The teenagers in the broken shimmer dance with the wind

In such a quiet night, the sound of footsteps was exceptionally clear, someone approached, and the door was knocked.

"Can you come in?" Xu Qingzhou asked.

Wanliyou responded.

He stepped into the room, looked at Wan Liyou lying there and said with a smile: "I thought you wouldn't let me in."

"Is something wrong?"

"I think you might need someone to talk to." He moved a chair and sat by the bed, half leaning on the desk, looking at the books piled up like a hill on the desk: "Seeing that you have been quiet for so long, you are a little worried, so look See if you need a dumpster to confide in."

"Trash can?" Wan Liyou propped himself up, sat cross-legged, and looked over in confusion: "You don't know anything, and it's useless for me to tell you."

"It's a trash can." Xu Qingzhou folded his arms and said, "It's just talking anyway." He smiled: "Do you think that the problem will be solved as long as you say it? This is life, not a practical problem."

"..." Wanliyou Yujie, leaning against the head of the bed exhaustedly, said to himself: "Is it wrong that I don't want to change my current life?"

"correct."

"Is it wrong that I don't want to go back to the entertainment industry?"

"No." Xu Qingzhou shook his head sincerely.

"Then I didn't do anything wrong, why is Shanmu... like that? And even I feel that this state is wrong? If there is nothing wrong, why is it like this?"

Xu Qingzhou laughed aloud, the movement of dripping rain was not loud, accompanied by the sound of insects: "Do you want to hear my opinion?"

"Tell me, I can't sleep anyway, so I have to say something."

"Success." Xu Qingzhou slapped his thigh and said honestly: "Because you are not the type of reality and stability."

"what?"

"To put it bluntly, you are not satisfied with the status quo. On the one hand, you feel that your life is very good now, and on the other hand, you feel that you should not only have such a small achievement." He smiled: "Liyou, you have been admired by thousands of people since you were young, and you have seen the world. It is normal for you to be dissatisfied with the status quo.”

Wan Liyou understood what he meant, and said sourly, "You mean I'm content with the status quo because I'm greedy for a high position?"

"You can put it this way." Xu Qingzhou didn't mean to be tactful: "You feel that you have no way to stay in that high position now. Instead of being abandoned and disgusted by others, it's better to turn around and leave under the applause, but " His voice was irrefutable and firm: "You are actually reluctant. You still want to go back to that position."

Wan Liyou listened to his words, closed his eyes and thought for a while, but couldn't refute, so he laughed helplessly: "It seems to be the case."

Seeing the hazy moonlight entering his eyes, Xu Qingzhou cast a poignant aura, and the color dimmed.

"Xu Shanmu treated you with good intentions." He said so.

The boy over there turned his head and smiled helplessly: "I know." He relaxed his body and looked at the book in hand: "Everything he did was to make me realize this."

Xu Qingzhou turned on the phone, called up the conversation record with Ruo Jinghong just now, and handed it to Wan Liyou: "Let's have a look."

He took it and flipped through it one by one, almost curled up in pain in his heart. In the dark room, there was only moonlight and the little brightness of the mobile phone screen, just like his dark road in the past years.

Handing the phone back, he looked at Xu Qingzhou in confusion: "Do you think I'm sick too?"

The sound of the lock screen is not loud, but it is just enough to gently shake the air at this moment, and some things will break.Even if you don't admit it, it will break the skin and reveal the truth.

"What Xu Shanmu meant probably meant that you need to get to know yourself anew."

"I'm asking you. Not Shan Mu."

Xu Qingzhou said helplessly: "I think that none of the people in the branch school is healthy, and even Jinghong who followed him spontaneously has his shortcomings."

"you also have."

"There must be. But I haven't found it yet."

Although Wan Liyou didn't want to admit it, he finally asked confusedly: "Actually, I know what's wrong with me. But I think so." He smiled helplessly: "I can't face the real me."

"..."

Wan Liyou said: "Shan Mu said that my life is based on him. I don't deny this. When I was told that I would come to a branch school, my first reaction was not that I did something wrong, but I wanted to know if I went to a branch school. In the place where the mountains are at dusk, can I still live?"

"Is he so important to you?" Xu Qingzhou didn't quite understand the bond between them.

