Peek into the light

When I woke up the next day, everything returned to reality.He had a scene with Fu Xu, and the filming process was unexpectedly calm.Even if the emotions involved in the play are stronger, as soon as the camera is turned off, there is nothing that cannot end.

Usually Xie Shiye is still immersed in the play, but Fu Xu has withdrawn all his emotions and stepped aside.He was able to move freely in a real sense. Xie Shiye had never been in the same crew as Fu Xu before, so I don't know how his previous state compares to the present.

But Fu Xu has been away from the camera for four years, and he can still have such acting skills, it can only be said that God has rewarded him with food.

When the two leading actors are filming, they are business-like. After the filming, unless necessary, there is usually no unnecessary communication.

The two of them maintained just the right amount of politeness, like colleagues rather than friends.

During the period, Xie Shiye left the crew for three days because he wanted to shoot a lipstick commercial.

On the night of returning to the set, Wen Yao asked him to go to ktv on WeChat.

Xie Shiye asked Wen Yao what surprise he wanted to give him this time. Wen Yao directly sent a video. It was indeed a ktv box, filled with beer and fruit plates. Only Liu Yinian was next to her. The two of them were indeed a little lonely.

Seeing that Fu Xu was not there, Xie Shiye couldn't tell what it was like in his heart. He seemed to be relieved, but what followed was a strong feeling of sinking in his heart.

Xie Shiye went back to the room to put down the suitcase, passed by the door of Fu Xu's room in 808, and glanced at the crack of the door, it was dark and there was no one inside, so Xu went to find Zhong Changming.

He called Shang Yangyang and asked someone to drive to the location sent by Wen Yao. When he got there, he pushed open the door of the box and heard a nice male voice singing.

It's Fu Xu.

Xie Shiye stopped pushing the door. He had actually heard Fu Xu's singing. When Fu Xu was learning guitar in college, he often played and sang by himself. Xie Shiye liked it very much. He once suggested from the bottom of his heart that Fu Xu should also Develop a little singing, which made Fu Xu laugh.

And Fu Xu's singing stopped strangely the moment he saw Xie Shiye.

For a while, there was only melody in ktv, no singing.

Wen Yao, who was clapping the rattle beside her in full swing, didn't stop, but Liu Yinian, who cooperated with Wen Yao with a maraca, held down Wen Yao's hand to prevent her from going crazy.

Fu Xu didn't sing, Liu Yinian picked it up, Xie Shiye couldn't stand at the door for too long, Yang Yang was already asking him what's the matter strangely.

Xie Shiye walked in slowly and sat next to Wen Yao, which was the farthest position from Fu Xu.

He looked at Wen Yao with a smile, and handed her a piece of orange.

Wen Yao was flustered by Xie Shiye's laughter, but the oranges were all up to her mouth, so she could only open her mouth to swallow them.

Xie Shiye asked her with an unchanged smile, "Is it sweet?"

Wen Yao swallowed the orange and nodded.Xie Shiye asked again: "Do you want to know why lemons are so sour?"

After speaking, he held up a slice of lemon and put it to Wen Yao's mouth. Wen Yao pouted bitterly, and just about to open her mouth to continue, Xie Shiye withdrew her hand: "Okay, just kidding."

From the corner of his eye, Liu Yinian could still see half-raised hands. This was because he wanted to be a hero to save the beauty, and to be a black knight to dedicate himself to Wen Yao.

Sure enough, before Wenyao could admit his mistake, Liu Yinian stopped singing, put the microphone on Yangyang, and told Xie Shiye that it was his idea, and Wenyao was just in charge of calling people.

Hearing that Liu Yinian took the initiative to take the blame, how could Wen Yao, who has always respected the old and loved the young, let her younger brother take the blame, she rushed to say that it was her fault.

Xie Shiye waved with a headache and wanted to leave, but was held down by Wen Yao, who said, "Don't, I'm here, it's embarrassing to leave again."

He said angrily, "Isn't it embarrassing now? It's even more embarrassing!"

In fact, he could understand the thoughts of Wen Yao and Liu Yinian. If it was just a conflict between friends, it would be fine to make peace together.

The problem is that there is no conflict between him and Fu Xu. The only conflict is that he likes Fu Xu and Fu Xu doesn't like him.

He couldn't walk and couldn't walk, and he didn't want to sing, so Xie Shiye drank beer from bottle to bottle, and he drank it sullenly, not even knowing when the box quieted down.When the music stopped, he raised his eyes in confusion, and found that Fu Xu was the only one left in the box.

Fu Xu was leaning on the sofa, holding his mobile phone, a bright side flickered in the darkness, reflecting Fu Xu's silent face.

Xie Shiye subconsciously asked, "Where's the person?"

