[Xiaofu colleague] What I'm thinking

(One)

When they arrived in Hangzhou, it was already time for dinner the next day. As soon as they entered Hangzhou City, Xiaofu became inexplicably nervous and secretly asked Yang Xiao who else was in the old house.Knowing that she was shy, Yang Xiao comforted her, except for an old couple who guarded the house, there was no one else, and they were already very old, so they wouldn't ask any more questions, and told Xiaofu to feel at ease, Xiaofu listened He murmured: "I didn't bring anything to the two old people."

Yang Xiao parked the carriage outside the house, helped Xiaofu get out of the car, and knocked on the door. After a long time, an old voice came from the yard: "Who is it?" Someone came over from inside the door, and after waiting for a while, a trembling old man opened the door, squinted his eyes for a long time, but did not recognize Yang Xiao, "Daddy Bai, it's me!", "You Yes?...Ah, ah, old woman, come and see, Mr. Xiao is back!" Hearing this, an old woman ran out of the courtyard again, stared at Yang Xiao for a long time, and grabbed him When they said, "Little Mister! You're back!", the two old people were so excited that they seemed about to cry. Xiao Fu also felt a little moved when she saw her.The two of them were busy talking to Yang Xiao, and when they looked up, they saw a young lady standing behind them. They first glanced at each other, and Granny Bai wanted to understand human relations, so she laughed and said, "Mr. Xiao even brought guests back.", Only then did Yang Xiao pull Xiaofu over to introduce them to the two of them: "This is Miss Ji." The couple didn't ask any more questions, only Granny Bai said: "Mr. Where are you going to find good food for you to eat now!" Everyone laughed.

Yang Xiao sat in the living room and asked Father Bai about some family affairs, while Xiao Fu was drinking tea and listening quietly, while Granny Bai was busy in the kitchen, Xiao Fu wanted to help her, but she just refused and pushed her away again and again. .The Bai couple are old, and they are used to being plain and clean. Both of them eat casual noodle soup for dinner, and they don't prepare too many dishes at home. Even so, after a while, Granny Bai still brought them a bowl of extra food. Pianerchuan with sliced ​​bamboo shoots and pickled vegetables, a plate of stir-fried side dishes, and a plate of fried bamboo shoots with ham, and asked the two to come and eat quickly.At this time, Granny Bai went into the inner courtyard to make a bed, and before going out, she gave Yang Xiao a slight glance, Yang Xiao naturally understood, and ordered: "I still sleep in my room, and Miss Ji lives in my sister's old room.", and turned around again. Add vegetables to eat with Xiaofu: "Try this ham, it's made at home, you can't eat it anywhere else.".

That night, Xiaofu slept in sister Yang Xiao's former room, seeing that there were no boudoir women's belongings in it, and then remembered that the little sister had passed away when she was three or four years old, and felt sad , Although the room is small and narrow, the furniture and furnishings are exquisite, Xiaofu thought that she was already in Yang Xiao's house, and suddenly blushed again, thinking that the more she talked about it, the more embarrassing she became.Just as she was thinking about it, she suddenly heard a light knock on the door. Yang Xiao asked outside, "Xiaofu, are you asleep?" Let's talk for a while."Xiaofu put on her clothes, got out of bed and opened the door for Yang Xiao. Seeing him smiling sincerely under the moonlight, she said to her, "Why don't you come and see my room?" Xiaofu knew this. He lowered his head and replied, "It's not good, Granny Bai and the others are here." Yang Xiao smiled and said, "They live in the outer courtyard, so they can't hear anything." She picked her up and walked to her room. Xiaofu was afraid that the Bai couple would feel embarrassed, so she didn't dare to shout out loud, but said in a low voice, "You are becoming more and more rude!" Yang Xiao replied, "What do I want from you?" Ritual?" Then she put Xiaofu on the bed and went to put the curtain on the bed.That night, both of them didn't seem to be sleepy. Xiao Fu snuggled into Yang Xiao's arms and listened to him talk about his childhood all night. It wasn't until dawn that Xiao Fu couldn't let Granny Bai see , went back to Younger Sister Yang Xiao's room and took a rest, not daring to sleep too much to make Bai and his wife feel rude, so they woke up an hour later.Grandma Bai came to open the door of the inner courtyard to fetch water, and Xiaofu went to fetch it herself, and then helped Grandma Bai make porridge and cook breakfast.Yesterday when she came here in the evening, Granny Bai didn't see Xiaofu for real, but when she saw her today, she was really pretty and well-educated. Thinking that if Mrs. Master and Mrs. Quan knew about it, she must be very happy.When Yang Xiao got up, she saw that Xiaofu was already busy in the kitchen serving bowls of porridge, so she asked her why she didn't sleep a little longer, and Xiaofu replied vaguely: "I don't know how lazy I am. ", Yang Xiao vaguely knew Xiaofu's intentions, so he gave a meaningful laugh, and then took advantage of Granny Bai's absence, whispered to Xiaofu: "It turns out that Miss Ji is here to be a virtuous woman." Immediately blushing, grabbed the rice spoon just to hit him.

