I debuted on a talent show with my ex-boyfriend

He knew very well that he was ill.

Kan Junhuan put down his cell phone and opened the bedroom door. The room was very hot and the smoke did not dissipate, but the medicine took effect quickly.

He walked to the French window of the bedroom, opened the dark blackout curtains, and the fine dust fell down like a golden drizzle.

Not too strong light shone into his eyes, and he subconsciously narrowed his eyes.

There is a gorgeous sunset in front of me, and the whole sky is a yellowish orange crimson. The city landscape is like an old photo with mottled mottled patterns, which has a kind of outdated sentimentality.

He sat on the floor leaning against the foot of the bed, hugged his knees, and watched the sun move slowly, from the top of the tall building, into the deep sea of ​​black buildings.

The eyes are like lenses that failed to focus, clear for a short time, blurred for a long time, a ray of sunlight fell into his pupils, reflecting a circle of bright amber spots.

Physiological drowsiness and sleepiness are as overwhelming as the sunset, and the twilight is accompanied by consciousness, slowly sinking.

Kan Junhuan silently counted one thing after another in his heart, like a fareweller saying goodbye to his family.

This day should have come earlier, but he always had trouble making up his mind, and he always had various excuses, so he postponed it day after day. Obviously he is the person who hates procrastination the most, but he is the most hesitant about his own life.

Kan Junhuan's eyes staring at the setting sun moved lightly, with heavy eyelids, the power was full of sincerity, and told him gently and heavily, close your eyes, fall into a deep sleep, and finally be able to rest.

The world spread out in front of him, bright, bright, and full of sunshine.

Today is fine, the weather is fine and the mood is very relaxed.

The members of the troupe finally have their own development, the variety shows are well filmed, the musicals have a good reputation, even the youngest child has the chance to solo, the annoying company is also relieved, the world tour is postponed, let The members do something that interests them; Liu Guangnian is finally about to make his debut, and Zhang Lan has become the captain before the battle. I like to act recklessly, and I will become better because of this bravery in the future; when I often accompany Yu Fei's music, his stage is the best in this competition. The audience must have suffered a lot, they are all worthy of a debut; his big sister Jin Yu is finally going to release a song after two full years of vacancy, she is the girl who loves singing the most; Breathe a sigh of relief, the next artist to cooperate with should not be as unreasonable and moody as himself, he should have time to spend with his family.

Kan Junhuan's fingers moved, and memories circulated and reciprocated in many people.

He seemed to be on a long road, casting curious eyes on their lives.

Those teenagers who cried and laughed when they met for the first time finally won the first place on the stage. They were astonished, cheered, and shed tears, then turned their heads, looked at him with a smile, and said to him: "Captain, you worked hard!" gone."

His agent carefully pulled the tie of the suit, smiled shyly, and said to him, "It's the first time we met, I'm not very familiar with all aspects of work, but I will do my best in my future career. , we help each other and give advice.”

Jin Yu still has rustic curly hair, but she already has the rudimentary form of a great beauty who will dominate the world in the future. She rolled up her sleeves and made a heroic posture on her hips. She is still young, and every word and every expression is still bright Feiyang, she was so insolent, she laughed and said, "From now on, my sister will lead you to pursue your dreams in the entertainment industry! Follow me, we are Top 1!"

In his memory, the people around him are always the best, they are either cheerful and talkative, or flamboyant.Young and shy, with infinite longing for the future, he believes wholeheartedly that even if there are many thorns, he can still drag out his own path with a pair of bloody legs.

So confident and so strong, everyone is like a shining diamond in his eyes, like a burning fire.

He was still walking forward, and he saw his parents, their faces were full of pride and pride, and they were clapping gently, as if encouraging him to move on.

Kan Junhuan seems to be walking on the clouds, with the brilliant sunset under his feet, there is a white door at the end of the road, he left those people who conveyed the warm light, and was alone——

It's ok today, you can go.

