That nanny, rotten!

Hanging up, "I miss you so much", how can I say it directly, even if I really want to see her... I must not let her find out the restlessness because I want to see her too much. Be a child, after all, Xiaomei is so mature, I have to catch up quickly...

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Am I dreaming?If it is a dream, can you not wake up for a while? !

Xiaomei was standing right in front of me, she took the initiative to come to Lihai University to find me, and said she was going on a solo date between couples? !

……

I must be possessed by an idiot, so I took Xiaomei to watch such a fucking movie on the first date, what if Xiaomei misunderstood that I had some dirty thoughts about her?Although, although it can't be completely said to be a misunderstanding—anyway, if I knew it earlier, I should have listened to Xiaomei and watched "Hokage" just now!

……

Fucked up, all screwed up!It’s rare that Xiaomei cooks for me so specially. Not only did I not help at all, but also because she was kind enough to wipe my mouth and push her away, it was really rude!So at least leave it to me to clean up after meals!

……

It turns out that her sleeping face is like this~ I stared at Xiaomei who was sitting on the sofa watching TV and fell asleep.

"..." Just getting closer and closer to her face - no, no!Accidentally came up with strange thoughts, not self-control... But, it was Xiaomei's fault for sleeping so undefended in front of men, right?

It's too despicable to sneak attack... But, if you just take a picture of a sleeping face with your mobile phone and set it as the standby screen, it's not too much... maybe?

……

There was silence in the dimly lit courtyard. Although I should leave, I felt inexplicably hesitant. I reached out and touched the closed door, "...Xiaomei. 』

The door panel made of inorganic matter is not as cold as I imagined.It seems that the warmth I felt on my lips just now has spread to the surroundings. I always feel warm... If only I could be as cold as ice, this kind of temperature can't cool my mood at all.

'……go home. 'I turned my back to the door, and every time I took a step, I felt more regret in my heart.

"Akaya, you are the cutest in this kind of place" - no matter how eager I am to get her to recognize me, to let her look at myself from the perspective of a man, I shouldn't just be dazzled by her saying "cute" He bowed his head, forcing her so hard.

I didn’t feel the sweetness of the rumored [First Kiss] at all. The extreme fragility, trembling and fear she showed in front of me like never before made my heart ache, that kind of feeling as if I touched some terrible taboo—— —I know, something, it's broken.

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[Day 15]

I, got dumped.

I can't remember at all, how did I get back here after turning around pretending to be free and easy, and when I came to my senses, I got off the tram and walked to the door of the empty [Irie House] in my community.

It’s the first time in my life that I’ve lost a relationship. I’ve only dated for two weeks and one day. The short-lived first love ended once, but there were no tears. Although I couldn’t control my sadness, I couldn’t cry at all—if I could cry, maybe it would be fine, Don't let this strong emotion stagnate in your heart, and you can't get rid of it no matter what.

He thought that if he died like this, it would be good not to wake up again, but when he opened his eyes, the next morning was ushered in.I prayed that everything yesterday was just a nightmare, but Xiaomei's icy face and determined expression left deep and painful traces in my memory.

"It's hard for me to be with the person I like the most now. Although I'm sorry Chiya, although I'm self-willed, can you please stop interfering with my happiness?" 』

What did you say that you dated me just to test Atobu's mood——Xiaomei, that big liar!Because I am so simple, I will definitely believe it?Such a complete lie!That's right, maybe I'm so innocent that I'm almost stupid, but I know better than anyone else about Xiaomei: the cruel words on her lips, but the shaking and confusion in her eyes - just this one glance, I saw it, Xiaomei's sincerity.

You pretended to push me away impatiently, but in fact, you wanted to protect me, right?

You run away from me with all your excuses, you just don't want me to get hurt, don't you?

Because you think you can only snatch warmth from me, but you can't give me anything, do you? !

