[Comprehensive] Martyrdom is not a good civilization

girlfriend

The dim light fell deep in Dazai's pupils, and I looked at him quietly, and found that his pupils suddenly shrank and then slowly enlarged like a cat.

Dazai didn't get a response, so I grabbed the tie and pulled him closer in dissatisfaction, and he obediently took a step forward.

I squeezed the crumpled tie with one hand, and held Dazai's face in the other: "Why don't you talk?"

"I'm waiting for Ayako to confess."

"Then you should answer me, you are listening!"

"Well, I'm listening."

Holding Dazai's face in my hands was a bit tired, I wanted to let go but was held down by Dazai, he squeezed my hand with squinted eyes and rubbed lightly on his palm.

"They weren't together before?"

"Crack-"

"Teacher, don't play around with the camera."

"Ah, nice photo."

Odasaku was hugging the cat, Sanhua nestled in his arms obediently, and Ango Sakaguchi held the photo and looked at it carefully.

"Then I confess!"

"Ah."

"I confess!"

"……and then?"

"I've confessed, and now it's your turn!" I looked at Dazai suspiciously, why then, didn't I just confess and wait for him to reply?

"Little Ayako, what do I need to say in my confession?"

"...I like you?" I thought for a while and hesitated to say the confession sentence that appeared most frequently in TV dramas, tilting my head and waiting for Dazai's reply.

The expression on Dazai's face disappeared completely, and his iris eyes were like an abyss that seduces his prey under the dim light. He looked at me intently: "Remove the question mark, Xiaoyako, say it again."

The atmosphere became dangerous, the air around him became sticky and heavy, and the strands of hair that were floating at the end also fell straight down.

I didn't realize it, I just looked at Dazai's trembling pupils, and approached him as if it was amused, and said loudly, "Dazai, I like you——!"

"I like you too, Ayako."

Different from my voice echoing in Lupin, Dazai's voice was so soft that only I could hear it. His hot breath brushed the hair around his ears, warming his heart.

Hearing Dazai's affirmative answer, I sat on the counter and giggled.Alcohol stimulates the brain and makes people feel ecstatic, I grabbed Dazai's shoulders and wanted to jump off the bar.

"Don't be stupid, Ayako."

Dazai put his arms around my waist and carried me off the bar, instead of carrying a child, he carried me carefully on the high stool.

I stared at the watery eyes on the alcohol, and my eyes drifted randomly and finally fell on the camera on the bar.

The melon-eating trio I caught sight of—Oda Saku lowered his head and silently stroked the cat, Ango Sakaguchi pushed his glasses to look through the wine list, and the bartender stood behind the bar and continued to wipe the glasses, as if nothing had happened.

Naturally, I ignored the static three people, and only held Dazai's hand affectionately: "Dazai, I agreed to take a selfie."

At this time, Odasaku, a member of the melon eating group, put down the cat in his arms, picked up the camera and pointed it at me and Dazai.

I quickly smirked at the camera, Dazai stood beside me, and the hands he held turned into interlocking fingers at some point.

"I'm going to shoot. 1, 2, 3..."

"Crack-"

The black-and-white photo freezes the expressions of Dazai and I. Dazai has a rare relaxed smile on his face, and his eyes, which are deeper in black and white, are actually gentle.

I looked at the photo for a while and pulled it into my arms, then lay down on the bar and fell asleep contentedly.After the little girl's melancholy was resolved, the corners of my mouth curled up in my sleep.

Ango Sakaguchi shifted his position with a complicated expression, and let Dazai sit next to me. He patted Dazai on the shoulder: "You apologized for the seven deadly sins before...I didn't expect to do it now."

Dazai took a sip of the fruit juice, pretending to be stupid: "Ango, what are you talking about, I don't understand?"

"I asked if she was your girlfriend before, so you acquiesced, but now you're just seducing a little girl, Dazai, wake up!"