A voice sounded in his heart, telling him gently, go over, open the door, step on the threshold and leave, and you can really rest.

Kan Junhuan lowered his eyes and smiled vaguely.He no longer missed the youthful scenery behind him, and walked towards the white door step by step.

The scenery of the world is so gorgeous and beautiful, and the belief in life is so firm and unyielding.But it has nothing to do with him.

Kan Junhuan just felt tired and sleepy, as if he had written songs for too long, stayed up too long at night, and needed to close his eyes and rest.

The world will not lose its brilliance because of his silence, it will still be as beautiful as before, bright and moving.And those vivid and eye-catching people will definitely walk down with a smile forever, and will soon forget his existence.

Thinking of this place, he sighed softly, closed his eyes with relief, and opened the door in the long dream scene.

When the woman was about to leave with the purple lisianthus bouquet, Tang Zhiyang turned around and grabbed her wrist suddenly. Because of the panic and confusion in his heart, his strength was a little too strong, and the girl screamed in pain, The eyes met his for a moment, and the eyes moved away nervously, even the arms holding the flowers were trembling.

Because of her scream, Tang Zhiyang withdrew his hand like an electric shock, but stood in front of the door calmly.

The woman opened her eyes wide in astonishment, as if she recognized his face. Tang Zhiyang's face didn't have much expression, but his eyes suddenly became cold and gloomy.

Yu Fei watched from the side, and suddenly realized something, he strode forward, the girl recognized Yu Fei under the brim of the peaked cap, and staggered back even more frightened, Yu Fei didn't press on any more, even He took a step back and stood beside Tang Zhiyang.

"This—the staff member." Yu Fei looked her up and down, his voice carried a certain dangerous meaning of speculation, "Can I have a look at the certificate?" He grinned, his white teeth shining, then Cheerfulness can almost burn people, "I know a lot of HP's sisters, and I feel that you are a little unfamiliar, and you don't seem to be the person who can directly knock on the door of the senior - otherwise I will make a call and ask the senior. broker?"

Before he finished speaking, he saw the flowers in the girl's arms trembling violently. She turned her head as if asking for help, and looked at the owner of the flower shop, but only saw Le Shi's eyes staring at her coldly. She backed away again and again, as if being hurt The persecution of an invisible evil spirit.

The woman's eyes dodged, and the eyes of these people forced her to a desperate situation. Her back hit the flower stand hard, and a colorful flower basket fell on the ground, and large and gorgeous cosmoses were scattered on the ground.

Le Shi briefly said a few words to the flower shop owner, who showed an unbelievable expression, Le Shi's voice was cold, and he said affirmatively: "You are an illegitimate student."

The woman shook her head again and again, denying, "I don't understand what you are talking about."

Tang Zhiyang frowned, and suddenly raised his voice and asked: "How do you know that he left the flowers in the store and didn't pick them up? Where did you know?" The last question, his voice was a little high, but he couldn't hold back his words. The violent trembling of his tail - he already knew the answer.

Yu Fei looked at Tang Zhiyang, his eyes widened in astonishment.

The woman's hands trembled, and she bit her white teeth fiercely. She lifted the bouquet of blue flowers in her arms above her head, and under the surprised attention of everyone, she threw the bouquet of flowers on the ground, trembling all over, like a trembling Her voice became sharp: "I want to get closer to my brother and want to know everything about him. What's wrong with that? Hearing that he said in the room that he wanted to fetch flowers, I was satisfied to help. What's wrong with that? I haven't seen him for so long, so long! He must be very lonely by himself..."

Tang Zhiyang clenched his hands tightly, Leshi walked over, stood in front of him, and said coldly, "Crazy."

The woman's voice became more and more hysterical. Tears welled up from her eyes, and she looked a little self-defeating. Her feet trampled wildly on the purple flowers, and the yellow-green plant juice splashed all over the ground.

