middle of the road

When he decided to give Cheng Le to them for adoption, Cheng Zong tactfully expressed that he hoped that the two families would not move around too frequently unless they had important matters. In fact, Cheng Yang knew what to do if he didn't say anything. Do, for a person like him who can ignore family affection for his own selfishness, even if Cheng Zong doesn't mind, he has no face to continue to play a good brother in front of Cheng Le.

Ji Jiangxin didn't go to work today, and Cheng Le didn't go to school. Cheng Zong went out to see him in the morning, and the atmosphere became a little dignified. Although he didn't say it clearly, he could feel it. Cheng Zong thought about his sudden appearance and opened his mouth. It is disgusting to ask Cheng Le to go back.

Cheng Yang foresaw such a result, and he was wronged in the whole matter, so he knelt down to Cheng Zong and begged him.

Cheng Zong didn't give a clear answer, but just asked him to think about it again. Cheng Le is a thoughtful person, not a certain thing. If you want to give it away, you can send it away. If you want to go back again, he hopes that Cheng Yang can understand what he wants to do. After a thorough judgment, come to talk to him again.

Not long after he left, Cheng Le's voice calling him suddenly came from behind the door, followed by faint crying.

Cheng Yang didn't get up, but took two steps on his knees, put his head on the door, tears welled up, "Lele..."

He didn't know what Zhao Mei was thinking at the beginning. He obviously quarreled with Cheng Linsheng so much that he wanted to hang himself, but he turned around and gave birth to Cheng Ying and Cheng Le. Leave the mess at home to him.

In fact, he also complained and thought about escaping. In such an environment, it was difficult for him to live, but he had to bear the consequences of other people's irresponsibility. Bring them up by taking care of yourself day by day.

In fact, Cheng Le was born later than Cheng Ying, and he was the youngest brother. In order to let him share the responsibility of his brother, he deliberately said something wrong in front of them, because he always felt that there were more boys than girls. It's okay to suffer a little and suffer a little grievance.

He is too sensible to let him do whatever he wants, even if he gives up in the end, he is willing.

And as an elder brother, he cruelly imposed the experience of being forced to grow up on him intact, and he still thought that such kind of sensibility was a matter of course for a child who was less than ten years old.

It should be raining outside, and the corridor is a bit damp. People pass by, and they all look at him. Someone came to ask and tried to knock on the door, but was stopped by Cheng Yang. It is not so much that he is forcing them now. To let go, it is better to say that he is punishing himself.

He deserved everything.

His stomach was empty, he was writhing in pain, and he was sweating profusely. In fact, not only today, but yesterday he hid at home and didn't eat anything. Cheng Ying gave him water, drank it and vomited it all out, he could feel it, There was only a burst of bitterness in the mouth.

He thought a lot, from knowing Chi Yu to the present, every thing and every detail, he turned it out for himself over and over again, even though any sentence he said in it could make his wound open Bloody again.

All the memories are mixed with sweet and fishy, ​​without exception they become beyond recognition.

He began to blame himself crazily, not understanding how he would be so stuck without a bottom line, wanted to be in the same city with him, wanted to be with him, so he changed his choice and was going to leave here, because the burden was too heavy, so he Extremely selfish and let Cheng Le go.

He was paranoid and insisted on going his own way, so the end was so bleak, the pain in his knee was like a needle prick, but Cheng Yang didn't seem to feel it at all, and the drama brought about by the regret in his heart that seemed to swallow him up. Compared with the pain, this little pain is nothing.

Cheng Le was crying again, crying so sadly, maybe that's how he cried when he walked out of the house that day, but he didn't hear anything.

Cheng Yang's consciousness was a little fuzzy, but this time he heard clearly. He slowly raised his hand and patted the door lightly.

"Brother, brother..." Cheng Le called him over and over again, and slammed on the door on the other side, "Brother, are you here to pick me up?"

"Are you still outside?" He cried, his voice a little hoarse, "Brother, I miss you so much, I miss you and Yingying..."

Cheng Yang gritted his teeth, feeling unbearably sad, his eyes darkened, he bowed in pain, and punched hard on the door.

The inside fell into silence again, the wind blew up from the corridor with a coolness, and the sound of raindrops hitting the ground could already be heard clearly, he still knelt motionless, his head was a little dizzy, he knocked hard twice, the flow of time was at Suffering becomes slow.

After an unknown amount of time, I vaguely heard the sound of the door opening, followed by Cheng Le carrying the schoolbag, and was pushed out together with the suitcase. Ji Jiangxin stood behind the door, with red eyes, and closed the door cruelly.

Cheng Yang raised his head, looked at it for a while, then rushed over and hugged him.

Cheng Le couldn't stand being led by him, but he still held back his tears, "Brother."

"Brother is wrong." Cheng Yang hugged him tightly by his clothes, and said repeatedly, "I'm sorry, it's my brother who was wrong..."

Cheng Le shook his head desperately, tears streaming down his face.

"I'll take you back now." Cheng Yang stood up, shaking slightly, and tried his best to stand still.

He smiled weakly, then turned to the door and asked Cheng Le to follow him, bowing deeply.