After the years have passed

in the hustle and bustle of the emptiness

i hold myself

Express your heart

Nightmare is like this, when you have it once, more intense pain and misfortune follow.

Now I am on the verge of collapse.

I don't understand why the daily life, which was originally plain as water, has become like this?

Just because of a mistake in my mind, I believed in the dream woman, and I became greedy, so I have someone who will never belong to me?

So these are what I deserve, and I deserve it.

Sure enough, not all forbidden fruits can be tasted, and all thorns can not be healed.

How sweet the sugar is, how poisonous the medicine will be, this kind of profundity cannot be more humble.

Because it had to be swallowed, even if it rotted the throat and eroded the heart and lungs.

Even if the pain pierces through the intestines.

In the chaos, I forcefully opened my eyes, but what I saw was a darker darkness than when I closed my eyes.

How long have you been sleeping?Is there 24 hours?Have they noticed I'm missing?Will the police be called?Can I still get out of here?

He must be worried and anxious, he must be looking for me crazily, he must be crying...

The pain in my jaw prevented me from opening my mouth.

Groping the wall and moving forward inch by inch, my body is too tired and I can't exert any strength.

After a while, I touched the doorknob, but couldn't open it, and it was locked.

Was he imprisoned by his biological father?

Heh... I sneered at myself, and moved my face. The pain was so painful that I didn't dare to show any expression, so I could only lean against the corner and hug myself.

Every second of this difficult time, I was chanting his name countless times in my heart. It seemed that I had enough willpower to last until he came to save me, or I could escape by myself.

Taehyung, did you hear that?I'm calling you, I miss you so much, I really want to see you again, I really want you to hug me, I really want to...

……

All night.

Kim Taehyung searched the streets of Seoul all night.

The usual paleness in the sky seemed to be mocking him, it took so long, but it was still in vain.

The cell phone had been called until it ran out of battery, and the hope that there was still a glimmer of hope was also dashed, leaving only the man sitting in the reporting room with dull eyes and a distracted expression.

"Missing Person Name"

"Si Xiaosi"

"gender"

"Female"

"age"

"29"

"Country of Citizenship"

"China"

"Where was the last time I saw her? When was it?"

"At home, a day ago"

Every answer is like a sword blade, piercing every part of the skin and reaching the heart.

……

The moment he turned the key and opened the door, Kim Taehyung blurted out "I'm back", but the quiet room pierced his heart again, and the pain was unbearable.

"Where are you? Come back quickly, stop joking with me, okay?"

Leaning against the wall, he slumped weakly to the ground. He, who had been tormented by anxiety, fear, and fear for a whole night, couldn't control it anymore, and punched the ground hard with his backhand.

His joints were rattled by the shock, he got up unwillingly, and rushed out the door.

Every corner, every stop, every seemingly similar figure from the back, he will watch for a few more seconds, looking for it over and over again.

……

Click!The rusty iron door was opened from the outside, and the light came in wantonly.

I stood up and shrank in, waiting for the right moment to escape smoothly.

The man walking in front of him held up the bottle and kept pouring it into his mouth, as if he had forgotten my existence. He lay down on the messy bed, turned over, the bottle fell, and the liquid that flowed out rolled to my feet side.

Is he asleep?

I was out of my mind for a moment, and felt that the person whose back was facing me was a little sad and a little lonely.

Take small steps like walking on thin ice, for fear that if the decibel rises, it will alarm the snoring person.

The moment I stepped out of the door, I finally felt that I was still able to bathe in the sun, and I was extremely grateful.

Unconsciously, there are two evil eyes staring straight at him, and he has already seen all the actions.

floating in the city.

I was pointed at by passers-by in my distressed appearance, so I could only try my best to cover up the injuries on my face, so as to reduce the strange eyes cast on me.

He had no money on him, couldn't make public phone calls, and didn't know the way back.

With heavy steps, I can only try to look at the signs at each intersection and go around.

How long has it been?

I'm really tired, my body will collapse after going on like this.

