Peek into the light

The birthday party just ended like this. Apart from happy birthday, Fu Xu didn't say anything else to him that night. Even the gift was sent by Chen Feng. It was a bottle of fruit wine without any other packaging, probably brewed by himself.Open it and smell it, the aroma of pomegranate wine is strong.

The things Chen Feng sent were quite standard, a set of wine glasses, and they were sent together with Fu Xu on purpose.

He flipped through the gift box, but couldn't find the birthday card, and a look of disappointment flashed across his face.Chen Feng saw it, and took the initiative to find love for his boss: "Brother Fu said that this time is not your real birthday."

Xie Shiye's birthday is not in autumn, but in winter, Fu Xu's memory is not so bad, he can't even remember what season he celebrated Xie Shiye's birthday in college.

Hearing what Chen Feng said, Xie Shiye breathed a sigh of relief.He had considered that their relationship might deteriorate, but he didn't expect that it would be so bad that Fu Xu would not even write him a birthday card.

Knowing that there was a reason, not deliberately not giving the card, made him feel a lot better.

Xie Shiye's birthday was indeed in winter that year, and it was the time when the Chinese New Year was approaching, in early February.

When he first signed the contract, the company only changed his age for a few months, and the female artists of the same company even changed the year directly.

Later, this birthday continued to be used without correction.

The crew is celebrating his 29th birthday now, but in fact his birthday had already passed before he joined the crew, and there are only three months left before his 30th birthday.

As for Fu Xu University celebrating his birthday, it was when Xie Shiye was 19 years old.

At that time, Xie Shiye, who had just entered college, was having conflicts with his family. He clearly had good grades, but Xie Shiye secretly took the art test behind his back and went to the film school.

This incident made his parents very disappointed in him. Xie Shiye went back home when he was a freshman, and passed a very stiff and bad year.

And because they were disappointed with him, the parents put all their thoughts on the younger brother who was about to take the college entrance examination. The younger brother lived up to the expectations of his parents and was admitted to a well-known key university.

In the second year, Xie Shiye was not very willing to go home, and there was almost no phone communication with his family on weekdays.At that time, Xie Shiye insisted that his choice was not wrong, and he refused to bow his head to his family easily.

Usually, he doesn't ask for money from his family. He prefers to work as a part-time model and earn living expenses and tuition fees by acting as a cameo.

Once the days were very difficult, Xie Shiye could still enjoy himself thinking that it would be good to be independent as soon as possible.

However, during the Chinese New Year, facing the half-empty university town and seeing crowds of people on the streets, dragging their families out to shop and buy New Year's supplies, Xie Shiye still felt deeply lonely.

Regarding the fact that he did not go home for the New Year, the family did not even call.

Xie Shiye sat in the convenience store, facing his 19th birthday, feeling endless loneliness and loneliness.

In fact, he had already known Fu Xu at that time, but Fu Xu was just a very good senior and senior to him. It was for him.

Fu Xu also taught him several times in the drama club, each time Xie Shiye benefited a lot.

But if you like it, that's not true. At that time, Xie Shiye was still a straight man, so he didn't have extra thoughts.

Sometimes it's so just right, neither sooner nor later, love is like a small flame that accidentally pops out of the fire and falls into your heart. When you think of it, it is enough to start a prairie fire.

If the day is not so good, I went out because my birthday was too lonely, I bought myself a small cake in a convenience store, put a candle in it, and cried out in embarrassment.

If that day wasn't so perfect, Fu Xu just came back from the film crew and was going to school to get his ID. He passed by the convenience store and saw him sitting helplessly in the convenience store.

Maybe they will really support each other in school like those seniors and seniors, and gradually alienate after graduation. When they reach middle age, they can still smile knowingly and say that they have known such outstanding alumni.

It's a pity that even if there was a choice, Xie Shiye would still go out on that winter night, on his birthday.

When Fu Xu walked into the convenience store, he didn't approach him rashly at first, but waited until he was almost crying, then pretended to meet him by chance, greeted him, and said that he didn't go back for the New Year, so he could only stay in the dormitory.

In fact, Fu Xu lied. He was going back to the set that night, but he didn't. Instead, when he learned that today was Xie Shiye's 19th birthday, he chose to take Xie Shiye to buy a real birthday cake with numbers. Candles and a bunch of treats.

Fu Xu took Xie Shiye back to his dormitory. His dormitory applied for a single-person dormitory due to work reasons, and the environment was slightly better than Xie Shiye's eight-person dormitory.

There is air conditioning, TV, washing machine, and even a small rice cooker.

Fu Xu used that rice cooker to cook a bowl of longevity noodles for Xie Shiye, and forced Xie Shiye to be old-fashioned once, not to bite off the noodles at the first bite, so that he can live a long and safe life.

The heat in the rice cooker was dense, and puffs of puffs rushed to Xie Shiye's face, steaming his face to blood, and he looked more energetic, at least not like the poor little guy Fu Xu just picked up.

Xie Shiye smiled and said, "I didn't expect you, senior, to look like such a good student, but you still secretly hide the rice cooker in the dormitory."

Fu Xu coughed dryly: "I bought it when I was young and frivolous and ignorant, but it actually didn't use it much. Didn't I re-open it specially for you today?"

