Dumb

A group of people behind dragged them into the box and locked them up.Through the door, I vaguely heard the sound of random fighting outside, and my heart hung in my throat.

I kept knocking on the door of the box, hoping someone would let me out, but no one responded to me.After a while, the fighting outside the door gradually stopped, and there was a deathly silence.

In the end, it was Linda who opened the door for me. She pointed at the figure lying on the ground with her slender fingertips, and sighed helplessly: "It probably won't work, go and have a look."

I almost crawled to Luhan's side, Luhan's head was covered with blood, and the air was filled with a very strong smell of blood, like a sign before death.I was in a hurry to call an ambulance, but my throat seemed to be blocked by something and I couldn't make a sound.

He raised his arm with difficulty, trying to wipe away my tears.But I can only feel his slightly cool fingertips touch my cheek and lightly brush the corners of my eyes.He forced a smile, opened and closed his lips, and said in a faint breath-only voice:

"Amo...do you remember...I told you...I won't let you get hurt?"

"So, Amo, don't be afraid...you and me...I will...protect you..."

Immediately afterwards, his hands fell limply.

Tears fell one drop, two drops, three drops, one after another.

Fool, didn't you say you wouldn't hurt me?Didn't you say you want to protect me?Cinderella orders you to stand up and protect me now, so hurry up and protect me!You should, get up quickly...

I kept shaking his body, only silent silence responded to me.

At 23, I lost my teenager.

【Twenty】

I am a mute, my name is Gu Senmo.

At the age of 23, I returned to Beijing and my hometown as I wished, but my youth was no longer there.

It was also from the age of 23 that I suffered from long-term aphasia due to strong mental stimulation, and have since become a mute.My father thought I was ashamed and locked me in the attic, and the neighbors in the neighborhood also talked about me saying that I was a mental patient.

I've been to a psychiatrist, and the doctor said that medication wasn't going to cure me.He said that I was dumb of the heart, not dumb of the mouth, and that my heart disease needs to be treated with heart medicine.However, my heart medicine never came back.

I wanted to die countless times, but I didn't die. Probably God was too kind to me and didn't want me to die.

I believe that even after many years, I become a blind man, a deaf man, I will not forget my youth.

He has a nice name, his name is Luhan.

He once said to me that he is my breath and I am the oxygen of his life.

The north wind howled angrily, and heavy snow fell in the sky as expected.Outside the window was a vast expanse of whiteness, and the entire city was covered in numerous snowflakes, falling non-stop like tearing cotton.

Luhan, look, it's snowing again in Beijing...

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◆【Preface】

[Volume Two]: We are as sweet as sugar to sad

Volume introduction: [Later, I finally learned how to love, but unfortunately you have already gone away and disappeared in the sea of ​​people. Later, I finally understood in tears that some people, once missed, are no longer there]

Everyone's youth will have some regrets more or less, we will meet different people, they have taught us to love, taught us to grow; we will also miss many people in a hurry, those who passed by in the young and frivolous years People, maybe he is the softest lover in your heart, maybe he is your long-lost old friend, maybe he is a stranger you have never met...

We don't know love but sink in love, we don't know what love is but we are desperate for love.

Have you ever loved someone?

A person who seems out of reach but within reach?

Yu Shen once, in that scorching afternoon with swaying green branches and leaves, he was like her doom, unable to escape, like the sun in her life warmed the whole world, but only illuminated for her .

If you can, please be brave, please don't miss it.

Don't let the later become forever, don't let each other disappear in the crowd and never see each other again...

Right love is love, wrong love is youth.

Give it to you who are in your youth, and give yourself the best 17 years old.

May you wish me not to miss you again, best man.

★ ☆ ★ ☆ ★

I plan to post the two EXO fanfiction I have written in this article called "Dumb".The two articles are: "Dumb" and "We Are Sweet Like Sugar to Sadness" (formerly known as "Later"). "Dumb" is in the first volume, and "We Are Sweet Like Sugar to Sadness" is in the second volume, so the second volume is a brand new story.

"We Are Sweet Like Sugar to Sadness" is something I personally experienced in junior high school, and I just adapted it into a novel based on the development of things.The heroine Yu Shen in the article is me, and the hero Lu Han does have a prototype in real life.

