[Xiaofu colleague] What I'm thinking

fallen leaves.As the month gets older day by day, it is very inconvenient for Xiaofu to walk, sit, and lie down. She tries her best to make do with it and not cause Miss Pu a little trouble, but Chu has thought of every aspect for her. All the things needed for childbirth have long been After getting ready, Mrs. Wen also found her, and she accompanied Xiaofu counting the days with her fingers.

Miss Pu said that in the outskirts of Ganzhou, she found a family for Xiaofu. They are the tenants of her manor. Their surname is Luo. They already have two sons and a daughter. However, when Xiaofu gave birth to a child, she would send it to their family to be raised, so she could visit for Xiaofu anytime. Some things are justified.After hearing this, Xiaofu just nodded and said that everything was decided by Sister Pu. The two of them sat at the table, thinking about Xiaofu's hardships in the past few months, they couldn't help but feel a little sad, but as the days of childbirth became more and more As it drew closer, everyone became more and more joyful about the birth of the child, but they barely forgot some worries.

It was nightfall that day, and Xiaofu was leaning against the bed, arranging the clothes she had made these days, when she suddenly felt a pain in her stomach, she thought that it would be half a month before she was due to give birth, so it would be better to bear it first, but it hurts if she didn’t want to Unable to take it anymore, Mrs. Chu heard her urination, and hurried in to have a look. She said that she should be giving birth soon, and asked someone to find her mother-in-law.After getting along these days, Chu feels that Xiaofu is a well-behaved and reasonable person. Although the child came for no reason, she doesn't bother to ask. Thinking that Xiaofu's own parents are not around, she also treats her as her own child. When it hurt, she squatted beside Xiaofu's bed, wiped the sweat on her forehead with a handkerchief, and comforted her softly: "Don't be afraid, girl."Miss Pu also got the letter, she hurriedly got up and put on her clothes, and asked Mr Zhu to go to bed first, and go to Xiaofu courtyard to have a look, Mr Zhu said: "You have gone, where can I sleep, I will wait for you. ", "Women's family has a baby, I don't know how long the trouble will last, you go to sleep first.", Miss Pu said and went out.

It was inconvenient for Mr. Zhu to go there, but he still wanted to take care of him, so he couldn't fall asleep even if he thought about it. Why don't he get up and read a few books? He walked to the bookshelf, slowly turned the books, and listened to the courtyard over there. No, Mr. Zhu thought, this is strange, before the sister-in-law gave birth, the whole house could hear it, but now this lady is strange, there is no movement at all, maybe it's not time yet.He never thought that after reading a few pages of his book, Miss Pu came back to the room, "Aren't you going to guard?" Mr. Zhu thought it would be inconvenient for Miss Pu to go there, but he never thought that she replied: " The birth was born.", "So fast?" Mr. Zhu was surprised, "Yes, the Wen woman also said that it was the first time she saw the birth so fast." Miss Pu replied vaguely, She didn't say much, she just thought to herself, fortunately Xiaofu didn't suffer much in giving birth to this child, otherwise it would be even more heartbreaking, but after thinking about it, she would have to be separated from this child, and she couldn't help but sigh in her heart With a sound.

After all, Xiaofu is a person who has practiced martial arts, and her body is better than that of ordinary women. This time, she did not suffer from pain during childbirth, but when she was about to give birth, she thought of Yang Xiao in her heart, and the pain was suppressed by all kinds of pain. , and didn't want to scare Miss Pu's family, so she gave birth to the baby without making a sound, and then fell asleep tiredly.When she woke up, she saw Mrs. Chu sitting on the side, wrapping the child in a small quilt, and comforting the child softly in her arms. Seeing Xiaofu woke up, she smiled and said to the child: "Look, mother is awake!" ", Xiaofu felt a burst of emotion in her heart, that's right, she is already a mother. "It's a girl." Xiaofu asked Chu, "Yes, it really made you feel it." Chu smiled at Xiaofu, and handed the child over to her for a hug. Xiaofu hesitated for a moment. She took the baby and put it beside her. She was sleeping, her face was flushed, her eyelashes were long, and her skin was white and tender. Xiaofu thought, this is really a beautiful doll. Her father is just as charming. Her father doesn't even know that she is here. If he knows, he will be happy, but it's a pity that he can't know yet.

