i see your calling

The last stroke of "What?" Lian Yan finished writing that word, suddenly felt unreasonable regret in his heart, he hastily covered those words, trying to block Shen Pingge's line of sight with his five fingers, the handwriting had been swallowed by the light After eating it all, he folded his fingers weakly.

Shen Pingge lowered his eyes and watched him write. He didn't move for a long time, and the time stretched out. He suddenly raised his eyes again and spoke.

"I threw it away," he said lightly, "what's wrong?"

The vague pain in Lian Yan's heart finally fell to the ground, it pierced very deeply, and directly nailed him to the chair, he looked at Shen Pingge, speechless, completely clenched his fingers.

The yolk of the soft-boiled egg slowly flowed out, drowned on the rice, and glistened in the sun.

"Lian Yan, it's not only you, but also me who appeared in that video. I'm not a great person, I'm very selfish, and I don't want others to see this video," Shen Pingge smiled faintly, slowly Said, "So you don't need to think that I threw away the recommendation letter for you, Lian Yan, it's unnecessary, you will be tired, and I will also be burdened."

Lian Yan gestured to him: But he may not delete the video, as you know.

"Is there any other way?" Shen Pingge asked him back.Lian Yan was speechless.

"Actually, at the beginning, although I didn't intend to hide it from you, I never thought about confessing these things to you," Shen Pingge said, "The recommendation letter is not that important. In the end, Wei Ziping felt that I was cheating. There is a problem with the product, and I feel that relying on my own strength, I will not be able to reach the final. But Lian Yan—with a letter of recommendation, I can go directly to the final, and without a letter of recommendation, I can still participate in the final.”

Lian Yan sometimes thinks she is stupid, but he is stupid!My mind can't turn in circles, and I blindly follow other people's thoughts.He likes this stupidity sometimes, he can make himself slower than the world, and that's okay.But at this moment, he suddenly felt that he had become smarter. He could easily hear what Shen Pingge meant. He knew that what Shen Pingge said was just to make him feel relieved, and he wanted himself not to think too much.

"Trust me," Shen Pingge moved closer to Lian Yan's clasped hands, "OK?"

Did he have a reason to say "no"?

He just caused trouble to Shen Pingge, Shen Pingge has considered everything thoroughly, he protects him comprehensively, considers him comprehensively, even at this time, Shen Pingge is still comforting him in turn.

After a while, he said "hmm".

"Actually, there is another reason." Shen Pingge looked at him with a smile, "This is your first time in love. As an older brother, I always want to give you a good experience. When you look back, first love is all about love." Well, that's kind of sad, isn't it?"

Lian Yan began to ponder over the meaning of his words again, feeling uneasy suddenly grew, he broke away from Shen Pingge's hand, grabbed his wrist again, and wrote in the palm of his hand.

- Will you leave in the future?

He wrote very clearly, Shen Pingge must be able to understand, but he is not sure, after all he wrote in a hurry.

Shen Pingge paused, looked at him, and said, "What about you?"

Lian Yan's heart was almost on fire. He kept saying "I don't know how to" in his heart, as if those words would come out of the damaged tape if he said too much, and he whispered softly. Writing in the palm of Shen Pingge's hand, Shen Pingge closed his hand and rubbed the back of his neck like treating a small animal, "It's still a long time, don't worry."

Lian Yan's eyes were longing, he wanted to get an answer from Shen Pingge, a promise, the promise was free, and it didn't matter whether it was a weight, as long as Shen Pingge said something.But Shen Pingge didn't tell him. When he walked out of the steak restaurant, the wind chime hanging on the door rang, and he suddenly remembered what Shen Pingge had said to him before.

"Actually, I can't unilaterally determine whether my sense of responsibility is weak or strong. I don't like those empty words, such as forever, forever. It seems that language must be loyal to material and spiritual." Shen Pingge at that time Say, "Isn't that weird? I think I'm kind of sick. I don't want to talk about that kind of innocuous stuff."

When they were discussing this issue, just a few days ago, Lian Yan read the definition of "responsibility". He remembered that when they were together, Shen Pingge said that his sense of responsibility was very weak. He ran to Shen Pingge's room, Show him that paragraph, and then tell him in sign language that you have a strong sense of responsibility.Shen Pingge then told him these words.

He is still stupid!He clearly remembered that Shen Pingge didn't like to promise such things, but he still wanted to ask.

But there was nothing wrong between them. At night, Shen Pingge still came to him for dinner. In order to avoid having no food like noon, they ran. Lian Yan smiled happily. After eating, He even secretly held Shen Pingge's hand in the corner.

But Lian Yan still felt that they were a little different, or a little more silent, he had never been in a relationship, so he didn't know if this was normal, and he didn't dare to ask Shen Pingge.

He writes on paper every day, I love Shen Pingge, I love Shen Pingge, write many times.

Lian Yan feels that she is different from Shen Pingge in this respect. He likes to talk about promises, he likes promises like "forever", he likes to write on paper, I want to love forever.But Shen Pingge didn't like it, so he didn't say anything.

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Obviously nothing happened, but something was wrong between them.

It's so strange, they have good morning and good night, Shen Pingge will ride a bicycle to take him to school when he is free, and will come to give him candy between classes, but Lianyan just feels that there is something wrong between them.

Shen Pingge is so smart, Shen Pingge must know better than him, but he didn't say.

In December, Shen Pingge left according to the time. Lian Yan was going to class that day, so he had no way to see Shen Pingge off. He subconsciously escaped - he could have gone to Shen Pingge's room the night before and told He, you have to be careful, be safe, and remember to miss me.

But he didn't go.

Even Yan couldn't understand the reason, he was hiding in the shell, leaning on the warm soft meat, the outside was full of damp and cold air, he wanted to escape.

The plane took off at ten o'clock, and Lian Yan was drowsy during class, but he woke up once for no reason, and looked at the clock.

It's exactly ten o'clock.

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