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Lin Yao listened with a blank expression on his face: "I used to think that everyone only loved Lin Ran, and my brother took away all the love. Later, I found out that I was wrong. Everyone just needs to be loved, and they don't want to love anyone. One person. As long as he is loved, it doesn't matter who he is."

Lin Yao realized long ago that he would never get what he wanted.

Whether Lin Ran came back from Lin Yao, or Lin Yao's schizophrenia, everyone doesn't really care.

The important thing is that this person named Lin Ran will love them.

Lin Yu didn't deny it: "Everyone in the Lin family lives indifferently and selfishly, but no matter how cold-blooded an animal is, it needs love. The only one who is willing to love us is your brother."

Like a group of cold-blooded vampires, longing for the only source of blood that can warm them.

Vampire's need for blood, is it love?

If you put on your best face and perform in the world, anyone can gain one or two people who are willing to love their mask.

However, after knowing the real me, how many people can still love this self that even I am disappointed and disgusted with?

The book says that such people are called family members.

As far as Lin Yu and Lin Miao are concerned, there is no way not to like younger brothers like Lin Ran. They treat them like little girls who need to be cared for, take care of them tenderly, and accept their clumsy pampering.

Accept their true everything, but always help them remember the beauty that they have forgotten.

"Miaomiao always can't talk well, because she has never been loved, and when she receives kindness, she will be so nervous that she looks arrogant and disdainful, and even the gestures of kindness can't be controlled, and she becomes vitriolic. But, your brother will never would misunderstand her."

It seems that he is born to receive the kindness of other people's actions and words, whether explicit or implicit, and accepts it carefully and properly, treating it as precious, and never takes it for granted.Although there are so many people who love him, so much love he gets.

"Who wouldn't like such a family member? He can see the shining points that he doesn't know from any mediocre and ordinary soul, and praise and appreciate from the bottom of his heart. Happy, happy. At that time, the Lin family, as long as they went home, It's easy to get these."

Lin Yan smiled and spoke calmly.

"At that time, I didn't love you. Because you made people unhappy, even if I tried my best to give you love, you didn't accept it, and let the love fall to the ground. It's not just me, Miaomiao too. We can't help You, instead, were dragged into the swamp by you. At that time, I was indifferent and poor! I didn’t have any love in my poor heart, so how could I give it to you?”

"You hate Dad for not loving you, Miao Miao and I can understand it, because Dad is indifferent and distant, Miao Miao also has resentment in his heart like you. But, what does it have to do with Xiao Ran? It's not because of Xiao Ran's father that he doesn't love you. us."

"When you were young, you were so close, and he always loved you the younger brother the most. You seemed to be bullying him because of his kindness to you. It was obviously your father who treated you badly. You have been waiting for your father to care about you all your life, but The only brother who is willing to treat you well..."

Lin Yu's voice was slightly unsteady.

"Until Xiaoran had an accident and never woke up again, you didn't repent at all. He had an accident to save you. I always thought that it was because you were still young, but after so many years, I didn't wait Your change."

Lin Yao listened to these accusations with a blank expression, and remembered what his second sister Lin Miao said to him: You are really just like your father, just as paranoid, stubborn, cold-blooded, and selfish.

"It's not just you, we're all like a group of vampires, using our insignificant things to exchange from Xiaoran for more things than we give. It's not Xiaoran who needs us, but we need him."

"But, no, not anymore." Lin Lai looked at him tenderly, "Not only do you love Xiao Ran, everyone loves A Yao too."

Lin Yao's eyelashes trembled, and they lifted numbly.

"Your brother is actually an idiot. How can he not see what you can see? If love is also an investment, he overdrafted us one billion yuan, and only then did he get a little bit of interest in return. It is pitifully less than what he gave. I never knew, I have already told him that he has no obligation to the Lin family, why would he do this?"

"Now, I seem to understand that if you want to get the love of others, you must first give more love yourself, and be prepared to lose everything. He just loves us."

