What's on Jasmine's mind- My leader, my regiment follow-up

(One)

I suddenly felt how absurd this world is, and I don't want to watch this world any longer.However, I couldn't let Jasmine go.I really want to awaken her soul, bring her back to Jiqipo with me, or soar freely between the sky and the earth.However, not only is she unconscious now, but her spirit is also scattered. I can't wake her soul up at all.

I can't leave her, and I can't wake her up. I can only stand by the bed and wait for her.I don't know how long time has passed, time has no concept in my mind, and the passage of time has nothing to do with me.Now in my eyes, apart from Jasmine, nothing has anything to do with me.

In the haze, I saw Silong come back, followed by Fanla and Yunli, Yunli was still carrying a medicine box and stethoscope.

Seeing that Yunli came to Jasmine's bed and sat down, she gave Jasmine her pulse and listened to her heart and lungs with a stethoscope.I silently left her bedside, just watching her from a distance.

Fanla pulled Silong aside and asked in a low voice, and then Silong picked up the photo on the table and handed it to Fanla.

Fanla took the photo, with a complicated light in his eyes, and said to Silong: "It's this photo that made you suspicious? The clothes are nothing. At that time, many people wore clothes of this style." Even if it is really a military uniform of the US military, it was also sold on the black market at that time!

You can't just think about it because of this photo, and say something stupid that you have to report to the organization.Do you know that if you report without knowing anything, you will kill a lot of people!

Silong, you have grown up, and you will go to the army tomorrow.You will understand in the future that many things in this society are not what you see on the surface.When you are in the army, you have to train yourself well. I know that you have always asked for progress in politics, but you still have to have a sense of self-protection!Blindly expressing loyalty to the organization is not a wise move!

For politics, I suggest you, think more and do less.In short, it will be to your advantage to try a little less politically than you have figured out, and to take a step back.Remember what the teacher said, haste makes waste, and too much is too late. This is especially applicable in politics.

Your father was a good man, but it's a pity he passed away too early.Now that I see this picture, I kind of think of it. There seems to be such a tailor in Zenda Town.Everything your mother told you was for your own good.You can't doubt your father after questioning your mother.You should believe your mother's words, how difficult it is for her to raise you! "

"Teacher, I was too excited just now and said something too much. In a few hours, I will report to the Armed Forces Department. My mother, can I ask you and my teacher to take care of it?" Silong frowned. Eyebrow said worriedly.

"You don't have to worry about this. Your teacher's wife and I will take good care of your mother. When the time comes, you can go to your own business. You must remember the teacher's words. When you are in the army, don't think about any questions about your father. .”

……

(two)

Time is passing quietly.

I saw Yunli give Jasmine a few needles, but she still didn't wake up.Later, Fanla and Yunli left.

Later, Silong left with his luggage, but Jasmine still didn't wake up.

Later, at dawn, Yunli came with a thermos of hot porridge.She looked at Jasmine who was still unconscious, shook her head, sighed, and left again.

I don't know when, Mi Long, Ah Yi, and Fatty Fatty came to me.I was carried away by Milong and Ah Yi, like I was floating or sleepwalking, and I returned to Jiqi Slope, while the fat man stayed and looked after the house for me.

It feels like a lifetime away to go back to Jiqipo. Jiqipo is like another home for me, a home where I am with my brothers, and a home that is isolated from the troubles of the world.

(three)

Since my return, I have sat under that tree stump without speaking.The brothers were watching from afar and didn't bother me, but they were always worried.

I don't know how much time has passed. I seem to have thought about a lot of things in my mind, but I don't seem to think about anything.Milong, a Malaysian monkey, couldn't bear it anymore, and finally came over.

"Captain, what are you thinking? If you have something on your mind, you should speak it out. Don't be bored all the time. You will get sick from boredom." Milong's voice was almost unprecedentedly gentle.

I didn't want to talk at all, but hearing the gentle voice of the Malaysian monkey, I still replied to him dully: "Are we still afraid of getting sick?"

"Of course you won't get sick. Who are you? You're a big cockroach! Just because you don't get sick doesn't mean that others won't get sick. Is it because Jasmine is sick that you don't feel well? We don't know what happened to your family. I only know that Silong is gone, Jasmine is sick, and the leader is stupid." Milong continued.

I gave Milong a big white eye, but didn't answer his words.