Xie Shiye stuffed a mouthful of noodles into his mouth with a smile, but the moment he tasted the noodles, tears fell down his face.

He tried his best to endure the trembling caused by sobbing, obediently stuffed the noodle into his mouth, even though his nose was about to come down from crying, he didn't stop chewing.

Fu Xu didn't laugh at him, let alone told him not to cry, but turned on the TV so that the sound from the TV mixed with his crying, so that he wouldn't be so embarrassed.

Xie Shiye cried until his face became cold, his nose was blocked, and his tongue couldn't taste, so he looked at Fu Xu with red and swollen eyes, "I'm sorry."

Fu Xu's eyes seemed to have just come back from the TV, and he looked at him in surprise: "There's nothing to be sorry for, and if you say sorry on your birthday, you'll have to say sorry for the whole year, it's unlucky, hurry up and pooh."

Xie Shiye laughed loudly: "Why are you like my grandma!"

Fu Xu said awkwardly: "Isn't this a custom? I also don't know much about it. It seems that they all say so."

After finishing speaking, Fu Xu muttered that he was only two years older than Xie Shiye, how could he be so old.

Xie Shiye kept laughing, laughing out all the unhappiness.

He stayed in Fu Xu's room to sleep that day. He and Fu Xu were both straight men at that time, so they had no ideas, and naturally they would not shy away from it.

At three o'clock in the morning, he felt the people around him move. He opened his sore eyes and saw Fu Xu getting up with the faint light of his mobile phone.

Fu Xu obviously didn't want to disturb him, so he got out of bed secretly to get dressed, because it was too dark, and hit the foot of the bed, gasping for breath in pain.

Xie Shiye couldn't continue to pretend to be asleep, he got up and turned on the bedside lamp, and said sullenly, "Senior, what are you doing?"

Fu Xu was holding his knees in pain, and when he saw him wake up, he straightened up pretendingly: "Did I wake you up?"

Xie Shiye shook his head honestly: "This is not my sleeping point, so I sleep very lightly."

Fu Xu looked at him helplessly: "You'll know how powerful you are when you join the crew. Now I'm in the crew and I can't wait to go to bed early every day."

Xie Shiye propped his elbows on the bed, rested his chin on his palm, looked at Fu Xu and smiled, "Because I'm young."

Fu Xu looked like he couldn't tell him, and packed his things into a package: "Go on to sleep, I'm leaving."

Xie Shiye suddenly showed a lost expression, Fu Xu walked over when he saw this, and suddenly raised his hand to cover his eyes, probably because it was a little cold when he got out of bed, his fingertips were slightly cold, but his palm was hot.

Fu Xu said: "The eyes are indeed swollen. I froze a bottle of water on the balcony, and I just used it to compress my eyes tomorrow."

Xie Shiye said, "Is it so cold outside?"

Fu Xu: "Well, it's snowing."

Xie Shiye pulled Fu Xu's hand, looked out the window, and it was snowing.

Fu Xu said: "This is the first snow this year."

Xie Shiye looked at the swaying snowflakes and sighed, "Yes."

Fu Xu put his bag on his back, stuffed Xie Shiye's hand into the quilt, and tucked him in: "Go to sleep, I'm leaving."

Xie Shiye didn't ask why Fu Xu left in the middle of the night, just like Fu Xu didn't ask why he didn't come home after Chinese New Year, sitting alone in the convenience store and crying.

The dormitory door was gently closed, and there was a pleasant smell in the quilt. Xie Shiye crawled out of his own quilt, got into Fu Xu's quilt, and smelled the remaining breath of Fu Xu.

When he realized what he was doing, Xie Shiye's head cleared up briefly.

But soon, he perfunctory himself, saying that it was only because he was too lonely that he wanted the taste of another person.

Thinking about it later, he was really stupid at that time, and he was clearly tempted. From that moment on, or when he saw Fu Xu cooking noodles for him, he focused on his expression.

What Fu Xu said is right, you can’t say sorry on your birthday, you can say sorry for a whole year, similarly, you can’t fall in love with someone on your birthday, you will love him, not just for a whole year.

19-year-old Xie Shiye received a bowl of noodles cooked by Fu Xu himself.

Xie Shiye, 29, also wanted to eat that bowl of noodles.

But he knew that he couldn't be willful, and he couldn't make a request. If the time was rewound to the moment before the confession, he might be able to ask Fu Xu to cook noodles for him.

Because of his birthday, he only got a role in the second afternoon, so he can have a rare indulgence tonight.

Xie Shiye poured wine cup after cup, smoking a cigarette, and slowly swallowed the bottle of fruit wine.

Fruit wine is not intoxicating, and tobacco does not relieve bitterness.

He exhaled a puff of smoke, and the mist was like the water vapor from the longevity noodles that year, and what was even more beautiful was the face of Fu Xu on the opposite side.

Probably because he was drunk, or because he was really drunk, he no longer remembered all the previous thoughts, without any worries, looking forward and backward.

He edited a WeChat message to Fu Xu.

"Thank you for the wine."

"On my real birthday, can I eat longevity noodles?"

But in the end he didn't dare to send it out, he deleted every word, and fell asleep drowsily holding the phone.

In the dream was the cold winter night when he fell in love with someone for the first time.

It was a man, his name was Fu Xu.