The panic and anxiety in Tang Zhiyang's heart reached its peak at this time.Le Shi acted calmer. He looked at Tang Zhiyang's unprecedented panic eyes and said worriedly: "I'll stay and call the police, you guys go up first?"

Yu Fei shook his head and said: "Let me come, and by the way, let the manager of the senior know that the illegitimate child is about to enter someone's home, and I have spent all my time monitoring, and I don't know what happened to my former company. What do you think of as an artist?"

Le Shi nodded, took Tang Zhiyang's wrist, and said briefly, "Let's go."

This elevator took a very long time, Tang Zhiyang moved his legs from time to time, and the effect of the sealing needle had not yet passed. Except for the feeling of muscle soreness and weakness, his normal activities did not have much impact, but for some reason, he just felt uncomfortable for no reason, as if There was a small thorn stuck in his throat, and Le Shi saw that he was really out of his mind, so he softly comforted him in the ascending elevator: "Brother, it's okay."

"He..." Tang Zhiyang realized that he was a different person, and tried to stabilize his abnormal tone. He lowered his eyes and looked at the shadow shaking at the bottom of the elevator. Tang Zhiyang said slowly: "Jun Huan. He looks cheerful and gentle, but he is actually a timid person, he is very afraid of the camera." Tang Zhiyang laughed, "I don't like being spied on, I don't like to show my face in public, he told me for a while, when he thought about going to the stage, I hope tomorrow never comes.”

Le Shi paused for a while, the elevator stopped silently, the elevator door slid open, Le Shi said: "He is not living happily."

Tang Zhiyang carried the shopping bags from the supermarket and walked into the porch of the high-end apartment.

At the end of the corridor is a transparent and beautiful bay window, the window sill is filled with green plants, and the sunset outside the window is like fire.

The setting sun is bright red, silently sinking into the wandering shadow of the building, and a thick violet color flows down from the highest edge of the window.It was the most exhausting moment before Huadeng first stepped forward.

Tang Zhiyang said while walking: "He told me before that he hoped to become a bird in his next life. Flying alone in the sky, he might feel a little lonely, and his life span might be short, and he would die at any time due to wind, rain and natural enemies, but at least I once kissed the sky called freedom." Tang Zhiyang smiled, although the memory made his eyes sour and hot, which became a layer of water mist under his eyes, "I hope he is happy."

He stopped in front of Kan Junhuan's room and rang the doorbell.

No one answered.

"Maybe he fell asleep." Tang Zhiyang sighed, "His schedule is always not right."

Tang Zhiyang knew the password of Kan Junhuan's door lock, and the other party was asleep last time, Tang Zhiyang entered the password once, and after confirming that it was correct, he pressed the number key, but the door did not move at all.Tang Zhiyang put down the bag in his hand, hesitated to try again, and the error message ticked.

At this moment, those chaotic and disordered unease came to the fore, turning into an invisible pressure, flooding in all directions like a tide.

Tang Zhiyang turned on the phone, did not edit the WeChat message, and called Kan Junhuan directly.

"Hello, the user you dialed has been turned off, please dial again later..."

Tang Zhiyang clutched the phone tightly, his mind went blank.

Countless clues flock to the same answer at this moment, those abnormalities hidden behind the tenderness, the decision that caused great controversy, the song that the younger generation sang, the cat that was sent back to the parents' house, the goodbyes again and again, everyone felt that he had everything. As usual, but no one understood that every look, every smile was a silent farewell.

Tang Zhiyang took a deep breath and tried a date on the combination lock.

The green light of the mechanical light flashed, and Tang Zhiyang immediately pressed the doorknob.

The light in the living room was not turned on, and outside the transparent window, thousands of lights were shining like a sea of ​​stars.

The streetscape of the city is splendid and prosperous. Is Kan Junhuan also watching all these hustle and bustle alone in the dark room at countless moments of nightfall?

The lights in the corridor flooded into the room, Tang Zhiyang's eyes flickered, and he saw the glasses on the dining table, which were the reflection of the lenses.

