His sweetheart ABO

When he put down the paintbrush, the sun outside the window had already sunk by half, Lin Yan adjusted the light of the overhead light to make the room look brighter.

The painting of the previous essay has entered the final stage, and it is expected to be finished tomorrow at the latest... After taking a picture with his mobile phone and sending it to the editor, he stood up and stretched, ready to go out and eat something to satisfy his hunger.

Lin Xiyue was sitting in the living room, with fresh gauze on her shoulders. In the blink of an eye, more than a month had passed since the car accident. Alpha's own strong recovery power had already healed most of the wound, and she basically felt no pain... Injured nerves can't recover yet.

The young master is holding his wrist, and is opening and closing his fingers with little effort, doing basic reconstruction work.Perhaps because of the light, his face looked very pale, his beautiful lips were tightly drawn into a line, and a thin line of sweat oozes from the tip of his nose.

The studio where Lin Yan was located was facing the living room. As soon as there was some movement, Alpha raised his head alertly, just in time to meet the lazy figure behind the door.Lin Yan's home clothes were loosely worn, the hem and trouser legs were stained with paint, and the cuffs were rolled up to the elbows, revealing a forearm wet with water.

"Brother, brother..." Lin Xiyue's throat tightened a little: "Good evening."

Lin Yan responded in a nonchalant manner, and after walking two steps, he remembered that the other party went to change his dressing again today, so he asked casually, "How is the situation?"

"Ah... ah, well, it's much better." Lin Xiyue smiled, "The doctor said to be more careful next time, let me move my fingers a little...you see." He held his wrist and handed it to Lin Yan , the slender fingertips trembled a few times, and they clenched into fists loosely.

Perhaps it was because the young man's eyes were too focused, Lin Yan subconsciously felt that the other party seemed to be holding something, raised his hand to rest on the other's arm, and slowly put it down: "...That's good."

Lin Xiyue originally thought that he would hold her hand, but now she is inevitably a little disappointed... Ever since "that incident" happened, Lin Yan's attitude towards him has been as good as ever, but in between, it seems that there is a gap. A transparent membrane, he can still touch him, hug him, pamper him...but still something is missing.

But Lin Xiyue made a mistake due to his previous impatience, so he naturally wouldn't rush forward at this moment, he lightly supported his brother's wet and cool arm and shook it, "Brother... shall we go out and play?"

Lin Yan refused straight away: "I have something to do tomorrow." This is not an excuse to shirk, I have to mount the painting after I finish it tomorrow, and I have to go to the editorial department at the end...

But Lin Xiyue's gaze dimmed significantly, and even the smile on the corner of his mouth almost didn't hold back. He lowered his head in disappointment, and his voice was as thin as a mosquito, but trembling: "Aren't you...will never be like that?" Pet me?"

Lin Yan's body froze for a moment, and then quickly relaxed.

With some hesitation, he put his palm on top of the young man's head, and rubbed it gently, as a comfort.

It was obviously a relatively intimate movement, but he made it a little rusty, as if he was delicately maintaining a certain balance, and he was unwilling to take a step forward.

For a moment, Lin Xiyue wanted to desperately grab that man's hand and tell him her true feelings aloud...it wasn't that pure and it wasn't family affection—he wanted to hug him, kiss him, and possess him, but he didn't want to To be his younger brother, he wants to be his lover...

"Don't think too much," Lin Yan's hoarse voice sounded in his ears, with some helplessness: "The important thing is to recover early."

In fact, it is not true that he has no feelings... He is just afraid of crossing the line again. The young master's dependence on him is a bit ahead of his time. The first time I saw the reversed Alpha, the instinctive intuition told him to stay away... No matter how beautiful a wolf is, it is also a carnivorous beast, not a simple and honest house dog.

From this point of view, it is inevitable that he has some delusions of persecution. It may be because only a few days have passed since that night. Maybe after a long time, he will be able to let go of his grudges.

Thinking of this, Lin Yan let out a sigh of relief, and patted the other person on the shoulder: "Let's eat first... I want to go to the park to sketch in two days, you can come with me."

