Peek into the light

When Liu Yinian passed by with the coffee, Fu Xu was sitting in a chair with the script spread out on his lap. Instead of introspecting himself and studying the script as Zhong Changming said, his eyes fell on a place not far away, dazed.

He followed Fu Xu's gaze and found that it was a pair of cuddling birds, fluffy and brightly colored, one of them was running its beak along the other's fur and making bright calls.

Liu Yinian made slightly heavier footsteps, which Fu Xu could hear. He smiled at Fu Xu and shook the coffee in his hand: "Mr. Fu, do you want some coffee?"

Fu Xu nodded to him, and said softly: "Thank you." Liu Yinian put the coffee on the plastic chair next to him, where Fu Xu's mobile phone was placed, the screen had not yet dimmed, it looked like a stage photo, and he hadn't looked at it yet. Clear, Fu Xu turned the phone over and covered it.

Liu Yinian looked away naturally, pretending he didn't see it.He opened the plastic bag, took out the black coffee, and two cubes of sugar: "Drink the coffee first, then eat the sugar, right?"

Fu Xu paused when he took the coffee, and then looked at Liu Yinian inquiringly. Liu Yinian remained calm and let him watch.Fu Xu smiled wryly and shook his head: "He certainly didn't ask you to tell me that."

Liu Yinian dragged the chair next to him and sat down: "Yes, he kept telling me again and again, don't let you know who asked me to come here."

Neither of them said Xie Shiye's name, it was like a riddle, but they both knew who he was.

Fu Xu opened the lid of the coffee and drank more than half of the cup in one gulp. His brows trembled slightly due to the bitterness, but he didn't eat any sugar, letting the sourness spread on the tip of his tongue.

Liu Yinian sat quietly with him, and Fu Xu felt that Liu Yinian must have noticed something, otherwise he would not have deliberately let him know that Xie Shiye sent the coffee.

Noticing Fu Xu's scrutiny, Liu Yinian turned his face: "Actually, I always felt that the atmosphere in our production crew was very good. You and brother Xie are not on airs, and you have taught me a lot. Wen... Miss Wen Yao is also very good."

Fu Xu smiled, which was warmer than before, a sincere smile: "Yeah, I feel good too."

Liu Yinian: "Brother Xie is very worried about you."

Fu Xu was silent for a while: "I know."

Liu Yinian waited for a while, seeing that Fu Xu had no intention of speaking, he also felt that he could understand.It would be strange if Fu Xu really said something to him.

He stretched, stood up, and said to Fu Xu, "So come on, Mr. Fu, we are all optimistic about you." After he took a few steps, he stopped suddenly, then turned around and said, "I almost forgot."

Liu Yinian took out a tablet from the paper coffee bag he brought. There is no password, and it turns on when you press it.Liu Yinian handed the tablet in front of Fu Xu: "There are many movies in it, before the filming starts so soon, let's watch one first, they are all movies you like."

When Fu Xu is in a bad mood, he likes to go to the cinema alone to watch movies. He once told Xie Shiye that in the future his house will specially set up a darkroom for watching movies.

Xie Shiye asked him how much he likes watching movies, Fu Xu smiled and said, it's not that he likes watching movies, but he likes to watch them when he's in a bad mood.

If you want to watch a movie quietly, if you have someone you like, let's watch it together.

The memory became inappropriately clear at this time. He remembered that when he told the person he liked, the smile on Xie Shiye's face stopped for a moment, and then brightened. He asked him what kind of girl he liked, like his predecessor, Or the elementary school girl who is chasing him now.

Thinking about it now, maybe the clues had already been there, but he didn't notice it.At the moment of knowing the answer, all the details are strung together, presenting an inescapable situation.

Xie Shiye liked him, from a very early age.

After the initial shock, it became a dull pain now, the chest was pressed like a cold with thick cotton wool, and even light breaths were heavy and slow.

He once said that Xie Shiye's acting skills have improved. How could he have imagined that Xie Shiye's acting skills were very good from the beginning. There is no one better than him. In the scene belonging to the two of them, Fu Xu, who was the only audience, sighed thought.

Xie Shiye stood on the stage all the time, silently acting in a secret love scene, it was still a pantomime, even the movements were careful, after acting for so long, and as the only audience invited to the venue, he was even absent for many years.

Because of an accident, he returned to that stage, and only then did he realize that Xie Shiye was still on stage.

And he had only two choices, to go on stage with Xie Shiye and develop a sad or happy ending, or turn around and leave, leaving Xie Shiye alone on the stage.

Intellectually, it is best to turn around and leave, because let the actor know that there will be no audience to watch the scene, and he will not continue to act.

In the end... I can't bear it, this is the most chaotic state, and also the worst.

Xie Shiye couldn't even say those words of rejecting others in the past.

This is just a momentary infatuation, and the feeling of heartbeat will dissipate with time. It is your illusion that you don't like me that much.

With these reasons, even he felt that he was insulting Xie Shiye's ten-year relationship.

