His sweetheart ABO

Chi Zong is a person who has always written his thoughts on his face, especially when he was young, so that most of the discerning people can see his secret love feelings that he thought he had hidden tightly, let alone his careful thoughts Lin Xiyue.

Lin Xiyue has not differentiated for a long time when he was a teenager. It is a lie to say that he is not anxious, but his education since he was a child has made him never show this anxiety on his face.To the outside world, he is always a handsome piano prince, perfect; but at the same time, because of his relatively gentle personality and beautiful appearance, it seems that "the future will definitely differentiate into Omega" has been determined in advance.Because of this, he was forced to be labeled as a "public lover", with countless suitors, and Chi Zong was just one of the crowd. The reason why Lin Xiyue could remember his name and appearance was purely because of the huge personality behind the other party. Just family.

In contrast, it seems that only the elder brother who doesn't like to talk to him very much, doesn't look at him with such caring eyes that almost look at him. Although he is also an Alpha, he has never been like most Alphas. Inherent arrogance, as if no matter what kind of garbage, as long as you fill in an "A" in gender, you can be unconditionally superior and condescending.

Lin Xiyue just finds it ridiculous. He has seen too many suitors, almost without exception. In contrast, Lin Yan's indifference has become a clear stream. He began to aspire to be an Alpha...to be like his brother. , a strong, rational and calm Alpha, so before splitting up, he doesn't plan to associate with anyone. This excuse for refusing sounds a bit euphemistic, but in fact it doesn't leave any room for it.

As for Chi Zong, his attitude towards him was always good because he didn't want to offend the heirs of the Chi family. Later, when the Lin family fell into trouble, Lin Xiyue alone was not enough to get back the inheritance from the scheming jackals. Hurrying to deliver it to your door, if you don't take advantage of it, it would be too embarrassing.

As for his relationship with Lin Yan, Lin Xi Yueguang subconsciously didn't take him seriously because of his brother's repulsive attitude. Now that he thinks about it, he seems a bit careless... Lin Yan is not an emotional person, I am afraid that there is only one Chi Zong in this world who can make him react so violently.

What happened back then... I am afraid that only the two of them knew each other well. The elder brother has always been forbearing and cautious. If he is forced rashly, he will only be pushed further away; then there is only... Chi Zong a breakthrough.

Lin Xiyue was full of thoughts, and when he looked up again, his eyes were shrewd. He let out a breath, called the housekeeper, and asked softly, "When will your young master come back? Brother is in a bad mood and doesn't want to talk to me... I, I I want to talk to him."

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Chi Zong, who didn't know anything about what happened at home, woke up and evaporated all the alcohol in his mind. At this time, he was facing the mirror and trimming the newly grown stubble.But Lin Yan's words in the parking lot always flashed in his mind over and over again, repeatedly whipping his nerves... Tell him that he should muster up the courage to look back, and look at the things he missed in the past years. The... evaded truth.

When he was thinking about it, his chin suddenly felt a sharp pain, Chi Zong hissed, hurriedly washed off the bloody foam, looked at the freshly left scar on his face, and was speechless for a while.

Finally he found a Band-Aid and scribbled it on, picked up his coat and hurried out the door.

It's easy to talk about the past, but I don't know how to find it... Chi Zong sat in the car, rubbing the wound on his chin through the Band-Aid, the slightly itchy touch seemed to calm him down even more.He inadvertently turned his head to the side, looking at the much mature face in the swaying light and shadow on the car window, and suddenly couldn't remember what he looked like when he was a teenager.

But he remembered Lin Yan's appearance very clearly. Every time he thought he had forgotten it, that figure would "come alive" in his mind... He remembered the way he smiled at himself, remembered his Indulgence and helplessness, I remember his exhaustion and seriousness at work... I also remember that he was in the hospital, the hospital gown made his face as white as paper, a line of tears fell from the red eye sockets, and condensed on the sharpened chin superior.

What Lin Yan explained to himself at the time... about why he concealed his gender, but Chi Zong, who was angry at that time, didn't listen to a single word. Looking back now, it was just intermittent words that didn't form a line, and he was angry. The roar swallowed it up.

If you want to look back now, it will inevitably take a lot of effort.

About half an hour later, the car stopped in front of the prison, and it was noon when Chi Zong got out of the car. The blazing sun forced him to squint his eyes and look at the prison guards approaching him in the distance.

Except for Lin's father who jumped off the building, the other elders were imprisoned to serve their sentences. What Chi Zong is looking for this time is the old housekeeper who has been in the Lin family for almost 30 years.The old man was over half a century old, and after all he paid the price for his actions. When he learned that Chi Zong was going to see him, he was surprised and pleasantly surprised. He even washed his messy white hair with water before visiting the prison to maintain his basic decency.

At this moment, through the glass used for visiting the prison, the old housekeeper carefully observed the gloomy young master in front of him, and said after deliberating, "You are looking for me... for something? Is it...Master Xiyue?"

The Chi family had secretly submitted a marriage contract to the Lin family, but Lin's father temporarily withheld it and included it in the list of marriage candidates... As a result, Lin Xiyue split into an Alpha for the first time, and her jaw dropped in shock, and the matter was over. .

Chi Zong was silent for a moment, and said straight to the point: "I want to know about Lin Yan."

As soon as this remark came out, the old butler thought that he was too old to hear it wrong, and he replied after a while: "Ah...he...he has been away from the Lin family for many years."

"I know." Knocking on the table impatiently, Chi took a deep breath: "I want to know the ins and outs, and why he...why pretend to be Alpha."