He didn't expect Fu Xu to answer him, there was no one else here except him and Fu Xu, and Fu Xu didn't use it to show outsiders, to show that they could still be friends.

Xie Shiye took out his mobile phone and wanted to call Wen Yao, but Fu Xu said, "Wen Yao went out to answer the phone, and Liu Yinian took Yang Yang to the bathroom."

He had only heard that girls had to go to the bathroom together, and he didn't need to think about it. It was the other three who deliberately gave up space for them to renew their friendship.

Xie Shiye opened another bottle of beer and smiled hoarsely: "This is too strange."

Fu Xu's voice was also inexplicably hoarse: "What?"

Xie Shiye scanned the tea table in front of Fu Xu, and was surprised to find that Fu Xu drank a lot, not in cans, but in glass bottles, counting with the naked eye, at least half a dozen.

He gasped, Fu Xu couldn't drink at all, who made him drink so much? !

Fu Xu seemed drunk, and asked persistently: "What's so strange?"

Xie Shiye's heart moved, he got up and walked over, stopped at a safe distance, and asked softly, "Do you know who I am?"

Fu Xu looked at him quietly for a while: "Xiaoye."

This call made Xie Shiye's heart ache. Counting it, he hadn't heard Fu Xu calling him Xiaoye for almost a month. Hearing it now, it felt like a lifetime ago.

Xie Shiye seemed to be afraid of waking up someone's dream, so he lowered his voice: "Are you drunk?"

Fu Xu didn't speak, his face was red, and his eyes were a little straight: "No."

He knew Fu Xu's drinking capacity, a person who couldn't drink three glasses before, now almost drinks half a dozen, how could he not be drunk.

After confirming that Fu Xu was drunk, Xie Shiye relaxed instead, and sat down next to Fu Xu, complaining: "I don't know if I can't drink, what should I do if I am drunk?"

Fu Xu kept his eyes on him, and said quietly: "No."

"Why not, don't you just take advantage of me now?" Xie Shiye moved himself a little closer to Fu Xu, and squeezed Fu Xu's hand. As expected, the temperature was scalding, it was burnt by alcohol.

Fu Xu looked at his hands, then at Xie Shiye.

Xie Shiye was sure that he was drunk, and he wouldn't remember it anyway when he woke up, so he got up as he wanted.Seeing Fu Xu's reaction, he deliberately bullied him: "Look, I touched your hand, am I taking advantage of you?"

Fu Xu seemed to find it funny, so he laughed, shaking his head while laughing, as if denying Xie Shiye's idea of ​​taking advantage.

Xie Shiye was a little annoyed: "What are you laughing at, I've done even more egregious things."

"What is it?" Fu Xu asked.

Xie Shiye said, "I kissed you secretly."

Fu Xu's eyes widened slightly, as if a little frightened, looking very cute.Xie Shiye continued: "The stage play in my sophomore year, after the finale, I took you to the hotel when you were drunk, and I kissed you."

"In the end...you don't remember anything." Xie Shiye bit his lower lip in frustration: "I knew..."

Fu Xu asked him: "What did you know earlier?"

Xie Shiye showed a sad expression, this was the first time he did not hide it in front of Fu Xu, revealing how sad he was, he looked like he was about to cry: "It's better to let you know from the beginning, You wouldn't like me anyway."

After Fu Xu finished listening, he didn't speak for a long time. He reached out to pick up the beer and wanted to drink it, but Xie Shiye quickly snatched it over: "Don't drink it, you want to vomit like last time again?"

"Xie Shiye." Fu Xu suddenly called him in a very serious tone.

Fu Xu asked him, "Do you want to know what happened to me and Sinan?"

Xie Shiye put the beer bottle back on the table, and said in a depressed tone: "I know, you fell in love with him because of the drama, you liked him, you came out for him at the age of 28, and you went to the United States to get married, your marriage There are many pigeons outside the temple..." He even fed it, but after feeding it, he didn't dare to enter the church and left directly.

After hearing this, Fu Xu shook his head: "No."

Xie Shiye said, "What's wrong?"

Fu Xu's eyes fell on a certain place complicatedly, and he slowly and calmly talked about the past, which was completely opposite to what Xie Shiye knew.

Sinan was born in an extremely conservative family. He and Sinan did meet when they were young, and they did get involved in a play. During that time, the young people's seemingly real and fake love was beautiful, like a ray of warm sunshine.

It's just that they were still young at the time, and they only felt that they had doubts about their own sexuality because they entered the drama for a while, and their vague affection would not allow them to break through the boundaries.

Fu Xu thinks he is a straight man, and Si Nan is even less likely to like men because of family factors.

When we met again, it was still because of the drama. At that time, he was already 28, successful and full of vigor and high spirits.

