I debuted on a talent show with my ex-boyfriend

That night passed too long. After explaining the situation to the program supervisor, they were allowed to return to the training camp the next day.The third round of elimination was about to begin, but the three people waiting in the hospital didn't have much sense of reality. After their relatives, agents, and company representatives arrived at the scene, they had a lot of free time, so they were especially at a loss. .

Baitao was also there, and briefly accompanied Kan Junhuan's mother for a while, Jin Yu took over the late-night shift, so Baitao went to the corner of the waiting room and sat next to Leshi.

Although her eyes were red and swollen, and her voice was depressed, she did not shed tears in the clean room.Just like many people, she sat silently, blankly turned on her phone, and turned off the screen in a hurry.

At four or five o'clock, the rain was pattering outside the window again, the sound was moderate, icy and cold.

Le Shi rubbed his browbones, Yu Fei sat beside him, his palm unconsciously cupped the back of Le Shi's hand, and his thumb gently rubbed against his joints, like a silent consolation.

Baitao brushed her unkempt hair with her fingers, turned on the phone, messages piled up, rumors spread on Weibo, HP posted a statement about being rescued 15 minutes ago, and the number of retweets has exceeded [-].

All plans were disrupted. Passers-by speculated about the reason for Kan Junhuan's suicide. Fans were still praying and complaining. Outsiders sighed, but also scolded him for not cherishing life and not living up to life.

The activities of all members of HopE stopped. Just after the sky was brightened, people in twos and threes came to say hello to Yu Fei, Tang Zhiyang, and Kan Junhuan’s family members. Li is so ordinary, with no makeup, no stage beauty, under the fluorescent light, their faces are yellow, their eye circles are black and blue, they look tired and silent.

Seeing Tang Zhiyang, they were a little surprised, but they shook their heads and sighed as expected.

The lead dancer in the team, who had a better relationship with Tang Zhiyang, sat beside him for a while, and said, "It's been so long, you still don't seem to have changed much." Tang Zhiyang turned his head to look at him, he pinched his nose, took a deep breath, Said: "No one thought that he would do this, even I can only pray, but who can fully understand what happened to a person. I just watched it happen, I can't do anything, I can't do anything. Can't help him."

He touched his eyes instead, with a trembling voice: "I'm not even as strong as him. The company is too, and so are many people. It's too unfair to him."

Tang Zhiyang stared at him, then lowered his eyes silently.After a while, he stood up, his back was sore from waiting for a long time, and his knees were unaccustomed to weakness. He left as if fleeing, and smoked a cigarette in the smoking area at the bottom of the building.The hat of the sweater covered his eyes, and he hid in the gloom before dawn, with only faint golden-orange sparks jumping in front of his eyes along with the fuzzy smoke.He wasn't addicted to cigarettes, but the smell of smoke calmed him down.

Tang Zhizhi sent him dozens of messages in the middle of the night, asking him how Kan Junhuan was doing, and which hospital she was in, but she was at school and couldn't do anything.Tang Zhiyang looked at his own reply and said that everything was fine and let her go to class well.The words that comfort others are also comforting myself-it must be safe.

He pressed the cigarette to the ground, and only smoked for a short time. The spark of the cigarette butt flickered and went out.

Just before dawn, the doctor came and called Kan Junhuan's parents away, and everyone in the room stood up abruptly.

Not long after, the middle-aged couple came back supporting each other, and whispered to Jin Yu, "I've been rescued, I've been rescued. Sigh... It means that people will not recover half an hour later, and the current situation needs to be observed." Go to Tang Zhiyang again, hold his hand and thank him.

Baitao rubbed the corners of her eyes, trying to hold back her crying.

After a while, Jin Yu came to them. Her makeup hadn't been removed, her foundation had almost fallen off, and the bright color of her lipstick had been wiped clean when she arrived, showing a shocking mottled appearance.

Jin Yu's tone was sharp and crisp: "Is there an important filming in the afternoon? You all stayed here very late, go back first, I've already called the driver, and it's downstairs." She looked at Leshi With Yu Fei's expression on his face, he softly said a witty remark: "Everyone has a bitter face, fans don't want to see you like this." She paused, and smiled slightly, "Work is work after all. It is related to the future and the future, even if you are crying in your heart at the moment, you have to smile in front of the camera and walk on."

"Okay, just smile. If there is anything, I will inform you as soon as possible." Jin Yu patted Yu Fei on the shoulder, and Yu Fei looked up at her, showing a reluctant smile that was not very good-looking. Patting Yu Fei's cheek with the back of his hand, he said encouragingly: "The stage is great. Good luck to you."

When Leshi was on the car leaving the hospital, he saw the message Baitao sent him. Baitao said: I think you can live a good life now, and doing what you like is enough.This round of elimination, no matter what the result is, must be good.When you go back, remember to eat well and sleep well. You are usually very tired, so just support yourself for a while.I'm always there.

Leshi replied with a good word.

Tang Zhiyang didn't go back with them, and still stayed in the waiting room filled with the cold smell of disinfectant. Maybe he wouldn't leave until the last moment.