Even Fu Xu felt that he had nothing to like, so why did it give people the illusion of such a long time.

And this person was Xie Shiye.

This man is quite superior in all aspects.

If it is said that he is worthy or not, it is probably because he is not worthy. He is devastated emotionally, at a low point in his career, and has no advantages. Xie Shiye should like someone better than him.

He could indeed accept Xie Shiye, but one day Xie Shiye would wake up like Sinan and realize that he was just an ordinary person with shortcomings of one kind or another. At that time, would Xie Shiye regret it?

As Si Nan said, his love ruined him.

It would be very irresponsible to give the result without thinking about it carefully.

What's more, Xie Shiye's career achievements are so high, he doesn't want to let the things he endured in the past happen to Xie Shiye again after the relationship is exposed.

Fu Xu let out a long breath, full of self-blame, he rubbed his forehead, reflecting deeply.

It would be great if he could be more measured in his dealings with people, or if he discovered Xie Shiye's feelings as soon as possible, and could stop the loss in time, without delaying Xie Shiye for so many years.

But if he really discovered Xie Shiye's feelings when he was in college, would he be able to firmly refuse?Maybe, maybe not.This is an answer that is impossible to know, and now he really doesn't know what to do.

Fu Xu turned on the tablet, and it turned out that they were all his favorite movies. He stared at the screen silently, but even the movies couldn't make him feel better.

Here, Liu Yinian returned to the set with empty hands, and Xie Shiye heaved a sigh of relief knowing that he had sent the things away.

On the side, Wen Yao let out a long breath, thinking that Liu Yinian's face was fine, and it was probably lucky that Best Actor Fu didn't get mad at him.

In the afternoon play, Fu Xu did not perform well, but he was much better than in the morning. It seems that movies are still very useful, Xie Shiye thought.

Fortunately, his scenes were staggered from Fu Xu's later, because they were not filming in the same group, so Fu Xu offered to arrange the dressing room in group B, so they would not put on makeup together.

After Xie Shiye heard the news, he couldn't say that he wasn't sad, but maybe he had already made psychological preparations, and there was nothing to despair about now, it was all his own choice.

He just hoped that Fu Xu would not throw away that pot of jade tree, that was the only thing he left with Fu Xu.

After realizing that Fu Xu was avoiding him consciously, Xie Shiye didn't dare to entangle him brazenly.

He was such a person in the first place, if he wasn't, he wouldn't be able to bear it for so many years.

It's just that I didn't expect the ending to be like this, everything was messed up by him, and the filming of "Born" was almost finished, so it would be great if we could get together and break up in the end.

Occasionally met in the corridor, or in an elevator, Xie Shiye didn't dare to speak to Fu Xu.

Fu Xu was silent and exhausted, he hardly looked at him, and when Xie Shiye saw this, he didn't even dare to speak to him.

His current state is like cutting an old wound severely, pus and blood are scattered, and new tissue grows from the wound. Perhaps one day, sooner or later, it will completely heal and recover over time.

I don't know if his situation was seen by others.That night, Wen Yao kept pestering him, asking him to go out to relax, saying that she was bored in the film crew and wanted to go to ktv. She knew a sister who could provide a very private box.

Wen Yao also said that many artists would have fun in private, why Xie Shiye was as dull as an old man.

Xie Shiye, who is about to turn 30, was aroused by Wen Yao's old man's sense of crisis. To prove that he is not old, he went.

Unexpectedly, the ktv gave him a surprise at the scene. There was a birthday cake on the rectangular table. They celebrated his birthday on Baidu Encyclopedia, although his birthday was not at this time.

But it was all here, everyone was elated, and the cake was served. Xie Shiye didn't want to spoil the fun, so he just took out his card for everyone to enjoy, and he would pay the bill.And he made a wish cooperatively, blowing out the candles.

In the lively box, during the birthday song sung by everyone, he stood in front of the cake, and in the flickering candlelight, he saw Fu Xu standing opposite.

Fu Xu's expression was the opposite of those who laughed and sang birthday songs, but looked at him in silence with no expression on his face.

Xie Shiye dodged subconsciously, but soon, he mustered up the courage to meet him and smiled.

Fu Xu was startled, they looked at each other through the crowd, finally Fu Xu smiled, softened his brows and eyes, opened his lips silently, and said happy birthday to him.

Xie Shiye clasped his fingers tightly, closed his eyes and made a wish.

Ever since he fell in love with Fu Xu, his wish has not changed much every year.

But this year has changed.

In previous years, he had been praying that Fu Xu would visit him.

Even more, she would secretly wish that Fu Xu would fall in love with him.

I don't want to this year.

As long as Fu Xu is happy, he doesn't want to make Fu Xu sad.

Please tell Fu Xu not to care about him, so that he can continue to lead his own life.

This is his best wish for him.

In the dark box, Xie Shiye opened his eyes, the candlelight reflected a little moisture in his eye sockets, he put down his hands, bowed his head and blew out the candle.