On the table was a vase of dry daisies, the flowers all withered.Next to the vase are Kan Junhuan's mobile phone, cup, and medicine box.Tang Zhiyang knew that he would suffer from insomnia all night, and most of the support for maintaining a normal life came from various psychotropic drugs, not to mention when he was still carrying out brigade activities.

The bedroom door was closed but not locked.

The moment the door was opened, the heat wave in the room made the two of them back away. The bedroom is not big. There are all kinds of guitars hanging on one wall. Simple recording equipment and computers are placed at the end of the bed, and the bed is covered with quilts. Neatly, there is a pot of burning charcoal fire, placed next to the bedside table, the golden orange sparks are crackling, and the afterglow of the setting sun is burning in the pot.

Tang Zhiyang immediately came to his senses. He looked at the astonished Le Shi, and said in a cold voice: "Call." He paused, and added coldly: "Call an ambulance."

Tang Zhiyang strode towards the window, but he failed to open the window at the first time. When he twisted the window lock, his finger was cut off. He opened all the floor-to-ceiling windows. steam.Tang Zhiyang turned around and squatted down facing Kan Junhuan.

Kan Junhuan was leaning against the edge of the bed, with his head tilted slightly, without the modification of glasses, under the shadow of the dim sunset, his expression appeared soft and tender, as if he had fallen into a sweet dream, his face was rosy, his lips were pink, and there was a peaceful smile on his lips .

Tang Zhiyang stretched out his hand and touched his neck, only a slight touch, Kan Junhuan's body was like a machine out of control, a puppet with a broken silk thread, the movement of supporting the body fell apart, and he crashed into Tang Zhiyang's arms.

He was heavy, his body was hot, and his face was covered with sweat.Tang Zhiyang rubbed the tip of his nose against his ear, and whispered in his ear, "Jun Huan." His dry throat was only enough to utter these two words.

Tang Zhiyang didn't hesitate too much, he passed his arms under Kan Junhuan's side, and adjusted his posture. An unconscious person is too heavy, but Tang Zhiyang has never been so calm, and he has never been so powerful. He almost moved the person to the On the sofa in the living room, open all the ventilation windows in the room.

Yu Fei went to the house with the first aid.The moment he saw that scene, he suddenly supported Hengduan of the entrance. There was a framed photo on the entrance. It was yellow and old. It was a family portrait of Kan Junhuan and his parents.

Yu Fei watched as the medical staff opened the oxygen mask and pressed the artificial air pump, while Tang Zhiyang followed behind them, his expression as hard as ice that would not melt.

Le Shi followed behind Tang Zhiyang, still clutching the phone tightly in his hand. Seeing Yu Fei's face, Le Shi stopped in front of him for a while, stretched out his hand, and held Yu Fei's palm tightly. Trembling in the ground, I can only be sent to the distance by the huge waves of the accident.

In the ambulance, they watched Tang Zhiyang make countless phone calls, to Kan Junhuan's parents, and to Jin Yu who was on his way home from work. In his finger, the catheter in his vein delivered icy fluid, which chilled the skin on the back of his hand.

The last phone call was over, Tang Zhiyang looked at the person on the stretcher out of focus for a while, trembling suddenly, he could hardly hold the phone, Tang Zhiyang recovered, only to find that his palm was bleeding, it was when he opened the window The wound was cut, and the blood glued the wound and the mobile phone together.

Tang Zhiyang took a deep breath, hid his bleeding hand, exhaled and lowered his head tremblingly, letting Kan Junhuan's fingertips leave a few cold touch points on his forehead.

"Come back." Tang Zhiyang heard himself say, his voice was so steady and calm when he called to inform all parties, but now the words he uttered trembled and blurred, like a stupid child who forgot his mother tongue.

Tang Zhiyang took a deep breath, his eyes turned red: "Jun Huan, come back."