"You have never been attacked by black fans, never hated by others for no reason, let alone experienced verbal insults, cold violence at home, been completely used by others, nor have you been cursed to death viciously, and you have never lived in the abyss But, of course you don’t understand. A little bit of sunlight that suddenly appeared at that time was the rope to save lives.”

"Have you ever thought about committing suicide?"

"Yes, it was solved by Shanmu who turned it into a small matter." Wan Liyou leaned against the iron railing, his back was full of chills: "It was he who stretched out his hand to me and pulled me back to the real world. Tell me again Suffering can be endured together."

"You regret it?" he asked.

"No. It's just... I think it would be nice if it wasn't so difficult." He had an unexplainably distressed expression and frowned: "People's hearts are not satisfied. But I’m not capable enough, so I can’t keep what I want. On the one hand, I’m afraid that Shan Mu will be disappointed in me, but on the other hand, I hope he can see through my feelings and come to help me indifferently.” He smiled: “How should I put it, self-esteem Are you entangled in your heart with the desire to survive?"

Xu Qingzhou smiled: "Do you think you are not capable enough? I think your stage effect is very good, and your acting skills are not bad. Why do you say that?"

"It's been almost ten years since I debuted, and I don't even have a work that can be sold."

"That's a matter of your company choosing the direction for you. You have to choose the same school of acting and idol school." Xu Qingzhou tilted his head: "You can't have both, actors and traffic, you always have to choose the same. "

Seeing Wanliyou's expression, Xu Qingzhou knew what he was thinking, so he could only lower his head and smile to himself, "If you want both, you will have to put in more efforts from others. Although it is difficult, it is worth a try."

Wan Liyou said: "Can hard work fill the gap in talent?"

"I can't fill it in." Xu Qingzhou smiled at the water in the Moonlight Hall, "But... I worked hard with all my might, and no one would use my talent to laugh at my efforts."

Xu Qingzhou reached out to pat him on the shoulder, stood up and folded his arms and said proudly: "Compared with failure, I hate myself who does nothing and feels sorry for myself. Only after taking a step in everything can I be qualified to truly regret it .If one day I don't even have the right to regret it... that would be even more pathetic."

He persuaded: "I don't know what kind of things you have experienced since you were young, but...Xu Shanmu will not hesitate to toss himself to the hospital to help you rein in the precipice, so you can fight with peace of mind, he can still give up You can't do it? Even if we are nothing to you, isn't Xu Shanmu always on your side?"

Thinking of this, Xu Qingzhou couldn't help laughing: "You are not alone. There is nothing to be afraid of."

What's there to be afraid of?

He raised his eyes slowly, the light in front of the window was already brighter than before, and the color of the sky was his favorite crimson blue.I remember that on the day when the college entrance examination was over, he and Xu Shanmu were drinking together at home to watch the sunrise. They had also seen this beautiful color, which was very quiet, like the sea, like the night sky.

They are just a light boat on the sea, a speck of dust on the galaxy, everyone is in danger but they depend on each other.

It's hard to live alone, but he... seems to be not alone, the days of being alone are over.

"By the way." Xu Qingzhou who walked to the door suddenly remembered something, turned his head to look at Shang Wanliyou's revived eyes, Xu Qingzhou said with some dissatisfaction: "At first, Jinghong and I agreed to go to the east of the city to watch the piano today. .You two are making such a fuss, and his schedule and I are about to back off. How are you two going to compensate us?"

Wan Liyou laughed absurdly, stepped on his shoes and jumped up, wrapped himself up with a mask and hat, and went out with his mobile phone.

Xu Qingzhou leaned against the wall, saw him striding forward with a smile, and couldn't help laughing: "Where are you going?"

Wan Liyou was full of vitality and spirit: "Go and get Jinghong back. He's coming back to sleep now, it's just in time for you to go out in the afternoon."

A disgusted sigh sounded, and Xu Qingzhou gritted his teeth and shouted absurdly: "You really can't suffer at all!"

Seeing the young man go downstairs, the doors of the two dormitories next door were opened in unison, and there were smiling faces watching the excitement.

Xue Fanyuan asked, "Successful?"

He Zhitiao: "It's all right."

Chu Yun also asked worriedly: "Have you persuaded me?"

Xu Qingzhou shook his head and nodded: "he has gone to the hospital."

Then everyone gave him a thumbs up.

"awesome"

He raised his eyebrows: "You're welcome, you're welcome."

