middle of the road

When Cheng Yang returned home, Chi Yu didn't call. Instead, he received a message from Chi Haidong, just six words.

- do you still trust him

Although there is no signature, but this time, this content, can only be Chi Haidong.

Cheng Yang didn't know how he got his phone number, did Chi Yu tell him, or did he get it by himself?

There is something in Chi Haidong's words, as if something happened that should make him suspicious of Chi Yu, is it because of Chi Yu's evasive attitude after the incident at school?Or did he say he wanted to contact him, but he hasn't sent a message yet?

Cheng Yang didn't answer him, and put his phone upside down on the table. He was so resolute in Chi Haidong's car before, he didn't want him to feel any wavering now, and he didn't want to think about all this again. Because of what, the physical discomfort made him feel a little tired, he just wanted to take a hot bath, and then lay down on the bed and fell asleep.

He first went to Cheng Ying's room to have a look. The small lamp beside the bed was on, and Cheng Yang saw that she had wrapped herself in a blanket.

Hearing the sound of footsteps, Cheng Ying sat up and called him a little aggrieved, "Brother."

"What's wrong?" Cheng Yang sat on the head of her bed and saw that her face was covered with tears, "Why are you crying?"

"Where have you been?" Cheng Ying sniffed and hugged his shoulders, "I'm afraid you're not at home."

"Aren't I coming back now?" Cheng Yang patted her on the back, "Go to brother Chiyu and get a paper, and I'll tell you next time."

Cheng Ying cried for a while before her voice subsided. Cheng Yang felt distressed and wiped away her tears, "Go to sleep."

Cheng Ying lay down, blinked and looked at him, "Brother?"

"Ok?"

"...Will you not want me?"

Cheng Yang's hand, which was about to pull the blanket for her, stopped for a moment, then his fingertips went numb, and he trembled uncontrollably.

Cheng Le asked this question before, and he gave him the answer categorically, but that night when Cheng Le begged him to go to his uncle's house, he agreed after a short hesitation. It's not like I've ever felt abandoned by him.

Perhaps he hoped that his elder brother would say no, that he would never give him to others no matter how difficult it was like last time.

But he didn't.

"No." Cheng Yang took a deep breath, and held back a somewhat distorted voice, "Brother won't do this kind of thing again."

Cheng Ying looked at him for a while, then nodded in relief, and closed her eyes. Cheng Yang opened the window for her, turned around and went out. After closing the door, he stood there for a long time, feeling uncomfortable. The feeling of lingering can't go away, and the eyes are a little sore uncontrollably.

Before going in to take a shower, he looked at his phone again, but there was no news, the matter has not been resolved yet?

What will Chi Yu say to Chi Haidong?Now that he has come out of the closet, is it true that this scene will not hit Chi Haidong as much as he imagined? But although Cheng Yang did not see Chi Haidong's expression, there was something brewing in his order. Real anger.

Will he scold him, will he beat him, no parent can tolerate such a child, Chi Yu has a bad temper, will this annoy him?

Standing under the scalding water, the feeling of being kissed by Chi Yu was still there, and the shame of the blood rushing at that moment was still there.

Cheng Yang fell sideways on the bed, and buried his face in the pillow. This night, his thoughts were chaotic, and he woke up from time to time. He didn't sleep well until dawn.

Waking up the next morning, Cheng Ying was washing up in the bathroom. He took the phone and took another look.

Chi Yu still didn't call, maybe he forgot, but there was an extra message from Chi Haidong in his inbox.

Cheng Yang didn't want to watch it anymore, he could obviously ignore it as before, but because he was worried about Chi Yu's safety, he clicked on it.

A picture was taken on a mobile phone, and on the screen of the mobile phone that was taken was a text message indicating that it had been received.

- You can talk if you want. Come over at eleven o'clock. I'm at home.

The sender is Chi Yu.

The recipient is no longer guessing.

Because he had to catch the bus, Cheng Yang clearly remembered that he arrived at Chi Yu's house around [-]:[-]. At that time, Chi Yu glanced at the clock on the wall. It didn't take long for him to push him down on the sofa, and then they heard the time for the key to open the door. Chi Haidong visited on time, and the first time he entered the door, he saw the picture of them entangled together.

The only reason that can defend Chi Yu is that he forgot, but Cheng Yang knows that he has not forgotten, he remembers better than anyone else.

It's not a coincidence, it's his intention, he deliberately arranged such an embarrassing meeting, for what, to anger his father?

Chi Haidong told him the reason, saying that the purpose of Chi Yu being with him was not pure, but to anger him and revenge.

At that time...he didn't have a letter.

The phone slipped out of his hand at some point and fell to the ground, the screen was smashed into pieces, Cheng Yang was cold all over, looking at the white wall in front of him, he didn't know what he was going to do, his heart was blocked by something, he Unable to breathe, he tried to open his mouth, and then he heard himself making a dying sound, which staggered out from the deepest part of his throat.

He opened the door and ran out.

After descending a step, his weak legs were a little messy, he stepped on the air and rolled down from the top.

Rolling all the way to the first floor, Cheng Yang was lying on the ground, his hands and feet seemed to be broken, and he couldn't get up because of the pain.

He hunched his body, and punched hard on the concrete floor twice, blood flowed from the broken skin, as if a drainage tube was inserted into his body, he could clearly feel the flow rate of every drop of blood lost, Bring pain like swallowing raw.