Lin Xiyue gritted her teeth until her teeth ached, but when she heard this sentence, she let out her breath—he raised his head again, met his brother's complex gaze mixed with a trace of warmth, and nodded forcefully: "En! "

Because of the sickness, the meals at home are relatively bland. Lin Yan tasted nothing in his mouth, so he put down his chopsticks and peeled the fruit aside.Seeing this, Lin Xiyue stretched her neck and leaned over, begging for the fruit like a baby.

Lin Yanshun shoved a piece of orange in his hand, but his fingertips were touched by the other's soft tongue. He frowned, but saw Lin Xiyue swallowed the contents of his mouth without even noticing, so he moved his fingers calmly. Rubbed it on the tablecloth.

It's a pity that this warm dinner didn't last until the end - when Lin Yan peeled the third orange, Chi Zong, who had rushed back from nowhere, rushed in, and the door slammed shut behind him. Make a loud noise.

Lin Xiyue was startled, the spoon fell into the bowl, splashing a few drops of oil.

Lin Yan, on the other hand, was very calm, threw the torn orange peel aside, and just stuffed half of it into his mouth, when he heard a rush of footsteps, he raised his head, looked at Chi Zong who was out of breath, and the other party didn't know Where did he roll back from? His hairstyle was a bit messy, and the thin front hair hung down on his forehead, covering his red eyes.

"Chi Zong, why...you came back suddenly." Lin Xiyue's voice sounded from the side, and it seemed that she was a little surprised: "It just so happens that I was looking for you..."

"I have something to say to you." Chi Zong interrupted him as if he hadn't heard anything, and looked straight at Lin Yan, the fingers hanging by his side nervously grabbed the trousers, and quickly let go: " Can... can you come with me?"

Lin Yan didn't respond, and said coldly, "No, I have nothing to say to you."

Lin Xiyue's eyes swept back and forth between the two of them a few times, and suddenly a bad feeling arose.

This is the first time that Chi Zong ignored him...why?Did you do anything to make him unhappy?Just as he was thinking about it, he saw that the always strong Alpha seemed to tremble, and lowered his head almost humbly.

"I beg you."

As soon as this remark came out, even Lin Yan was surprised for a moment, thinking that he had heard it wrong: "...What did you say?"

"I..." Chi Zong opened his mouth, there were too many things he couldn't express at once, so he choked for a long time before finally finding his voice: "I...please."

After saying those two words, he even felt for a moment that the lights in the hall were too dazzling, showing his embarrassment, his fear, and his uneasiness so clearly, just like the hospital bed back then. Lin Yan, whose self-esteem fell into the mud, couldn't even bend down and reach out to pick it up.

It's retribution, Chi Zong thought in a daze, and even hated that it came too late.

And Lin Yan seemed to have sensed something from the other party's sudden change of attitude, and after a moment of silence, he slowly stood up.

The chair rubbed against the floor and made a sound, Chi Zong raised his head as if waking up from a dream, and saw Lin Yan took a few steps outside, then looked back at himself who was stunned, and said impatiently: "Don't you want to talk? "

Lin Xiyue couldn't control her emotions and yelled, "Brother!"

"Hey, eat your food." Lin Yan ignored him, but Chi Zong finally came back to his senses, and staggered to follow. When going up the stairs, he almost missed his foot, and quickly grabbed the handle so as not to roll down.

Just like that all the way to the rooftop in a daze, Lin Yan leaned against the railing, took out a cigarette from his pocket, covered it with his hand and lit it.

"The time for a cigarette," he said while putting the cigarette holder in his mouth, and looked at the embarrassed Alpha in front of him with calm eyes: "Say something quickly."

When Chi Zong heard this, he panicked, wishing he could rush up and snuff out the spark with his hands...but he couldn't.

He no longer has the right to be willful in front of Lin Yan.

"...Then, after you talked to me that day... I went to find the butler of the Lin family." After struggling to clear up his broken mood, the eldest young master stammered: "I heard him talk a lot. ...A lot of things about your past, just...that I am not good, I...sorry for you. "

... so pale.

