【Double Black】As You Like It

Nakahara Chuya really wanted to yell at Osamu Dazai, you are sick! ! !

In fact, the time he and this person scolded each other can be traced back directly to seven years ago, but in the past seven years, the beating and scolding and scolding of this man are like a dog skin plaster that sticks to his body and cannot be peeled off.You said he was annoying, he left, and the car was blown up that night just after he opened the wine to celebrate. It hasn't been long since the celebration, and it hasn't stopped for a few years before he appears again, with an even more irritating face than before. .Occasionally Zhongyuan Zhong also thought about why this person can't calm down and live his life well, what's wrong with insisting on making trouble for him? ?

Sometimes he also thinks to himself, is it because he is too cheap why he likes such a black mud thing?But it's unreasonable to like this kind of thing. I used to wonder if the other party gave him some kind of hallucinogenic drug to make him have such an unrealistic idea.But if you really ask this question, you will definitely be laughed at for a lifetime.If someone else likes him, he won't be so concerned about gains and losses. If he thinks he can, he will chase after him, and if he is almost ready, he will confess. If he succeeds, he will date with the purpose of getting married.The normal process is correct, but the premise is that the other party must not be Osamu Dazai.

Not to mention dating and marrying this person, even confessing is impossible, okay?

Go to your Osamu Dazai and stay away from me! ! !

Nakahara also didn't want to reflect on why he had such an attitude towards the person he liked. He felt that Osamu Dazai should reflect on why his first thought after falling in love with him was not to be with him but not to suffer. Lao Tzu.

It's not that I haven't heard that single men who have a good relationship will relieve each other, but Osamu Dazai's option of impossible, non-existent, and incapable of doing has never appeared in his mind, even if he once When I still liked the other party, I never expected this possibility at all.Because he really suspected that there would be a day when it would definitely be a very tragic situation: either he broke Dazai Osamu's things directly, or the other party squeezed his into soft meat, and then both bid farewell to the tragic end of the man's life.

Under such circumstances, he thought about all the details of the two people after they entered the hotel, and a bunch of things the other party said, plus some things he didn't notice in the middle, and came to a conclusion.

Osamu Dazai did it on purpose.

So Nakahara also took a deep breath, facing Osamu Dazai who was supporting him, he finished talking and then looked at each other. The two of them stared at each other, but it was obvious that this person had no intention of going down at all. The hand that was squeezed away touched his thigh again, and the movie on the TV was still playing.

The male and female protagonists are really entangled with each other like wanting to live and die. Even if they don’t see the picture, they can completely distinguish it from the sound. Hearing this, Nakahara was blushing, even though he was forcing himself not to react too much, he still couldn't restrain his physical reaction, his eyes fluttered and he couldn't sit still, and Osamu Dazai didn't play cards according to the routine at all, he could only He raised his arm and pushed the other party down quickly, but Osamu Dazai insisted on lying on his body and grabbed his arm to get close to him, even breathing on the skin, and asked each sentence along with the lines of the movie. .

"What's the matter, Chuya? Why is your face so red? Don't block it. Are you shy? But why are you shy? Is it because I got too close to you, or because this movie is beyond your acceptable range? You Don’t you think this is pretty good? I’ve never seen this type of film before, so why don’t you take a look? If you don’t know the place, I can teach you step by step.”

Slowed down his tone, even lowered his voice, the gentleness he pretended was really provocative enough, the target that Osamu Dazai wanted to attack had never failed, Nakahara Chuya pursed his lips and called you so annoying !While covering his face with his arms, people hurried away.

His body was wrapped in bandages and he was injured. As soon as the other party touched him, he couldn't use gravity. It's not that he couldn't push people away with force, but if the movement was too loud, who knew if there was anyone outside? Even if a person has an extra sick number, maybe the wound on his body will still open.

Not worth the candle.

It was also because of this that he didn't push the person directly into the wall with a hammer. While pushing the other person's face to prevent people from coming closer, he also grabbed the hand that touched his thigh and moved away. The two of them wrestled on the bed like this , You come and go like middle school students fighting on the bed, both of them were exhausted, he held up a pillow for defense, and Osamu Dazai also held this pillow for offense.On the TV, a man and a woman made a round and started the next round. The man said honey, let’s come from behind, and the woman said I hate you. How can you do this, blah blah, it becomes an even more embarrassing background sound in the already awkward atmosphere .

In the end, he really couldn't take it anymore, so he said, what on earth do you want to do, Dazai Osamu? !Osamu Dazai also imitated him and said loudly what I want to do, don't you know? !

"How the fuck do I know?!"

"Is it only natural to do this in our relationship?!"

"We're fine!"

The words almost screamed out of him.

"Damn! How can you corrupt people's innocence! I have nothing to do with you?!"

"How did I smear your innocence? I'm talking about a partnership, where are you going?—Wait, you don't think I'm talking about—"

"Ah, ah, ah, you are not allowed to say that!"