"Girl, I have to give this doll a name." Chu reminded Xiaofu from the side, and Xiaofu sighed softly after listening, tears fell drop by drop, "I don't want to cry on the first day of the confinement." , Mrs. Chu hurriedly stopped her, thinking that she had just given birth, and she was afraid she was overthinking, "Her name is Buhui." Her name was Yang Buhui, Xiaofu said in her heart, she had already thought about it. Hearing this name, Mrs. Chu thought it was rare, and thought that Xiaofu must have her own considerations, so she didn't ask her more about the meaning, but smiled and said: "Mother chose the name, naturally I hope we Alright." Then he hurriedly arranged Luo Xiaofu's food, for fear that Xiaofu and the child would be wronged.

In the following days, Miss Pu came to visit Xiaofu every day. She held Buhui in her arms, which made her giggle, but she lost that cold look. To give birth to one, Miss Pu said that it is just a matter of fate, and it will be born when there is one.Xiaofu is still refusing to rest during her confinement period. In the closet in her room, there are not many pieces of her own clothes, and the piles are full of clothes made for Bugui. Busy making shoes, one stitch at a time, day and night, never relaxing for a moment, Miss Pu sighed when she saw it, and said that she could use less clothes for the child, Xiaofu said sister don't worry, she naturally knew People will not regret if they treat this child badly, but she feels too uncomfortable. If she can do more for this child, she will feel less owed and not regretted. It's all helpless, but it's pitiful that her father didn't even know that she had her, "You are also well-intentioned, and you have taken care of all the difficulties yourself. This deep friendship is all in the name of this child. Reunion.", Miss Pu held Bugui tightly in her arms, and asked again: "Are you going to leave after confinement? At least stay a little longer.", "No." Xiaofu shook her head and said, "Again It's late, I'm afraid I can't hide this matter, I have to go back to Mount Emei before the Chinese New Year, my family will be safe and sound, and life will be long." After hearing this, Miss Pu stopped trying to persuade Xiaofu , just told her that the nurse in the next few months will find her for her, and the Luo family has already prepared everything. Children, I am determined not to treat you badly and not to regret it. They also said that as long as Xiaofu is willing, this child will only call them godfathers and mothers, and still only recognize Mr. Liu and Xiaofu as parents. Xiaofu nodded, knowing that all of these are Miss Pu made the most appropriate arrangement with all her painstaking efforts.

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Yang Xiao went back to Hangzhou to live for a while. Granny Bai had been looking forward to it for a month or two, and finally she expected Yang Xiao to enter the house, but there was no one behind her, and her expression was gloomy. He didn't want to come back because he didn't see Xiaofu. Although Granny Bai was worried, she still suppressed the conversation. Forget it, she knew that Yang Xiao was not young anymore, and he was a person with a clear mind, so it was okay to ask more questions. Meaning, I didn't say anything, just changed the pattern every day to prepare delicious food for him, but most of the time, when Granny Bai went to collect the bowls, she found that Yang Xiao only took a few mouthfuls of the food.

