[Comprehensive] Martyrdom is not a good civilization

Lupin Bar is located in a quiet alley, with a yellowed signboard that emits a whistling sound.I followed Dazai and pushed open the door, stepped on a few steps into the bar, and the dim light poured out, and my eyes lit up.

Going down the steps, you can see the long and narrow bar. There is no feasting and loud music as I imagined here. The slightly yellow lights and the black and white photos on the wall make you feel like you are in the last century.

There are a few plates of snacks on the bar, and the drinkers are either bowing their heads in thought or whispering.

The Lupine bar is quite far from the starting point, and I didn't understand the atmosphere of Dazai often driving all the way to the bar at night to drink.

Now I understand that the atmosphere here is really peaceful.

I looked around cautiously and curiously, and followed closely behind Dazai.

Dazai glanced around and pushed me on the high stool: "Sit here, Ayako."

I sat on a high stool with my feet not touching the floor, my calves swayed slightly and I looked at Dazai with my head tilted: "What do you usually drink, Dazai?"

"beer?"

"I thought it was Margarita, Irish Mist, these cool-sounding wines."

I poked at the wine list handed over by the bartender. The hand-painted cocktails on the wine list were colorful and looked very delicate.

"It's all hard alcohol..."

Dazai held down the wine list and pulled it out from under my hand, and waved helplessly to the bartender who was wiping the glass behind the bar: "Mr. bartender, please have a glass of beer and de-iced juice."

I made a promise with Dazai that he would bring me to Lupine, and I would not drink.Although it was a pity, I obediently held the juice delivered by the bartender.

The ice cubes in Dazai's glass made a crisp sound, and I found a blind spot when I drank the juice: "By the way, how do we go back?"

Dazai looked at me in confusion, "Drive back."

Although Dazai's drag racing is not as smooth as a drunk driving, but in case of drunk driving...

I wrinkled my nose and looked serious: "But you've been drinking, why don't you drive after drinking?"

"Little Ayako is so cute." Dazai held back his smile, he put down his glass and ordered another glass of juice, his with ice and mine without.

"Why don't you put mine on ice?"

Dazai leaned close to my ear and whispered, "This one, Ayako's... come here soon."

"That's right, Dazai, how do you know?"

The moment I asked the question, I knew I had asked a stupid question. The second day after Mini Dazai came, I just happened to experience these embarrassing things.

I took a sip of juice to hide my unease: "Take back the previous sentence, I didn't ask anything."

Dazai propped his chin and smiled at me: "Well, I didn't say anything."

"Meow~"

A three-colored cat wagging its tail and squatted on the high stool next to me. The distribution of color patches on the cat's fur was very familiar.

"Hey, is this a pet kept by the owner of the bar?"

The more I poke the cat's tail, the more it looks like the Sanhua "heartbreaker" I fed in the alley near the apartment.

"Teachers come here a lot, but not bar pets."

Dazai's hand was about to move, and he wanted to poke the cat's tail along with me.The cat stood up, quickly jumped onto the bar and walked away, continuing to squat.

Ah, no more cats to touch.I looked at Sanhua reluctantly, it obviously resisted our approach.

"teacher?"

"It's very smart, and it will make room for guests when they come."

"That's it."

Speaking of "teacher", Mr. Cat is also a Sanhua, a super rare male Sanhua, but compared to this normal size, Mr. Cat is a fat ball.

At some point, Dazai and I were the only ones left in the small bar, as well as the bartender who was standing at the counter silently wiping glasses.

There was no one around, and I had a bold idea from the bottom of my heart—the atmosphere is right now, maybe I can take the opportunity to confess?Dazai promised to talk about the relationship and leave and break up, but he didn't agree...

Ideas are wonderful, but accidents often happen.

"Yo, Odasaku!"

"Good evening Dazai, Sakuradani?"

After all the bold ideas were interrupted, I could only hide them back in my heart. I waved to Odasaku to say hello.

"Long time no see, Odasaku-san!"

"haven't seen you for a long time."

Sanhua ran away from the bar in front of Odasaku, ran to me with a murmur and wagged her tail.

Dazai and Oda were talking about old times, and I reached out to tease the cat.Sanhua didn't respond to it, so I stroked its cat's paw and began to describe "the two or three daily things about me and Sanhua, the heartless man".

"...that's why you have more scratches on your face?"

"That's not the reason. I was a little impatient when I wanted to pick up Ayako home after the matter was settled, so I fell down."

I touched the cat's claw Sanhua and took a step back. I didn't stretch out the tip of my claws or scratch anyone. I almost backed off the bar with my tail stiffened.

I was concentrating on teasing the cat, when I suddenly heard my name.I licked the cat's head and turned to ask Dazai, "What's wrong with me?"

"It's nothing, Ayako is fine~"

"What's good?" A gentle man in a clean suit walked in with glasses and a briefcase. He ordered a glass of tomato juice and sat next to me.

"Ango, you're here~"

Ango, probably one of Dazai's friends, Sakaguchi Ango, is not the same type of person as Dazai.

Dazai put his hand on my shoulder and introduced to Ango Sakaguchi: "This is Ayako."

"Hi Mr. Sakaguchi, I'm Ayako Sakuradani."

Ango Sakaguchi pushed his glasses with a hesitant and surprised expression: "Hi, I'm Ango Sakaguchi."

I slapped Dazai's hand away, since now is not a good time to confess, I chose to continue sucking cats: "You guys talk, I will play with the teacher for a while."

I took the juice and exchanged places with Ango Sakaguchi, and teased the cat with my chin.

