The accident in my life is only you

The author has something to say: the text of the first volume is over, the following is Liu Shu's self-report, which is a supplement to the content of the first volume.

Actually, I didn't want to run away from home that day, but I was just angry with my mother.

Before he came out, he had already quarreled with her, but he just wanted to go home after a while.

I leaned against the railing by the sea, listened to the sound of the waves with my eyes closed, and imagined that Lin Ying was standing beside me.

I heard a footstep coming towards me from a distance, and I felt a little expectation in my heart.

I slowly opened my eyes, looking forward to nothing, and my heart was empty.

It turned out to be Chen Jing. I think Lin Ying must have told Chen Jing that she must have known about this time again.

I smiled wryly to myself, I can't wait for everything, but I still can't help but wait.

When I got home, Chen Jing should tell my mother what happened. She walked in with a sullen face, and I looked at her blankly.

She said in a vicious tone: "You are very courageous. You don't go home all night, and you are not afraid of your mother worrying. I say so much, but you don't listen to a word. Who do you listen to? Is it the person named Lin Ying in the school? "

My heart tightened suddenly, "What's the matter with Yingying, why are you teasing her?"

"I really want to know what kind of person this is, who made you so obedient, told you to go home, and you went home, and she knew where you were when she couldn't find you."

"I don't care about her business. She didn't tell me not to go home. What are you doing with her?"

I felt a little flustered in my heart. I was afraid that if my mother really went to school to find Lin Ying, then Lin Ying would never talk to me again.

My original tough attitude softened, and I agreed to whatever my mother said.

Persist in studying hard, take exams well, and go to university well. These are what I promised Lin Ying in the first place.

There was a power outage in the evening self-study. I sat next to her and felt her struggle, but I just didn't let go.

Anyway, in the dark, she couldn't see my expression clearly.

I held onto her fingers tightly, which were slightly colder than the temperature of my palm.

I murmured her name with a trace of nostalgia.

But she didn't seem to notice it, she responded when I called out, I stared at her side face obsessively, trying to take her into my heart.

Only in the dark can I keep looking at her and calling her like this, no matter what expression I make, she can't see it.

I took care of all this carefully, and wanted her to slowly understand my intentions and slowly come together with me.

I searched for the candy paper that Lin Ying gave me all afternoon before I found it.

When I found it, it had been trampled flat, and I opened it carefully, for fear of tearing the homework paper inside.

Fortunately, it was not damaged, and there were a few words written inside, just like the last poem.

I still didn't understand what it meant. I looked at her expectantly, hoping that she would explain some of her attachment to me.

But her face only changed slightly, neither joy nor excitement.

I'm a little lost, I know she won't respond, but I just feel lost for no reason.

At the door of the laboratory, I didn't notice that the person was Lin Ying at first.

I didn't realize until we passed each other, but maybe Lin Ying didn't really want to see me, so she kept her head down.

I looked back at the back of her walking slowly, and wanted to call out to her, but in the end I didn't call out.

I looked at her back and panicked in vain, as if she was going to leave me soon and I couldn't hold her anymore.

But if I stop her now and affect her mood of the exam, and then affect her grades, then how will I face her, saying I'm sorry seems not enough.

Besides, Chen Jing was still walking ahead, and Zhou Qin was following behind.

But they didn't realize that the person with lowered head in front was Lin Ying, so I had no choice but to turn around and walk away.

But the uneasiness in my heart was getting deeper and deeper, and everything seemed to be predicted, which caught me off guard.

The saddest thing for me this semester was getting to know Lin Xining, the person Lin Ying called Aning.

Only then did I know why she always looked at me in a daze when I first met Lin Ying.

Sometimes I also look at my side face, because I look like Lin Xining.

When Lin Ying mentioned her, her eyes lit up.

I don't know what kind of feelings Lin Ying has for her, but I seem to see a stronger opponent than Yang Han, she is a near-perfect existence.

In Lin Ying's description, she has good grades, good temper, and even taller than me.

Although she is not in No. [-] Middle School, her presence makes me feel threatened.

I know that Lin Ying's feelings for them are just good friends, and it is the same for me.

But in my heart, Lin Ying is not only my good friend, I have some extravagant expectations for her than a good friend.

Even if we are good friends, I still want to be the most important one.

This idea lingered in my heart for a long time before the gloom dissipated a lot.

I know, maybe I should be thankful that I look like Lin Xining, not someone else.

If it was someone else, then Lin Ying would not stand by my side.

A person with such a shallow personality like her may not become a good friend with me, let alone tolerate all kinds of persecution from me.

And I can only be her classmate, looking at her from afar, without any warmth from her.

Later, when I met Lin Xining, I realized that she really resembles me.

Especially the side faces, even I think they are very similar, but in Lin Ying's heart, the two people who are so similar are treated very differently.

The first time I saw her, I knew that if she was my opponent, then I might not be able to beat her in my life.

She looks more handsome than me, and her voice is soft, she must be what Lin Ying likes.

The first thing she said was: You are Liu Shu, I have known you for a long time, and I am Lin Xining.

There was no provocation or threat in the words, and even I thought he was very kind and easy-going. How could Lin Ying not like such a person.

But I am not like this, I feel ashamed in front of her.

Facing Lin Xining, something poked a hole in my heart, and I lost all hope.

On the last day of the term, I took her up the mountain, which was my long-awaited plan.

It was also my premeditated plan. I deliberately tricked her into going online, but in fact I had already packed the fireworks in my schoolbag for her to watch.

I had told Chen Jing in advance to let her and Zhou Qin go up earlier, and I deliberately led her slowly behind, and finally dragged her to the small open space next to me.

Sure enough, Lin Ying didn't realize my premeditation, and she was dragged away by me foolishly. I told her to go here and she would go here, and she would go there if I told her to go.

Maybe it was dark, and she was a little scared, but she followed me closely, and was finally brought to this small open space by me.

I held the fireworks more than two meters in front of her, laid them out in a row, and finally ignited them.

I looked at Lin Ying who was slightly surprised and absent-minded under the fireworks, but I couldn't say a single word that I had thought in my heart.

In fact, I didn't want to tell her that I like her, I know, this will scare her, maybe, we can't even be friends.

But I want to remind her first, let her know that she is really important in my heart, even more important than a good friend.

Time flies, and the third year of high school is here. On the second day of school, I went to the class to find her. I missed her so much.

One or two months of summer vacation is too long, I really want to hold her in my arms, but I dare not, I don't have the courage, not to mention the occasion is not suitable.

This time I begged her to go out with me after school, but I just wanted to be alone with her for a while.

I took her all the way to the beach, through the secret base, through the pier, through the artificial gravel road, and finally picked a seat to sit down.

I sat side by side with her, watching her with her eyes slightly closed, with a leisurely look, which is what I like in my heart.

While she wasn't paying attention, I lightly placed my head on her shoulder, and her shoulder instantly became a little stiff.

I pretended not to notice, and still leaned quietly, I felt her temperature slowly coming into my heart, warming my heart.

"Yingying, please sing me a song." I actually wanted to say, I really miss your voice, I miss you so much.

"No." She refused me directly.

"Then how about I sing a song for you." I thought in my heart: Then let me sing my missing to you, it's good for you to listen to, although it's not good.

"I don't want it." She rejected me again.

But these refusals are useless. I will definitely sing this song today. I have suppressed it for too long. I want to sing it to you, and I also want to sing it to myself.

In the end, Lin Ying still sang the song slowly to my tune, the song we had learned together.

And I never thought that after this time, everything would change drastically.