The Malaysian monkey continued on his own: "Commander, did your Silong join the army?! For so many years, Jasmine has been taking care of him, and he is the center of the busy. Now, Losing someone who needs her care, the string that has been stretched can finally be loosened. Well, once the string is loosened, people will easily fall ill. But don't worry too much, Jasmine is still young, Give her some rest and she'll be fine. You don't have to worry too much."

Just as he was talking, the fat man came back.He tiptoed over, knelt down and said softly, "Captain, sister-in-law Jasmine has woken up, do you want to go take a look?"

"How is she?" I frowned and asked as calmly as possible.

"Sister Jasmine woke up, but she didn't eat or drink, and kept crying. I watched for a while, and couldn't bear to watch, so I came back." Krupp said dully.

"Krupp, you can go and see after a while. Help me to see her every once in a while and tell me how she is. Now, you go and rest for a while!" I said softly.

"Oh! That's fine." Krupp stood up and left slowly.

I leaned against the stump and closed my eyes.

……

(four)

Time passed quietly, I was waiting silently.

Between me and Jasmine, we have been waiting for each other.During the day, she waited in her busy and worrying life, waiting for the night to fall, waiting for me to meet her in her dream, that was her waiting for me.As for the fact that I have been watching her life all the time, I am distressed that I cannot give her real help, and that we can only have a short dream and soul together, but we will always be separated from Yin and Yang, which is a kind of more profound waiting.

Our love is patience, it is waiting.And now, I'm waiting for a result.

Milong can't understand me, and the old cannon fodder can't understand me.Krupp faithfully performed his duties, and would go back to check for me every hour, and then whispered the same sentence in my ear: "She is awake, neither eating nor moving, as if thinking about something on her mind."

"Captain, Jasmine is awake, why are you not in a hurry? Why didn't you go back and have a look? You refused to leave when you were brought back, why don't you go now?" Milong asked .

Milong's words brought my wandering thoughts back to my eyes. I looked at him, as if I was looking at the endless desolation, and said, "I was thinking, maybe I shouldn't disturb her anymore. Let her follow the instructions. Do it with your own mind. Did I influence her life too much before?"

"What do you mean? Jasmine is not only sick, but she is also sick in her heart. She doesn't eat or drink now. She wants to die. Why don't you care? I don't know what's going on that makes Jasmine so upset. Yes, but you are her man, how can you leave her alone? That’s how you love your wife??" Milong became angry, and he started to yell, attracting brothers to surround him.

Looking at the familiar and concerned faces of the brothers, I knew they were worried about me and Jasmine.The grief and helplessness accumulated in my heart could no longer be tolerated, and I yelled at Milong: "If that is her wish, let her come. At least we don't need to go hungry, at least we don't need her to fight for you." Worrying about daily necessities, at least I don't have to face that silly boy Si Long..."

But I can't go on. What I haven't said yet is that we have waited too long for each other. I want to be with her, and we will not be separated when we are together. If we can't be in the world, then we might as well be in heaven...

The brothers all surrounded me, they fell silent for a while, they didn’t speak, they didn’t know how to comfort me, but their eyes were full of understanding and sympathy.

"I miss the vet so much. If the vet is still here, maybe he will tell me what to do?" I murmured, "Before, the vet encouraged me to see Molly. He said that spiritual strength is also a kind of strength. He Let me bring hope to Jasmine's life. However, if I hadn't visited her back then, if I hadn't given her any influence and hope, maybe her life could go on now instead.

You know, the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment.If I didn't go to see her at the beginning, maybe after a few years, she would forget about me and find a good man to live with, and Silong would not be too entangled in the issue of biological father.Perhaps, that is the best care for her.I just think now that I should reflect on it. I have been entangled with Jasmine for more than ten years. Is it right or wrong for her? "

……

(Fives)

Time is passing, and the question in my mind can't think of an answer.I suddenly understood why I didn't want to see her, because I really didn't have the courage to encourage her to live in this world.

Live and continue to suffer in the world? ?Or, do nothing and let God arrange everything? ?

There is no answer in my heart, only the passage of time.Milong's gang couldn't persuade me, they just went back and forth between Jasmine's house and Jiqipo with Krupp.

I don't know how long the time has passed, until Bu La, the bastard Gai Di, came to me and said: "Head, I'm so annoying, he is outside the forest now, and Mi Long and A Yi are pestering him. Commander, do you see?"

"Don't let him into the woods, I don't want to see him. You go find a way to stop him." I whispered.

Bula left, but he ran back not long after he left.

"Leader, we can't stop him. Annoy this bastard, he's about to barge in!" Before Bu La's voice finished, I had already heard Fanla's voice.

