The teenagers in the broken shimmer dance with the wind

In front of the basketball court, Wanliyou stopped to look at Xu Shanmu in the distance.

When I look back, my face is full of wetness.It seemed to be raining, tonight's style was extraordinarily heavy, and the wind contained moisture, which cut his face sorely.

Wherever he looked, Xu Shanmu was dressed elegantly in white, and he was standing in front of the small blackboard at the school gate, then turned around and walked to the reception room to pick up another stack of express mail. Wan Liyou knew that they were invitation letters from prestigious schools.

That's right, as long as this genius wants to leave, he can't catch up with all he has. They are not from the same world. Xu Shanmu cannot be expected to compromise and stay blindly.

If Xu Shanmu stayed in Nanjun for his own sake, Wan Liyou felt... that would be too much delay for Xu Shanmu.

Standing there, quietly waiting for him to approach, Wan Liyou looked at him, and he also looked over.

The eyes met, and someone made an understatement. The sound was extremely soft, like a feather falling on the skin, like raindrops falling on the corner of the eye.

"Go back to the main school." Wan Liyou said.

Xu Shanmu shuddered, bowed his head and smiled speechlessly, and with tired eyes, he stepped forward and slapped all the invitation letters on Wan Liyou's heart, and said with a sneer: "The two of us play a game of basketball, As long as you win, I promise you whatever you say, even if you lose."

"What about the draw?"

"It's impossible to draw."

It was already twelve o'clock in the middle of the night when Li Yuanzhi and Huang Chuanhui came out of the practice room. On the basketball court, his two roommates were still fighting desperately for the ball, let alone five hours since they came back.The two got hurt all over.His knees, elbows, and forehead were all bruised and purple, and the skin was broken and bleeding.Just won't stop.

And Ruo Jinghong and Xu Qingzhou stood by the basketball court, not intending to stop them at all, just watching silently.

Huang Chuanhui exclaimed in astonishment: "The two of them are dying! What are you doing?"

A gust of wind blew by, Li Yuanzhi looked up, and a drop of rain fell on the corner of his eyebrows, then on the eyelids, the tip of the nose, and the corners of the mouth, gradually more and more rain came.

Thunderstorms are also pouring down.

The heavy rain almost blurred people's vision, and the scenery a little further away could not be seen.

In the end, Xu Shanmu was defeated in this physical battle. He was tired and gave up, and fell powerlessly into the heavy rain. He half-closed his eyes and looked at his trembling fingers, his whole body was aching from the rain. He coughed and curled up, it was too painful and too embarrassing.

Then someone fell beside him, but he didn't even have the strength to be surprised.

"why!"

Xu Shanmu heard the roar of the person beside him, even in such rain, it was deafening.

"Why don't so many famous schools go!" The man got up with the last of his strength, and knelt down in front of him, his eyes were red and his body was covered with wounds, like a wounded and howling beast, Wan Liyou grabbed his collar , pulling his boneless and tired body up, roaring and mourning: "Yes, I want you to guess, and you can guess it, but what about you? I don't say anything! How much did you say yourself? You can guess it! You are smart, but I don’t know anything! Me!” He cried out, “I don’t know anything! Why! You don’t like the stage at all, do you! Why did you come to South County? Why did you come to the branch campus. Why did you stay here?"

Xu Shanmu was so exhausted that he couldn't break free, he was paralyzed there, there was still a slight smile on the corner of his mouth, like a miserable pear blossom falling in the rain, that pear blossom had no roots, but was still poignantly beautiful.

In the heavy rain, Wanliyou's eyes were beaten by the water falling from the sky, but he still stared at the person in front of him.

The man slowly raised his hand like iron pliers to hold Wan Liyou's elbow joint, as if he was holding the last life-saving straw in the world, and then smiled elegantly: "You said that you hope I will be happy."

Wan Liyou thought that he had heard wrongly, so he leaned over to listen to him with trembling hands.

Xu Shanmu said: "I grew up so big, only you. Only you said that you want me to be happy."

Wan Liyou's words were like a tongue, every time he uttered a word, a drop of blood flowed from his heart: "Because of me?"

"You are a part." He replied, the voice was very soft, as light as a feather, like white snow, the rain fell on him so painful that he couldn't even open his eyes.

The chill that was frozen in his heart gradually melted away, turning into ice water that flowed back to the bottom of his heart, cooling all his emotions, then diffused into his eyes, and finally flowed out of his eye sockets to merge with the heavy rain. His strength could no longer hold on, and finally He simply let go of the man's elbow: "I also have my own willfulness."

He finally regained his usual childish look, pushed Wan Liyou's hand away, and fell back to the ground heavily, looking at the dark clouds that were about to overwhelm the city, he said rascally: "I'm not leaving, I'm leaving, What about you and Jinghong? You were bullied by others, what should you do?"