"Sure enough—! Nakaya, you are lustful! You actually think in that direction, it is because you have premeditated on me! If this is the case, don't refuse to welcome, the two of us are not even familiar with this kind of movie. Watch it together."

"What did you watch together! Did you do it on purpose?! This is your trap! Stay away from me, if you want to find a woman by yourself, don't you go shopping in the street?"

"You asked me to find a strange woman? Is that why you rejected me?"

"Why pretend to be pitiful, haven't you always been like this before?"

"That was before, can the past be the same as now?"

"Don't change the concept for me. Aren't you very good at seducing women with your face? Go and leave me alone!"

After he finished speaking, he found that Dazai Osamu had actually quieted down, and there was no movement for a while.And Nakahara was still afraid that this was some kind of trick to play hard to get, so he remained vigilant. As a result, after a while, Osamu Dazai raised his head, raised the corners of his mouth and narrowed his eyes, and showed him a smile that was half a smile but more than usual. The expression on the face should be more serious.

Zhongyuan Zhong also felt that something was wrong with a tactical retreat. As expected, the man came over and squeezed his waist with a grasping hand the next second he held his arm.

Although there is a wound there, it is not pain, but itching.

Depend on!Osamu Dazai, you plot against me!

Only Osamu Dazai in this world knows that Nakahara Chuya's waist cannot be touched because he is ticklish.

This made him slump on the bed limply without lifting him up. The man gently held his hand on his waist, even if he didn't make any movements, he still felt a little unbearable because of conditioned reflex.His face was flushed red and he felt like he was about to laugh out loud. Osamu Dazai obviously saw it, so he didn't really tickle him. Just putting his hands on his waist was a silent threat.

Zhong Yuanzhong was also trembling with anger.

"Didn't you say that I dirty your innocence? Then I'm sure?"

The second after he finished speaking, Zhong Yuanzhong felt that something seemed to be attached to his body. After realizing it, he completely ignored the possibility of being discovered by outsiders, turned around and directly He overturned the person with physical techniques and fell heavily under the bed.

There was a lot of movement, but it might be because the room they chose was on a high floor, so they didn't attract much attention. Osamu Dazai was lying on the ground, moaning and screaming in pain, while the couple on the TV was still glowing passionately. Doing that stuff.He clutched his waist and clicked his tongue in disgust and irritability, then looked down at the other party with a condescending frown, barely concealing his anger.

"I thought it would be okay if I didn't see you for half a year and you have changed a little bit, at least it's not that troublesome to get along with."

He stretched out his hand to push back the shattered hair that fell to his forehead, and lowered his eyes to look at the person lying on the ground. He couldn't tell what mood he was in right now, he was really irritated and complicated.

"How do you say something? The country is easy to change, but the nature is hard to change? I really shouldn't expect anything from you, Dazai."

Either way, it's a bit over the line.

He doesn't know when Osamu Dazai had his first experience, but when he was about ten years old, this person went out back and forth, always smelling like a woman's perfume, and he clearly understood How deadly this man's attraction to women is, so after having this understanding and knowing that the other party has slipped away, he was not very surprised, and even took it for granted.

The young man who came back after not returning all night looked as if he had been nourished, climbed onto his bed and nestled in his arms, with the smell of wind, frost and rouge all over his body, he rushed forward to kiss him, and Zhong Yuanzhong also took this thought The unconscious alcoholic ripped it off from his body, and the last kiss was on his Adam's apple, which was full of the smell of alcohol. He was so angry that he grabbed Osamu Dazai by the ear and asked, did you really treat yourself? Lost it?

To Osamu Dazai, the door of the Hong Kong and Hero Apartment is like a piece of paper and has no practical effect, so Nakahara never leaves the door for the other party, and every time the two of them finish the task together, who knows where the other party goes , so I didn't think about it.

Obviously, the person who ran out of the woman's arms insisted on torturing him in the early morning. Nakahara Nakaya was woken up by the other party before he woke up. Osamu Dazai yelled that you didn't let me stay in your heart Without me, he was annoyed, so he said, why do I have you in my heart, go find your girlfriend.

He didn't believe that Osamu Dazai could be drunk, even if he was drunk, his monster-like brain would still be spinning.But the other party seems to have made up his mind to get drunk with him here, so he didn't want to go back because he said it wasn't his girlfriend.

"Break up again? How old are you?"

"Ah... we can't talk about breaking up."

"Does that mean you got dumped? Are you too poor at technology?" After finishing speaking, he wanted to drag the giant baby lying in his arms, but Dazai refused, and pretended to be drunk, but he couldn't do it no matter what.

"No, I'm good at technology."

"I don't want to argue with you about this, get up!"

"No, Chuya, you actually doubt my ability?!"

"Damn, you pretend to be crazy and don't push your nose on your face?"

"Well, why don't we try it?"

"What are you trying to get out of here!"