"Die, die, come out! I know you are here. Although I can't see you, I know that if you are not staying at your house, you must be at Jiqipo, in this forest I am very familiar with this forest, I have been here many times in my dreams before. Commander, come out quickly, I have just been to your house!" Fanla stood in the open space in the middle of the forest and shouted towards the surroundings.

"Team leader, why don't you go see Fan, so that he won't be arguing here all the time. It would be bad if you attract other people." Bu Laguo came over to discuss.

I really don't want to see him, I know what he's going to say, but it's not a problem to let him keep arguing like this.

(six)

"It's annoying, stop shouting, come in and talk." I appeared in front of him and took him deep into the woods.

"Captain, you know that Silong has left, and he went to join the army. Since he left, Jasmine has been ill for three days. You know all this, right? It's been so many days, it's impossible for you not to Yes. You know that she is sick, but you don't stay at home, you hide far away on Jiqipo and don't go home?

Then you know why she fell ill.It seems that you all know what happened the night before Silong left home.Silong, a disobedient and unfilial boy, not only angered Jasmine, but also hurt you.For the past three days, Yunli has been visiting her every day to give her an injection.Yunli said that she was sick from overwork, and she was extremely angry, and the grievances in her heart could not be vented. She is very sick now, but what is more serious is that she has lost the desire to survive.

Originally, Yunli discussed with me today and wanted to send Jasmine to the hospital.But I know that if she doesn't want to live anymore, it's useless to send her to the hospital.Her illness is mainly in her heart, so I came to you and asked you to cure her heart disease. You have always been her medicine and her hope. Fanla said excitedly.

"What's wrong with Silong, why is he disobedient and unfilial? What has he done that is outrageous?" Milong moved his head closer and asked with concern.

I flipped Milong's head off casually, looked at Fanla and said sadly: "Yes, I know everything you said. I saw what Silong said to his mother, and I also saw that Jasmine is like this Fallen. I just don't know, what else can I do now?

You want me to visit her, to comfort her, to encourage her to live on?If this is a painful and hopeless life for her, why should I encourage her to live?Why should I lie to her and give her any hope?That would be cruel to her... She has the right to make her own decisions. "

"Head, what's wrong with you? Are you stupid by Silong or what's the matter? Silong is a genius, and it's inevitable to make a mistake. I was 25 back then, and I pointed a gun at my father! I don't even know how my father tolerated it. Sister-in-law Jasmine can't think about it for a while, why can't you just follow her and think about it? In this world, life is really hard. There are many good people who live very aggrieved. It's a bit black and white. But, we can't give up hope because of this, right?!

I always remember what you said to me on the last day: 'Meng is annoying.You too are a monster, a monster of doubt, and a monster of hope.You don't report, because you always remember hope.Don't worry, don't worry, try it.Can a dead person live on your body? '

I just remember your words, you let me live with the hope of [-] people, no matter how difficult the situation, no matter how difficult the day, you let me always live with hope.But now, you see Jasmine begging for death, but you don't go to save her?Have your wits burned out?All hope in your heart is extinguished?Would you really like to see Silong become a real orphan from now on? "Fanla became more and more excited and emotional as he talked, and his tears couldn't help but flow down.

"I'm not angry with Silong, I just don't want to watch Jasmine suffer in the world, but I can't do anything..." I murmured, not daring to look into Fanla's eyes, tears blurred out of my eyes...

……

When we all calmed down, Fanla said: "Leader, Yunli has shown Sister Jasmine carefully for the past two days. Her body is very weak now. In the past few years, everyone has had a hard time getting enough to eat. , but she still wanted to make sure that Silong could eat well, and broke her body. This time, she was so angry by Silong that she had a mouthful of blood in her heart, and Yunli gave her several needles. It didn't work. If you go this time, it's best to let her express her anger and resentment and ignite her will to survive.

Yunli said that as long as she has the desire to survive, even though she is seriously ill now, she is sure that she can be cured.Her body needs long-term care, and Chinese medicine is good at this. As long as her heart disease can be cured, her body will be able to recover slowly in the future. You can trust our family Yunli on this point! "

I looked at Fanla, my good brother, and said: "Fanla, thank you, and thank you Yunli from your family. I may have fainted from grief. That day, when I watched Jasmine fall, I just feel like I have nothing left.

Don't worry, I'll see her later.I'll try my best to see if it can cure her heart disease!But usually, I have to ask your Yunli to take more care and help me take care of her.It's really not easy for her to survive until now..."