Confessions of a retired star

At the end of the year, on the eve of Fang Tingchen's 17th birthday, after completing all the formalities, he returned to his home in Gordon Hill City from the juvenile detention center.

Eric and his Asian wife Nella cleaned the house with him and had a great birthday with him.

"Eric told me that one of the teenagers he met was very special. Fang, you remind me of my son who has been working abroad all year round." Nella showed Fang Tingchen a photo of her son, "If you have any troubles , or feel lonely and need someone to accompany you, welcome to us, Eric and I both like you."

Afterwards, Nella and Eric gave Fang Tingchen a birthday present - a job from the Gordon Hill City Youth Musical Theatre.

"My friends work here and they needed a prop management employee," Eric said, "We recommended you, a job with the troupe will give you a better understanding of the industry."

With this opportunity, Fang Tingchen quickly passed the simple interview and joined the Youth Musical Theater Troupe as a prop manager.

The troupe is semi-profit and not very busy on a daily basis. Fang Tingchen often watches the rehearsals and performances of the actors in his spare time, and he has his own insights into musicals.

When he is not in the troupe, Fang Tingchen usually stays in two places, one is the community library, where he studies high school courses by himself, and prepares to apply for college, and the other is his own backyard, where he usually puts every part of the repertoire He played each role many times according to his understanding, until he was sweating profusely and then lay down under the tree to sleep.

He basically does not do other things. Work, study, and self-entertainment performances occupy his life.

The frequency of correspondence with Zhu Shisi is almost once a month. Whenever he sees Zhu Shisi telling his star life in a postcard, Fang Tingchen will feel that they are walking the same road, but he falls in the same direction. Later, you need to work hard to catch up with Zhu Shisi.

This is also the reason why Fang Tingchen did not go to see Zhu Shisi after he was released from prison, and even after he became famous.

He firmly believed that only by cleansing the prisoner's brand would he be eligible to stand side by side with Zhu Shisi. In order to urge himself to have this qualification as soon as possible, Fang Tingchen set a deadline.

The deadline is when he receives a postcard.

About twelve a year, from the time he received his first postcard at the age of 14, it took almost nine years.

Fang Tingchen made this plan when he was 17 years old. He immersed himself in books and performances every day. Time passed quickly. In May of the second year after he was released from prison, the opportunity came.

That day, the theater troupe was doing the final rehearsal for the upcoming performance of "Les Miserables" in Lincheng. One of the important characters was Marius. The actor who played Marius was ill, and the substitute actor asked for leave again, and the role was vacant immediately. out.

The group leader had already planned to skip the part of the performance of this role, but before the performance started, Fang Tingchen volunteered and performed a short part on the spot. He wanted to give it a try.

Although his figure and appearance can play Marius through makeup, as a plumbing tool, he has no experience in performing on stage, so everyone is not optimistic about him.However, after the rehearsal, all the actors present applauded him. His performance exceeded everyone's expectations by a lot, and the performance of some arias even overshadowed the aura of the protagonist.

Fang Tingchen became Marius' understudy from a prop manager, and began to perform with the troupe in various places.

To commemorate his debut, he changed his name from "Fang Tingchen" to "Fang Ting", which sounds the same as the classic character "Fantine" in "Les Miserables".

In September of the same year, the head of the troupe recommended him to the city's drama troupe.

The head of the group wrote in the recommendation letter: I have seen many talented young actors, but their aura often disappears after the initial brilliance.But he was different, he had the talent to wow even the most demanding teacher in our regiment, yet always maintained a humble attitude, I think he is a born actor.

After some weighing, Fang Ting decided to follow the advice of the head of the group and switch from musical to drama, which made him one step closer to Zhu Shisi.

As it turned out, he made the right choice.As soon as he joined the troupe, Fang Ting stood out among the [-] competitors. He no longer needed to be someone else's substitute. Here, he became the leading actor of the new drama.

At the same time, the day and night study in the community library paid off. Fang Ting successfully applied to the university.

Just as fate finally began to favor this poor suffering child, something happened next, which completely changed the trajectory of Fang Ting's life, directly made him surpass Zhu Shisi, and sent him to the top of the Star Road .

It was a late autumn morning, a man with a square face and a U-shaped beard found Fang Ting who was doing homework at school.

He said: "My movie needs you to be the leading role."

Fang was puzzled: "Why me?"

The man said bluntly: "Because I have taken a fancy to your experience, you have been in prison, and my character is also a juvenile delinquent. What I want is truth."

Fang Ting accepted the script from the man, and there were four words written on the cover——

white balloon.

***

Fang Shuyun disappeared.

Twenty days before the college entrance examination, on that Sunday night in early May, after writing Serendipity on the plaster.

After the song "Close To You" was played on the radio, Zhu Shisi ran out wearing slippers. He searched downstairs, wandered around for a while, and finally returned home with a mosquito bag in a trance. Li sat staring at the luminous clock on the wall for a long time.

The lights were not turned on in the living room, and Meng Tang seemed to have gone out. When it was dark, Zhu Shisi called Fang Shuyun who had fled.

The first call was answered, but Fang Shuyun didn't speak, and there were intermittent breathing sounds and cicadas screaming like a chainsaw through the receiver.