Oda took a sip of wine, with an expression of indifference: "Don't worry, Ango."

"Who's worried!" Ango Sakaguchi pushed his glasses uncomfortably, he was silent for a moment and handed the photo of me pulling Dazai's tie to Dazai.

"Thank you, Ango~"

Dazai looked at the photo with a bright smile, and didn't feel that being dragged by me would damage his image.

Sanhua, who was placed on the bar by Odasaku, stepped on a catwalk and squatted in front of me who was sleeping hard. It stretched out its small claws and patted my head.

I was immersed in sleep, and at first I could hear vague conversations, and finally I fell asleep with nothing but silence in my ears.

Dazai sat cross-legged in front of the tatami, brushing my broken hair with his hands, "Little Ayako, get up~"

The curtains were half drawn, and the sky outside was gray in the early morning. I looked at Dazai with a blank expression and simply refused: "...I'm sorry."

"To commemorate the first day of the official relationship, I deliberately got up early to make breakfast for my girlfriend. I don't cherish Xiao Lingzi when I get it, so sad."

As if my head was still awake, I heard a word that made my whole body explode.I widened my eyes and grabbed the corner of the quilt in horror: "...Wait, you say it again?"

"Little Ayako won't cherish it when she gets it..."

"One more sentence!"

"Huh? What's the matter, girlfriend?" Dazai smiled lightly and tore off the corner of the quilt, but his movements were different from his expression. He grabbed my fingertips and rubbed them lightly on his palm.

"...you give up!"

The itchy feeling spread from the palm of my hand to my whole body, and the memory recovered from drunkenness became clear. I suddenly sat up from the tatami, and shook Dazai's hand in horror.

Dazai was not angry, just looked at me quietly with a smile.

I hung my head down and my face was hot, and yesterday I actually yelled such a shameful word "Dazai, I like you" in a large audience.

"Little Ayako, don't make me wait too long."

Dazai suddenly moved closer and kissed my cheek, the kiss was very light, like a feather fluttering gently until it itched to the tip of my heart.

"Click."

The door was closed, and I covered my face and screamed silently—how did I have a boyfriend in a daze? !

How did Dazai change his role so quickly, I thought of his actions just now, his face was so hot that it exploded.

Yesterday's confession was too hasty, will Odasaku and the others think I'm a frivolous person?Is Dazai so easy to chase? It's too easy to agree...

All kinds of thoughts were churning in my mind, I rolled like an ostrich on the tatami, and didn't get up until I was exhausted and out of breath.

I opened the door hesitantly, wanting to take a peek at what Dazai was doing.

He poked his head and just saw Dazai's smiling eyes, his voice was clear and bright: "Is Ayako alright?"

"I, me, me! I'm not fine!"

I quickly closed the door and wrapped myself up in the quilt again, my heart was beating wildly.

If Dazai had been standing outside the door just now, wouldn't he have heard all the movement of my salted fish tumbling on the tatami?With the title of boyfriend and girlfriend, my psychological burden suddenly became heavier.

"Little Ayako is so cute when she rolls around."

How cute is it? You stand outside the door and you can't see me rolling, so you know how to tease me.

"...you are not allowed to speak!"

I covered my face and went to the bathroom. In the mirror, I was wearing yesterday's black dress, the corners of which were wrinkled and sloppy.

so ugly.

Looking carefully at the mirror, the girl in the mirror had amber almond eyes with reddened eyes, fluffy hair blown out, and her skirt was wrinkled into a rag and hung on her body.

puff, puff...

I held the washbasin and covered my heart, and my heart suddenly started beating irregularly. This was not the so-called heartbeat, but an uncomfortable feeling that the world was unstable and the whole body was shaking.

Am I going to see God the day after I confessed successfully?

I gripped the washbasin tightly with my fingertips, and forced out a voice from my throat: "... Dazai!"

"What's wrong...Little Ayako!"

