What's on Jasmine's mind- My leader, my regiment follow-up

(One)

After sending off the trouble, I finally mustered up the courage to go home.By this time, it was dusk, and the sky was half-dark, and I felt uneasy.I don't know what to say to her, what else can I say to her?I always remember 20 years ago, when I saw her for the first time, she was beautiful and delicate, and she was gentle and euphemistic. She told me generously that her name was Jasmine.

When I got home, I looked at her room first.A thermos was placed on the table in the outer room, probably the porridge that Yunli brought her today.Jasmine was lying on the inner bed, her face pale, what was she thinking about with her eyes open?

Do I talk to her in her dreams after she falls asleep?Or should he show up directly now and communicate with her face to face?I sat at the table outside for a while, but she wouldn't go to sleep.Thinking that her body couldn't be dragged any longer, I had no choice but to bite the bullet and walk in.

There was no light in the room, and the light gradually dimmed.I stood by her bed and looked at her face carefully.The youthful brilliance of her face had faded with the bitter years, but there was always a gentle and firm light shining in her eyes.The beauty and brilliance that shines from the depths of my soul is what attracts me the most.Now, I looked at her face carefully, and found that the look in her eyes had dimmed a lot, and I couldn't help but sigh slightly.

"You're here? You're here to take me away, aren't you? I've been waiting for you." She turned her face slightly to my side and said quietly.

(two)

It seems that my intuition is correct, she is no longer willing to live in this world.To dispel her desire to die and rekindle her hope for life, this task is probably a bit difficult.

"Silly Jasmine, since you've woken up, why don't you eat well and sleep well so that I can visit you in your dreams? Why do you torture yourself like this without eating or sleeping?" The softest voice spoke softly.

She didn't answer my question, but continued with her own thoughts, saying, "I've never seen you in my waking hours, you've always appeared in my dreams. But now that I'm sober, I know I Not dreaming, now I can see you, you will take me away, right? You take me away, we will be together forever, never apart, okay?"

Seeing that she was still so obsessed, I had to say to her: "Before, I have never appeared in your real life, I just don't want you to see that I am so illusory in front of you. You can only see me, But I can't do anything for you. Now, I just want to bring you a glass of water, but I can't do it. You will feel sad, and my heart hurts even more. "

She stretched out her hand, trying to hold mine, but all she touched was nothingness, nothing.

I looked at the astonishment and sadness in her eyes, and continued: "You have seen it all, that's why I only come to see you in my dreams. Only in your dreams, it is soul to soul communication, not soul Communication with the entity. In the dream, I can give you the real touch, you can feel the real me, and wake up with this feeling, and return to the real world.

Although, usually you don't see me all the time, it doesn't mean that I'm not by your side.You should know that I promised to be within three meters of you, and I am indeed within three meters of you.Two days ago, on the night before Silong left home, I saw his argument with you and how you fell ill.I know the pain in your heart. "

Having said that, she suddenly stood up and coughed slightly.My words touched the pain in her heart, she coughed and wanted to say something to me, but before she could say anything, with a violent cough, a mouthful of dark red blood spit out.Her face also turned from pale to flushed.

(three)

"Jasmine, my dear Jasmine, what's the matter with you?" I bent down towards her, wanting to hug her, but found that I couldn't do anything but follow her face with sad eyes.

"It's okay, I'm fine. For the past two days, I've been feeling tight in my chest, like a big stone has been pressing on my heart. Now that I've spit it out, I feel refreshed. Don't worry, I'm fine.

Did you see all the disobedient words that Silong said before leaving home that day?It's all my fault. I usually spoil him too much and didn't teach him well.In the past, I always thought that it is my ideal to let Silong grow up to be an upright man like you, and it is the direction I have been working hard in my life.But at the end of the hard work, I found that the current result has run counter to the original goal.

My hard work and hard work are meaningless, you don't blame me, do you? ? "She looked at me with sadness and despair in her eyes.

I looked at her, and now only my eyes can bring her strength, "Get well soon, don't think about such silly questions anymore. Every child's growth cannot be smooth sailing. When I was young , all I encountered was adversity, all I encountered were difficulties, and even I didn’t grow up speaking the truth. In adversity, I was not overwhelmed by adversity, and I became what I am now.”

I smiled at her, smiling as brightly and gently as possible, and continued: "But Bao'er is in a different environment from me. Youth has its own cruel side, and the youthful life is intoxicated by the vigorous growth of oneself. Cheerful intake of nutrition, no time to consider the pain of others. This characteristic is the inherent law of youth, and has nothing to do with whether his nature is good or not. And all people who are no longer young should have this feeling, sometimes we will feel it in our hearts Thinking: He is so young, he is so young! Therefore, it is inevitable that the young people will have a estrangement from the vicissitudes of life of the older generation.

You should trust Bao'er, believe in his pure nature, and forgive him for his inevitable mistakes.Now Boa is out of the house and you have to take care of yourself.In the future, after he has practiced outside for a long time and understands life, he will come back and support this family for you.At that time, you don't have to work so hard, and you can enjoy the blessings of your son.At that time, Bao'er should also start a family, maybe he will bring you a grandson, or a granddaughter, who will pester you all day and call you grandma..."

"That will take a long time, a long time!" Jasmine looked at me, her expression finally calmed down, the flush on her face faded away, and her pale face appeared again.

"You speak so well, I don't even dare to think about it. By that time, I don't know what I will look like when I grow old. You have never changed, you have always been so charming and charming. I will hold my breath in front of you. But I can't restrain the excitement and ecstasy in my heart. But I am getting older day by day, I once thought, if I continue to live like this, am I worthy of you?" She looked at me, her eyes were so selfless And infatuated.

Bathed in her eyes, I just felt so peaceful and sweet in my heart, and I couldn't help but smile, "Why is my Jasmine so stupid? Do you think that beauty is only the appearance? A person's appearance is a picture that expresses the heart The most difficult thing for a person to hide is the eyes, and the most touching is only the eyes. After going through vicissitudes, what is really attractive in a person's appearance is those who show wisdom, virtue, morality, education and personality, etc., which express spiritual qualities Do you know? In my eyes, you are becoming more and more beautiful every day. Your beauty is in my eyes and in my heart. It is alive and will change. You are true, It is good, so it is also beautiful.”

After listening to what I said, a smile finally appeared on her face, and I was gradually relieved.

(four)

"You, if you can talk, you can make me happy. When I really become an old lady, will you still be beautiful?" She asked me with a mischievous smile.

"Of course. No matter which day you are, you are beautiful. However, it will take many, many years. I believe that I will see you live that kind of happy life. You must first promise me that you will let yourself Get well soon. I want to see a healthy Jasmine, that is the most beautiful Jasmine.

do you know?The human heart is the most contradictory thing in the world. Sometimes it is very wild and wants to fly everywhere; but its most ordinary and deepest needs are just to find a habitat, that is another heart.

After so many vicissitudes and bullets, I lived my life only to realize at the end that I had just found a habitat for my heart, and that was you.Thinking about you every day and knowing that you are thinking about me at the same time, the heart will be settled, how good it feels! "

Following my soft words, Jasmine's eyes turned red.She looked at me, and suddenly acted coquettishly annoyed: "Look at you, the worst. You made me laugh just now, and now you're going to make me cry again. Can you not be so bad, and don't treat me so well? !"

"Then am I bad or good? Silly Jasmine, as long as you get better, I don't care what you say about me. I just want to keep looking at you, and I can't get enough of seeing you for decades!

When you get better, I promise you that every night in the future will have the sweetest dreams.In those dreams, you will have the most real me..."

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