When I arrived yesterday, it was already very late. Today, when I have free time, Xiaofu slowly looked at Yang Xiao's ancestral house.This is a three-entry courtyard, with a front yard as usual, the houses are small, the patio is also small, white powder walls, black tiles, the roof is slanted, and the door for entry and exit is not too big , The windows used for lighting are not too big, and they are all carved with delicate flowers.In the past, Yang Xiao’s grandparents lived in the main house of the second entrance. Yang Xiao’s parents lived in a small courtyard to the east, and the small courtyard to the west was his grandfather’s study. Yang Xiao and his younger siblings lived in the wing rooms on both sides. The utility room and the yard where the servants live, the front yard is the living room and the porter, the Bai couple live in the front yard, so it is convenient to guard the gate.Although no one has been here for a long time, Xiaofu can still see the old scene. The small pond in the courtyard is half full of water, and the scenery on it is cute and interesting, but moss is growing, and the flower stand in the courtyard is planted by the white lady. There are some easy-to-grow flowers, and the scenery is also set up next to the water well in the backyard. If someone takes good care of it, it is indeed a secluded and peaceful place.Yang Xiao said that it was raining in the south, and the tiles on the roof were a little bad. In order to prevent water leakage, he needed to call someone to repair it, and then he lowered his head to discuss with Xiaofu: "Let them fix the west courtyard first, and then we will live in the house." Go west across the courtyard, okay?" Xiaofu glanced at him, then shook her lowered head again. "It doesn't matter, let's talk about it in a few days. After a few days, the things are ready. I will take you to worship my family." Yang Xiao paused and said: "In this way, the family has passed the road. , Father Bai and Granny Bai are members of our own family, so there is no need to shy away from it." After hearing this, Xiaofu still remained silent, and Yang Xiao knew that although she was shy, she only had other people around, so she agreed in her heart, so she stopped asking and made her own plans went.

The Bai couple were old servants employed by Yang Xiao's grandfather. Their son also worked in the Yang family. He went out with his family to take refuge that year and died in the sea. These two old people were old, but they didn't leave that year. Once they were old, no one would make things difficult for them, so their grandfather allowed them to stay and look at the house, which saved their lives.At first they thought that the Yang family had arrived safely on Peach Blossom Island, but after receiving a letter from Yang Xiao, they realized that only Yang Xiao was left in the family. In addition to grief, they regarded Yang Xiao as the only family member. , and stayed at home for a while, the three of them lived. Later, although they traveled around and joined the Ming religion, they were far away in Kunlun Mountains. They would come back several times to visit their elders in two or three years. The brothers in the church sent money and goods to visit.The two old people are looking forward to Yang Xiao coming back more, but these few years are really busy in Mingjiao, and Yang Xiao has little time to spare, but Granny Bai still makes ham for Yang Xiao every year, even though the old couple don't like it.

