gentle fall

Wen Yanshen thought he was dreaming.

If she wasn't dreaming, why would she hear that person calling in her ear: Ah Shen.Ah deep.

They were each other's best friends from high school to high school.

She was quiet and gentle, and she was supposed to be the shadow of that person, but it was not the case.

At that time, Xu Fang was like her shadow, holding her hand carefully, shedding tears when she was sad, insisting on sending her home in snowy weather, such gentle company.

The first time they kissed was at dusk.

The college entrance examination was approaching, and the weather was getting hotter day by day. They sneaked out before evening self-study and took a walk in the small park near the school. Her hot forehead was sweating. Xu searched for it in her pocket for a long time before finding one. Coins, bought her a popsicle.

The girl pursed her lips, and only took a small bite. The faint sweetness of lychees pervaded her lips, and her eyebrows and eyes were also very sweet: "Let's go, you can eat too."

Xu Fang looked at her, at the drops of water on her snowy forehead, at her glistening pink lips, his eyes were a little erratic: "Hmm...is it sweet?"

"Sweet. You eat what you eat."

Xu Fang looked at her, pursed his lips again and again, and finally said, "Yan Shen...we will graduate soon."

"Well, what's the matter?"

"I...I'm afraid..."

The girl took out a tissue, stood on tiptoe and wiped her sweat: "What are you afraid of, tell me?"

Xu Fang gritted his teeth, and said outright: "I'm afraid you are too cute and will be tricked away by others."

Wen Yan let out a deep laugh: "Only you think I'm cute."

Xu Fang took a deep look at her, the girl's eyes were clean and pure, her heart was very pure, she never understood the eyes of others looking at her... She never understood, if it wasn't because she was by her side every day, she would As many love letters as I received, I also received many confessions.

She hoped that she would never understand...but she also hoped that she would understand.

They were each other's best friends, but she wanted to go further, but she dared not go any further, for fear of scaring her away, fearing that she would panic, fearing that she...would never want her again.

Just like that summer, on the playground, she was bewildered and said that she wanted to kiss. She still remembers the girl's bewildered eyes at that time, which made her regret it too late.

But now, they will graduate soon, and they may go to different universities. Even if they go to the same university, it is difficult for them to be in the same major, in the same class, and there will be many, many people who like her and pursue her.

Thinking of this, she lowered her head and said in a low voice, "Will you forget me?"

"Let go? What did you say?"

"I said... will you forget me? This world is very big, very big, you will meet many shining people, you..."

The girl raised her face in confusion, her cheeks were slightly bulging, and she looked a little angry: "What are you talking about! Didn't we agree that we will be together wherever we go?"

Xu Fang stared at her with forbearable fanaticism in his eyes, and she couldn't control it anymore: "I can't stay by your side forever. Unless...unless, you are my girlfriend!"

"……you……"

The girl's face turned red at a speed visible to the naked eye, her eyes were wet, clean and ethereal, and her eyelashes trembled slightly.

Having spoken, Xu Fang didn't intend to stop. She embraced her with one hand, lowered her head slightly, and kissed her. Her lips covered her lips. It was only a short moment, but it was something she had been thinking about for three years. .

Wen Yanshen was even more at a loss, and reached out to touch his lips: "You...you kiss me?"

Seeing her ignorant expression, Xu Fang suddenly began to regret and blame himself madly, his eyes were slightly red: "Yes, I kissed you... I'm sorry, I offended you, I... I didn't want to, but I really control you." I can't help myself...I'm sorry I'm sorry...I..."

It doesn't matter if you don't like me, can we continue to be friends, I can guard you for the rest of my life.

She took a few steps back, feeling a heart beating too fast in her chest, and her ribs began to hurt. She took a deep breath and tried to smile: "We..."

Go back to the classroom.

She stopped talking only halfway through.

She kisses her.

In the intoxicated evening breeze, she kissed her tenderly.

The kiss was instant. Before she could react, the girl had already taken a step back, her collarbone was pink with shame, her eyes were wet and bright, and she said clumsily but seriously, "I like you."