He turned over face down, with his head resting on the ground, tears rolling out of his eyes frantically.

It turned out that from the beginning to the end, he was really the only one who was acting affectionate.

Chi Yu has never liked him before, so it doesn't matter how he treats him. When he is in a bad mood, he can run up to him to vent his anger. When someone punctures him, he treats him coldly as if he doesn't know him. Now it's even more to anger his father. You can completely disregard his feelings, use him, fool him, and use the things that embarrass him so much as a bargaining chip for him to vent his hatred.

He couldn't believe it, this is what he gets along day and night, and the person he is grateful and... happy will do to him one day.

And why is he so stupid, so stupid that he loses all judgment, so stupid that he is willing to be used by others.

Cheng Yang didn't want to admit that it was because he was so kind. No one had ever treated him so kindly. Fortunately, in all the details, he became stupid, greedy, and no longer like himself. He thought it was his. Light and hope, fate finally spared him.

But no, nothing has changed.

What the reality wanted to prove to him was that all of this was imagined by him, and then knocked him down hard again.

At that time in the countryside, Chi Yu said that he only liked his body, why didn't he believe it?

Now he demonstrates this sentence to him personally, every step is clear and clear, he just likes his body and fucks him hard on the bed.

Big tears fell down, hands and feet were so painful that he lost consciousness. At that moment, Cheng Yang hated why he was still alive. He had to breathe and pant to live, and every internal and external circulation brought up all the senses. Endless pain and torture.

What has he done, is he crazy, just because of that expected little affection, because people say they like his... body.

He felt that Chi Yu was ruthless, but in fact he was much more ruthless than him, and what he dared to give up was far worse than what he could get.

The only thing he can't compare to Chi Yu is that he put all his eggs in one basket and bet everything on it. He doesn't have the wisdom of his small and big.

All the rules of the game had been told to him before the game started, and he couldn't afford it himself.

So he deserved to lose like this.

"Xiao Yang!" Aunt Qiu heard the movement, opened the door and came out, and saw Cheng Yang lying on the ground, "What's wrong, where did you fall?!"

She took his arm and tried to help him, "Can you stand up?"

Cheng Yang didn't move, Aunt Qiu hurriedly checked his limbs to see if anything was broken.

"Fortunately, the bones are fine." She said, "Should I go to the hospital?"

Cheng Yang waved his hand to indicate that he was fine, his head was still lowered, his forehead was covered with sweat, and his hair was soaked. It was obvious that the fall was serious.

"Yingying, Yingying!" Aunt Qiu shouted upstairs, "Come down quickly and help your brother up!"

Cheng Ying ran down quickly, and Aunt Qiu pulled Cheng Yang up from the ground and sent him upstairs.

Aunt Qiu asked him if he had any disinfectant at home, and helped him treat the wounds on his hands and some bruises on his face.

Cheng Yang stared blankly at the front without saying a word, Cheng Ying found out all the things and asked Aunt Qiu to do the work first, she would deal with it.

"If there is any pain, go to the hospital to have a look. It won't cost much, and your body is important." Aunt Qiu warned before leaving.

Cheng Ying unscrewed the bottle of iodophor, dipped it in with a cotton swab, and applied it to his wound one by one, and carefully blew on it after application.

"Brother, what's wrong with you, is it too painful?" Cheng Ying looked at him and slowed down her movements, "Then I'll take it easy."

Cheng Yang slowly rolled his eyes and looked at her. After watching for a while, he slowly lowered his head and leaned on her shoulder.

This was Cheng Ying's first time seeing his brother cry when she grew up. She was a little at a loss, the wound was still bleeding, she thought he was in pain, so she quickly held the back of his hand, puffed up her cheeks and blew on it vigorously.

Cheng Yang didn't come to school for two days.

Chi Yu ran to ask Huang Ming, Huang Ming said that he had asked for leave.

Chi Yu asked him why he asked for leave this time, but Huang Ming said that there was no reason, and he had to deal with some family matters.

Chi Yu sometimes felt that Huang Ming was really eccentric, and it was hard for someone like him to be bedridden for two days.

There was no reason for Cheng Yang to accept it directly, and it was still less than a month before the college entrance examination.

That night he had a very unpleasant fight with Chi Haidong, and he didn't go back. He didn't know when Cheng Yang left. He only wanted to contact him the next day, but the phone couldn't get through, and he kept reminding him to turn off the phone. Chi Yu thought he was out of battery. , I want to wait until school.

After waiting for two days, there was still no news from Cheng Yang. Chi Yu felt annoyed and wanted to ignore it, but compared to the messy problems in front of him now, it seemed that Cheng Yang could do it for this. Not coming to school for two days bothered him even more.

He went to his house to look for him, but he was not there and was about to leave. When he saw that Aunt Qiu had just picked up Cheng Ying, Chi Yu asked them where Cheng Yang was.

Cheng Ying said that he went to his uncle's house.

Chi Yu: "Which uncle, Cheng Yunsheng?"

Cheng Ying shook her head.

Chi Yu: "Then did he say when he'll be back?"

Cheng Ying still shook her head.

Chi Yu was a little impatient with such an answer, he frowned, turned around and left without saying anything.

At the same time, Cheng Yang knelt at the door of Cheng Zong's house, kneeling for a whole day without any rice.