He looked up at the heavy rain, his eyes turned black, and finally persisted, letting himself be powerless, he turned his head to look at Wanliyou over there, the young man's face was both stunned and clear.

He thought in his heart, this is enough, as long as Liyou realizes this, it will be better after such a long time.

Liyou, you will definitely get better, after all, there are so many people in this world who want you to be happy.

There were urgent footsteps in the heavy rain, it was Ruo Jinghong and Xu Qingzhou running towards him.

before falling into darkness.

He comforted himself.

It's ok.

It's ok.

I am no longer alone.

Many years have passed since the days when I was trembling and unable to sleep, Xu Shanmu is free, and there is no need to be afraid when he falls into the dark, someone will come, so there is no need to be afraid anymore.

it's OK.

It's ok.

The smell of the hospital is not pleasant, and the sound is not pleasant. I always feel that this is the entrance of Huangquan Road, one step away from the underworld.

"..."

Zheng Nanguan leaned against the door of the ward, beside Xu Qingzhou, the young man held various payment forms in his hand.

"Do you have any money? Is it enough? How about we all contribute a little?"

"Enough. It's not serious, just a few tests." Xu Qingzhou looked at the test list and became confused: "He has gastritis, a little malnutrition, and his lungs are not very good. His resistance is also very poor. He still takes it for a long time Sleeping pills."

Xu Qingzhou took a breath: "Usually he looks normal, why are there so many problems."

"Diseases are detected by examination." Zheng Nanguan sat down beside him, and was about to ask something when the door of the ward was opened, and Ruo Jinghong poked his head out: "Have you two talked to Li about the examination results? Make him worry."

Xu Qingzhou shook his mobile phone: "I have already said it on WeChat. He didn't reply to me."

Ruo Jinghong closed the door softly, walked to Xu Qingzhou and sat down, looked at Zheng Nanguan and asked: "What do you think happened to them? Suddenly they are so desperate? Did they quarrel?"

"Arguing?" Zheng Nanguan shook his head: "How can there be such a quarrel?"

"Then what else?" Ruo Jinghong said with a confused look on his face, "If it wasn't for the quarrel, why did Shan Mu work so hard, he passed out, and he still has a fever. The same goes for Liyou, knowing that Shan Mu is not physically strong, he and he are two So fight."

Zheng Nanguan didn't understand either, so he could only say: "The two of them are usually good like conjoined twins. You usually have a good relationship with them, so you didn't notice anything wrong?"

"It's not right." He shook his head: "No, they were quite happy when they went out today. Liyou also said that he would buy me milk tea to drink. Seeing that they came back, I went to find them to drink, but I saw the two of them. A duel."

"A duel is not enough."

Xu Qingzhou interjected: "Absolutely." He shook his head absurdly: "You didn't see that scene, I don't know, you thought there was some deep hatred between the two of them. Liyou even grabbed Shan Mu's collar. It's all Yu Yu's fault It's too loud, or we'd be sure to hear it."

Li Yuanzhi walked over with the insulation box, and heard the voices of the three of them discussing from a distance: "Don't guess, they didn't quarrel, and they didn't want a duel."

"You know?" The three of them looked over together.

"I don't know, but... I can feel it." Li Yuanzhi also sat down beside them: "Don't make random guesses, they must have some unspeakable conflicts, psychological conflicts."

Ruo Jinghong carefully raised his hand: "Then I seem to know what it is."

"What?" Another three people looked over at the same time and asked seriously.

Ruo Jinghong pinched his chin, frowned, and began to think about the scene that day: "Li You was looking at a store recently, and it seemed that he was about to open a store. I heard that day, so I asked him casually, asking if he didn't plan to return to the entertainment industry. "He blinked innocently: "I was just joking, who knew that Liyou's expression immediately became awkward, I turned to look at Shan Mu, and wanted to ask him if I said something wrong, but saw Shan Mu using a very strange His eyes stared at Liyou, and he stared at Liyou for a long time." He folded his arms in thought, then raised his head to seek the answer: "Do you think it has something to do with this matter?"

"..."

"..."

"..."

Xu Qingzhou shook his head: "I don't understand at all."

"Me too."

"Me too."

Ruo Jinghong drove the three of them back to school, and went back to the ward to accompany Xu Shanmu, with the porridge from Li Yuanzhi in his hand.Pushing open the door, I found that Xu Shanmu had opened his eyes and was staring out the window in a daze. He was very white and thin, and when he was not smiling, his brows and eyes seemed to condense all the sorrows in the world, like withered pear blossoms.