And Sinan is still tired of playing small roles in various crews, maybe it's because others purposely compared their current situation day by day, and seeing the scene where the crew deliberately bullied Sinan, Fu Xu took the initiative to extend a helping hand.

He took Sinan with him and told everyone that this was his old friend and they had a very good relationship.After getting along day by day, this relationship gradually warmed up, and they were together.

This is the first time Fu Xu has been in love with a man. He also has a lot of things he doesn't understand. He feels that he is a protector in this relationship. Sinan is sensitive and fragile and has a lot of worries. He has to make him feel at ease.

It's a pity that he didn't protect Sinan after all. They were photographed, and those people came after Fu Xu. They just wanted to expose the scandal that Fu Yingdi was of the same sex, and they didn't care who Sinan was.

At the beginning, it was threatening, asking for a price, and approaching step by step. Sinan was about to collapse when he found out about this incident. Just because this incident was exposed, his career and family would be ruined.

Fu Xu kept comforting his lover, negotiating with them, looking for companies, looking for relationships, and asking everyone who could help.When he was running around, he didn't know that his lover's mental state gradually became unbearable under the long lonely waiting and fear.

After all, the matter was not under control. On the day the photos were exposed, Fu Xu discussed with the company. He wanted to take the initiative to admit the matter. The matter has reached this point, so it is better to admit it generously.

But the situation didn't calm down as he thought. Huge public opinion and countless malice kept attacking him.No matter how you suppress the news, it will be brought up again and again.

In the end, the company was helpless, and the breach of contract was received one by one. Under the huge breach of contract clause, the company chose to abandon him and let him stop all activities.

At this time, Sinan had suicidal tendencies for the first time.

The scene where Fu Xu bumped into Si Nan lying in the bathtub and wanted to cut his own hand was completely out of his wits.He immediately decided to take Sinan away and go to the United States, where the domestic media could not track him in time for medical treatment.

Sinan was his responsibility, it was he who failed to protect him.

And the news of their going to the United States was reported by the domestic media as a marriage, Fu Xu didn't have the energy to care about it, maybe this is a better excuse, Sinan can't bear more blows.

He was with Sinan in the United States for treatment, and Sinan's family had completely cut off contact with him. Fu Xu's family understood and supported him, and even visited them in the United States.

After a year of treatment, Sinan finally recovered a bit. Under such circumstances, he proposed to Fu Xu.

Facing such a lover, Fu Xu couldn't refuse, but deep down in his heart, he knew that a large part of the reason why Sinan became what he is today is because of him.

Si Nan said he wanted to have a family, Fu Xu agreed.

They simply register, get married, and wear the pair of rings.It's a pity that even so, Fu Xu still couldn't give Sinan enough sense of security. After he thought everything was fine, he went to class, improved his acting skills, and started acting again.

He didn't expect that his behavior would lead to the rapid deterioration of Sinan's mental state. When Sinan was awake, he wouldn't say those hurtful words, but when he was unconscious, he would cry constantly, smash things, and accuse Fu Xu.

Si Nan smashed the photo frame of the two of them on the ground, and his feet were dripping with blood. He cried out heartbreakingly: "I originally liked women, why did you let me go on this road?"

"They are here for you, they want to expose you! If it wasn't me, there would be someone else, why is it me!"

"I have nothing left! Family, friends, career! You still have so many people who help you, you take acting classes, you are confident that you can return to the screen, and me! I have nothing! My dad calls I'm going to die, why don't you let me die!"

"Fu Xu! I hate you! You ruined me!"

Fu Xu was powerless to refute, and he couldn't refute. He looked at his lover's unrecognizable appearance, watched the medical staff push the tranquilizer into Sinan's body, and listened to the tactful advice of the doctor who treated Sinan.

In this case, the doctor said, he had better separate himself from the patient for a period of time, lest the patient become agitated and his condition worsen.

Fu Xu still agreed.

Sinan didn't want to see him, and he didn't dare to see Sinan. During this relationship, he was physically and mentally exhausted, and guilt and pressure almost overwhelmed him.

He couldn't sleep all night, and he started seeing a doctor and treatment.

Another year later, he received the divorce contract from Sinan, just like he accepted Sinan's marriage proposal, this time, he still fulfilled Sinan's wish.

After all...it was all his fault.

Fu Xu narrated very slowly, but Xie Shiye was trembling all over. He wanted to speak, but found that his throat was blocked and he couldn't speak.

At this moment, Fu Xu stretched out his hand, held his right cheek in his palm, brushed his thumb under his eyes, and wiped away the tears that fell for him who didn't know when,

Fu Xu said to him tiredly and tenderly: "Xiaoye, don't like me, I don't want to ruin you."