In the past few months, Yang Xiao seemed to have lost his soul, and gradually he could not even feel sad. During the day, he learned not to think about Xiaofu at all. Every night, he dreamed of Xiaofu, and sometimes when he woke up in the middle of the night, he would forget that Xiaofu had already left, and reached out to touch the side of the bed.Yang Xiao never knew in the past that the scenery at twilight was so such and such. He saw the flowers in the courtyard looming in the dark night. Little by little, the sky gradually brightened, and those were still planted by Xiaofu.The most uncomfortable time is when the sky is dark, half of the chaotic night, buried the infinite thoughts, half of it is clear and bright, it seems to be able to free him again, the combination of the two strokes seems to tear Yang Xiao's heart apart, He sat on the threshold in a daze, until Grandma Bai came to call him, and finally found that he had no way to stay here, looking at the flowers and plants that Xiaofu had tended, facing the family that Xiaofu prepared, Holding on to the memories of his life with Xiaofu, he couldn't do any of these things. Besides, he thought by chance, what if Xiaofu went to Siwangfeng to look for him, so he had no choice but to bid farewell to the old couple of the Bai family again, Go west to Kunlun Mountains.

Women from other families think that the confinement period is too long, and they can't take a bath or blow a hair dryer, but Xiaofu feels that the days pass too quickly.Xiao Buhui seemed to know that her mother was about to leave, so she was very sensible and not noisy. During the day, Xiaofu took advantage of the bright light to make clothes and shoes for her, and she slept in the cradle beside her. When she wakes up, she smiles at Xiaofu, sleeps through the night, and lets her mother sleep soundly, but Xiaofu often can't fall asleep, so she hugs her and leans on the bed in a trance.My mother often said that it takes a lot of energy to raise a child, but she thought, how much she wanted to take care of these energy herself, but she didn't know if she would have such an opportunity.Xiaofu thought, she no longer wants all the romance and uniqueness in this world. She just wants to be with Yang Xiao and be an ordinary couple, like her parents, like Grandpa Bai and his wife. Like Granny Bai, facing livelihood together, raising children together, growing old together with him, that's all she wants.

For some reason, Miss Pu loves her very much and never regrets it. She often comes to see her, or takes her to play in her own room. If it weren't for the fact that the child still needs to breastfeed at night, she would be willing to drive Mr. Zhu to the study and take her with her. Regret sleep.Days passed like this day by day, even if Xiaofu procrastinated day by day, she was still out of confinement, and she didn't regret being fed fat for nothing, so she should feel relieved to go back.The day before she left, she hugged Buhui in her arms again and again, feeling that her heart had been hollowed out. She had the idea of ​​not going back to Mount Emei again and again, and she rejected it time and time again. She knew that she could only go back , This is the best choice for Yang Xiao, no regrets, and their family. For the sake of their well-being, she can only endure this kind of separation.Miss Pu told Xiaofu that she watched Buhui grow up in Xiaofu's stomach and guarded her birth. After discussing with Mr. Zhu, I want to keep Buhui in this Bihan Villa to raise myself. Mr. Zhu also strongly agrees, "After all, it is more convenient here, and it is safer than outside. It will not be easily suspected by others.", Xiaofu didn't know what to say, she knew that Miss Pu had given her a great kindness, but she couldn't say a word of thanks, so she could only cry by the bed with no regrets. "Xiaofu, you've been here for so long. I decided to make a fortune for you yesterday. Don't worry about it." Miss Pu paused and said: "The fortune teller says, it's best not to answer your questions this time. Mount Emei is gone, even if you go back, it’s best not to go down again.” Xiaofu closed her eyes and shook her head, tears still hanging on her cheeks: “Sister Pu, I have to go back to Mount Emei, I will never regret it. I can't leave it alone, I will have to visit her a few times a year from now on, people have their own destiny, if you figure it out, how can I avoid it." Miss Pu sighed, knowing that she would not be able to persuade Xiaofu to return. , so she reassured her: "Then let's sleep for a while tonight. From tomorrow onwards, I will take Buhui to sleep with me, so you can rest assured." Then, she walked out of the door and let Xiaofu and her daughter stay alone again. treat.

