After the years have passed

Wherever you go

There are traces of your footsteps

I just can't find that look back

December 2016, 12, snow

Today is Kim Taehyung's 22nd birthday.

It has been snowing since the early morning, and the crystals are shining, covering thousands of houses and the entire city.

Covered with a thin layer of white gauze, hazy and quiet.

Like a girl waiting to be married, she hides her face and only sees the indistinct beauty.

In fact, from the past few days, every time he came back, he would bring all kinds of gifts, big and small, all exquisitely decorated.

But I haven't paid much attention to it all the time, probably some clothes, shoes, bags, watches, etc., which seem to suit him very well, because they must be gifts from the ARMYs.

With a toothbrush in my mouth, I was squatting in front of a pile of gift boxes.

Some of them were unpacked before he had time, and he felt itchy in his hands, wishing to tear them all up!

But wouldn't that be impolite?Curiosity prompted me to accidentally open one.

Ouch~ This windbreaker is so handsome!

Creamy white solid color, simple and neat, with some smooth dark lines on the neckline and cuffs, it must look good on him!

It's just that the numbers on the tag are really jaw-dropping!

Five-figure dollars...

The ARMYs are Hao. It is estimated that the total amount of RMB on the ground exceeds seven figures, right?

He lowered his head to look at what he was wearing, and could only laugh dryly, uh... Sure enough, people can't compare, the comparison is full of tears!

Carefully put the clothes back where they were, obediently brushed their teeth and walked into the bathroom.

Xiang Lala made the kitchen dirty again early in the morning, which is really strange. Although the things she made were the same as the process of making things, it was comparable to the scene of a car accident, but still It's delicious.

This is the blessing of fools.

"Unnie, don't you plan to give Taehyung Oppa a gift?"

As soon as I opened my mouth to Lala, I looked back at her with resentful eyes, and sighed so much that I took a sip of cocoa.

"Didn't you see that golden mountain?"

She tilted her head and glanced somewhere in the living room, then turned her head to look at me, and ate breakfast very tactfully.

"Then I think I don't have to give it away, the sisters in those stations are too good! All of them are rich women."

"Actually~ I thought about doing something myself, but..."

Looking at Xiang Lala with a somewhat embarrassed expression, he spread his hands, "I can't do anything except draw a few pictures."

"That's right! Unnie can personally design a suit for Taehyung Oppa."

As soon as I finished speaking, the cocoa I hadn't swallowed happened to spray her all over the face.

"Ahem! Aha~ You let him wear a wedding dress?"

Xiang Lala wiped her face with a tissue, and looked at me innocently, "Oni only designs wedding dresses? What about suits?"

"It's not impossible, it's just that I'm not very good at boys' clothes. Besides, this is not a matter of a day or two. It's too late to remind me now."

"That's right, then let's wait for the cake to be cut honestly, and then sincerely say happy birthday to the birthday star."

I nodded in agreement, drank the liquid in the glass in one gulp, and was about to pick up the sandwich at hand, when the screen of my phone suddenly lit up, and a short message immediately made me lose my appetite.

After reading the content, my mind was almost unable to think for a few seconds, but I stood up like inertia, went back to the room, changed clothes quickly, and went out.

Before leaving, I seemed to hear Xiang Lala's voice calling me, but I didn't bother to answer her, and rushed straight to the elevator, went downstairs, and stopped the car. I was panicked all the way.

A person who has been lost in my life for nearly 20 years suddenly told me that he is in Seoul, he wants to see me, and he wants me to save him.

It could be regarded as a spam message like a prank, but I ran away without any doubt.

Perhaps this is the fetter left by the blood, although I have been resisting from the heart.

But at the critical moment, he still revealed his nature.

I searched for the address on the message, and stood in front of this old house that could easily be blown down by a force four wind.

After hesitating for a moment, he knocked on the rusty iron door.

A gap was opened, and what came out of it was the darkness that was completely opposite to the outside world, with a pungent smell of tobacco and alcohol, which made me a little timid, so I leaned half my body sideways and poked inside.

"anyone there?"