Not only did they regard Yang Xiao as a relative, but they also regarded him as the young master. The two of them were used to being honest and dutiful, and they never asked about Yang Xiao's affairs. Now that a young lady came back with him, they felt a little bit worried. Counting, Yang Xiao is not too young, and has not married a wife for a long time. Besides, this young lady is gentle and beautiful. Fu has become the young lady, and she both likes and respects her.

Autumn is already deep, and every household in Hangzhou has started to make winter pickled meat and pickled vegetables. Granny Bai does not want Xiaofu to intervene, but Xiaofu likes her kind words, and always sits next to her. She talked about the days of the Yang family in the past, and also helped with cooking.Yang Xiao went to discuss with Father Bai about repairing the house. He put his heart into everything, and thought that Xiaofu was here, and he wanted to make something different. He even pointed out the blueprints by himself, and sometimes he was busy outside. One morning, he walked to the backyard, stood by the door and looked at Xiao Fu, and Xiao Fu smiled at him.Later, they vaguely recalled that it was the happiest day in their lives.

(two)

Half a month later, Yang Xiao prepared the things and mentioned to Xiaofu about going to pay homage to his family. The meaning was very clear. Naturally, he wanted to explain the matter with Xiaofu to the family, even though they were no longer there.Xiaofu asked if it was necessary to go to sea, Yang Xiao said no, the world is vast, and this kindness can be felt everywhere, just on the shore.When it was dark that day, he lit a joss stick and said that the girl's spirit was weak, so she didn't need to work on Xiaofu, but Xiaofu laughed and said that she was not afraid of these things. After all, the dead should be respected, so he worshiped with him. I burned some more paper money, bought some pens and inks for my younger brothers and sisters, short wooden swords, and puppets, and poured a few more glasses of wine to toast to the whole family.After a while the candles were burned out, and the two of them sat on the bleak shore, staring blankly at some clouds in the chaotic sky by the moonlight.

Yang Xiao thought in his heart, if his parents were still alive, they would be grandparents to the children of his younger brothers and sisters. If he brought Xiaofu home to see them, they would be very happy. If they rushed to Xiaofu's house Proposing marriage, then changing the name is justified. Although I have been used to being alone for so many years, the loneliness in my heart is very obvious at this time.He thought that if the events of the past had never happened, he and Xiao Fu might be a match made in heaven, but if the events of the past had never happened, how would he meet Xiao Fu?Between him and Xiaofu, if one day later, she might have missed it by one step, then she would be Mrs. Yin of the Wudang sect. How could he have the chance to meet her in this life? Now this is just right, even if there is something wrong In the end, he can figure out a way.

Yang Xiao glanced sideways at Xiao Fu, she was also thinking in the dark night, he thought that Xiao Fu's temperament would definitely please his mother, when he was a child he and his younger brother were always running around in the yard, and his mother kept him under control. She couldn't help but said angrily that it would be better to have a daughter. Later, when her younger sister was born, the mother finally got her wish and complained that one daughter was not enough.My mother is also a girl who grew up in the family's boudoir. She must be very satisfied to meet Xiaofu with such a temper and temperament, and she will love her as a daughter.Presumably my younger sister would also like this sister-in-law, and Xiaofu is younger than her younger sister, but I always feel that Xiaofu should take care of her willful mischief and protect her everywhere.Yang Xiao looked at the dark sea, put his hands on his chest quietly, and secretly made a wish, saying that if his family members are alive in the sky, I hope they can bless everything between him and Xiaofu. In this life, he only wants Xiaofu. .What troubled him was that Xiao Fu often seemed to have a lot of worries, and he knew that she was right to be worried, but he still hoped that she would give them a chance, at least let him try to solve it.