Early the next morning, Xiaofu went to say goodbye to Mr. Zhu and Miss Pu. While Buhui was still asleep, she entrusted Mrs. Chu to look after her, and left without looking back. She knew that as long as Buhui woke up and cried , she can no longer walk.She grabbed her saber, carried the burden on her back, turned around and left, and she couldn't help covering her mouth and crying until the carriage drove for several miles, don't regret it, don't blame mother, so that you can live in peace When you grow up, your father will have the opportunity to see you.

When Xiaofu arrived at Mount Emei, it was already night, and the road on the mountain was difficult, so she ignored it and walked forward step by step, without any thought in her mind, she no longer knew what to do.At that time, she originally thought that she would only go down the mountain for a month or two, and all she wanted was to return to the teacher's school as soon as possible, but she didn't expect that it would take two years to go away, and when she finally came back here, she was so depressed.It was Junior Sister Bei who came to open the door. She couldn't memorize the sword manual and was punished by the master to wipe the floor of the Buddhist hall. When Xiaofu knocked on the door, she happened to be in the front yard. When she saw Xiaofu appearing in front of her, she was stunned for a while. Then he shouted happily: "Master, Master, Senior Sister Ji is back!" Xiaofu was very popular in Emei, so the senior sisters and sisters all ran out after hearing this, and Miejue Shitai was also hugged by everyone, walking slowly When I arrived at the front yard, although I was happy, I just nodded to Xiaofu and said: "You will be fine when you come back. I heard that the illness is not serious, but everything is fine?" I'm done." Xiaofu replied, "That's good. I think I have been recuperating at home for a while, and now I have to work hard again. Then you go to rest with the teachers and sisters first." Miejue Shitai Without asking any more questions, he turned around and went back to his room to sleep.

Bei Jinyi hadn't seen Xiaofu for two years, she was happy like something, and she was not too sleepy at night, she came to Xiaofu's room and dragged her to talk a lot, Xiaofu lay on the bed, crying secretly, just Did not listen to half a sentence. "Senior Sister Ji, at that time we didn't wait for you to come to us, so we wondered if you had gone back to the mountain, but we didn't see you when we went back to the mountain, but I was terrified, and I was always worried about what happened to you Fortunately, you wrote a letter to Master from home. You have been away for almost two years, but did you encounter anything interesting?" Xiaofu replied calmly: "I walked all day today, and I am very tired. I'll tell you a few interesting things later." After all, Bei Jinyi has learned a lot in the past two years, so she nodded happily and said, "Then let's talk about it tomorrow, oh yes, there is something I must tell you something strange." She then told Xiaofu about the inexplicable appearance of the Yitian Sword in the courtyard of the Emei School: "Master also said that our Master Guo must have manifested his spirit.", Xiao Fu was stunned when she heard this, Yang Xiao, this Yitian sword must have been sent back by Yang Xiao, he once mentioned to her that he would help the Emei faction find the Yitian sword, and he really did.These days, Xiaofu is half worried that Yang Xiao will come looking for her, hoping that Yang Xiao will keep his promise, and when she is weak and helpless, she hopes to see Yang Xiao looking for her as soon as she looks up, but he didn't come, Xiaofu would think, I don't know if it was him Really didn't come to look for her, still didn't find herself, but the appearance of Yitianjian let her know that Yang Xiao had been here, and he couldn't let her go, he came to look for her, I'm afraid his purpose of doing this is In order to help Xiaofu and the Emei faction, and also to resolve the grudge with the Emei faction, the second is to confide endless thoughts to Xiaofu, so that there are more possibilities between them, although he also knows in his heart that they are at this moment We should never meet again.

Xiaofu couldn't restrain herself anymore, she left Bei Jinyi with a shocked face, covered her mouth and rushed out of the room, ran to the front of the Buddhist hall, prostrated herself heavily on the ground, her tears fell on the futon, "From now on I will After returning to Mount Emei, praying to gods and worshiping Buddha in this life is only one wish, Yang Xiao, I wish you a safe life forever.", Yang Xiao, I wish you a safe life forever.

☆, only a shadow is no match for the long autumn night