"Wake up." If he opened his mouth in the future, he realized that his voice was a little hoarse.

"Yeah." He turned his head and smiled lightly, pear dimples emerged, as clear as a white tang.

"Are you hungry? The porridge that Yuan Zhi bought for you."

"Not hungry." The boy shook his head.

Ruo Jinghong pressed the payment slip under the thermos: "We can go back when your fever subsides. The doctor said you'd better have a detailed examination, Shan Mu..." He paused, then lay on his stomach Nuo Nuo beside him said: "Let's live a long life, okay? If you are not in good health, you can't delay."

"What's wrong with me?" He stretched out his hand to rub the forehead of the young man lying on the bed, smiling tenderly: "I just didn't sleep well."

"The doctor said that you are overtired, have gastritis, your lungs are not very good, you are malnourished, and... are you taking sleeping pills?"

Xu Shanmu laughed out loud: "I have exposed the old bottom."

"Is that true?" Ruo Jinghong spoke softly, like the moonlight outside the window, and the rain had stopped.Only cool air and clear skies remain.

The moonlight sprinkled the whole house, the breeze was blowing, the green bamboos were faint, and the rain was dripping on the edge of the eaves, but the air was clear and tight.

"Gastritis and lung problems were caused when I was young, as well as malnutrition. As for sleeping pills, I really didn't sleep well. I went to the psychiatrist in the hospital, and the doctor prescribed medicine for me. I can't guarantee a long life. , but I don't want to die either."

"Then you are still fighting with Liyou today. In terms of physical strength, you are definitely not his opponent."

Under the night, Xu Shanmu said: "That's because Liyou is also sick, and I'm treating him."

"Then you are cured?"

"No." He answered honestly and helplessly.

"The loss outweighs the gain." He was a little unhappy.

Xu Shanmu laughed, and his gentle laughter seemed particularly long and friendly in the night. He coughed a little twice: "The mind is the same as the body, and it will be sick, but the mental illness is difficult to cure, and sometimes it is a disease. I may not be able to find out. I just hope that Li You will find out that he is sick."

He nodded: "My mother told me that heart disease is difficult to cure." Ruo Jinghong sighed: "Shan Mu... What disease did he suffer from in Liyou? Is it difficult to cure?"

"I don't know." He smiled: "Heart disease is difficult to cure, and it is also difficult to find the source of the disease."

"Even you don't know?"

"En." Xu Shanmu's eyes were full of disappointment, and he said softly like a child: "I don't know either."

"When did you find out that Liyou was sick?"

"The first time I saw him, I knew he was sick. And it was serious. At first I thought that as long as I was around him, he would be fine, but then I found out... It seems that because of me, he is more serious It's all my fault, so ah." He said: "In order to prevent him from getting serious, I have to stop the loss quickly."

"..." Ruo Jinghong pursed his lips, looked at the obvious disappointment and sadness in Xu Shanmu's eyes, opened the porridge on the side and said with a smile: "Let's eat first, I can't think of anything on an empty stomach."

Xu Shanmu looked at the begonia-like young man, and saw that his brows and eyes were crooked, and his depressed mood gradually became brighter, so he nodded and said, "Okay, let's eat first."

After eating, Xu Shanmu fell asleep quietly.

Ruo Jinghong was so flustered that he didn't dare to fall asleep, he stood under the moonlight and watched the rain dripping from the eaves and the water from the sky poured into the pool.

He dared not ask.

Turning around steadily, he looked at the person who was exhausted and fell asleep due to illness.

Shanmu, is your heart sick too?

Under the same moon, Wan Liyou couldn't fall asleep either. He lay on Xu Shanmu's bed, quietly watching the light yellow moonlight shrouded in clouds and smoke outside the window.

Li Yuanzhi thought that he must be quiet tonight, so he went to someone else's dormitory and left the room empty to him.

He was the only one left in the small dormitory.

He looked at the books beside Xu Shanmu's bed, reached out to fetch one and flipped through it casually, flipping through a dozen of them before stopping.

"Me too." He looked at those books, as if he was talking to someone.

"I grew up so big, and only you said that you want to stay with me. Only you really care whether I am happy." He said to the pile of books: "Me too. Only you .”

"Nobody cared," he said.

"They all used me as a tool," he said.

"Nobody cared," he said.

"Whether I'm happy or not. No one ever cared," he said.

"They envied me, but I was having a hard time," he said.

"I'm scared, I'm scared every day," he said.

He said: "You know it all, you know it all. Only you care whether I am happy or not."

Only he cares.

Only Xu Shanmu would tell him that it didn't matter, and only Xu Shanmu would care about his happiness, sadness and pain.

"I'll stay with you." He always remembered what the boy said to him at that time.