Xiaofu is also full of worries at the moment. I don't know when it started. As long as she doesn't see Yang Xiao in front of her eyes, she feels full of fear, and feels that there will be a day when she wakes up every day and goes to bed every night. , I can no longer see Yang Xiao, there are too many things between them.Xiaofu listened to legends when she was young, those talented scholars and beauties in the books, go round and round by accident, and they can always be together in the end. When she was at the age of first love, she also thought that all kinds of feelings in this world, as long as you have the heart, will eventually come to an end. It can be fulfilled, but it suddenly occurred to me later that if everyone is happy is the ending of every story, why should it be written into the legendary biography, precisely because it is not often obtained, and that is what people look forward to seeing.

No matter how connected she and Yang Xiao are, some things cannot be changed after all.No matter how much her parents love her, she is not the only daughter after all. They also have to take into account the reputation and even the lives of the whole family. Life will not be easy, waiting for the family's nieces to grow up, even marriage is not easy to discuss.Not to mention that the master has been upright all his life, unless it is about life and death, he cannot accept any connection between his disciples and people in Mingjiao.Besides Yin Liting, although Xiaofu knew that she didn't like him, she couldn't bear to hurt him. Yang Xiao said that as long as Xiaofu didn't marry him, he would marry someone else after a year or two of sadness, but Xiaofu knew that what people don't like about Yin Liting is His dead-headedness, but what makes him admirable is that dead-headedness. He is sure about Xiao Fu. Even if Xiao Fu dies, he might delay it for ten years.The way Yang Xiao thought was to live in seclusion, but in this rivers and lakes, there are too many people who can recognize them, as long as there is a little wind, it will affect the reputation of the entire Ji family, Emei and Wudang.What's more, the second layer of Xiaofu's worry is Yang Xiao's future, the deviant lover, and the only thing left is each other, Yang Xiao is willing, but Xiaofu is not willing to block his other way, he still has so much To realize his ideal, not to mention other things, he cannot ignore Yang Jiaozhu and Fan Youshi. Even if he can let go of his wish and reputation, can he let go of this matter.Xiaofu thought that she was a disciple of Emei, and she was used to the rules since she was a child. If some words spread, there would be more people who misunderstood Yang Xiao, and fewer people who condemned her. But no matter how indifferent Yang Xiao was, she would not let her He bears these infamy.

In the past, she always thought that if she really loved someone, she wanted to be with him all the time. She felt that it was the same without Yin Liting in her heart. She had never expected to see him, but only after meeting Yang Xiao did she know that she really loves him. A person, in addition to expecting to be by his side all the time, also thinks about him and plans for him in everything, just like what Yang Xiao did for her, she is also willing to do for Yang Xiao.Xiaofu never thought of being separated from Yang Xiao, but as the days passed by, she became more and more uneasy, and felt more and more clearly that the relationship between her and Yang Xiao would not go so smoothly.

In the past few days, she has always dreamed of being at home in Hanyang, dreaming that her master came to ask her parents to ask for her, dreaming that her senior sister was threatening her brother and sister-in-law with a sword, dreaming that all martial arts sects were cursing the Ji family, dreaming of being silent Yin Liting, who was crying, dreamed that her parents were mad at her, dreamed that her brother and sister-in-law were lamenting repeatedly... the pain in her heart, and she didn't want to mention it to Yang Xiao. I feel unable to face Yang Xiao.She knew that Yang Xiao would rush home with her when she mentioned it, but she also knew that even if she returned to Hanyang, there would not be the good result Yang Xiao expected. If time passes more slowly, I hope that this dark night will last as long as half a lifetime. As long as she can spend more time with Yang Xiao, she is willing to live in this chaos.

