as pure as a radish

When I opened the door at 29:[-] in the morning, I suddenly felt very strange in my heart, as if a very hard stone suddenly cracked and then shattered to nothing.After closing the door, I was so tired that I couldn't even stand up, and while I sat down on the ground, I started to cry uncontrollably.

The cold wind blowing in from the crack of the door behind me hit my back, but I didn't have the energy to move, my body mechanically cried and shivered from the cold.

When my useless and cheap tears blurred my eyes, I went back to that summer.That summer when I happened to overhear the terrible conversations of Yu Ting's family because I was standing in front of Yu Ting's house.On the third day after that, I finally found Yu Ting at the bridge opening of the stone bridge from the city to the suburbs.Everyone in this city knows that there are a lot of homeless and even half-crazy people there.My parents warned me never to get close to that place since I was a child, so I went to the bridge hole secretly when I searched all over the place and couldn't find Yu Ting.

I held my breath when I entered the bridge hole, not a deliberate move to look at the place with tinted glasses, but a natural physiological reaction to the stench it emanated.

At the corner of the bridge hole, I saw a petite girl sitting on the ground, with her hands hugging her bent knees and her head buried between her arms.The clothes she was wearing were still the clothes she had on the day she was discharged from the hospital, and I stole them from home and gave them to her.My mom asked me this morning why I couldn't find my suit.

"Yu Ting!" I called Yu Ting's name, so excited that I forgot to hold my breath.I desperately ran to her side and grabbed her arm. For no reason, I felt that this place must be very dangerous. If I stayed for a second longer, I would be swallowed by some dark force, so I wanted to take Yu Ting and leave as soon as possible. "What are you doing here! Come with me!" I still remember the extreme anxiety that almost broke my voice when I spoke.

"You are not qualified to play with me." Yu Ting dragged me down, refusing to be dragged up by me.

I froze for a moment, because I was afraid to hear that others said they didn't want to play with me.

Soon, I was pushed by Yu Ting, and I took two steps back to stand still.

I fixed my eyes on Yu Ting, Yu Ting stared at a pair of bloodshot eyes.I don't know if it's because of the sunken eye sockets, but I think her eyes are terribly big.

"Get lost!" Yu Ting scolded.I saw her almost skinny body tense up.

I was frightened and cried for a moment, just like at this moment, the tears burst into tears, and I couldn't hold back at all.

"It's so noisy!!" Someone suddenly shouted.

I looked towards the source of the sound and saw a huge looking person standing not far away.I wiped my eyes, and before the next tear welled up, I saw this huge man smudged from top to bottom.

"Go, go!" the man chased away.

I hurried to Yu Ting's side, not to save Yu Ting or to let Yu Ting save me, but just to find a companion.I patted Yu Ting, "Let's go, go, go, go."

The man waved at me again, and it seemed that he was going to pick up stones on the ground and throw them at us. I didn't know where the strength came from, and I grabbed Yu Ting and dragged Yu Ting to run for a while.

When I ran out of strength, Yu Ting grabbed me.She cursed at me fiercely, "Didn't I say I won't play with you anymore! Why are you so annoying!"

I remembered my mother's warning to me, so I conveyed it to Yu Ting, "Those who can't go to the bridge hole, there will be bad people, it's very dangerous."

Yu Ting suddenly stared into my eyes, "I am the bad guy."

At that time, I would not believe such a statement, and I did not know what it meant.I took Yu Ting's hand, simply wanting to make one last effort.As for whether to try to help her or try to gain friends, I couldn't tell at the time. "I know everything. The reason why you don't go home..."

Yu Ting slammed me away, pointed at my nose and shouted hysterically, "If you know it, get lost! Why are you still looking for me!"

"Get out of here with me first." I begged, "My mother said it's very dangerous here."

"Where else can I go if I'm not here?" Yu Ting became cold again in an instant.

"Go...to my house?" I said tremblingly.I'm not sure if my mother will agree, I have no confidence in my heart.

"Go and wait for your mother to tell the teacher, and then the teacher will send me home?" Yu Ting approached me, "I will never go back even if I die."

"Then... go somewhere else... somewhere else." I was talking nonsense.I can't figure out where to go.

"Where can I go without money?" Yu Ting's tone suddenly became like an adult.

I quickly took out the money in my pocket, "I have the money..."

Yu Ting laughed, "Do you think you are going to buy two popsicles?"

I eagerly explained, "I can still ask for it from my family."

"Don't bother me anymore!" Yu Ting was angry again, "We are not friends anymore!"

My lips trembled, "Why..."

Yu Ting: "Because you are not qualified to play with me!"

I tugged at the corner of Yu Ting's clothes, "What do you mean... I don't understand... what is unqualified..."

Yu Ting had a place to live that night, and we handed over the money to a bloated aunt who gave Yu Ting the key to the room.

In the room, Yu Ting frantically washed her hands and brushed her teeth at the simple sink.I stood blankly in the middle of the room, my legs still trembling.

The sound of the water stopped, and I looked at Yu Ting.At some point, she had already filled a plastic basin full of water.

Yu Ting walked towards me with water, and with a splash, I watched a basin of water splash on me, drenching me thoroughly from top to bottom.

"Just wash it off." Yu Ting looked at me who was drenched and let out a weird laugh.

I folded my arms and shivered, and my whole body trembled.

"You are qualified to play with me now, hahaha, hahahaha." Yu Ting's hollow voice resounded in the room.

Yes, I'm going to wash it off.I came back to reality, got up off the floor, and stumbled into the bathroom.

When the tears mix with the bath water under the shower head, it counts as not crying.I don't know how long it took to wash, but I turned off the water when my fingertips were wrinkled.Without much energy or motivation to dry off, I wrapped myself in a towel and leaned against the wall.Gradually, I lost the strength to lean on, so I let myself slide and sit on the ground.Then lean against the wall and close your eyes.

When the knock on the door woke me up, I was hot all over, 39 degrees instead of [-] degrees, I thought to myself, then struggled to stand up, put on thick cotton wool pajamas directly over the wet towel, I walked out To the bathroom to open the door.