His lips were so dry that they were cracked several times, his stomach also lost feeling, and he felt that his entire body was no longer his own.

It seems to be suspended in the endless sky, unable to find the center of gravity, and the posture of walking is crooked, stumbling.

Stand at the intersection of the road and wait for the traffic light to come on.

His face was buried deeper into the collar, he must be dirty and smelly now, with bruises on the corners of his mouth, it's terribly ugly, I really don't want to be seen by him, he will be very disappointed.

Walking through the zebra crossing, all the faces passing by are strangers' faces. I dare not look up, so I can only try my best to pick up my steps.

At least reach the other side before the red light comes on.

A sudden arm was wrapped around my chest from behind, and the broad and firm embrace was close to my bleak body. The familiar and gentle breath lingered in my ears, and the mist immediately moistened my eye sockets and blurred the whole city.

"nuna"

With a trembling voice, she called out in a low voice, as if in a lifetime.

"Is it... Taehyung?"

Turning around, she leaned against his neck, clasped the corner of the clothes tightly with her fingers, for fear that it would evaporate in a second, leaving nothing but illusions.

The surrounding space seems to be suspended, only for the embracing couple to heal each other.

Such a gentle voice, warm embrace, what kind of existence is it?

There is no other way to do it except to get stuck.

Although the last second was still so painful, as long as it can be exchanged for such favor in the end.

Even if it is frozen three feet, there is nothing to be afraid of.

Entrusting herself to him, she fell into a deep sleep.

……

January 2017, 1, Overcast

For more than half a month, they have been lying on the bed and have never gone out. Everyone is taking good care of themselves, especially the little girl Xiang Lala.

The body has also gradually recovered, the injury on the cheek has faded a lot, and the weight has also increased.

Xiang Lala seemed to feel guilty towards me. She was going back to China long ago, but she didn't even have time to write her graduation thesis.

Sticking to each other every day, not letting me do this, not letting me do that, made me look like a confinement woman, and made me fat and fat.

And the most unbelievable one among them is Tian Zhengguo, who also runs to me every three days.

Of course, it is the drunkard's intention to stop drinking.

It's just that I don't understand, why don't these two people express their hearts directly?Pushing and shoving there, ambiguous, looking strange and anxious.

Maybe I have to be a matchmaker.

I took BTS to an overseas performance, and the two big men didn't come back until tomorrow. I caught Xiang Lala and tried to enlighten her.

"Are you sure he won't run away with others? You have to know, aside from those girlfriends, the beautiful girls around him can eat him alive."

"I know, I know, but I don't dare! I'm afraid of hearing the words of rejection, what if... what if Guo Zi simply loves me as a sister? How embarrassing!"

Rolling a big white eye at her, this little girl is really stupid.

"Then just spend your time, and wait until one day he comes to tell you, Nuna Nuna~ I've got a girlfriend! You can just bite your fingers and cry."

Xiang Lala pursed her mouth, with an unhappy expression on her face, she pulled the pillow under my arm and hugged her lap.

"But there is no suitable time, how can I confess my love?"

"If you can't make it yourself, who made you wait anxiously?"

"I won't make..."

I shook my head helplessly, stared at her for 3 minutes, and finally sighed.

"Hey... I'll come! But you have to promise me, don't be confused then, you must tell him everything you want to say, do you understand?"

"Yeah, okay, I will definitely not be cowardly, even if the result is not what I want, at least I won't regret it in the future."

Xiang Lala's eyes lit up instantly.

"That's right, fighting!"

Encouraged by Xiang Lala, she smiled brightly at me, and began to urge to take the medicine quickly, and then took a comfortable nap.

When I woke up, Xiang Lala was lying beside me and fell asleep.

I gently got out of bed and wanted to call him, but I was afraid that he was busy and would disturb him, so I wrote an ins, and just pressed the send button, the ringtone of the call rang, looking at the displayed number, I smiled Filled the corners of the eyes.

"Taehyung?"

"What are you doing?"

