[Comprehensive] Martyrdom is not a good civilization

1.

Go to work at [-] o'clock every day, and leave work at [-] o'clock every day. Occasionally, on weekends, you can meet the blind dates that grandpa can choose from [-] beauties.

This is the daily life of President Sakuraya Ayako.It sounds good to be the president, but it sounds bad to be a social animal.

So, when her younger brother was 15 years old and she was 24 years old, she left the company and ran away.

2.

Osamu Dazai is the one who goes to work on time occasionally and arrives late and leaves early frequently.

Where can I find a beautiful young lady to die in love today?

Except for the ghosts and ghosts that appeared in Yokohama, this is the question that Dazai often thinks about.

Aimlessly walked to the river where he often drowned himself.

A young and beautiful woman is sitting on the shore with an easel, looking intently at the canvas, smearing the most common scenery bit by bit.

Dazai's eyes lit up with a swipe.

3.

Ayako Sakuraya, who hadn't written for a long time, traced it meticulously, revealing slender blue blood vessels on the back of her pale hand.

The orange-yellow warm light under the setting sun was dazzling, and Ayako Sakuradani put the brush back into the paint tray, blinking her eyelashes and staring at the setting sun in a daze.

Dazai stood behind her for a long time, and finally waited for the opportunity: "This beautiful lady, are you willing to die in love with me?"

Dazai's bandaged wrists and neck were telling Sakuraya Ayako that this man was not joking.

So she thought about it seriously, and found that she was not yet so devastated that she wanted to commit suicide: "Sir, please allow me to refuse."

"it's a pity."

Dazai said softly, the afterglow of the setting sun reflected in his eyes did not fluctuate at all.

4.

Ayako Sakuradani recently stayed in Yokohama, not far from Tokyo, where there are boundless blue seas, free blue sky where birds fly, and a strange person.

Her mental state is not very good, and she has been in a state of mild depression for a long time, and time is meaningless to her.

Put down the brush, another day passed.The man standing behind Ayako Sakuragu asked a customary question: "The weather is so nice, do you want to die in love with me, Miss?"

She shook her head slightly, and sat in front of the drawing board to describe the whole day, and the lack of water left her unable to respond.

"Then, please let me take the lady back."

The man in the sand-colored windbreaker had a soft complexion under the setting sun, and Ayako Sakuradani blinked and did not refuse.

5.

"Dazai, you've been acting weird lately." Kunikida's pocketbook was spread out on the table, and he pushed his glasses to look at Dazai carefully.

It's eight o'clock in the morning, and Dazai has been at work on time for a whole week.

Dazai sat on the sofa, leaning the back of his neck against the back of the sofa, staring up at the ceiling: "I really want to die in love with that young lady."

"That lady? You haven't been off work for the past few days and you can't see anyone, so you just go to pick up women?!"

"No, it's just that the young lady gave me the urge to drag her into the water together." Dazai lay down on the sofa in a different posture, with his face buried in the sofa and his expression could not be seen clearly.

No one knew what he was thinking, not even himself who had always thought clearly.

6.

Waking up early, swallowing the white pill, Ayako Sakuradani came to the small river.

She didn't bring any painting tools, and she stood in the morning light wearing a long white dress, her fair complexion almost transparent under the light.

When she was about to leave, it was time to say goodbye to the man who had been standing behind her for a long time.

The birds were dancing lively on the branches, tilting their bright yellow beaks, chirping annoyingly.

"Miss is leaving." The man stood beside her, his soft black curly hair blown by the breeze.

"Yes, I've come to say goodbye to you."

7.

After the lady whose name is unknown left, Dazai resumed his previous life pattern.

Arriving late, leaving early, and casually looking for a beautiful lady to die in love in free time.

"Where's the lady?"

"left."

He never mentioned her again.

8.

Ayako Sakuradani walked in every corner of the world, and the baking of the sun made her pale skin healthier.

No matter how bright the sun is, it is still cold when it falls on her. The sunflower chases and runs against the sun, but she lowers her eyes against the light to avoid it.

After exchanging contact information with the unknown Mr. Strange, the two have no contact.

Standing in the sea of ​​sunflowers in full bloom today, Ayako Sakuradani suddenly wanted to say goodbye to him.

9.

"Sir, I have found a beautiful and suitable place to end my life by wandering alone. After thinking about it, it would be easier to leave alone. Goodbye."

Her indifferent farewell made Dazai stunned in place, and he suddenly felt at a loss while holding the phone.

He looked at the text on the screen, and said softly as if responding: "...goodbye."

It's just that I still can't help but say something, the same thing as when we first met.

--it's a pity.

But, what is he regretting?

10.

This time, she didn't reach out, and he didn't stop.

They are the most insignificant passers-by in each other's lives.