leaving the dormitory like this, Li Shun-gyu was in a mess, but she was sure that this matter had a great impact, so she could only bury these thoughts in her heart. It was the first time that she regretted that she indulged Han Soo-yeon and made her leave often Dormitory out.

Han Xiuyan looked at the two red horizontal bars on the pregnancy test paper in her hand, and her face suddenly turned pale. She looked at the pregnancy test paper in despair for a long time and couldn't regain her senses.Her rationality gradually returned, not to mention that she had broken up with that person, even if they hadn't broken up, he wouldn't have wanted this child, and it was impossible for her to have this child.What did I do wrong?Why did she pay so much to love someone so seriously and get such a result?After the first night, she was dumped, and then found out that she was pregnant. Han Xiuyan looked at herself in the mirror wanting to cry without tears. Isn't it miserable enough that she lost her love and her previous innocence?Do you want to lose your kindness and bear the crime of killing your own flesh and blood?

Things have come to this point, no matter how naive she is, she still knows that this child cannot be had, not to mention that the child has no father at birth, but that her parents will not accept her out-of-wedlock child, because she wants to be a celebrity father and has already ignored her. If I told him that I was pregnant again, and that the child would not have a husband without a father, I guess my father would either be mad at me or be beaten to death by my father!

Han Soo-yeon knew that she had no choice. She wanted to debut as a star so that more people would like her. She wanted to prove to her father that even if she was a star, she could be a good girl. a joke.

But she couldn't easily admit defeat, Han Xiuyan resolutely found out her savings, put them in a satchel and left the dormitory.

When she stepped into this clinic, Han Xiuyan's determination slowly disappeared. She obediently followed the doctor's instructions and did every check-up. She listened in a daze to the fact that the doctor confirmed that she was indeed pregnant, because she had already prepared for it. Accepting this diagnosis without any accidents, Han Xiuyan lowered her head and said softly with a little numbness and sorrow: "I don't want this child, what should I do?"

The doctor was not surprised. After all, she saw that the girl was a student. How could she shoulder the responsibility of being a mother when she was still a child? Moreover, the idea of ​​using her as a person who had experienced it also felt that not having this child would be a good ending for everyone.So she also said directly: "I can arrange the operation for you immediately, and everything can be resolved in half an hour. The operation is performed under anesthesia. You will not have any pain to perform this operation in your dream, so you don't have to be afraid." .” The doctor had some pity for the pale girl, so he kindly explained the fact that the operation didn’t hurt at all.

"Will that child hurt?" Han Xiuyan asked suddenly.

The doctor was a little surprised when she heard the patient ask whether the fetus that was about to be strangled was in pain for the first time. She sighed and said, "Now the fetus does not feel pain until it is three months old. So do you think it is necessary to have it today?" Should I have surgery or go home and think about it?"

Han Xiuyan despises her own fake compassion, even after deciding to kill this child, she still worries about whether it will hurt or not. It's really ridiculous. What can hurt more than the pain of being killed by a mother without a father?

"Don't think about it, let's solve it today!" Taking advantage of the fact that it won't hurt so much when she was still young, Han Xiuyan tried her best to hypnotize herself. If he goes now, the pain will be less, so that's it, when you fall asleep as soon as you close your eyes and then wake up As long as I don’t have any troubles, I’m still the beautiful and proud Han Soo-yeon, I can still chase my dreams, and I can still try my best to make myself happy for the boy who abandoned me, and let my father who never understood me see that I have successfully stood in the entertainment industry. The top of the circle becomes a disgrace to his proud daughter instead of the whole family...  

After paying the money and doing a few routine checkups, Han Xiuyan took off her shoes and followed the nurse into the operating room.

"Take off your pants and lie down on it." The nurse said in a calm voice.

Han Soo-yeon trembled in horror when she heard such a cold order, her original firm determination was shaken again, but she thought of her bright future after debut, thought of her father looking at her with disappointment, and thought of the back of Quan Zhilong leaving without hesitation , Thinking of her hard work day and night, she closed her eyes to hold back the feeling of shame and took off her pants-

As if she couldn't see the girl's distress, the nurse added, "Take off your underwear, too."

Finally, when Han Soo-yeon numbly took off her panties and lay on the operating bed with her legs spread, she no longer felt ashamed because of all these embarrassing experiences. or casually became that boy’s so-called girlfriend. Or casually had a relationship with that boy that shouldn’t have happened when he was in a daze; Today's crimes are deserved, the child in my stomach is the most innocent, he (she) will be killed by his cowardly mother without even having a chance to see the world......

Han Soo-yeon watched the nurse approaching her slowly with a syringe...

When the needle of the syringe was about to open the blood vessel in her arm, Han Xiuyan turned over and fell from the bed, crawling and hiding in a corner of the operation in panic.

Under the surprised eyes of the doctors and nurses, Han Xiuyan just squatted in the corner and hugged herself tightly and cried bitterly... She couldn't do it, because her body was always more honest than her heart.

Nurses have to deal with countless girls who need to solve troubles because of mistakes. It is the first time I meet a girl who has paid the money and lay down on the operating table and regrets it. No God.

Han Xiuyan cried for a while and figured it out. She gently touched her belly with her hand, baby, if we can't live together, then mother will walk with you, okay?

She stood up silently and put back the pants she had taken off, then smiled apologetically at the nurse who was staring blankly at her, and said, "I'm sorry, I won't have the operation."

Xiuyan went back to her dormitory, but Lee Soon Kyu hadn't come back yet, they should all still be struggling for their debut in the classroom, but it's a pity that I can no longer stand with them.

Han Xiuyan put all her luggage and clothes into the suitcase, and counted all her belongings. It's really not much, at least it won't last until the child is born!Maybe she should find a job as soon as possible to make money before her belly is obvious, but before that, she needs to find a house to live in, after all, she can no longer debut or become a trainee, and she also has to go to school Applying for leave of absence from school...

Han Soo-yeon first went back to the company and found Chief Cha to tell her about her situation. Chief Cha looked at Han Soo-yeon in shock and asked, "You said you were pregnant and chose to have a child? You gave up your debut? Today is not April Fool's Day, is it?" ?”

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