as pure as a radish

When I go to work on Monday, I'm pretty sure I'm no longer worthy of love, liking, throbbing, or even the slightest bit of interest in their minds two days after the weekend.Love and dislike are never manifested in the long process of physical intersecting, but in the moment of putting on clothes.As long as you don't deceive yourself, at that moment, you will always read on the other person's face whether he has had enough or is still not satisfied.

"Has the contract been signed?" When I delivered the documents, the chairman was talking about work with someone.

"No! I've said it openly and secretly several times. It's just to play tricks on me. Good things come and go, just to play around with me to delay time. I'm afraid..."

The chairman glanced at me, then looked back at the person who was reporting to work, "Just say it's okay! She will be there on Friday!"

"I'm afraid I have to add some more... I'm afraid it's too little..."

The chairman cursed, "The total profit is less than ten points, if you add more points, let me do it for nothing!"

"Yeah! How about I go grind it out again? Or make it clear and tell us about our difficulties."

Chairman: "Fuck! He's been in that position for almost ten years. Does he know that this order is less profitable? He just wants to suck blood!"

"Yes. Now..."

Chairman: "Go ahead and smash it, what else can we do! He is sure that we have suffered a lot in foreign countries and must win the domestic market. This old thing will not give up until we make a good profit."

"Then I..."

Chairman: "Keep grinding, speak hard, and make up for your smile. I will let you know the rest later."

"Okay, then I'll go out first."

"Hmm." When someone went out, the chairman turned his head and gave me a meaningful look, "It takes so long to deliver the documents?"

Only then did I put the document in my hand in front of the chairman, "I really don't want it. I just think it has something to do with me, so I want to hear a sentence or two."

The chairman looked up and down at me.

"I know how to listen less, watch less and talk less. I will remember it in the future." After I finished speaking, I bowed and went out with my head down.

"Hey!" The chairman stopped me, "You are a strange person. Haven't you heard a sentence or two? You have seen a person once or twice. Let me ask you, if you let you take it down This order, what can you do?"

"Greedy people..." I half-spoken to myself, "Maybe after feeding for a long time, I want to eat more."

"Oh!" The chairman raised his eyebrows and gave me a straight look.

I spread my hands, "I can't help it, but you must."

Chairman: "Perfunctory me?"

I shook my head, "I have no resources, connections, or money. First, it is impossible for me to know his weakness, and second, even if I knew, I would not be able to grasp his weakness. But you are different."

The chairman seems to be nodding, but not much, and I can vaguely hear him laugh twice.

In the afternoon, I was sent to hand over the materials to a private detective. I handed over the things that should be handed over to the other party intact, and then handed over the things that should be retrieved to the chairman.I didn't open the envelope once in the whole process, and I didn't even think about opening it.

One last time I checked my email before get off work, I got a pay raise notice.That figure is not comparable to people who are higher than me, but it has greatly exceeded the normal salary level of an ordinary assistant to the chairman.

The landline on the desk rang, and I answered the call and walked into the chairman's room according to the order.The chairman sat on the boss chair, squinted his eyes and smiled, and then said to me, "It's not bad, it's not bad."

I bow.

The chairman tightened the corners of his mouth, and a pair of fox eyes suddenly lit up, "You should know how to do things. I just want to tell you one principle, you are obedient, useful, and easy to use with me, and money is indispensable." , the few big things that people strive for all their lives will be in your hands within a few years. On the other hand, if any of the three points goes wrong, you will be useless." The chairman said lightly the last In a word.

I nodded.

Chairman: "Do you know what you should focus on?"

I spat out two words, "handle."

"Very good." The chairman waved his hand, "It seems that I don't need to teach you any more."

In the evening, I took the drunk chairman back to his mansion as usual, and then took a taxi home alone.The driver who picked me up at the gate of the mansion began to persuade me in a roundabout manner on the way, asking me to find a way out for myself earlier, or play ruthless tricks to squeeze out the original partner to officially move in, or leave with more money. Save a little on food and expenses, and you will be able to spend the rest of your life.

I listened quietly, nodding now and then.There is nothing to say, this is indeed the impression that most human beings have on ordinary women who come out of this kind of mansion so late.It's always been a label-operated world here.The label of women is to rely on men, and the label of men is to work hard to make money.The label of the rich is unkind, and the label of the poor is obscene.Also, the label of women who are subjected to violence is low.

When I got home, there was no fireworks at all, only a few messes that I hadn't had time to clean up.I knelt down to tidy up the coffee table, and when I put the last beer bottle in a trash bag, I looked around.Two days of weekend things emerged a little bit.Although I was numb for a moment on Saturday, when I look back at this moment, I find myself scratching my heart again.

I looked towards the kitchen, and the idea of ​​killing myself with a knife began to sprout.No, it's too useless.Besides, the world is originally a mess and dirty, so what's the matter on the weekend?Just a member of this chaotic mess.It was the same when I was a child, and it is the same now.I have long known that the world is like this, so there is no need to be surprised, no need to be disappointed, and there is no need to change the trajectory of life for this.

I got up and put the garbage bag in front of the door, and started a thorough cleaning.I can't let this sprouted idea grow!I'm leaving this house tonight!I hope that every day from now on, I will never think of Wen Yue, Yu Ting, or... Liu Ziyun... Can I do it?Especially Liu Ziyun...

My new home is in a new apartment building with good privacy. Although the unit rent is very expensive, the room I rent is not large in size. Coupled with my considerable salary that has just increased, the rent did not overwhelm me.

When the exclusive butler checked whether all the facilities in the room were in good condition for me and handed over the room to me respectfully, I couldn't help but think of the face of the aunt who handed over the room key to Yu Ting.

The former has a well-groomed face with a standard smile; the latter has only wrinkles, spots, oily shine and a contemptuous squint.But the latter's contempt is not wrong, after all, after she handed over the key, the sewer pipes of her house flowed a lot of people's blood, skin tissue, and hair of different textures.