The accident in my life is only you

In the evening, the sky became dark and the scenery in the distance gradually became dark and blurred. After class, I packed my things and went straight to Liu Shu's dormitory, preparing to have dinner with Liu Shu.

I thought to myself, after last night, maybe our relationship has eased, and those extravagant thoughts emerged from the bottom of my mind, bringing a little joy.

When I arrived outside Liu Shu's dormitory, she still hadn't locked the door, the door was closed, and it was still dark inside.

Liu Shu seems to like the dark very much. Every time I come in the evening, no matter whether she is awake or asleep, the lights in the room are turned off most of the time.

I opened the door and looked at the bed. This time she didn't play with her mobile phone, but was covered with a quilt, her upper body was leaning against the head of the bed with her eyes closed, and she seemed to be asleep, but I knew she was not asleep because the mobile phone on the bedside table A sad song is playing.

The deep male voice sang sadly, as if the whole room was filled with the sadness of parting, but at this time this atmosphere did not affect my mood.

I walked straight in and closed the door behind me.

Liu Shu saw me who opened the door and walked in, so she sat up and looked in my direction, "Is get out of class over so early today?"

"Well, have you eaten? If you haven't eaten, let's go out to eat together?" My voice suppressed joy, and I didn't dare to release all my emotions.

Unaware of him, Liu Shu threw off the quilt and sat on the edge of the bed, but didn't stand up, her gaze followed my body.

"I've eaten it, go and eat it yourself." There was an imperceptible taste in Liu Shu's words. I didn't guess what it was.

Instead of turning on the light, I sat next to her, turned to look at her, and said in a calm and gentle voice, "Then do you want to eat some more?"

"No need, go by yourself, I've really eaten." The taste of this sentence is even stronger, which is an obvious sense of alienation.

After Liu Shu finished speaking, he picked up a food bag on the bedside table, took out a piece of thin bread from it, and slowly put it into his mouth, biting it slowly, like a rabbit.

Her quiet appearance in the dark made my heart inexplicably soft and joyful, a little sweetness overflowed from the cracks in my heart, and gradually spread into the bottom of my heart.

After she finished eating the bread in her hand, she turned her head and saw that I was looking at her sluggishly, and laughed out loud, "Why don't you go eat? What are you doing looking at me?"

I didn't answer, but just grinned, but said in my heart: What do you think I'm looking at, I look at your big-tailed wolf pretending to be a rabbit, I hate it, but I also like it.

I gradually smiled, forgetting the sadness and indifference in her words just now.

We didn't talk for a long time, just quietly listening to the end of the song. However, after the end of the song, it started to reincarnate again. It turned out that it had been tuned into a single cycle.

Listening to the melody at the beginning of the song, Liu Shu turned to me and said, "Yingying, I want to tell you something."

I thought of her slight alienation just now, and I felt uneasy.

Every time Liu Shu alienates me, there is only one reason, and then this reason has gone through a circle and finally returned to our eyes again.

Seeing that I didn't answer, Liu Shu said to himself, "A'Ning, I'm coming. I'll be in Jiangcheng tomorrow afternoon."

After a pause, he turned his head back, looked out the window and continued, "Are you going to pick her up?"

The extravagant hopes in my mind fell apart, and someone added a spoonful of vinegar to the sweetness in my heart just now, and it was sour, corroding the apex of my heart.

And the sad love song played on the mobile phone made the sourness more and more intense, almost breaking through the eyelids and turning into tears.

I coughed lightly a few times, hiding the expression on my face, for fear that my voice would suddenly become hoarse and reveal everything in my emotions.

I lowered my voice and refused as gently as possible, "No, I don't have time to pick her up. If you hear from her, let's have dinner together tomorrow night."

Liu Shu didn't really seem to hear the trembling in my voice, just answered the good word softly, and then didn't speak again.

The air slowly condensed and cooled, and there was only the sad song around, singing more and more sadly.

I hurriedly hid my smile and said: "Then you don't go to eat, I will go by myself, I am very hungry now, then I will go."

I stood up, opened the doorknob without looking back, stepped out, closed the door behind my back, quickly went down the stairs, and walked towards the dormitory.

I walked quickly on the side of the road with my bag on my back, like a traveler in a hurry, anxious to do something urgent.

I walked for 5 minutes until I reached the sidewalk on the side of the road under the bridge. Finally, my breathing became short of breath and my calves trembled, and I could no longer walk.

