as pure as a radish

"Will it be my turn next time?"

"Ah? What did you say?"

When I came back to my senses, I found myself lying on the bed, Wen Yue was propped up above me, and the bath towel and cotton wool pajamas had been thrown away somewhere.

Wen Yue straightened up and sat aside, covered my chest with the quilt, and asked again, "What are you talking about?"

"It's okay." I shook my head slowly.I don't know how I can read the words I said before while thinking about the past.This sentence was said after Yu Ting poured water on me, trembling.I don't want to go through the pain that afternoon again, but I deeply know that it is the only way for Yu Ting and me to make money. In order for Yu Ting to have a place to live and something to eat, we will eventually experience pain countless times.And the wound on Yu Ting's body hasn't healed yet, so that incident will only happen to me.I was deeply afraid, endlessly resisted, and finally rooted in helplessness.

"You're not in the mood at all, are you?" Wen Yue sighed, "Not only do you have no love for me, but now you don't even have sex. I worked hard for a long time, you..." Wen Yue swallowed the words suddenly, knocked His forehead lowered, and his voice lowered, "What are you complaining about. Isn't it like this?"

At that time Yu Ting slapped me, "Go back and be your good girl!" I rubbed my clothes on my chest and started to sob.Yu Ting then dragged me out of the room by my hair, "If you don't go back, you will rot in the mountains!" I immediately turned around and ran, crying as I ran. It was getting darker and darker at night, and I was still afraid of the pain I would go through in the future, but what I was most afraid of was being questioned by my mother when I got home.I was worried that my lie that I accidentally fell into the puddle would not be able to deceive my mother. I was worried that my mother would find something wrong when she washed my clothes for me. I was worried that my mother would beat me to death once she knew the truth.

Wen Yue touched my forehead with the back of her hand, "It's still very hot, hasn't the antipyretic medicine started to work yet? Or was it frozen again just now? I should bear it..."

When I got home that day, my mother spanked my butt a few times with a ruler, so that I would stop running wildly up and down mountains and rivers with my classmates in the future.My dad looked at me and frowned for a long time, and then he and my mother whispered a few words, and my mother shook off the arms that already had fat, "Impossible, how old is the child!" That day was also hidden for half my life.

Wen Yue held the bottle of antipyretic medicine and looked at it for a while, "This medicine can be taken once every four hours, and you can take it again if it doesn't come down after a while. If it still doesn't work, go to the hospital, don't be stubborn."

On the second day of that day, I pretended to be sick and did not go to school.After my parents went to work, I got out of bed and drew all the curtains at home.It's weird, I used to be terrified of dark rooms, but I was terribly afraid of light that day, and since then, I've grown to like being in dark places instead.When I went to find Yu Ting again, she mixed with some people who were not good students at first sight.When she was with them, she didn't pay much attention to me. When they were not, Yu Ting really needed me, because killing an animal or a person is always a complicated job, and the more hands, the easier it is.That painful thing never happened to me again, but people don't care about anything when they deal with blood all day long.

"Thank you." I turned my back to Wen Yue.

Wen Yue: "Huh?"

Me: "Thank you for giving me the medicine."

"This kind of trivial matter... why are you so out of touch." Wen Yue gently held my shoulder.

"I don't know if it's the flu or something. You'd better stay away from me and pass it on to you." I came up with an excuse in my mind.

However, Wen Yue got down on her knees and kissed my ears and neck twice, "Then pass it on to me." His breathing in my ear became heavier, "It's hard for me to wait until you don't have to go to work. Wait a while."

I hid in the distance, "Forget it. My head is very..." The quilt was lifted suddenly, Wen Yue got in, and Wen Yue quickly grabbed her waist.When he dragged my waist back, I knew I couldn't escape.

But the sound of the door opening made us both sit up and stare at the bedroom door at the same time. The sound of footsteps approached, and the bedroom door was pushed open under our gaze.

I hurriedly wanted to get up, but Wen Yue grabbed my wrist firmly.

A calm voice sounded behind me, "Isn't it appropriate to still hold the keys to my ex-girlfriend's house after breaking up?"

I turned around and tried to free my wrist, but failed, "What are you talking about?? This is between me and her!"

"Are you trying to say that I'm not qualified to take care of it?" Wen Yue's eyes suddenly showed an unbearable look, "I'm not qualified to take care of it, and she's not qualified to come either."

"Just know that I'm not qualified to manage it." Liu Ziyun accidentally participated in this dispute, and his tone was uncharacteristically obvious and aggressive.

"Then do you know that you are not qualified to come?" Wen Yue's tone became more aggressive, "Did no one teach you to knock before entering someone's house when you were a child?"

Liu Ziyun: "Did someone teach you what shame is?"

"I do what I want to do, I am willing, she is willing, what's the shame?" Wen Yue let go of me, got out of bed and walked to Liu Ziyun, "It's you...heh...shouldn't you return the key?"

Liu Ziyun: "If she gave it to me, it's mine. If she doesn't want to go back, it's still mine. How about it?"

Wen Yue: "Then I will come back for her!"

Liu Ziyun: "You? Are you qualified?"

Wen Yue turned her head to look at me, looking at me both expectantly and persuasively, "Tell her, what is the relationship between us!"

"Take off your pants!"

"Pull out her eyes!"

"You can't leave food, even if you feel uncomfortable!"

"If you can't solve this problem, you are not allowed to go home!"

"This report must be handed in before get off work!"

"Drink! You can drink raw chicken blood! What is this!"

……

My mind was suddenly very busy, and various voices rang out one after another.I hold my head in my arms because I feel like it's getting heavier and harder to hold me up.

"Everyone deserves to die, including you and me." All the voices turned into a hazy background, but Yu Ting's voice became clearer and clearer.

I agree with this sentence, at least I agree with the second half, Yu Ting and I deserve to die.

"Can't you just say a word?" Wen Yue's voice reached her ear abruptly.I withdrew my out-of-focus gaze and looked at him, eagerness was written all over his face.

"I..." What should I say?I turned my head to look at Liu Ziyun behind Wen Yue, and she also looked at me, her eyes were not urgent, but inexplicably oppressive.

I shrugged my shoulders and barely put on a long T-shirt that was placed next to the pillow under the cover of the quilt.Just about to get out of bed, Wen Yue walked to the bedside, "Tell her!"

I curled up as much as possible, then stepped on the ground with bare feet, just stood up, Wenyue grabbed my two arms, shook me seven or eight times, I heard him say in dizziness, "You are so unreasonable Willing to admit me? I said I can wait for you, at least tell her that you are trying to be with me."

I didn't say who I was trying to be with, I thought to myself.

"She doesn't want to at all!" Liu Ziyun also walked over.

The two of them stood around me arguing like this, and my ears and brain started to shut down.When they were arguing fiercely, Wen Yue accidentally bumped into me, I couldn't stand still, fell to the ground, and hit the sharp corner of the bedside table with the back of my head.I didn't faint, but felt the pain soberly.