"Xiaofu?" Yang Xiao called Xiaofu a few times, but she didn't hear him until he held his hand: "What's wrong with you?" Yang Xiao looked suspiciously: "I'm uncomfortable with the wind, I feel a little dizzy." "Then let's go back earlier, tell me what's going on, don't think about it." Yang Xiao smiled at Xiaofu again as he spoke.She didn't know if he had seen her through or just worried about her, but she knew that they didn't want to talk about it now, so he held her hand, sat on the horse with her in his arms, and rode back home .

(three)

Seeing that Xiaofu always refused to mention the matter of returning to Hanyang, Yang Xiao sometimes felt bored, but he knew that this matter was always for Xiaofu to figure out on his own. Fortunately, no one asked much, so he simply let Xiaofu Let's talk after the New Year here.The old house was repaired soon, and Yang Xiao asked Xiaofu to tidy up the garden according to his own preferences. He simply opened up the room where he and his younger brother used to be a study, and lived in the small courtyard on the west side. Xiaofu teased him. , saying that he read the books of sages and sages in vain, and moved all the study rooms to the wing room. Yang Xiao replied with a smile: "The two rooms combined are larger than the original courtyard space, and reading is also comfortable. Now there must be a decent place to live. The wing room is also inappropriate." Xiaofu knew the meaning of his words, she turned her head to tidy up the books for him, her face was blushing to bleed, but her heart was infinitely sad, thinking that she would not have such a blessing after all.Yang Xiao always made plans according to her preferences. He changed the big bed with carved patterns, changed the bed curtain into Xiaofu's favorite color, and bought a large wardrobe for Xiaofu's clothes for the four seasons.He originally said that he wanted to add an attic to the house in the courtyard, just to hide it in the shade of the trees, so that Xiaofu could enjoy the coolness in summer, but it was not too ostentatious, so I had to talk about it later, Xiaofu listened to him carefully thinking about it These, with each additional sentence, the worry in my heart increases.

The dead leaves that fell in the yard were swept pile after pile, and the weather was getting cold day by day. Father Bai piled up the fallen leaves in the backyard and burned them. The smell of bacon and the sight of people busy preparing winter vegetables are the smoke and fire in the world.As the end of the new year approached, there were several rare heavy snowfalls in the city of Hangzhou. During the day, the snow fluttered and fell one by one, and the ground was dark. After one night, it was piled up on the roof and in the courtyard.They didn't go anywhere in those few days, they hid at home all day long, with a blazing fire, Grandma Bai lifted the thick curtain and came in, warmed the wine on the stove, and threw a few pieces of rice cakes to bake. I have been busy since returning to the kitchen, only the sound of sizzle can be heard in the quiet room.Yang Xiao was sitting by the window reading, and looked up from time to time to see Xiaofu who was making new winter clothes for the year. She spread out the cut cotton cloth on the table, tore the cotton thinly, and spread it evenly on it. He was a little more proficient in this sewing, with white and slender fingers holding the silver needle and sewing stitch by stitch.Yang Xiao feels that he has not been as happy as he is now in the past few decades. He is like a young man who has returned to his hometown with honor and brought back his beloved wife. She left her hometown and began to learn the customs and customs here. The Hangzhou dialect that came from him made him laugh for a while.From now on, she will live in this old house in the courtyard. She will be the mistress here, order the servants to come in and out to buy and clean, and wait for him to come home when he comes home late occasionally. He will accompany her to the market. Choosing fabrics in the market, I will bring her new jewelry when I go home one day, I will take her to play in the mountains, I will feel sorry for her for working on trivial matters at home, I will get angry with her, argue with her, and go to the store with a smile on my face. Coax her well, and they will rejoice at the birth of their child together, worry about the rumors about their identities together, and plan for the livelihood of the family together.Yang Xiao thinks these are great, better than his fame when he was 20 years old, better than all his fame in Jianghu, he is willing to be an ordinary couple with her in this world.