They were still partners that year, and they still lived together, and they were still able to joke around with each other, so even if Osamu Dazai rushed forward to pull his belt, he just stuffed him under the quilt and didn't take it seriously.

But now the situation of the two of them is impossible to return to what it used to be.One is that he knows that Osamu Dazai is serious about it, and the other is that he just doesn't want to do it.

I always feel that if I really do this, maybe some things will never go back.I can't tell what it is, but Zhong Yuanzhong also feels that it may be quite important.

It's not that he really cares about the speechless reason of so-called innocence, it's just that he doesn't want to just make do with the other party.

Thinking of this, he realized that perhaps the relationship between him and Osamu Dazai has always been very casual.

To become a partner, to live together, to drag a suicidal lover to live together for three years, to cover up his feelings.

If this is the time for him to agree to Dazai Osamu's request, it means he has chosen a place by compromise, compromising the identity of the other party, and compromising each other.

He didn't want to, and Dazai Osamu didn't want to, as if the two of them got together because they had no other choice but to choose the only option, so they did this kind of thing.

He doesn't want to.

When I liked this person at the beginning, I felt very aggrieved, and when I didn't like him, I always felt baffled.

So he suppressed his current emotions and said to the other party.

"Don't you always like to laugh at me for being a virgin? Then let me tell you, I'm very clean. I don't sleep with people I like, with people I don't date with, or with married partners. You can ridicule me as much as you want, and call me rigid. It’s okay to say that I’m old-fashioned, don’t use your dewy way to trick me, it’s useless. What’s more, Dazai, with our relationship, are you sure you want to develop like this with me?”

The man who got up from the ground stretched out his hand and pushed him onto the bed. After getting back on the bed, Osamu Dazai pressed him down, and the black bangs on his forehead hung down to cover his eyes, making him unable to see clearly what was going on inside. mood.

The 22-year-old Dazai Osamu is much taller than when he left. With such a big man, he always feels that the shadows falling down can cover him overwhelmingly. He is 1.8 meters tall but his head is buried in his neck, he can't see his current expression clearly, and he doesn't know what he wants.

"Zhongye, it really is because I think others are better than me, right?"

"what?"

He frowned and didn't understand what he was talking about, but Osamu Dazai didn't seem to want to trick him, so he continued talking.

"It started when the two of us met again. The tolerance for me is because of him, the willingness to take me is also because of him, and the fact that I didn't leave me is also because of him. Although I don't know exactly what happened during the period things, but you should feel more comfortable getting along with him than me, right?"

Halfway through speaking, he took a hand that was propped on the bed and placed it on the position above Nakahara Chuya's sternum and below the clavicle, and then the palm was still moving upwards.

"I'm thinking about how to say it? It seems that from the beginning, Chuya, you especially like to talk to yourself--" Dazai Osamu narrowed his eyes and smiled at him with his tone and tone drawn out. It was rare that the other party was him. The only one I've ever seen, the type that makes people palpitate more when smiling than silently.

"I think I don't care, I don't care, I think what I want to do, and I think I will do what I want to do. Although you know me very well, you don't think that your overly arbitrary ideas are not right. Is that right? Is it true that you get on well with him? Did he tell you the difference between him and me? Did he tell you that he wasn't really me? Enjoying the privilege that should be mine while enjoying It is subtly affecting you, why, do you like the civet cat for the prince trick?"

Before he could respond, Osamu Dazai just paused and continued: "As you said, because both are 'Osamu Dazai', you don't think it matters, since they are both alone. Why do you think he is better than me? In your mind, what is 'Dazai Osamu' is, so he should be. Why are you so different? The good ones are all his, and the bad ones are mine? Do you want me more? Disappear and let him come back to accompany you?!"

Zhong Yuanzhong also looked at the man in front of him with some crazy emotions in shock, and finally stretched out his arms and put his arms around the other's neck. He didn't know how to comfort him, but he just called his name twice, and then ignored the man who had already touched him. The hand on his neck, just hugging each other like this and saying, no, I didn't mean that, you know it.

He knew it, he didn't mean it.But it should be said that they all knew it, and the other party didn't mean that.

There are both advantages and disadvantages of knowing each other too well. The advantage is that the tacit understanding does not require words, and he is there if you can't force it.The downside is that even if you want to misunderstand the quarrel, you can't misunderstand it, because there is no such problem, and it will never happen from the beginning.

He didn't know what to say now, he just wanted to stroke Osamu Dazai's soft hair like a cat, stroking Osamu Dazai little by little, saying, what, Dazai, I didn't think about it that way.I stuttered a bit at the end, and finally choked out a sentence, I just didn't expect you to care about this, and you really cared about it.

However, the person in his arms raised his head and stroked his forehead with his hands, and the two of them came closer to face each other, almost touching their faces.

"You really don't know why, Chuya?"

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Don't say he doesn't care.

He cares to death.

The vinegar is over the top.

Always tossing and turning to turn over old accounts.