"Yeah~ I just woke up from you"

"Huh? Then I interrupted Nuna's dream? I'm so sorry, what stage are we getting to?"

His naughty smirk came from the loudspeaker, and the roots of his ears turned red unconsciously.

"Stinky boy! What's on your mind?"

"Thinking ~ angry, what is thinking in my head now"

"Then you know what I'm thinking?"

"Do you want me to say it? Then I really said it?"

"Don't, don't, I know, I know, I'm really afraid of you"

He laughed even harder, and now he must be proud of his success again, and he must be smiling very, very nicely.

"I'll be back tomorrow afternoon, wait for me obediently at home, don't run around"

"Well, you too, be careful."

"Inside~"

Hanging up the phone, looking at the scenery outside the balcony, thinking of his affectionate eyes every time he looked at me, my heart was peaceful and turbulent.

Maybe I can be more optimistic, maybe the future will not be too bad, at least it will never be bad when he is still around.

Although I am in an invisible abyss.

……

The next morning.

This is a rare sunny winter day, although it is still necessary to wear a thick coat, although everyone's cheeks are flushed from the cold.

It also does not affect the mood at all, and wants to be happy.

I dragged Xiang Lala out of the bed.

The whole morning has been busy with the arrangement, and that is about to upgrade the pink, turning the secret love into a love confession scene.

"Lala, after they arrive at the airport in the afternoon, I will send a message to Taehyung and ask him to buy some cold medicine when he comes back, which is included in the diarrhea medicine. Just say that you take care of me during this time and tire yourself out I'm sick, and I'm feeling uncomfortable. Taehyung will definitely tell Guozi when the time comes, so next..."

"I was so weak that I lay on the bed. After the two of them entered the door, Ernie found a way to support himself and Taehyung Ouba, leaving only me and Guozi, and then boldly expressed to him when Guozi was worried. Mind!"

"Lala~ I can't see it! What a trick!"

I gave her a thumbs up and gave her a big thumbs up.

"Isn't Ernie teaching well?"

Xiang Lala flicked her bangs, triumphantly.

"Now everything is ready and only owes a lover"

I nodded in satisfaction and made fun of the person in front of me.

……

At [-]:[-] p.m., BTS landed safely, and Xiang Lala's sweet wine and fruit project was officially launched!

Incheon Airport Exit

The ARMYs who came to pick up the plane followed seven people all the way, all of them held up their mobile phones, and they almost bumped into their faces instead of their bodies.

They stopped and went and were surrounded for half an hour before getting into the nanny's car.

As soon as I sat on the soft chair, Kim Taehyung sent me an ins saying "arrive safely".

"Come back soon, Lala and I made a lot of delicious food, ah! By the way, help me buy some medicine and come back. Lala seems to have a cold and diarrhea, and her legs are weak."

After watching the content, Kim Taehyung immediately put the phone screen in front of Tian Jungkook, signaling that he would leave the purchase of medicine to him.

"Lala isn't feeling well? Wasn't it okay before we left? Is it serious?"

Tian Jungkook frowned slightly, turned his eyes away, and looked at Kim Taehyung with a hint of worry.

"I just came back like you, how would I know? If you want to worry, just go and see for yourself."

"I'm not going back to the dormitory, I'll go to his apartment with Taehyung later"

Jungkook turned his back to Kim Namjoon and said.

"Okay! The little ones of you are all in love, and now you even have someone who cares about you, you really left your brothers behind."

"How could there be, didn't Brother Yunqi already have one, and he has been with Tingzi Nuna for so many years." Tian Zhengguo retorted unconvinced.

"Don't bother me, you can settle your own affairs." Min Yoongi leaned his head back on the backrest, his eyes still closed.

Tanaka shrugged his shoulders, and honestly turned back to the original place.

The nanny car parked downstairs at the Big Hit company, Kim Namjoon and Min Yoongi got out of the car, and the rest of them planned to go back to the dormitory to rest.

Kim Taehyung and Jungkook came out of the pharmacy, stopped a car, and drove to the apartment.