The old butler fell silent.

If the Lin family is still alive, then these secrets will be rotted in his stomach forever together with other shady things; but now that the tree has fallen and the monkeys are scattered, there seems to be no reason to hide it...

"It started a long time ago." He said again: "Madam's health has not been very good. After pregnancy, she often hovered on the verge of miscarriage. She finally persisted until the next few months, but she suddenly gave birth prematurely..."

"When Master Xiyue was born, his body was as thin as a kitten. The master lost his beloved wife, and there were brothers and sisters at home who were staring at his position as the head of the family. When he was in a state of desperation, a woman suddenly appeared in Lin's mansion. With a three year old..."

"And that child is Lin Yan."

The old man's voice was a little hoarse, and he spoke slowly, as if he was shaking off the dust from the mound of time, revealing the color of those old memories little by little.

"Lin Yan is... the child bought by the master with money. Because of those somewhat similar eyes, he is naturally crowned as an illegitimate child, that is, Xiyue's elder brother. Since he is the elder brother, he naturally has to take on the responsibility of "protecting" him. Obligation... So from then on, in order to avoid the weak and weak young master Xiyue from the open and dark arrows of the family members, the master announced to the public that Lin Yan is the heir of the Lin family..."

There was a small opening on his lips at some point, and Chi Zong tore off the raised lip skin with his teeth, and when he licked the wound, he tasted a trace of rust-like blood.

He silently listened to Lin Yan's past, Lin Yan's gloomy life before he met him, his childhood full of schoolwork rules, his family's indifference and encouragement so that he could only keep his head down and move forward. He has experienced more than once The kidnapping and assassination, the most serious one even lay in the hospital for several months... Holding his cold fingertips, Chi Zong thought blankly, he didn't even know about it.

He regards Lin Yan as his closest friend, and when he is sad, he vents out his pain. Every time Lin Yan comforts him very calmly, he enjoys the care of that person... but he forgets that the other person is also a human being. There will also be times when you are in a bad mood.

But Lin Yan never said a word to himself, even if his life was treated as a paving stone and melted into cement, paving the way for Lin Xiyue; even if he suffered more than himself, even in the end, he got nothing. less than.

"At the age of 15, that child... Lin Yan split up, and it turned out to be a Beta. The master was very satisfied with this, and immediately asked someone to prepare Alpha hormones, and asked him to inject them every month." Perhaps it was a long-overdue conscience. Noticing that, the old butler lowered his eyes, not daring to look at the angry gaze of the young man on the other side of the glass: "Lin Yan is very obedient...he...he has been very strong since he was a child, and we all know what this kid is thinking."

"...He was thinking: How many years are left before I can be free."

Alpha hormones will bring a huge burden to the human body, not to mention long-term injections... Chi Zong couldn't help but think of that night by the sea, the young man passed out in the back seat due to physical discomfort, but when he drove to the hospital by himself, he stretched out a Hands blocking.

The skin of that hand was so pale that it was almost transparent, and even the protruding blood vessels and veins on the back of the hand were clearly visible; it extended from the shadows to the light, like a dying man calling for help, desperately grabbing a ray of hope .

That's because if he goes to the hospital...his true gender cannot be concealed, he may face permanent "banning" by the Lin family, and he will never be able to walk freely in the sun.

——Freedom, this word doesn't seem to be so important to Chi Zong, it is something he has had since birth, so that he will never understand why Lin Yan desires it so much.

But many years later, he suddenly understood—from the intermittent dictation of that person’s past by the old housekeeper, and from every struggle of Lin Yan in his memory—when he was overwhelmed by work, he was overwhelmed by social interaction. When he was forced to drink until he threw up, when he kept smiling at everyone, when he smoked, when he was silent... when he would rather run home from the stretcher than go to the hospital.

At that time, Chi Zong was ignorant and dull, he would just pat him on the shoulder with a smile, quietly send him a piece of dark chocolate cake to satisfy his hunger in the middle of the night, and then calmly comfort him, telling him not to be so tired.

But now Chi Zong is sitting on a cold chair, a chill spreads from his heels to the top of his head, all the emotions are stuck in his throat, making his nose sore, his eyes hot, and the thing in his chest is so painful that it is about to burst open……

Regret, resignation, anger... and so on, such negative emotions surged like a tsunami, overwhelming him.

Why was it not discovered at that time?

Don't you think of him as a friend?Then why don't you ask him about his past... why don't you ask him why he worked so hard, why he listened impatiently to his own affairs instead of complaining about his troubles.

Because of... prejudice?

Because Lin Yan is an illegitimate child.

Because at that time, I was secretly in love with Lin Xiyue.

He didn't dare to touch Lin Yan's past, for fear of discovering something different from what he imagined, he was afraid that Lin Yan would be the same as Chi Yu - he was tortured by that kid too deeply, the pain of being deprived of care, Angry at being coveted for his position, he turned his unwillingness and resentment towards the family into a knife of prejudice, and then used it to goug out Lin Yan's flesh little by little.

He admires Lin Yan's excellence; but he is afraid that he will take Lin Xiyue's position.

He relies on Lin Yan's strength; yet he keeps a heart-to-heart distance all the time, only asking for it unilaterally.

One after another, the flesh and blood was eaten away to nothing but an empty skeleton—he was always enjoying Lin Yan’s care, but he refused to believe any explanation after the incident. , Conceited and arrogantly sentenced that person to death—he inserted the knife into the throbbing chest surrounded by white bones...

But Lin Yan did not die.

Just lost a heart.