"Dazai, you..."

"I?"

"It's wrong to deceive girls casually."

"I don't lie to girls, Ayako praised me as a good baby. Right, Odasaku?"

"…Have it?"

"Yes, more than once."

Ango Sakaguchi hesitated to speak, and looked at Dazai with a speechless expression.

I didn't pay attention to what they were talking about, and I accidentally listened to smuggling, criminal organizations, etc., which felt a little magical.

There are many places in Sanhua that are not allowed to be touched, and I can't forcefully suck the cat, I can only give it a smooth ride.

It's just that I miraculously saw the kind expression on the cat's face.What the hell is this? I shook my hand and two hairs fell off the mattress.

"Mr. bartender..." I quietly patted off the cat's fur, and greeted the bartender in a low voice while Dazai and the others were chatting.

"What's the matter, ma'am?"

"Is there any good cocktail with lower alcohol content?" I put my hand around my mouth, glanced at Dazai and spoke in a low voice as if guilty.

The bartender was affected by my emotions, and his voice dropped: "I recommend this kind of Mojito and Daikli, which one do you want?"

"Let's have a mojito."

The bartender mixed the wine and chatted with me: "This is the first time I saw Mr. Dazai bringing his female friends here."

"Really? Actually, I'm going to chase Dazai..." I scratched my cheeks a little happily and embarrassedly, and stroked Sanhua's head with twinkling eyes.

The bartender paused slightly while mixing the drink, and looked at me with a complicated expression: "Are you chasing Mr. Dazai? Miss, why don't you change your target... Ah, forget it, you work hard."

Confused, I took the wine and prepared to drink it before leaving. After drinking it, I brewed it on the way home to build up my courage so that I could confess.

Whether Dazai likes me or not, I am already in a state of heartbeat, and I will always be restless until I get the result.

Sanhua bounced to Dazai and the others, my palms were so nervous that I was sweating, I sat on the spot and let my thoughts go silently.

"Little Ayako, what are you holding?"

I was staring at the glass in a daze when Dazai's voice came from behind.Dazai left the bar, stood behind me and looked at my hand eeriely.

I subconsciously shook my body and quickly covered the mouth of the cup: "It's nothing!"

Dazai narrowed his eyes, tapped the bar with his slender fingers: "Mojito?"

"It's not wine! It's drinks!"

I raised the wine glass and took a quick sip. I didn't taste anything, but I felt sour and sweet on the tip of my tongue.

"I didn't say it was wine, did I?"

Dazai patted my head helplessly and pushed the remaining half of the wine glass away.

"They've always been like this?" Ango Sakaguchi looked at me and Dazai with his glasses upside down, as if his world view had been subverted.

"Perhaps, it's not very good." Odasaku nodded and drank calmly.

"It doesn't matter whether it's good or not, Dazai is harming minors!"

"Ango, what are you talking about? I'm underage just like Ayako."

I regretted the cocktail as soon as I ate it, but now I can't spit it out, so I can only sit stubbornly on the high stool and struggle to maintain my balance.

My head started to feel dizzy from the alcohol, and my calves were shaking with excitement while sitting on the high stool.

"...Underage, baby Dazai!"

"It's really a baby... Is it okay if Sakuragu-san is drunk?"

"It's okay... Dazai is here anyway." Odasaku put down his glass, his expression frozen.

Sakaguchi Ango helped his forehead helplessly: "You really are..."

My vision began to blur, and I sat on the chair in a daze, and my vision froze.

There is an old camera on the wine glass at the bar, and a black and white photo on the table.

I pursed my mouth aggrievedly: "Dazai, you don't even call me for taking selfies!"

"I'm not……"

"You are! And the Chinese test paper you helped me write last time, it was just perfunctory! Dazai Osamu's philosophy of life you filled out and died in love with a beautiful young lady?"

Wanting to cry, just about to confess, this man just wanted to die in love with his young lady!

I sniffed and my nasal passages started to pantothenic.Tears overflowed from the lacrimal glands and swirled warmly in the eye sockets.

"Little Ayako, don't cry, I was wrong, I must write better next time!"

"no more chance!"

Dazai panicked, and Odasaku and Sakaguchi Ango sat next to each other, watching the play while holding glasses of wine.Ango Sakaguchi complained from time to time, while Oda Saku showed his old father's worried expression.

The bartender stood in front of the bar where Odasaku and the others sat, silently wiping wine glasses and watching the show.

Dazai was standing and I was sitting. He was a bit taller than me sitting on the high chair. It was very imposing not to be able to look down on him.After jumping off the high chair, Dazai and I were both standing, and the height difference became more obvious.

I stepped on Dazai's foot in frustration, and tears were about to fall: "You are too tall!"

"Hiss, it hurts so much, little Ayako." Dazai complained while carefully carrying me onto the bar counter like a child.

Now I am a head taller than Dazai, I looked around the audience aggressively, Odasaku, Ango and the bartender bowed their heads silently, Dazai looked up at me.

"Hmph!" I snorted coldly, stroking the corner of my black skirt like a queen patrolling my territory.

Dazai blinked his kite-colored eyes innocently, and said in a weak voice: "I just want to take a selfie with Ayako alone, don't be angry."

I stared at Dazai's expression for a while, and nodded reluctantly in his sincere eyes.

Dazai breathed a sigh of relief and reached out to hug me off the bar, I waved his hand and grabbed his tie: "Dazai, listen up! I'm going to confess my love!"

"Bang!"

The drinking glasses in the hands of the melon-eating trio hit the bar, their faces blank.