i see your calling

Their generation is probably more open-minded than the older generation.Lian Yan said to herself that he needs to rely on the continuous chanting in his head, which makes him ignore other things.

But it was difficult. When he opened the door, his eyes focused on him for the third time. If his eyes turned into arrows, Lian Yan felt that he would probably be covered in blood.But Lian Yan just stopped, closed the door quietly, sat back to the original position, and stared at the page as if nothing had happened - even though he didn't read any words.

He didn't dare to write anything about Shen Pingge in the notebook anymore, and was forced to change his habit, keeping all sticky likes in his head and ears, leaving only traces of scribbles on the notebook.

Pang Nian didn't ask any more questions, probably swallowing all the questions.Lian Yan gained temporary peace.

He sleeps on the desk between classes, walks briskly when he wants to go to the toilet, keeps his head down, everyone in the whole grade knows that!Everyone around knew that Lian Yan couldn't be as calm as Shen Pingge.

If only he was the only one left in the toilet, Lian Yan felt embarrassed and embarrassed for the first time. When he walked in, the strange boy inside looked straight over and pulled up his pants quickly, as if he was a voyeur.

Lian Yan took a deep breath, and walked over slowly, he was sure that his expression was frank, even though it was a poor imitation of Shen Pingge's expression, but he did it, and comforted himself that it was not difficult at all, and that person When they passed each other, they suddenly heard a very soft murmur, the voice was so small that it was almost drowned in the slight sound of water from the water pipe, but Lian Yan could still hear it very clearly.

"Dead gay."

Lian Yan stopped abruptly, at first she couldn't believe it, then her heart throbbed for no reason, as if twisted.This is very strange, and the man didn't hit him... But Lian Yanxiang couldn't breathe, and after a while, he continued to walk.

When she unbuttoned her pants, her hands were still shaking, Lian Yan thought in a daze, did I do something wrong?

But he didn't think that this kind of sadness was worth crying, and it was worth dying in pain. When he thought that Shen Pingge was going through the same thing as him, maybe it was worse, maybe it was negligible, but it was there anyway, and he felt that everything could be endured .

There is a distance between him and Shen Pingge. Many things he has experienced, even Yan has never experienced. Shen Pingge's life is full of colors. Lian Yan feels like muddy water, mixed with his clean life. Some dirty water, and I feel lucky - he and Shen Pingge have something in common.

There seems to be only one person scolding him, and there are many curious ones, most of whom are boys, who are together in small groups, like spying, lying in front of his desk, and keeping a distance, asking him: "Are you together with Shen Pingge?" Already."

nod?shake your head?silence?Neither fit.

Pang Nian helped him drive away the group of onlookers, saying, "Go, go, go, mother-in-law." When the class bell rang again, a group of people dispersed suddenly. Lian Yan tore the sheet and said to him, " Thanks".

"Don't take their words to heart. Although I'm not too accepting of homosexuality, I think they're going too far. Isn't this clearly bullying you and you can't speak?" Pang Nian said awe-inspiringly. , lowered his voice again, but his eyes were bright, he habitually wanted to give him a hug, then retracted his hand resentfully, and patted his arm, "Don't worry, I'll protect you!"

I didn't go to the cafeteria for lunch, but went outside to avoid attracting attention. I ate at a Chongqing noodle shop on the street. When Lian Yan was picking beans to eat, I heard Shen Pingge say: "There is someone in your class. Bullying you?"

Lian Yan raised her eyes to look at him, she was still biting her chopsticks, biting so hard that her teeth hurt and her cheeks were sore.

He paused, shook his head, and asked again: What about you?

Shen Pingge asked him back: "Do you think there will be?"

Lian Yan laughed and shook her head.

Compared with those classmates, what Lian Yan was more afraid of was that Shen Yiming knew that Shen Pingge reassured him.

"The video is only sent to the grade group, and my dad will not receive it."

Now that he said that, even Yan felt relieved.They don't look like lovers who are "married by the media", but they seem to be having an affair, kissing to stay away from school, Lian Yan is in a good mood again, clasping his hand, sitting on the bench, and after sitting for a long time before leaving, her shoulders fell Fresh flowers in spring, bright yellow, Shen Pingge brushed them off for him.