No one answered, so I had to bite the bullet and step in.

The outside light made the room a little brighter.But when I saw the scene in front of me clearly, I couldn't help but exclaimed and covered my mouth.

Countless wine bottles, cigarette butts all over the floor, moldy food, filthy walls, dirt spread in every corner.

Like an abandoned slum.

Maybe it's dirtier than the sewers.

Subconsciously took two steps forward.

Suddenly one of my arms was clamped tightly from behind, and then I swung it too hard, and I lost my balance and fell heavily to the ground.

My face was livid, and before I recovered, I was pulled by my hair and dragged deeper into the room, and I was kicked hard in the abdomen.

The pain was unbearable, but I couldn't scream, I couldn't scream, I seemed to have fallen into a bottomless pit, and I didn't have any branches for myself to call for help.

I can only protect my stomach and keep vomiting.

"give me money!"

It sounded like hell, mixed with the smell of decay.

I was already completely exhausted, and I didn't even know what fear was, but the tears gushing out blurred my eyes, this ugly and distorted face that gave birth to me but never gave birth to me.

"Money! I want money! Give me money!"

The lower jaw was clamped, held up high, and the stench hit my face. I coughed violently and couldn't breathe for a long time. I didn't take a breath until it was released.

The person in front of him didn't move anymore, as if he was trying his best to restrain himself, waiting patiently for the answer he wanted.

It took a long time before I could breathe calmly, raised my eyes to stare at him contemptuously, bit my lower lip stubbornly, and never spoke.

"What kind of eyes are you looking at? I didn't give birth to you to let you live in vain. Now is the time for you to show filial piety to Lao Tzu. Hurry up and take out the money!"

I couldn't hold back my evil hands, stretched them over, and began to search my body, rummaging through every pocket rudely.

Holding some scraps of money, he counted them twice and spat on the ground disgustingly.

"There must be more than that! People nowadays like to use cards, so you must have one too, right? Get it for me!"

He was dragged and dragged from the ground to the door again.

Supporting his precarious body, as if he had had enough, he suddenly pulled out his mobile phone, aimed at his own father's head, and smashed it with the last bit of strength.

pat!

A muffled sound.

Along with the sound of the phone falling to the ground and smashing, I saw the blood on his forehead.

But what followed was his beast-like roar and a fist that quickly hit him on the cheek.

I collapsed on the ground, completely unconscious, and fell into a deep sleep.

It was as if the infinite silence and the deepening darkness were tightly wrapped around him.

Can't escape, can't escape, endless...

Apartment C

Xiang Lala has lost count of how many phone calls she made, but no one answered, and the phone turned off in the end.

She paced around the house anxiously, looked at the clock on the wall, the appointed time was coming soon, it was getting dark outside, and they would be back soon, but the heroine lost contact!

……

When Kim Taehyung was nearing the end of the recording of the program, the on-site members and the program crew gave him a small surprise.

The lights dimmed without warning, only a ray of light hit him, the strawberry cake slowly rolled out from the backstage, and the happy birthday song sung by the audience all moved Kim Taehyung deeply.

There are always smiling eyes on his face, and his unique square mouth, with white teeth on the outside and raised cheekbones, he is very happy.

After everything is over, I bid farewell to my brothers.

Kim Taehyung and Tian Jungkook rushed to the agreed place, fearing that they would be late, making the girls wait in the cold wind felt really distressing.

But after arriving at the destination, from a distance, only Xiang Lala stood there with a stiff and ugly expression, a gift box was placed at his feet, but his eyes were fixed on the phone.

The wind was blowing extremely hard tonight, and although the snow had stopped, it was still biting.

The moonlight was also completely covered by dark clouds. Although they were all fully armed, they were still shivering from the cold.

Perhaps the weather is not beautiful, and there are very few pedestrians on the road, which makes the figure of the three gathering together appear thinner.

"Lala, what about Nu? Why aren't you with me?"

Xiang Lala was startled by the sudden male voice, then raised her head with a guilty conscience, parted her lips, and couldn't say anything, she could only stare blankly.