It's always easy to get sleepy in winter, and not long after dinner, Yang Xiao let the Bai family rest, closed the door of the courtyard, and then found a few books with Xiaofu to read under the lamp.My grandfather and father collected these ancient books, which I never read when I was young, but I read them with great interest when I was with Xiaofu.She asked him what he had read, and he would tell her sentence by sentence. When she saw something she felt, she put down the book to discuss with him, or sometimes the two of them would write and draw together, with the candles flickering. The ticking, the dripping of the dripping glass, the cold outside the window, the cold moon is silent, but the house is full of beautiful women and wine, warm and harmonious. On such days, people's hearts are full, but if you don't pay attention for a while, that kind of worry I also took advantage of the void to enter, for fear that such beauty would only last for a moment, not forever.

Sometimes Yang Xiao suddenly wakes up in the middle of the night, seeing the chaotic darkness in front of him, he doesn't know where he is for a moment, and the moment he panics, he holds her tightly, Xiaofu's warm hands give him comfort , She just slept peacefully beside him, breathing evenly, which made Yang Xiao feel the tranquility of the years.Sometimes when he saw her sleeping soundly, he would feel uncontrollable in his heart. He touched her skin softly, as if it could soothe the hardships he had experienced in his life. With a hazy sleepiness, he turned sideways to cover her body, Waking her up from the dream, she was surprised a few times at first, but then she got used to Yang Xiao doing this every few days, and even used the cover of the night and mist to cater to his movements even more than before going to bed. Yang Xiao bit her earlobe and whispered softly on her neck: "I knew you weren't so dull." She didn't answer anything, just put her hands around his neck, Under the slight moonlight, only her slight panting could be heard.

"Xiaofu, when spring comes, I'll take you to Sugongdi to fly a kite. The willow trees are sprouting buds, and the sound of orioles is singing." "You haven't been to the northwest, have you? The scenery, I guess you will like it, the sky there is bluer than that in the Central Plains, if you want, we can ride a horse for a whole day.", "If you still want to live on the mountain, I will build a room for you The house, turn over a piece of land at the door to grow flowers for you, all year round, you can eat whatever is in the mountains, but I guess you have stayed on Mount Emei for all these years, do you not want to live on the mountain?", "It's been a long time, and thinking about your parents won't be angry with us anymore. When you miss home, I will accompany you back to Hanyang. Even if other people in your family don't like me, I guess your second brother still can't bear to leave me alone." Me.", "Actually, if you are worried about being recognized by others, I will take you to live in Peach Blossom Island. There are some old friends of mine there. I used to not like Peach Blossom Island, although the people there are very nice to me. , but in those few years there, I always thought about the family members who passed away, and I always felt that I was alone. After waking up before going to bed every day, all I felt was confusion, but if you went, it would be different, and I would also I am a family man now, and I still miss those days." Every night, under the gauze bed curtain, in the twilight, in the intermission between the ups and downs, Yang Xiao said word by word in Xiaofu's ear Seeing these warm words of love, they are comparable to every pledge of eternal love, Xiaofu shed tears hearing it in the chaos, not knowing whether it was because of being moved or worried, so Yang Xiao took her into his arms and slowly wiped away her tears, Take her hand and reassure her.He didn't want Xiaofu to cry, no matter if she was sad or happy, he didn't want her, he knew what he wanted for the rest of his life was to let Xiaofu have the happiest smile every day because of him.

(four)

At New Year's Eve, Xiaofu helped Granny Bai prepare a large table of dishes, and waited for Yang Xiao to write the couplets, and together with him, they pasted the doors inside and out. When it was getting dark, the four of them sat around and had the New Year's Eve dinner, and watched the New Year's Eve all night. At the third watch, some big family in the city set off fireworks. Yang Xiao took Xiaofu to watch in the yard. The beautiful fireworks suddenly bloomed in the sky, and soon disappeared into the dark night.After the bustle, there was a silence. Xiaofu walked into the room, thinking about how to write a letter to her family and Master during the New Year, but when she found the letter paper, she found that she couldn't write a single word. Mount Emei sent a letter, saying that I had been to the east a few days ago and had never met my peers in the school. Later, I saw some people who seemed to be from the Kunlun School going to Peach Blossom Island. Looking for Xie Xun's whereabouts, unexpectedly there was a strong wind and waves, so he couldn't go up easily, and fell into the water again here, but fortunately he was rescued, and now he has been chained for a while, and he may not be able to return to Mount Emei until after the New Year.Xiaofu thought to herself, since she hadn't heard from her for a long time, it was inevitable that her master would doubt her, but she hoped that after reading this letter, she would be able to delay for a while, as she really couldn't bear to part with these days with Yang Xiao.