Fortunately, Shen Yiming went home very few times in the past few days, and he couldn't touch him. Lian Yan was relieved. His life didn't seem to be affected much. All the whispering and mocking were behind him. He even thought about it. If he said bad things about Shen Pingge in front of him, he would give him a punch - they are all boys, who can't fight.

However, Shen Yiming made fewer calls at home. He made a call at the beginning of April, but he was hospitalized. Yan went to the hospital first.

Lian Yan took a taxi to the hospital alone - he didn't like the smell of alcohol in the hospital, it seemed to be mixed with the salty tears and desperate cries, people were either sleepy, or expressionless, smiling rarely, Lian Yan followed Shen The reminder in Pingge's text message came to the ward, the white door of the ward was half closed, and he listened to Shen Yiming's voice.

The voice was full of anger, with obvious anger, and a little hoarse.

"What happened to the fight!"

Just as Lian Yan was about to open the door, she stopped and held her breath.The door is still ajar,

He couldn't see Shen Pingge, but heard his voice.

"That man was sloppy," he said lightly, "he got into a fight."

"Do you know what time you are now! You are in your third year of high school, and the college entrance examination is about two months away, and you are still fighting at this time," Shen Yi almost broke his voice, "You don't want to go abroad to study, okay, Then don’t go, you still don’t give me peace of mind, what are you going to do after all this?”

"Nothing." Shen Pingge's voice was still calm, "Talk for mouth, tooth for tooth, I can't afford to be dumb."

"You're almost on the verge, so you can't be calmer. Others owe—what does he owe?" Shen Yiming raised his voice, "What did he scold, come on, tell me."

Lian Yan pushed the door open without delay, the quarrel stopped abruptly, meeting the eyes of the two, Shen Yiming took a deep breath, forced a smile, and said, "Why is Xiaoyan here?"

For the first time, Lian Yan felt that he was suitable for acting, or out of escape, he didn't want to hear Shen Pingge's answer, so he avoided Shen Pingge's eyes, but he still saw bruises on the corners of Shen Pingge's mouth.He communicated with Shen Yiming again, it was nothing more than indifferent greetings, he stood there obediently, and smiled lightly.

He could feel Shen Pingge's eyes.

This can be called calm, but once out of the ward, standing at the same place as Shen Pingge, Lian Yan just opened his mouth, but tears fell down uncontrollably, it was too sudden, when he was called "dead homosexual", Lian Yan didn't shed tears, but when he heard Shen Pingge fighting, he felt pain again, Lian Yan reached out and touched the corner of his mouth.

Shen Pingge has seen him cry several times, it is not bad this time, he may have wanted to cover up the previous few times, but now he does not want to avoid it.

The original intention was not to cry, Lian Yan intended to ask Shen Pingge, he could only face his red eyes, sobbing and making gestures, he didn't know what the gesture was, and he hugged Shen Pingge's neck regardless, crying It flowed into his clothes again and merged with the temperature of his skin.

Lian Yan didn't want to care about the eyes of her surroundings.

"Why are you crying?" Shen Pingge asked him in a low voice, and laughed, "I was the one who fought, why do you seem to be in pain?"

But it hurts so much.

Lian Yan couldn't speak, and couldn't ask what should be asked. Relying on Shen Pingge not to push him away, she willfully wiped away her tears, and wrote slowly in his palm: Because of me?

"Brother can't be bullied by others," Shen Pingge joked, "Many times, fists are more useful than words. His injuries are much more serious than mine, and I don't feel any pain."

He said, "Really."

Shen Pingge would not take the initiative to talk to him about this kind of thing, Lian Yan knew about it, and could guess seven or eight, probably because someone chewed his mouth and said that Shen Pingge came in front of Shen Pingge, Shen Pingge was different from him, He can only endure, but Shen Pingge can't.

Lian Yan grabbed his hand again, carefully inspecting him with tearful eyes for any wounds, Shen Pingge asked him to check, looking at his red nose with tender eyes, sighed, and said: "You are so precious , why so many tears?"

Empress Lian Yan became shy after realizing it, let go of his hand, touched his nose, Shen Pingge pinched his ear, and whispered softly, "Okay, baby, don't cry—— My mother is here."

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