"Talk, what about her? Is she still at home? Then I'll pick her up."

After finishing speaking, Kim Taehyung was about to turn around, but was suddenly stopped by Xiang Lala.

"Taeheng Ouba... Oni, she... is not in the apartment, she..."

The further back you are facing Lala, the more subtle your confidence is, and the sound of the wind blowing by is basically inaudible.

"What did you say? Loud!"

"I... I don't know... This morning, we were having a good breakfast, but O'Neill received some kind of message, and he seemed to be very serious, so he went out immediately."

"And then?" Kim Taehyung's face became a little cold.

"Then...then she hasn't come back until now, she, I asked her where she was going when she left, but she ignored me, and I didn't think much about it, but...but later I called O'Neill , she didn't answer, and then...then it turned off..."

Xiang Lala seemed to muster up her courage, so she said everything in one breath. After she finished speaking, she didn't dare to look into Kim Taehyung's eyes, so she lowered her head even more guilty.

It was as if the time axis had stopped running at this moment.

There was some kind of unexplained anger in Kim Taehyung's eyes looking at Xiang Lala, it seemed to be burning with anger in this winter night, and he couldn't get close.

"You repeat what you just said!"

Restraining her voice and lowering her voice, she let out a muffled roar, grabbing Xiang Lala's shoulders with both hands, the pain forced her to raise her head, and looked at Tian Zhengguo with tears in her eyes.

The gentle and refined face, but it was extraordinarily terrifying when it ignited the fire.

"Brother Taehyung! Let go first, don't do this"

Tian Jungkook regained Xiang Lala from the coercion, and stood by his side, his expression became serious.

Kim Taehyung immediately took out his mobile phone and dialed the same number repeatedly, but all the responses came were that the user had turned off the phone!The user has shut down!This user has shut down...

"Axi!"

With a roar, the good gift box was kicked several times by Kim Taehyung, the pink cream inside was splashed all over the floor, and it was in dilapidated condition.

The street, which was originally bright with white snow, was blended in by the sudden color, making it look ugly and out of place.

Both Tian Zhengguo and Xiang Lala were taken two steps back by this move, and they held each other's hands even tighter.Apart from surprise, there was more worry in his eyes.

"Brother Taehyung! Calm down, think about it, think about it, Xiao Sinu, where does she usually go? Let's look for it!"

Kim Taehyung seemed to wake up from a dream, he threw away his anger, and ran away in an unknown direction in panic and fear.

Seeing the disappearing figure, Xiang Lala turned his head to look at Tian Jungkook, sobbing very cutely.

Raising his hand to gently wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes, he hugged her into his arms and stroked her back, feeling mixed emotions in his heart, not knowing what to do.

Looking from a distance, the unknowing eyes thought it was a loving young couple, expressing love to each other in this romantic season.

As everyone knows, it is comforting the anxious heart.

……

The Han River does not!Hongdae did not!Dongdaemun no!Even Xincun is still missing!

I can't find it anywhere, I can't see that figure, that face anywhere.

Kim Taehyung was lying on the side of the road exhausted, it was the place where his beloved once threatened to take him home, the loving interaction at the autograph session is still vivid in his memory.

But in such a huge place, there was only one helpless man left, who ran all over his beloved, wherever he went, but was still lost.

"Where are you? Answer me, okay? Today is my birthday, how can you be absent? How can you not be here, how can you not show up? Do you know that you have been late for a long time, and I will wait a while My birthday is coming up, and I'm still waiting for Nuna to smile sweetly at me and sing me a happy birthday song..."

Facing the empty phone, Kim Taehyung kept repeating his words, one time, two times and three times...

Calling the same person's name, what you can get is nothing but a bottomless silence.

I never knew that the taste of loss was so unspeakable, surrounded by fear that was spinning around, wandering, wandering, but couldn't find an exit.

"Please! Please! Nuna, answer the phone, I beg you..."

The people on the ground were already in tears, and their mouths were already whispering sorrows. In this icy night sky, it was infinitely enlarged and filled with powerless echoes.