Seeing that Xiaofu had sealed the letter, Yang Xiao didn't ask her what she had written. She just smiled and said that she had already voted it out for her. It was also spring, and a whole year passed like this. What happened in this whole year was something she never dared to imagine in the past, and she also didn't know what would happen between her and Yang Xiao after that.

Since arriving in Hangzhou, Yang Xiao went out several times one after another, and Xiaofu knew that it was all related to Mingjiao.He probably didn't want others to know where his old house was, so he always went out at dawn and came back in an hour, so Xiaofu never asked what he did, only once, Xiaofu When I was with him by the West Lake, I met some of his subordinates. Seeing that they had something to report to him, Xiaofu consciously said to go to the pavilion to rest. Far away, Xiaofu still vaguely heard that what those people reported was still related to Yang Jiaozhu. Yang Xiao has been asking his subordinates to find Yang Jiaozhu and Fan Youshi, but there seems to be no clear news. Xiaofu saw his face. Showing disappointment, he gave some instructions to those people, but when he came to the pavilion, he changed a calm expression, and said to Xiaofu with a smile: "Let's go home early, Grandma Bai said that tonight Prepared good food." At that time, Xiaofu knew very well that Yang Xiao didn't want fame, wealth or vanity, but there were still too many things he couldn't let go of. The future he wanted to give her required him to give up so much, so how could she I can bear it.

But if he wants to fulfill his mind, what can he give up?If the scolding of the whole world is aimed at her alone, she is willing to bear it for him, but the matter is not so simple. She is the daughter of the Ji family, the disciple of Emei, and the daughter-in-law of Wudang. For one thing, let them bear the infamy together.If she died, even if she forced her to refuse to marry Yin Liting because of her death, he would be sad at most, but if she failed Yin Liting because of her private life with someone from Mingjiao, he would probably bear humiliation.These days, she has had such a dream every two or three days. She dreamed that her master said that she insulted her master, dreamed that people from various sects besieged the Ji family, dreamed that her parents grew old overnight, and dreamed of the sighs of her brothers and sisters. , Dreaming of Yin Liting's sad look.She has already felt sorry for them, and she doesn't want to use her selfishness to cause them more troubles.

When the spring breeze brings warmth, the willow trees on the Sugong embankment begin to sprout, and everything is renewed, but Yang Xiao feels that Xiaofu is not as happy as before. When they walk by the West Lake, she always looks worried, with misty eyes Maybe, he called her, and she hurriedly came back to her senses.Xiaofu's behavior made Yang Xiao feel uneasy. He knew that this matter could not be delayed any longer. Before, he was also waiting for a chance to let Xiaofu not be embarrassed at all. Now it seems that such an opportunity can't wait. Can do it on my own.