'It's okay, even if it hurts! "I want to respond to you like this, it doesn't matter how much I will be hurt, even if I don't like me, I can just use me...as long as it is what you expect, I am willing to do anything..." So, please, let me Stay with you! '

——However, if she said it like this, she would never see me again... Such feelings are too heavy for her, and she will no longer be able to get along with me because of guilt... Because of her, so habitual, self-loathing.

I smiled wryly at myself, I never felt that I couldn’t grasp anything, even if I was laughed at by others, as long as I worked hard enough, I could definitely get it... Before I fell in love with Xiaomei, I always thought so ... But she is like sand, the tighter you hold it, the more difficult it is to grasp.

"I like Xiaomei, no, I used to like it...but I will try my best to forget it, just like Xiaomei wants, forget it all" I just wanted to get closer to her at first, if this wish made her difficult , I am willing to let go.

In the sky above Kanagawa tonight, the faces of the stars that seem to be erased by the darkness are slightly revealed.

I never believed in gods in the past, because he was an unproven existence, but when I knew that I couldn't make Xiaomei more dependent on the world around me, and I couldn't make her eyes more gentle, the first time I Once I raised my head, looked up, and prayed to the sky: Xiaomei, don't feel sorry for me, please be sure...love yourself more...

Fanwai 8*Doomed again (Brother Fanwai, abuse!)

God is really shameless, but on the day when Xiaojiu is going to participate in the hiking conference, the sun is shining brightly.Her physique is not good, she can't stand the sun, and the journey is not short, just insisting on reaching the finish line is quite remarkable.

I finished dinner at the pizzeria on the way home, and after taking a shower, I sat in the living room and watched Keigo Higashino's replay of the episode "Brutus' Heart" in the 3-week continuous SP with her.Unknowingly, she leaned on my shoulder and fell asleep, her soft sleep gently rising and falling in her ears, I stroked her head softly, "I'm really exhausted today~"

Although I personally enjoy being close to Xiaojiu all the time, she will catch a cold if I stay any longer—so I stretch out my arms to pick her up, come to the bed, and put her down carefully, being careful not to wake her up .

Moonlight shone into the room through the window lattice, illuminating her sleeping face.I gently lifted her hair, strands of soft hair reflected the mottled brilliance of the moonlight, my fingertips slowly fell down, the scene in front of me was so beautiful, I couldn't help worrying if she would just fall asleep like a Sleeping Beauty , don’t wake up again... So, I quietly covered her lips, as if to expel the restlessness in my heart... um, glasses?It's too much of a hindrance!I took it off carefully, and kissed those lips again. The instant warmth I touched was like a dream, with an incomparable tenderness, but also revealed an indelible sourness——

'Can't! Suddenly, she suddenly left her lips, "It's just that I was mistaken for Xiao Jiu's boyfriend by the health doctor during the day, and I got carried away." , how should she explain when she suddenly opened her eyes?

If I said that I kissed her because I was worried about what she would do if she fell asleep like this, then this indifferent girl would definitely use her tempting and sinful little mouth to spit out coldly such as 'what?Does brother think he is a prince who can lift the curse? 'This kind of sentimental sentence-really, it was obviously much more lovely to say before.

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"Hey, Xiaojiu, it's you~" Seeing her displeased face, she must be regretting that she shouldn't have dragged me to the Baili Trailwalk yesterday, and now she has to take turns stepping on massages with me.But in fact, thinking that I am also falling apart and need to rest is completely a misunderstanding of Xiaojiu's own opinion:

"here? 』In the beginning, I saw Xiao Jiuda wake up in the morning with a slender waist, and I offered to help her massage, because the team doctor of the tennis team of Dongda University is very good at massage, and I have learned a lot from chronic illness several hands.

"Um……"

"Is it here too? 』As soon as I started, I found that it was not only the overloaded waist and spine, but also the shoulders that were exaggeratedly hard——Xiao Jiu was not very active at first, and he always sat down and buried himself in reading books. The lack of exercise is certain.

"Yeah... well, it's so comfortable... umm~ bro, bro... a little bit to the right..."

"……oh"

"Hmm~ah... that's right there, use your strength..."

"……like this……? 』

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