Lin Yu raised his hand, patted Lin Yao's head slowly and unfamiliarly, and said with a smile: "You pretend to be your brother, but in fact, you really don't. It's easy to tell the difference. But everyone is used to it." Just pretend to be stupid."

Lin Yao looked at her in astonishment.

Lin Yu's wrinkled hand gently touched his face, his gentle and aging face was like that of his mother, forgiving: "Maybe, apart from your brother, you are the only one in this family who is normal."

"Go back and sleep well, forget everything you heard tonight, forget about your obsession with Dad, and forget about Lin Ran. He should never blame you. If you can, leave the Lin family .The house has been out of repair for 20 years and is probably about to collapse. But you can build a new one, a new house that doesn't need repairs, and start over."

As for her, she will always stay in this house, just like before.

Maybe, Xiaoran's soul is still here, and she will wake up one day.

Perhaps, when the house fell apart, she would see her brother again.

Lin Yao stood up, walked out expressionlessly, and walked back to his room.

He didn't turn on the light and looked at himself in the mirror.

He began to be confused, why he went to his mother's room tonight, how to uncover those dusty old past and scars.

"Come out. You come out!" a weak voice.

"Who the hell are you? Who are you?" trembling slightly nervously.

He searched every corner of the room, trying to find that demon, the one that was exactly like his brother.

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"You hate me? You hate me, don't you?"

"Why did you do this to me and let me know this?"

Su Lingran stood outside the door, quietly listening to Lin Yao's muttering, and went mad calmly.

why?

Of course, it was because Lin Yao's love storage tank was deformed, and he couldn't pour any love into it at all, so he had to completely smash it and rebuild it.

……

Outside Lin Yao's door, besides Su Lingran, there was another person standing.

The quarrel between Lin Yao and his mother Zhuang Yue was not only noticed by Lin Yu, but of course also included Lin Fucheng who always slept late.

He stood outside the door, listening to the conversation of his son and daughter.

It's been a long time since the Lin family had a conversation like this, and everyone seems to be innately ignorant of how to communicate correctly with others.

When Lin Yao came out of Lin Yu's room, Lin Fucheng subconsciously avoided, just like he had been avoiding in his father's seat for so many years.

Until the door of Lin Yao's room closed.

He knew, at least now, that what the pained son in the door wanted was for him to walk in and say something comforting.

But Lin Fucheng didn't know what he could say.

He also didn't know if Lin Yao needed it now.

Whenever this time, he looked at Lin Yao, just!It will force him to see him as his past self.

If it is yourself, what do you need at this time?

Lin Fucheng didn't need anything, he just wanted to go back to his quiet study and pass by alone.

So, he hesitated for a while, and quietly left Lin Yao's door like many times before.

Without coffee, Lin Fucheng was 69 years old after all, leaning on the chair in the study and dozing off.

The lamp illuminated his stern face, which was also frowning in sleep. Although the dyed black hair and face looked younger, the newly grown stubble on his face was already silvery white.

Someone vaguely put a blanket on him, and gently stroked the old stubble on his face with one hand.

Lin Fucheng opened his eyes, he knew he was dreaming, but it didn't matter.

At the door of the study, the young Lin Ran held his coffee pot, paused for a moment, and looked back at him.

The clear and clear eyes were gentle, looking at him quietly and enquiringly.

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Lin Fucheng didn't move, and looked at him without blinking: "Can I leave later? I have a question that has been bothering me. But I think, maybe you can give me some inspiration. If you were me, you would definitely do well .”

The phantom at the door paused, approached calmly in his direction, and stopped at the edge of the light, the boundary of dreams and hallucinations.

"What's the question? Is it about Ayao?"

Lin Fucheng nodded, in his sleepy brain and eyes, there was no strength in the past, just a father's distress and exhaustion: "I am not a good father, you know, I have never been able to satisfy you since I was a child, I just We are doing everything we can to protect this family, everyone in this family."

"you did it."