There was no pedestrian under the bridge, and no bus passed by. The street lamp on the top of the bridge shone with warm yellow light, casting a lonely figure under me.

I squatted down, hugged myself, quietly looked at my own shadow, listened to the sound of passing cars on the bridge, and slowly cleared up my mood bit by bit.

After school the next night, I walked on the way to the dormitory with anxiety.

I admit that I refused to see Aning. In front of her, I gradually felt ashamed. I have nothing that can be compared with her. Already in her hand.

What makes me even more repulsive is that every time Liu Shu treats me with extreme indifference in front of Aning, what I have to admit is that Liu Shu has long chosen Aning among us, and I It's just a substitute for when you're bored, and it's useless to struggle.

And Liu Shu's attitude towards me even reminded me of the embarrassment Liu Shu's mother gave me on the phone during the summer vacation of the college entrance examination, and Liu Shu's embarrassing ignorance of me.

What happened that time was like a fishbone, it was stuck in a place I didn't know, and I just moved it occasionally, which made me unable to eat, and the stinging pain was uneasy.

I walked slowly with my head down, organizing the polite words I should say when we meet, and the appropriate calm smile.

I thought about what kind of measure I should use to control every frame of expression on my face without any waves, and maintain my last dignity.

However, I haven't pieced it all together yet, and everything has rushed before my eyes.

Liu Shu and Aning were sitting on the stone bench outside the gate of my dormitory, chatting and laughing, when Aning saw me from a distance, he waved at me, his eyebrows and eyes curved, with a gentle look.

"Yingying, long time no see."

As I expected, Liu Shu next to me did not speak, but turned her head and smiled at me shallowly. There was a cold alienation in that smile, as if we were just ordinary classmates who had met a few times by chance and had no close contact.

I was slightly stunned, but soon returned to smiling, and quickly suppressed the panic and rejection in my eyes, and walked towards them with a smile on my face.

"Why is it here so soon? I thought it would be a little later."

They stood up and stood in front of me, Aning smiled softly: "Aren't you afraid that you will go to find us later? So we simply came here first."

My brows and eyes were slightly curved, showing amiability, "Have you waited long? It's so cold outside."

"I didn't wait long, and the position is not very cold." Ah Ning still spoke softly, and couldn't find any flaws.

She never seems to have great mood swings because of anything. She is gentle and eager to everyone she knows. In my memory, she has always been like this and has never changed.

The corners of my mouth were drawn into a big arc, and I smiled happily, "Then you all know how to love me, then wait for me, I will take the book in and it will come out soon."

After I finished speaking, without waiting for their response behind me, I walked straight into the gate and quickly disappeared in front of their eyes.

The smile just now made the corners of my mouth a little sore, I want to put down the corners of my mouth as soon as possible to calm down.

Sudden camouflage is not something I'm good at, not to mention that it's not dark at this time, and I stand in front of them and continue talking, everything in my eyes will soon be exposed.

I continued to make up the calm smile I had just had on the road, and then put the book in my arms on the bed in the dormitory, and looked in the mirror on the table. In the mirror, I was panting slightly, with a bit of vicissitudes of life on my face. .

Looking at yourself in the mirror, there was a wry smile on the corner of your mouth, with your current appearance that is out of control, what face do you have to stand in front of the gentle and calm Aning.

I already have mixed feelings in my heart. Facing them this time, I am really facing the two of them alone.

All the subtle changes on my face when I face them will be seen by Aning, and there is no way to hide it with Fa Xiao or other people's words.

It was different from the situation she faced during the summer vacation of the college entrance examination, because at that time, all the admiration was hidden under the mist, without breaking through, she never said that she liked Liu Shu, and Liu Shu didn't tell me that she fell in love with Ah Ning, and I didn't do anything to show that I love Liu Shu.

And after a year, everything has been revealed without a doubt.

From the beginning to the end, what I wanted to cover up in front of her was just my own initial lie, concealing the fact that I have always loved Liu Shu deeply.

And this fact has turned into embarrassing evidence for me. Now we just haven't revealed it yet, trying our best to maintain the superficial peace and not embarrass Liu Shu.

But maybe Aning doesn't believe that I don't like Liu Shu at all. After all, I took the initiative to go to Yucheng, and I have already expressed that I am not indifferent to Liu Shu's dedication, and my current cover-up is just to maintain the appearance of the three of them. the peace of mind.

I sorted it out, let go of the entanglements and discomforts in my heart, put on my bag, twitched the corners of my mouth to make myself look happier, and walked towards the door of the dormitory.

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