don't be alone anymore

*I'm not a nice person*

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How could there be no time to be afraid?

It is because of countless times of fear, countless times of fear, that Wen Yang can be in awe of this profession.

She had witnessed the sacrifice of one policeman, and was trapped in a prison of her own construction for many years because of the sacrifice of another policeman in various senses.

It was impossible for her to be indifferent to all the impulses in her head, and Yu Rang's disregard almost made her face the sacrifice of her life again.

When the matter of sacrifice comes, you will suddenly find that it is actually so close to us.

Everyone who is a policeman seems to have rejected the term sacrifice.

They mistakenly think that subconscious avoidance can bring good luck to themselves.

I mistakenly think that as long as I don't think about it, I can really get the mercy of God and live this life in peace without sacrificing anything.

However, thinking about it carefully, even when Wen Yang was doing economic investigation work, Wen Yang had times of fear.

Thinking about it afterwards, if she hadn't encountered a fluke at the beginning, maybe she would have become the next person to sacrifice many lives.

……

Sitting in the back seat of the taxi, Wen Yang recalled the reason why he applied to be transferred from the Economic Investigation Detachment to the Patrol Detachment...

In June last year, the anti-drug detachment and the economic investigation detachment started to investigate a serious drug trafficking case.

The number three in the drug cartel is a sexist.

The female policemen from the anti-drug detachment who could help were baited over and over again, but number three just refused to take the bait.

The helpless leader of the anti-drug detachment contacted Wen Yang who had just finished his economic investigation mission without notifying Gu Yanming.

Afterwards, the No. [-] person was hooked because of Wen Yang, and the raid of the police station caused half of the drug cartel to be disintegrated overnight.

However, in this operation, the No. [-] and No. [-] characters of the group failed to appear at the scheduled location because of the leak of the insider in the police station.

After a thorough investigation, it was found that the inner ghost was a logistics staff of the anti-drug detachment.

The news of closing the net was leaked because relatives were threatened.

The logistics staff were punished, and Wen Yang also blamed himself for not arranging the transaction one day earlier because of the result of failing to win a big victory.

Police officer Wen, who felt dereliction of duty, voluntarily applied to be transferred to the patrol detachment because of self-blame.

It was her punishment for herself to be transferred to the lowest level and the front line.

……

"Officer, here we are."

The taxi driver interrupted Wen Yang's silence.

Wen Yang looked out the window, the car had already driven to the entrance of the cafeteria.

"Go ahead, master. Go to the police station and put me down."

"Eh, good."

She didn't get off the car and couldn't go to the cafeteria immediately.

She wanted to change her clothes, to appear cleaner before those people, and to appear cleaner next to Jian Muzi.

She's selfish enough.

……

"Boss, you are here!"

Both the emergency team and Zhang Luzhi are there.

Seeing Wen Yang appear in the cafeteria, Zhang Luzhi got up consciously and greeted Wen Yang.

Wen Yang came looking for the sound, with a smile on his face.

Sitting next to Jian Muzi, she naturally took the plate from Jian Muzi.

She has a decision in her heart...

The first step to being unselfish is to put everything back to the way it was before.

……

During lunch time, Wen Yang talked a lot.

At the end of lunch, the group finally saw Yu Rang appearing in the cafeteria with his head downcast.

Yu Rang changed into a spare police uniform before he dared to come over.

He stared at Wen Yang at the entrance of the cafeteria, and dared to come over after a long delay.

"You're too slow, kid! The boss has finished his meal, so you came here just now."

"I……"

Yu Rang glanced at Wen Yang timidly.

He didn't know how to answer Zhang Luzhi's words.

What happened not long ago was indeed something he took for granted.

In order to express himself in front of Wen Yang, he lost his head.

Saving people is indeed very important, but if you don't even care about your own safety and save people, it will only make the situation worse.

He couldn't imagine, if there was no life buoy thrown by Wen Yang just now, if Wen Yang and the passing citizens hadn't pulled him and the suicidal man back to the shore...

With his physical strength approaching the critical value, he might be buried at the bottom of the lake with those who committed suicide.

Wen Yang's words of admonishing him still echoed in his ears until now, making him fearful again and again.

On the other hand, what about Wen Yang?

Still with a faint expression, he was completely focused on the chicken soup bowl in front of him.

She noticed Yu Rang's wink, but still kept his attitude cold.

Jian Muzi at the dining table sized up the two of them for a while, then frowned slightly.

Something must have happened to these two people in the morning.

……

After lunch, a group of people walked to the scene of the police-community party.

On the way, Yu Rang wanted to talk to Wen Yang several times.

However, Wen Yang, who had been concentrating on chatting with Jian Muzi, never gave him a chance to apologize.

It wasn't until before the afternoon party started that the angry police officer finally took a look at Yu Rang.

"There won't be a next time."

"I promise."

Wen Yang chuckled inwardly.

She knew best that such assurances were nothing but consoling nonsense.

……

The police-people get-together was quite successful.

The staff of the street and community neighborhood committees prepared the program very carefully.

Even teachers and students from nearby colleges and universities participated.