The conversation with only the background sound lasted for more than a minute. Zhu Shisi swallowed his swollen throat: "That... I was joking."

He held the phone between his face and shoulders, stretched out his hand and scratched the bag on his lap, walked around the living room, opened the stewing pot on the table nervously, grabbed two bites with his hands, and chewed for a while unconsciously , and said: "I'm not kidding, it's not a joke."

Zhu Shisi took the initiative to hang up the phone.

When calling again, Fang Shuyun turned off the phone, and before turning off the phone, he sent a text message: I'm sorry.

A few days later, when Zhu Shisi went to school, Fang Shuyun's desk was already filled with other students' chores, turning into a small waste mountain. His schoolbag was still in Zhu Shisi's house, and he didn't even have a book. Did not take away.

The classmate said that Fang Shuyun and his mother came to the school on Monday to complete the withdrawal procedures. The reason is very simple, he is going abroad.

"Going abroad? I've never heard of him going abroad."

"No way, you are such a good friend, he didn't tell you?"

After asking around, everyone knew that Fang Shuyun was going to study abroad, only Zhu Shisi, his best friend, didn't know.

Zhu Shisi couldn't figure out why Fang Shuyun didn't tell him, and also couldn't figure out why he had to study with him and report at his home after school every day since he had decided to go abroad?Then because of a confession, he disappeared from the world.

Thinking of this incident, Zhu Shisi sometimes even laughed out loud, but it was just "I like you", an ordinary confession, if you change your gender, it will have enough lethality to make a person disappear ?Being liked by the same sex is as terrible as a scourge?

He didn't understand Fang Shuyun anymore. Fang Shuyun should always be honest and brave.

Two years ago, the blow of Zhu Mingchang's death happened again, but at that time, Zhu Shisi still had Fang Shuyun, and there was still a long time to slowly adjust, but now he personally broke off the relationship with Fang Shuyun and sent him away. His dearest and closest friend.

June was just around the corner, without Fang Shuyun, Zhu Shisi felt as if he had lost his soul, and walked up to the examination room in a fog, and spent two days in a daze.After the oral test on the third morning, everyone was looking at the new college entrance examination|answers, Zhu Shisi looked at the test questions of each subject, his mind was in a mess, as if he had never done it at all.

Meng Tang didn't ask Zhu Shisi how he was doing in the exam. After the college entrance examination, he gave him some pocket money, and continued to run Haitang snacks from morning to night.

She never mentioned Fang Shuyun again.

Zhu Shisi once wondered if Meng Tang knew something, and at the same time he was worried and longed to confide his indelible distress to her, but when the eyes of mother and child met, he always looked away first, he couldn't understand A husbandless woman has confessed her son is gay.

After sleeping at home for many days, the score of the college entrance examination came down. Zhu Shisi scored nearly [-] points less than several mock exams. The score passed the key line, but it was far from the astronomy major of the target school.

He called to check the score, and when he heard the total score, he felt like he was in a broken mood, and he was even thinking, everything else will come together to make me worse, so that I can cry.

The Waterloo that Zhu Shisi encountered caused a wave of news in the grade. Some people said that his answer sheet was filled in the wrong place again. The ambulances are here.

All kinds of rumors were flying all over the sky, Zhu Shisi did not deny them, at least it was better to let them cover up the truth than to expose his embarrassment to the outside world.

Zhu Shisi knew the reason, he was broken in love.

The first unrequited love in life ended with the disappearance of the other party and the failure of the college entrance examination.

When others were busy choosing schools to apply for volunteers, Zhu Shisi either read the book "Tenderness Like Water" over and over again at home, or wandered the streets and alleys of Lanyao City, trying to find Fang Shuyun's trace.

He has been to Fang Shuyun's grandma's house many times. There is no one in May, no one in June, no one in July, and no one in August.

He stubbornly wandered between the two people's residences from morning to night. He wanted to drag Fang Shuyun out, and asked him not to ask anything else, just how disgusting his own liking was, and why he ran away from the college entrance examination that he had agreed to take together.

He was exposed to two torrential rains and fell ill for a period of time. After recovering from his illness, he received an admission letter from an ordinary school. He turned around and threw it into the trash can, and howled on the messy bed. I searched a bunch of "methods on how to commit suicide without pain" on the Internet, and after looking around, the computer was poisoned and crashed, so nothing happened.

Meng Tang comforted Zhu Shisi, why don't you repeat the study, don't feel pressured.

He wanted to re-study, but it was risky to re-study, he was afraid of failing again, and Meng Tang's struggle to make ends meet Zhu Shisi could not be more clear, one more year of study, one more year of hard work for her.

Zhu Shisi is very contradictory.At this time, he will feel that he is too fragile and hypocritical, and vows to change his mind and stop messing around, and usually wakes up the next day and falls into a depressed mood again.

At the end of August, the class held a graduation dinner at a hotel in Lanyao City.

Zhu Shisi didn't plan to go at first, but after thinking about it, maybe Fang Shuyun would show up at the dinner party, so he went with a glimmer of hope.

This decision made his life take an unexpected path.