I saw Dazai walk in, and the expression on his face changed from relief to shock, and finally all the emotions merged into a dark expression that I couldn't distinguish.

The field of vision gradually decreased, and Dazai became a giant—or rather, I became smaller.I huddled in the crumpled black skirt, my body became smaller but the clothes didn't. I could only pull the fabric pitifully to cover myself.

Dazai crouched down, his face becoming huge.I looked at the big face of my freshly baked boyfriend and shivered.

Oh Minato, did Dazai make my face super big in his eyes?

"Little Ayako fell into my hands." Dazai poked my face, his eyes darkened.

Feng Shui turns, and this time it's Dazai's turn to raise me as a baby.

"Don't poke, don't poke, the clothes are about to fall off!" After getting smaller, I also lost a lot of strength, I struggled to dodge Dazai's fingertips, and pulled my clothes insecurely for fear of revealing what I shouldn't.

It's so unfair, why did Dazai get clothes but I don't?

Dazai touched his chin, and suddenly showed a terrible smile: "Clothes, Ayako has no clothes..."

"What are you thinking!" I was knocked down by Dazai's frightened foot, and fell into my clothes with a clatter.

Dazai looked at me regretfully, turned his head to look around: "I can't see anything."

"Give me a handkerchief or a tissue quickly, idiot!" Now I can't wait to jump up and give Dazai a severe beating, and at the critical moment, I start to skin again.

"Little Ayako, wait for me."

I sat in the pile of clothes angrily, the embarrassment and shyness of getting up early disappeared completely, and my relationship with Dazai seemed to be the same as before.

Dazai was rummaging through boxes outside, and after a crackling sound, he came in holding a roll of bandages and a thin red string.

"Bandage? That's okay." I looked at it for a while and then nodded reluctantly.

Dazai handed me the bandage, and stood there holding the red string without moving.

"You go out."

"I want to tie my girlfriend's belt." Dazai innocently shook the thin red string in his hand. At this time, his eyes seemed too big to me, and the smile in his eyes was clear.

"...Leave the rope, you go."

"Really not?"

"No! No matter how skinny you are, you will break up before I go back!"

"Break up? Little Ayako, don't make jokes." Dazai wrapped the red string around my wrist, and tied the bow tie lightly.

Dazai's kite-colored eyes are full of aggressiveness, especially when I look up at him from the bottom up, the expression in the depth of the pupil is particularly clear.

"I do not…"

"Shhh." Dazai's fingertips covered my mouth, and after shrinking, his fingertips were half the size of my face.

Dazai looked at me and smiled: "Be good, Ayako."

I grabbed Dazai's fingers, and the end of the red string on my wrist fell to the ground, and my whole body was covered with goose bumps from the cold.

Dazai and I looked at each other, frowning stubbornly and not speaking.

It's just a joke to break up. The current situation is well known, even if it is a boyfriend and a girlfriend, it is impossible to be together in the end.

"My girlfriend who just fell in love said she wanted to break up. Even I would be sad, Xiao Lingzi."

Dazai's cold and hard tone suddenly softened under my eyes. He stroked my messy hair with a slightly hurt expression.

It was me who confessed, and it was me who said I wanted to break up.I squeezed Dazai's fingertips guiltily, feeling like a scumbag of the century.

"Sorry……"

Dazai's fingertips lightly rubbed against my cheek twice, and he began to push forward: "Then can I tie a red string for Ayako?"

"...When I wrap the bandage, you turn around first."

I breathed a sigh of relief, but I vaguely realized that there was a huge problem between me and Dazai.

The author has something to say: In fact, when Ayako arrived in Yokohama, the world was already in the process of fusion. Alice tested Ayako's name, and Ayako's identity can be found, so Mori Ogai did nothing.

At first, Dazai just wanted to be skinny, and didn't tell Xiao Lingzi that he wanted to keep her for a few days to cultivate his relationship, but today Xiao Lingzi's words "I want to break up when I go back" stimulated me, cough...