Yang Xiao has always been a person who firmly believes that everything has a definite number, but on this matter, he remembered it countless times, and would deceive himself and think, if he didn't ask Xiaofu in such a hurry, would all this be changed? Something is different.It was after dinner that day, Xiaofu was reading under the lamp, Yang Xiao opened the door and came in from the small courtyard, and said to Xiaofu that the moonlight tonight is not bad, and the courtyard is not too cold, do you want to go out and have a sit? , Xiaofu raised her head and smiled at him, raised the book in her hand and said: "I am fascinated by reading it, and you are quarreling with me again." Yang Xiao went over and asked her what she read, and saw that it was just a copy of "Flower Garden Collection" , then laughed: "I don't believe that Miss Ji is not familiar with the words in it, even if she doesn't read it, she knows it, so don't read it first." As she spoke, she took out the book in her hand, closed it and put it on the table, then held the book Holding her hand, he said to her softly: "I have something to tell you. Since you don't want to go to the courtyard, let's talk here, okay?".Xiaofu suddenly became flustered. She met Yang Xiao's expectant eyes and subconsciously wanted to shake her head to refuse. She knew that once Yang Xiao said this, there would be no future between them, and everything would not be as he thought. Well, he thought about everything for her, but he didn't want her to think about everything for him, but they were originally two people who were in opposite directions, if they both wanted to take care of it, there was probably nothing they could do.

Seeing Yang Xiao's sincere and enthusiastic expression, her heart has softened for the most part, but she also knows that this matter can't be delayed any longer, she always needs to give everyone an explanation, and if it continues, it will only be a mistake. , Yang Xiao was delayed in vain, so he simply turned his heart away, smiled at him, and said: "If you have anything to say, you can say it.".Yang Xiao pulled Xiaofu to the table and sat down, held her hand tighter with both hands, hesitated for a while, and finally said: "Xiaofu, I, I always see you frowning, Are you still worried, but that's right, I also think this matter can't be delayed any longer, I'll go get ready, and I'll accompany you back to Hanyang in two days, and I'll propose marriage to your parents, okay?" Yang Xiao decided Looking at Xiaofu intently, she thought that these words would somewhat calm her heart, but she didn't expect that Xiaofu just lowered her head when she heard these words, and when she raised her head again, her face was full of tears again. "Xiaofu?" Yang Xiao thought she was still unprepared, but his words forced her. He just wanted to persuade her again, let her not worry, and leave everything to himself. I never thought that Xiaofu would open her mouth To: "Yang Xiao, I want to be with you, and I only want to be with you, but I can't give you the promise you want, and the future." After hearing this, Yang Xiao was stunned for a long time, and suddenly When she came back to her senses, she still asked Xiaofu with a smile: "I don't understand Xiaofu, what you mean is." "Don't accompany me home, don't go to my parents to propose marriage, I can't give you the future you want. , after all, we cannot be together day and night."Xiaofu saw the unbelievable expression on Yang Xiao's face, stayed for a while, and still asked her unwillingly: "I don't understand what you said, didn't you say it?", "Yang Xiao, I have thought of many ways, but probably, all No, it's not that I don't want to be with you, but we can't do it." Yang Xiao still repeated his question: "But didn't you promise, now, why?", "We can't do it.", Xiao After Fu finished this sentence, she saw tears rolling out of Yang Xiao's eyes suddenly, it was the first time she saw him cry.

(Fives)

Yang Xiao still looked at Xiaofu with that puzzled look, and after a long silence, he finally said, "Xiaofu, what are you worried about, tell me, what do you think is wrong, tell me, okay?", Xiaofu kept turning her head to one side, and couldn't bear to look at Yang Xiao, but she couldn't hold back her tears. She knew that this problem would have to be faced one day, even though they had been together for a long time. After one year, it's time for her to explain to her family and Master. She still feels that this day is coming too soon, but she finally knows that since this day has come, no matter how much they hide, they will not be able to escape of.Xiaofu turned her head slowly, looked at Yang Xiao who also had a sad face with blurred eyes, her voice choked up several times, and finally said this: "Yang Xiao, I want to ask you." Eyelids lifted slightly, forced a smile, hummed, as a response to Xiao Fu, Xiao Fu wiped the tears from her face again, took a deep breath, and then continued: "Why did you send me from the Big Tree Fort?" I went back to Longyou County and took me home from Fuzhou. On the way on the boat, you mentioned many times that I would go back to Guangmingding with you, but after I rescued you, you never