There was no one in the dormitory, so luckily and Ren Fengfeng had gone somewhere, last night they seemed to be chatting excitedly and joyfully, but now they are tired in their hearts, and it is inevitable that there is an unreal feeling of great joy and sorrow, and things are different.

There was no one in Yu Fei's dormitory, they seemed to have missed a certain group activity of the trainees, took a hasty shower in the dormitory, and sat on the edge of the bed alone for a while, Yu Fei felt out of breath.

He gradually realized the cruelty of reality, and at the same time felt deep self-blame and anxiety, and the heavy negative emotions were pressing on his chest intensified this morning.

Yu Fei tried to take a deep breath to calm down, but found that the drum in his heart was still beating non-stop, pushing upward along the heartbeat, almost stimulating an unstoppable vomit.Really not knowing what to do, he knocked on the door of Leshi's dormitory.

He didn't rest when he was playing, he was wearing short-sleeved shorts, and just came out of the bathroom, the tips of his hair were dripping water.

When he saw Yu Fei, his eyes flickered with uneasiness and panic, and Yu Fei knew immediately that the other party was just like him, because of all these uneasy things, Yu Fei didn't say anything, turned around and closed the door, lifted the music When the towel was around his neck, he silently wiped his hair.

After a while, Le Shi raised his hand and grabbed Yu Fei's wrist, and said softly, "Your hand is shaking."

Yu Fei subconsciously wanted to continue the wiping action, but Le Shi's hand was firmly locked, and Yu Fei looked at him blankly.

Leshi didn't speak, let go of his hand, touched Yu Fei's cheek with wet palm, Yu Fei blinked, sighed heavily, lowered his head, touched Leshi's brow with his lips, and said in a hoarse voice: "Because I'm here Afraid. Senior made such a choice. I think it was my fault. I couldn’t find out, and I couldn’t stop it. Obviously during that time, he and I often discussed music and future things together, but I never noticed Those clues."

Le Shi was silent for a while, leaning close to his body, with his arms through Yu Fei's back, he put his chin on Yu Fei's shoulder, and gave him an unreserved hug.

Yu Fei accepted it, he closed his eyes, put his cold nose on the side of Leshi's neck, and sighed in a deep voice: "It's not the first time I feel it, as an idol, this is a lonely and sad road ah."

I used to think that it was something I liked, even if it was difficult, the hard work was also rewarding, but the pain in reality always seemed to be far greater than the so-called love, and everything was killing the once passionate feelings. I have already been in the quagmire, unable to escape.The end result may be the destruction of soul and body.

The two talked in a low voice, and finally curled up on the same bed and hugged gently.

Yu Fei talked a lot, as if trying to resolve his uneasiness.He said that Kan Junhuan was actually very strong, and that external forces could not defeat him, but when the indestructible senior said that he could no longer sing, Yu Fei understood that that person had been blaming himself all the time, but at that time No one found that his heart disease was already serious.

The only thing that can take the life of a lead singer is the music itself.

"I'm afraid that one day I will become like this." Yu Fei said, he felt the butterfly bones on his back were fastened, and when Yu Fei touched the back of Le's head, his fingers were stuck in the soft hair, and he stroked it slowly , "Take a good rest, when you wake up, everything will be fine." It's like comforting the other party, and it's like comforting yourself.

Leshi put her head into his arms, Yu Fei took out her phone and set an alarm.As if to divert attention, his hand touched Leshi's back from the back of his head and said, "You seem to be more clingy to me than before. Others say you are a kitten, but are you really like a cat?"

Le Shi replied sullenly: "Others say you look like a puppy, do you really think you are a dog?" He was quiet for a while and asked, "You don't like me like this?"

Yu Fei rubbed his buttocks lightly, took a bite on the cartilage at the tip of his ear, and replied with moist and hoarse heat: "No. I love you very much."

Le Shi didn't answer, he hooked his leg and put it on Yu Fei's lap.

Yu Fei raised the corner of his mouth slightly, lowered his head and kissed him a short and restless kiss, Yu Fei gently and seriously sucked Le Shi's lips, dry, warm, with the smell of chapped blood.Le Shi licked the corner of his mouth, his moist eyes looked at Yu Fei momentarily, and the two separated.

They were silent for a while, but it was Yu Fei who fell asleep in a daze, with one hand on Le Shi's pillow and the other on his tailbone, the palm of his hand was hot.

He was still awake when he was happy—the floor-to-ceiling windows, the sunset, and the red-hot charcoal basin had become unforgettable scenes in his life. He had no time to recall the upheaval at the beginning of the rush, but now he felt terrified. When he closed his eyes, this nightmarish horror The picture came to my mind, the sunset of the city is too beautiful to behold, but it is a desperate scene at the end of life.

When Le Shi looked up at Yu Fei's sleeping face again, he seemed uneasy, his brows were tightly knit, and he groaned muffledly from time to time.

Le Shi stared at it for a long time, then carefully stretched out his hand to smooth out the wrinkled marks, fingers from the center of his brows, to the tip of his nose, and then to his cheeks, there was slight sweat on his temples, and the blood vessels in his neck thumped slightly.Le Shi looked at it for a while, and felt his eye sockets were hot. For some reason, the emotion lingering in his heart at this moment was particularly sad and suffocating.