Tao Wangyan walked out of the dormitory: "But is it okay for him to go to the hospital as a big star? Today, Shan Muban is discharged from the hospital, so he can't show his face."

Everyone raised their thumbs again and looked at Xu Qingzhou.

Zheng Nanguan patted him on the shoulder with a breath: "Help people to the end, send Buddha to the west."

Li Yuanzhi and Huang Chuanhui also watched the excitement and felt that it was a big deal, and said in unison: "Give someone a rose, and the hand will have a lingering fragrance."

He Zhi pushed Yue Chengen beside him, and the boy hesitated and said, "Would you like to follow? Just in time to pick them up, and Jinghong didn't sleep all night, can you come and help?"

Xu Qingzhou looked at the longing eyes of the crowd, sighed resignedly, and chased after him with a hache, helpless, helpless: "My fate."

In front of the door of the ward, Wan Liyou pushed open the door after a little hesitation. There was a person on the bed smiling and looking at the direction where he was standing tenderly. The sick person was sitting in the morning light, and the pale yellow light outside the window called him His face was as thin as a cicada's wing and transparent.It shattered instantly like walking on thin ice.He was always so calm and tolerant.

"Aren't you asleep?" Wan Liyou approached and noticed the fatigue between his brows and eyes.

"It's not like you haven't slept yet." Because of the fever, the boy's usual elegant voice was somewhat hoarse, like the grainy sound of white paper rubbing against each other.

Wan Liyou didn't feel uncomfortable standing there. He turned around and walked to the chair beside the hospital bed to sit down. He looked up and saw the young man's crow-like eyelashes falling in the twilight. butterfly.

"Where's Jinghong?"

"He's going to boil water, I want to drink water." Xu Shanmu looked at his crossed fingers, there were no flaws on his face, but the tangle in his hands couldn't be faked.

The young man smiled under the morning light, his air was like a blue orchid: "What are you doing here?"

Seeing him laughing, Wan Liyou laughed too, and let go of his hands, spreading them to the sides. He lay on the side of the bed and said easily, "I'm sorry."

"Apologize? Why?"

"Just... all kinds of things." From the moment he saw Xu Shanmu, all the tension and embarrassment were blown away by the breeze like black dust: "Anyway, I'm sorry."

"The apology is not sincere, and I don't accept it."

Wan Liyou supported half of his body on his elbows: "You lost." He said with a smile: "You lost in basketball. You have to promise me one thing."

Xu Shanmu was not worried, he finally saw a ray of hope in Wan Liyou's eyes that he had never seen before.He himself is a person in the abyss, and he cannot save those who are also in the abyss, so... what he can do is to force the young man who is shining like glass in front of him to see his own light clearly.

He can't save others, his heart can only save himself.

Fortunately, this step is right, fortunately, this step is timely.

Seeing him bright and shining, I am really glad.

"What?" His smile became more real, refreshing and warm as jade: "You can't punish me, it must be something I can do."

Wan Liyou reached out to touch his forehead and found that the heat was still very high. He pressed his shoulders, covered his eyes with his hands, and gently patted his heart to soothe his emotions, trying to wake him up from sleepiness: "You wait for me, wait for me to go back to the main school together. Let's go back together with Jinghong, this time whoever dares to bully Jinghong, I will beat him, you cut him. So, you wait for me."

Xu Shanmu laughed out loud, and after nodding, his uneasiness gradually disappeared.

When Wan Liyou took his hand away from his eyes, the boy had already fallen into a deep dream.

There was a silent jump for joy outside the door.

Xu Qingzhou pressed Jinghong's shoulder to signal him to calm down, and then went to see the peaceful scene in the ward, and suddenly remembered a book he had read a long time ago, and there was a sentence in that book that he always remembered.

Now I face this night of starlight and revelation, and for the first time I open my heart to this indifferent world.I experienced that the world was so like me, so loving and harmonious, that I had been happy and I am still happy. 】--"outsider"

They found themselves after suffering, which is also a kind of blessing, not everyone will have a blessing.

"You also go back to the main school with us." Ruo Jinghong turned to look at him, pulled his sleeve and said with a smile: "The two of them help me beat people, you can help me swear, your mouth is also very powerful .”

Xu Qingzhou smiled silently, and the morning light outside the window slanted down, paving the most beautiful light in the world as the road of their lives. Although it was only for a moment, it was beautiful enough.

after the rain...

Finally, the rain has passed and the sky has cleared.