How should I put it, it's like turning the regretful time into a good memory collection.

Since you have never owned it, why miss it.

◇【00-02】

【00】

It turned out that he had been in his heart all these years and never went away.

【01】

(116°E, 39°N)

I am a very superstitious person.

The Mayans said that after the night of December 2012, 12, the dawn of December 21 will never come.At first I also thought it was just a bluff, but as time passed, this prophecy was like a huge net strangling my throat, and I couldn't breathe.I returned to Beijing like an ostrich, and I thought, even if I die, I will die in my hometown.

In Beijing in 2012, winter has not yet arrived.The wind of late autumn swept across the ground and the fallen leaves made a rustling sound, and the whole city was plunged into this gray mist. Only a faint light was faintly visible in a corner of the city, and everything seemed to be a sign of the end of the world.

The car slowly drives across the asphalt road, which is a rare moment of peace in Beijing.At this time, the city is like a baby just waking up from sleep, and everything seems so strange and unknown to me.So many years have passed, and the new technology of the 21st century has brought mankind into a new era. The world is moving at the speed of light, and even the city we live in is no longer what it was in our memory.

I remember that there are still jagged low buildings on both sides of the street, the old street is still a bustling scene, and there are vendors selling candied haws in the alleys... Time has passed and the situation has changed, replaced by those who have sprung up High-rise buildings, and the old memories of those old people have already stayed there forever with the collapse of the old street.Staring at the increasingly unfamiliar outline of the city, I suddenly felt scared in my heart.

I have to say that time is really a grinding thing, it can always wear away those people and things that you think are eternal.Just like me and Luhan, I always understand a truth: Never miss what you never had.But over the years, I have always had the same dream over and over again.In the dream, his figure kept moving back and forth, and I wanted to reach out to hold it countless times, but the result was in vain, as fleeting as quicksand at the fingertips.

The white horse is too late.Even though my memory of Lu Han is getting shallower and shallower, so shallow that I can only remember a vague outline, so shallow that I can only remember his pair of eyes that seem to hide stars, I will never forget, the person I love With his clear voice, his tone rose slightly, calling my name.

"Yu Shen."

【02】

My surname is Yu, with a deep single character.

My mother was born in a scholarly family, and she was probably influenced by famous books and classical aesthetics from all over the world. When I was a child, I was shaped to be virtuous and virtuous.Since I have been conscious, my brain has been filled with many, many thoughts.For example, you should be gentle in your manners and conversations, and understand the general principles of dealing with others; you can't speak foul language at will; you can't associate with students with bad habits; you are not allowed to fall in love before graduating from high school, etc.Just as she wished, I was admitted to a key high school with excellent grades, but also because of this, I became a weirdo among everyone.

Yu Shen is a weirdo.

This is pretty much everyone's opinion of me.I have been relatively introverted since I was a child. Among all the children of the same age, I am often the quietest one hiding in the corner. In other people's words, I have erected a barrier in my heart to separate myself from the world. Isolated, neither smell nor ask.So in the eyes of most people, Yu Shen will always be a loner, except for Su Qing, an overly enthusiastic friend.

Su Qing also asked me with doubts: "Aren't you lonely when you are always alone?" In fact, what they don't know is that after a long time alone, no matter how lonely or lonely they are, they will get used to it.Just like I naively thought at that time, the following days would still be the same monotonous and colorless, but in my 17-year-old life, there was a person who pulled me out of the darkness with his light, That was my last straw, and I couldn't let it go even if I died.

Speaking of my first acquaintance with Lu Han, it was many years ago.

It was a scorching summer, and at the kind invitation of Su Qing, I went to a bar called "Moonlight" for the first time in my life.The layout of the bar is quite stylish, with the theme of blue lighting inside and out.When everyone was toasting and carnival, I was the only one sitting quietly in the corner of the sofa and enjoying a cold drink. The restless music and the hot figure on the dance floor didn't seem to stir up my emotions at all, but seemed a bit redundant.

"Hey Yu Shen, do you want to come and play together?" Su Qing beckoned to me while holding a goblet with a blushing face