"Yeah, I thought I did. I made sure that the hurt from the outside was out of this family, but I couldn't keep their hearts from being hurt. I'm a failed father. Just like I've always been a failed son, A failed brother."

"You have done a good job." 19-year-old Lin Ran said to him gently.

"Me too, I couldn't protect you." The dry eyes hurt even in the dream.

Lin Fucheng, who is awake, is headstrong, never admits his mistakes, and is disgustingly strong in his old age.But in the dream, facing this son, he didn't mind taking off all his armor.

! The 19-year-old Lin Ran disappeared in a blink of an eye. Opposite Lin Fucheng's desk, a little boy sat in a large chair.

The innocent and clear eyes are black and white, as if they can wash away all impurities.

"But it's not your fault."

"You always forgive me." Lin Fucheng looked at him, "but this family has become like this, looking for the root of everything from the source, the only person who can blame me is me. In the past, I didn't know which step I did wrong, your brother Disappointed me, I didn't even dare to see you. But I just found out today, so you all heard it. Why, you never asked me? Don't you hate me? I can't protect your mother, and I can't protect you Got you."

"You have done a good job." Lin Ran looked at him when he was a child, "I didn't always forgive you. At least when I was nine years old, I didn't forgive you. You don't love Ah Yao and sister They don't love me either, run away from everything, and are too cold. I was shocked to hear that I was not your son. And, because of the coldness you showed, I believed that you made me your son because of the inheritance. At that time, I did not forgive you. Moreover, I had the original intention of repaying the interest to everyone, without any expectations, and I would not be hurt because I didn’t get anything in return like Ayao. But because of this, I got everyone’s true love .”

Lin Fucheng looked at him, without a trace of struggle in his weak eyes: "In my heart, you have always been my son, and will always be the best son, without any reason, and without any need for anything in return."

The little boy looked at him quietly: "Before that, I didn't understand Dad. I was only close to A Yao in this family. When I didn't forgive you, like a stranger, I began to understand you and everyone in the family. people."

"Then I must be disappointing and annoying." Lin Fucheng covered his face and looked at him with trembling eyes.

"No. Because I got to know Dad, saw the wounds in the hearts of everyone in the family, and saw what Dad looked like when he was a child, so I want to protect you. Because like Dad, I also made mistakes. Everyone When I was young, I made mistakes. There was no way to protect the people I wanted to protect. There was no way to stop the pain that had happened. Because of my own pain, I ignored the people around me. It’s not my father’s fault.”

Lin Fu!Fucheng's lower lip trembled, he couldn't say a word, he just looked up at him.

"My mother, she thinks so too. Just as Dad wants to protect her, she wants to protect you, and Mom."

"I don't always forgive my father's mistakes. For example, my father shouldn't let the tragedy continue on A Yao and his sisters."

"But I know, it's not that Dad doesn't love us. Because I know we are loved, I don't mind Dad's rude and cold way of expression. I know why Dad can only be indifferent and alienate us, so I understand Dad's choice and escape. Just thinking , When will Dad recover? Get well soon and forget about the past. Because if Dad doesn’t recover, what will Ayao do? What Ayao needs is a father, not an elder brother.”

The young fingers wiped Lin Fucheng's tears earnestly.

"Isn't it if we can communicate frankly and make it clear earlier, everything will be fine... Dad should be earlier... Dad is sorry for you..."

He will not forget that his two sons are ruined, one lying in the hospital for 20 years, and the other living in division and distortion under the burden of sin.

"It's not my father's fault. My father's pain is not because of me. The pain of everyone in my family is not for me. It's because of the pain of my loved ones. It's more unbearable than what I personally suffered, but I can't do anything about it. Pain. However, you can also live happily for your loved ones, forget the irreversible past, and live happily with each other. Although it is difficult, you can try hard.”

The outstretched hands tried to grasp tightly, and those young hands became teenagers again.

Although Lin Fucheng tried his best to catch him and keep him, the boy opened the door.

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Just like in memory, the clear and gentle eyes slightly curved, saying goodbye to him.

"Daddy, goodbye."