Suddenly a string snapped.

Xu Fang stood there in a daze, why... why was the confession that she had kept in her heart for so long, but this person said it first.

She didn't know what to say, so she could only smile, the corners of her lips curled up, as if she couldn't believe it, she asked again: "What... what did I hear wrong?"

The girl blushed completely when she asked her, and couldn't wait for her response, so she bit her lip, embarrassed to speak again, turned around and ran away.

How could Xu Fang let her run away, chased after her, hugged her from behind, pushed her against the wall, and said with burning eyes, "Say it again."

"...You are good or bad, you bully me, if you don't say anything, let me say it."

The girl was pinned against the wall by her, her young and green body had already developed the graceful curves that women are born with, they fit so perfectly, but they were too close...so close that she blushed: "You Let go."

Xu Fang didn't let go: "You said you like me...I'm not dreaming, am I?"

"……Um."

After a long time, the girl hummed softly like a mosquito.

She was about to say something else, but her warm lips fell down. The man's kiss was as warm and gentle as hers. He carefully pecked and kissed her, and murmured intoxicatedly: "It's really a dream...you actually Like me too, you actually like me too, Ah Shen... Ah Shen, I love you so much."

It was their first taste of love when they were young, and they were all intoxicated in this warm and sweet kiss.

Like the thick clouds in autumn, like the sweet cotton candy outside the school gate, mixed with the lychee-flavored ice cream that hasn't melted before, it turns out...it's so sweet to like someone.

At that time, they were pure white pawns who had just stepped onto the chessboard, far from knowing how fate would play tricks on mortals—this short-lived sweetness turned out to be paid for by 20 years of suffering.

Wen Yanshen held Xu Fang's hand tightly.

Consciousness is gradually waking up, but she doesn't want to wake up, she is still thinking about the kiss in the summer evening, still thinking... Is it only at this moment that I can hold her hand unscrupulously, look at her secretly, in the future... ...It will not work in the future.

Xu Fang sat on the floor beside the bed, resting his chin lightly on the edge of the bed, tilting his head to look at their clenched hands and her sleeping face, like countless times before, she was quietly guarding her side.

She looked at her and shed tears all over her face at some point.

……

After that day, they did not see each other for a long time.

Wen Yanshen reorganized the structure, and rectified everything inside and outside the group. Wen Yanshen had evaded responsibility for too many years, and now there is no reason to evade it. What's more, after this matter is settled, she will leave again.

Xu Fang didn't contact her either.

Her name occasionally appeared on the news. It turned out that she participated in an industry summit in the United States and gave a wonderful speech. For a while, netizens were very interested in this beautiful CEO. They went to dig her history and found out that Xu During his school days, the president was a god of learning who was recommended all the way. Now he has a successful career. His wife comes from a famous family. She is a graceful beauty with a net worth of hundreds of billions and a beautiful family.

Wen Yan drank a cup of coffee and watched the news quietly.

She is leaving.

But before leaving...she still wanted to see her again.

She lowered her head and looked at the time. She was leaving now, just in time for a business dinner, and she happened to see the list before, so she knew Xu Fang would attend.

She didn't want to see her again in private, she just wanted to look at her from a distance, to see that she was all right, and then she could leave.

The company originally arranged for a vice president to go there, and when they heard that she was interested, they warmly invited her to join him.

She agreed, but didn't change her clothes. She was wearing a suit and skirt under her coat. The professional atmosphere was too strong. The vice president was a little embarrassed and wanted to ask her if she wanted to change. Wen Yanshen smiled indifferently: "You don't need to worry about it." I need to go first."

The lights are gorgeous, men and women wear expensive and exquisite clothes, and the fragrance of cologne permeates the air quietly.

She was out of place with the dinner party, but she didn't care, she just stood in the corner and waited peacefully, until finally Xu Fang came.

She was wearing a dark rose-toned dress with suspenders, her makeup was glamorous and exquisite, her long hair was slightly curly, and her flaming red lips. She came in a graceful manner, with an indifferent and dignified expression, and beside her... the woman holding her hand, with a warm voice She spoke softly and smiled lightly, but that smile instantly pierced Wen Yanshen's eyes.