Perhaps it was because I heard that a policeman died saving a kindergarten child some time ago, and the schools near the Public Security Bureau responded positively to this party.

At the end of the party, a slow and long slow dance music was released from the stereo.

It was originally the finale program of the elderly dance troupe, but in the end it evolved into an interactive activity with the participation of the audience.

Qiao Mujun, who hadn't shown up for a long time, suddenly appeared at the party today.

Gu Yanming, who was forcibly escorted by the anti-drug captain to watch the show, was also present today.

Qiao Mujun accepted the invitation of another male audience, and the two entered the dance floor together, and started a slow dance for two.

And Fade Chen and Zhang Luzhi who were having fun at the side...

Naturally, they didn't dare to invite Jian Muzi and Wen Yang as female companions. The brothers invited strange and lovely girls.

As for Jian Muzi and Wen Yang...

Wen Yang sat in the audience area and listened to two dance songs.

She was just wondering why this finale was so long.

"Wen Yang?"

"Ok?"

Before Jian Muzi could speak, Wen Yang stretched out his hand first.

Let me invite you to dance to this last song.

……

She leaned against her shoulders, she leaned against her shoulders.

She put her arms around her waist, she held her waist lightly.

With a relatively speechless silence, they tell each other their hearts.

……

"Shall I treat you to dinner, Jian Mumu?"

"it is good."

That night, Wen Yang took Jian Muzi to her favorite local restaurant in Dongcheng District.

Before showing up at the cafeteria at noon, she called in advance to book a private room in this restaurant.

During the dinner, it was still a peaceful time for the guests and the host to enjoy themselves.

After dinner, Wen Yang took Jian Muzi to the garden area in the atrium of the restaurant.

……

"Jian Mumu, how much do you think Master Li's death has affected his wife and An An?"

Wen Yang didn't wait for Jian Muzi's answer,

"While you're not sure about the impact, you now know enough about the impact my mother's sacrifice had on me."

"Her sacrifice made me a policeman...Her sacrifice also made my grandma unable to forget her even when she was suffering from Alzheimer's disease..."

"I think every policeman may have avoided the issue of sacrifice before becoming a police officer...not only the sacrifice of life, but also sacrifices in many aspects..."

"My father has a very long scar on his foot, and there is also a scar on his back... When I was in elementary school, I was injured by catching a drug dealer one year... If it wasn't for my mother's sacrifice, if it wasn't for me giving up being a policeman, maybe he There will be more wounds... maybe..."

"Gu Yanming told me a long time ago that he will not be anyone's destination...Once it starts, there will be thoughts...How can it be possible for people who are working hard to live without thoughts? Even those who have lost their memories Old people still have thoughts..."

Wen Yang shook her tightly clenched hands, and her right hand behind her squeezed the uninjured fingers of her left hand one after another.

The injured little finger of the left hand is still slightly swollen.

Since rescuing people in the artificial lake at noon, the little finger with the retainer seemed to be slightly swollen.

"Sister Zhizhou and I... there may be many people... feel that you have become a little different... not like... the little glacier before..."

"You are very busy with emergency work, and you will be back in a hospital and in the Department of Cardiac Surgery in two or three months."

"Jian Mumu... I hope there is someone... who can not only take care of you, make you like... the most important thing is to make you feel at ease, and have time to accompany you."

"After all we are... best friends... After all... you are my best friend..."

……

What fell into Wen Yang's ear... was Jian Muzi's chuckle.

Wen Yang didn't dare to look into Jian Muzi's eyes again, she was afraid of seeing herself in those eyes, and also afraid that the other party would see disobedience in her eyes.

When the chuckle made her feel flustered, Jian Muzi returned to her body with her left hand.

"Let's go, go to the hospital for a checkup."

Jian Muzi got up with Wen Yang.

she said,

"It's a great honor to be Wen Yang's best friend."

Jian Muzi led Wen Yang for a few steps, then said,

"You're my best friend too."

……

There is no secondary injury to the injured little finger.

After getting rid of the swollen finger, I will be able to return to normal next week.

Someone who sucked //blood//ghosts for a long time may have also been a devil countless times in the meantime.

Wen Yang knew that he was a despicable and selfish villain.

She absorbed the warmth from Jian Muzi's body, indulged Jian Muzi's approach, but cut off the further possibility between the two at the last moment.

She wasn't sure whether Jian Muzi's change was due to her emotional deterioration, she just hoped to minimize her pain and regret before it was too late.

Jian Muzi only regards her as her best friend, and this is the best result.

Even if there were other thoughts, let them be sealed in the past.

Her sweetheart always deserves the best.

The best giving, the best warmth, the best company, the best love, instead of choosing someone who is selfish and despicable like her.

She gave her nothing and took so much from her.

Even unraveling the knot in his mother's heart was because of Jian Muzi's presence.

What is the grievance and regret in her heart?

She's got the best of it.

She's what she admits—best friend.

……

Before meeting Jian Muzi, her imagination of love was indomitable, and she had never been a deserter in her past life experience.

But ever since she was sure that she fell in love with Jian Muzi, she never dared to imagine love again.

She, a despicable person, deserves to have a career that requires self-sacrifice, and deserves to atone for her life.

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