In the midst of extreme restlessness, their sleep was light.It wasn't the regular alarm clock that woke them up, but the lucky phone call.

Le Shi had just fallen asleep, and was still dazed and dazed. He broke away from Yu Fei's hug and swiped at the phone on the bedside. I checked the time and found that it was only early nine o'clock, and he had slept for less than four or ten minutes.

Yu Fei snorted twice behind him, grabbed his waist, and pressed his forehead against Le Shi's vest, Le Shi lowered his voice and asked hoarsely, "What's wrong?"

"Lele!" Wan Xing yelled first, then dragged a bit to the end and made a small voice. He coughed and laughed, lowered his voice, and said slyly: "Just a notice to tell you, the third round this afternoon The recording of the elimination has been temporarily postponed."

Le Shi woke up suddenly and asked, "What happened?"

Fortunately, the other end stopped for a long time, and during the music, I could hear the reporter's questions in the background and the messy answers.

Lucky replied: "I said everything I wanted to say. Too many things happened in the past two days. After you liked that Weibo, not only Su Qiao's family, but many other families discovered this system loophole , Under the pressure of public opinion, NBS held a press conference this morning. What happened to Senior HP also made me very emotional, as did what happened to Fengfeng, I don’t think I can go on like this.”

"you--"

Fortunately, it was easy, and there seemed to be a smile in the words: "I just said all those things. The company's decision, the ranking behind it, etc., I recorded a vlog and posted it with my D station account. I feel sorry for the company, and I'm sorry for Sister Taotao, maybe after this incident comes out, I won't be able to make it to the next round of rankings. However, seeing them turn their backs on their backs now, I still feel a sense of accomplishment."

Le Shi was speechless, thinking that what he and Yu Fei created was just a big explosion, and the aftermath of chaos not only did not disappear, but also triggered a series of chain reactions. —they are fighting, even knowing it is hopeless.

Fortunately, halfway through the conversation, the subject changed: "Hey, our boss is calling, so I'll hang up first."

"In any case, I have been with you this summer, and I feel very happy, very happy, and now I am relieved, everything is fine."

Before Le Shi had time to say anything, the other end had already hung up.The busy tone rang hollowly, but the words still reached my ears.

Leshi thought for a long time, but a few more messages popped up on the phone, Baitao said that the situation has stabilized, the person was rescued, and still needs to be observed.In the unified notification group of the program group, PD said that the filming time of this elimination has been postponed, the specific date is uncertain, and the reason is not explained.

Le Shi forwarded the news to Tang Zhiyang, but the other party did not reply immediately.

Station D pushed Lucky's Vlog for him, titled "What did I experience when I participated in the talent show?" "

Weibo has become chaotic, the live broadcast suspension and voting system BUG topics are at the forefront, and the hot topics are Kan Junhuan who is out of danger, whether HP will be a human being, life and death in the entertainment industry in just a few hours Inside, I have seen all the comings and goings.

Leshi didn't care to read those replies and private messages that were insulting or questioning, Yu Fei also woke up, put his chin on Leshi's shoulder, and looked at the content on his phone.

Le Shi also knew that he was watching, and said lightly: "The price of saying these words may be very heavy. Haven't we thought about these consequences?"

"This sentence was asked by many people when I left the group." Yu Fei smiled, his body was very hot, with a certain kind of laziness when he first woke up, and his hand was unconsciously on Le Shi's waist Mo Shu, with gentle ambiguity, but the words are true and joking: "Why are you so abrupt and aggressive, why are you so reckless, you have the opportunity that many people dream of, but you still give it up with your own hands. I already remember these words by heart I believe that some people will comment on you like this. When you see the shady scene, you will see it. If you are trapped in your fate, you should accept your fate. If you know it, you should hide it in your heart. The power of one person cannot change the status quo of countless people. The debut is reserved for silent and sensible people. Yes. Why do you still say it? Why did you say it?" Yu Fei sighed, and his lips gently rubbed against Le Shi's neck, "Why is it you?"

Le Shi held his hand.

"Because I'm not reconciled." Leshi replied.

"I am not willing to be manipulated by the so-called fate again and again. I have already traveled once, will I experience the second time here in silence? Will there be a third or fourth time in the future. We have worked hard What is the purpose of practicing? What do we want to achieve in the end, what is our dream? Whether it is resignation to fate or childishness, even if it is not understood, at this moment, I do not regret that I made such a decision."

"After experiencing these things in the past two days, I suddenly am not so afraid." Le Shi left Yu Fei's embrace, sat up, and looked at him with lowered eyes, "As Sister Taozi said, as long as you can live well, It's enough to be able to do what you like." Le Shi lowered his eyes, and his eyes fell gently on Fei's body, like the cold drizzle falling softly.

"It's enough to have you still by my side."

The author says:

Long wait!It's cold, remember to eat well and dress warmly so you don't catch a cold like me _(:зゝ∠)_Thank you for watching, there are also small gifts and comments, love you all!