She pursed her lips tightly, thinking to herself, so you were lucky, so you thought... maybe there was a chance, maybe there was a possibility.

What a wishful thinking.

Now that she has seen this side, she has no reason to stay.

The banquet started at the beginning of the year, but she fled in despair.

The return flight has already been booked.

This time, even Wen Yan didn't try to persuade her anymore, his eyes were gentle and compassionate: "Go, if staying here makes you uncomfortable, just go out."

Wen Yanshen smiled lightly.

She had very little luggage, a small suitcase when she came home, and it was the same when she left. On the day before she left, she sat in the room all day in a daze, and felt scared at that moment—the last time she left was 20 years ago, that this time……

Maybe I will never set foot on my homeland again in this life.

The phone vibrated slightly, it was Xu Fang calling.

She knew she shouldn't answer it, but she finally answered it, her voice was very low: "What's the matter?"

"... I haven't seen you for a long time, what are you doing today?"

"Well. It's okay."

"Let's meet, you choose the location."

"Your home. I'll come over."

She hung up the phone and called a car to go there. It was just dark when she arrived at Xu Fang's house. She rang the doorbell and the door opened. Xu Fang was standing at the door in pure cotton home clothes, a little at a loss: "Soon!" ah."

Wen Yanshen hummed lightly: "What's the matter?"

Xu Fang turned sideways to let her in, wanted to hold her hand, but put it down again: "Just... I know a little thing, it may be useful to Wen."

"Thank you."

She cherishes words like gold, sat down on the sofa, lowered her head slightly, calm and introverted, and rarely spoke.

Xu Fang really wanted to talk to her, but didn't know what to say.

That time when Wen Yanshen was cooking at her house and passed out from the pain, she never saw her again, and she no longer knew how to face her.

She couldn't do it with cold words, nor could she wantonly plunder, she regretted it, and didn't want to go against her heart anymore... She even wanted to let go completely, but she really couldn't bear it.

She only shared some recent information with her, and Wen Yan took it down, and thanked him very seriously: "Thank you."

Xu Fang looked at her quietly, with some confusion in his voice: "Could it be that now, apart from thank you, you have nothing to say to me, and nothing to ask me?"

Wen Yan lowered his eyes deeply, silently admitting.

"I..." Xu Fang's voice was a little hoarse, not as bright as before, but rather haggard, "I really don't know..."

Wen Yanshen interrupted her.

She hooked her neck and kissed her.

Just like that summer evening 20 years ago, the girl tiptoed slightly and kissed her tenderly.

Xu Fang was stunned, as if being shocked by an electric shock, strange throbbing began to spread from every nerve ending, she knew it was wrong, but she was still obsessed.

She couldn't bear to push her away.

The kiss gradually heated up, becoming more fiery and charming, but she didn't know where to put her hands and feet, nervous and cramped, so Wen Yanshen unbuttoned her clothes and kissed her down.

It's really like a dream.

It seems that the 20 years of coldness and loneliness were all due to her getting lost, going through a storm, and now she finally came back, that person was still waiting for her where she was, smiling softly at her, and complaining softly: "I have been waiting for you for a long time. "

So you are still here.

I lost you once, and now, I'm back.

……

Xu Fang slept deeply all night.

In the past week, every time she thought of Wen Yanshen sitting on the ground with a pale face, she hated herself to the core. She couldn't sleep all night, and didn't know what to do with her, nor I don't know what to do with my heart.

In her sleep, she still remembers going to her lover and wanting to hold her in his arms. This is the treasure she lost and found again.

But she finally got nothing.

There is dust flying in the air, and there is only a cold room.

There was a post-it note pasted on the bedside, in the clear font she was familiar with.

she says:

"Thank you for helping me and the Wen family. I don't know how to pay you off. But it's not in this way."

"Don't keep making mistakes."

"I'm leaving. For the rest of my life, don't meet again."