The corner of Kan Junhuan's clothes was caught. He turned his head and saw a little girl in a loose school uniform with two croissant braids. Seeing him, the little girl grinned, revealing her incisors. Kan Junhuan then Crouching on the bed, pinched the little girl's cheek, and called her name: "Tang Zhizhi."

"Big handsome guy!" Tang Zhizhi shouted, pinching his cheek with his backhand, laughing loudly.

Suddenly, her attention was attracted by the scenery behind the door. Tang Zhizhi walked to the door and looked down. It was an orange sky with countless clouds rolling over.

Tang Zhizhi looked at the sky, turned his head again, and suddenly said to Kan Junhuan: "Isn't this the way home? Are you going the wrong way!"

Tang Zhizhi pointed to the way Kan Junhuan came from, the sky over there had already been stained with a deep crimson purple, the night was coming, the tired birds returned to their nests, and those who missed them also returned to their respective worlds.

Kan Junhuan shook his head and said, "It's not that place. It's too dark."

Tang Zhizhi grabbed his hand and said, "Listen, my brother is calling you. Telling you to go back, he will cook for me tonight."

Kan Junhuan lowered his eyes: "I can't hear you."

Involuntarily, Tang Zhizhi grabbed his hand and pulled him back. The white door was getting farther and farther away from him. Kan Junhuan felt unprecedented panic. Every step he took, he was farther away from the high and free sky. The once laughing voice fell into the darkness and turned into countless obscenities that tormented him. The narrow green eyes lit up in pairs from the darkness, like hungry wolves stalking their prey. Torn to shreds.

"Can you get one at this level? Are you worthy?"

"I heard that he was dating Sister Jin when he first debuted, and now there is an affair, maybe how many years he has been in love."

"The solo songs are nothing more than that. There is no intention of asking the members to release songs for the time being. Besides, no one will like the songs you write."

"Brother, I really like you so much...can you open the door..."

Kan Junhuan stopped, and Tang Zhizhi also stopped. She turned her eyes, looked at Kan Junhuan quietly, and said, "Can't you walk?"

"I really want to rest." Kan Junhuan said, "I'm in pain, I'm very sad." Looking at the darkness in front of him, his voice was choked: "I don't want to go back."

Tang Zhizhi sighed, like coaxing a child, she said: "I know, I know everything. Take another step, listen to me. Take a step forward."

He is just a sensitive, suspicious and insecure child, he took a step forward under persuasion, but the voices not only did not subside, but became louder, he almost turned around and ran away, but Tang Zhizhi held his hand desperately , shouted cheerfully: "Brother!"

On that dark and bottomless road, a small spot of light appeared, and he suddenly heard a voice hidden in a sharp curse, calling him continuously.

"Come back. Junhuan, come back."

Kan Junhuan opened his eyes wide, and there was heat in his eye sockets.

Who was it—who was calling him?

Kan Junhuan hesitated for a moment, then stretched out his hand and shook it into the dark and icy void. He raised his heavy legs and kept walking forward. His steps were scattered, but became more and more hurried, and finally turned into a stumbling run.It seemed to be raining in the sky, pattering, the sound of wind and rain muffled countless evil words, and he seemed to be crying too.

The light spot became bigger and bigger, and the light became more and more full, and finally filled the whole world.

At the end of the road, Kan Junhuan lost his center of gravity, and instead of falling into the abyss, he seemed to have fallen into warm water, with the sun shining all over his body.

Someone was chatting rustlingly, light and happy whispers.

"If there is a next life, I will still be myself. At that time, I will put a bowl of millet and a bowl of water on my windowsill. If you occasionally pass by my eaves, remember to come and have a rest. When you are happy, you can sing Sing, I like to hear you sing."

"Jun Huan, no matter what you become, I will always remember you."

The author says:

Nothing will happen, it's okay.The thing about the phone call was actually an indoor monitor. (When something happened, I downloaded BE 5555) Thank you for watching!bow!