It's a meaningless apology... He wanted to do something more, but he didn't know how to do it. In the end, he just shuddered and tried to break Night Breeze's silence: "I was the bastard back then... I , I'm too naive to have brought you such a great harm...If you want, or you hit me, I will never fight back...I...whatever you want...I can give..."

At the end of the speech, he became incoherent, like a camel crushed by a straw, the tall Alpha slowly squatted down, he buried his face in his folded arms, but he couldn't hide his choked voice.

It's so uncomfortable... This kind of irreversible... feeling of powerlessness has never been experienced by the young master who was always ready for wind and rain since he was a child.It's like he can't imagine how Lin Yan has come all the way, how much suffering and hardship he has gone through to become what he admires; just like he will never know the end of losing his freedom, and how precious and rare the words "do whatever you want" are... …

But now that he has only touched the scorching truth a little bit, he has become so uncomfortable... Guilt is like a tightly twisted rope, strangled his neck tightly, and the person who hangs him is indeed his impulsive and naive self .

What should I do?

How can... you forgive me?

The 23-year-old Chi Zong cried like a helpless child who accidentally smashed a precious treasure. He didn't even have the courage to look up at the eyes of the owner, for fear of being stabbed by the indifference and alienation inside.

Lin Yan let out a puff of smoke lightly.

In fact, during his most difficult and depressing period, he also thought maliciously, if one day in the future he knew the truth, would he regret it and cry bitterly?Whenever this time, he can find a little solace from the dark hell, like a stimulant addict, he fantasizes, fantasizes that he can take revenge, he fantasizes that if there is such a day, he will probably sneer Then tell the other party: You deserve it.

Now after several years, when this scene finally happened, Lin Yan no longer had that strong and extreme emotion in his heart. He was like a burnt cigarette, which was bright and hot the moment it was ignited. All the time, I was sacrificing myself to keep the lingering spark... until it was completely reduced to ashes, the spark was also extinguished.

Whether it is love or hate, it all disappears with the wind and time.

After casually pressing out the struggling cigarette butt, watching the last trace of temperature turn into cold black ash, Lin Yan looked at the young man who was still stuck in the past with almost pity, and spoke slowly.

"Do you still remember that you were in the hospital and asked me anything?"

Perhaps it was due to the softness of his voice, but his tone sounded a bit deceptively gentle, Chi Zong raised his red eyes from crying, and stared blankly at the other party.

Behind Lin Yan was the waning moon hanging high, and the cold moonlight fell on his shoulders, vaguely illuminating that face that was similar to his memory.

Suddenly, it seemed that something suddenly broke out of the ground—it was a seed that was missed in the cracks, and finally lifted the heavy mound above the head, and a small sprout emerged.

Chi Zong's consciousness seemed to fly away, only his lips moved unconsciously, uttering a question that even he himself could not understand.

"...why...why are you...so nice to me...?"

"Because I liked you." Almost without hesitation, Lin Yan gave the answer, and when the eldest young master was so shocked that he was about to go out of his body and almost fainted, he added a sentence: "But, I regret."

Chi Zong only felt his eyes go dark - like the night sky suddenly pulled up, the whole sky fell down, wrapping him in an impenetrable way... There is no starlight, no moonlight, only the heartbeat that is about to be overloaded, And the buzzing buzzing in the ear.

Something shattered in his chest, and there was a loud noise that seemed to split his soul. From the bloody gap, he saw many things that he had overlooked before, those ignorant heartbeats, those ambiguous relationships... and that scene The cloud and rain that had entangled him for many years in the dream.

In the dream, Lin Yan's face was flushed, looking at him with eyes stained with water vapor, his chapped lips trembled slightly... He seemed to be asking something, but he didn't get an answer until he passed out.

What did he miss...

Chi Zongqiang stood up on his numb knees, his legs were shaking, his teeth were chattering, and just when he was about to kneel on the ground again, an abrupt voice suddenly sounded behind him.

"elder brother……"

Lin Xiyue stood at the door at some point, and the night breeze from the terrace lifted his fine black hair, revealing a face paler than the moonlight.

"……you like him?"