Cold violence

After He Chu left that day, he approached Zhou Yu several times one after another, but most of them were because of work matters. The two companies cooperated for the first time, and they didn't know each other very well.After that, He Chu approached Zhou Yu several times, and wanted to invite Zhou Yu to have dinner together, but he refused all of them because he didn't have time.

It's not that he's so busy that he doesn't even have time to eat. After all, he's been back for so long, and the company is on the right track, so he doesn't need to be so busy. He just doesn't want to be alone with He Chu anymore. .

But soon the end of the new year was approaching, and Zhou Yu had to enter a new round of busyness. At this time, He Chu was also busy, and the number of times he looked for Zhou Yu was not as much as before, which made Zhou Yu's ears feel at ease. .

It's just that occasionally when I'm free, I feel like there's something missing around me, a little empty.

Zhou Yu continued to work around for another two weeks, and when he was sorting out his overseas affairs, he suddenly realized that it was almost New Year's Eve before he knew it.

Thinking that this year's winter came very early, when He Chu first came to see him, it had already started to snow.But when he devotes himself to something, it is easy to forget the time. It was late autumn when he first came back, but when he saw the snow again, his brain cells would be more allocated to this thing Above, it will react:

Ah... It turns out that it is really winter.

It's snowing again today.

Zhou Yu was sitting in the office, staring out the window, but today the air conditioner was turned on, and there was a thin mist on the window, making it difficult to see the scene outside the window clearly.

So he walked to the window, raised his hand and wiped a small piece of glass in front of him, revealing the scene of heavy snow falling outside the window.

Such a heavy snow... Do you still have to go out at night?

Earlier, Chen Siyan came over to tell him that the company was going to hold a party and wanted him to go there with him, and asked him what he meant.

He thought that he had just started a domestic company, and as a boss, he was too embarrassed to spoil the interest of the people. It seemed that he hadn't arranged an itinerary that night, but when he agreed to come down, he always felt as if he had promised someone else something...

It wasn't until He Chu sent a message that he realized that he had promised He Chu to go out for dinner that night... He Chu's invitation probably had to be pushed again.

Push and push, there's nothing to see anyway.

In fact, He Chu should also know that he is really busy.

Until an hour before their meeting started, Zhou Yu was still immersed in the documents.But He Chu still didn't seem to give up, he called again and asked if he wanted to celebrate the New Year together, Zhou Yu had no choice but to refuse again.

Is it New Years?And He Chu?

forget it.

In his impression, he only spent New Year with He Chu once, and that was at this time ten years ago. They had just been together for a short time. At that time, the two of them were happy together and wished they could live like this for the rest of their lives. Now they are just partners, even friends It doesn't even count, why should we spend this new year together?

But thinking about going out at night, Zhou Yu felt a headache again.

In fact, Zhou Yu has never liked places with many people, especially when many people gather together to make noise, he always feels an invisible pressure oppressing him, and when it is serious, he even feels a little difficult to breathe.

When he was abroad, various entertainments and gatherings were always necessary for the company. He greeted people with a smile on his face while suppressing the pain in his heart. So after returning to China, he actually avoided such situations whenever he could, but he didn’t want to be overwhelmed. I had no choice but to agree to the kindness of those employees.

Zhou Yu didn't talk much at all, he always felt that going out with them was like asking him to have dinner with others, too much fun.

So at the beginning of the party, he just gave a brief speech, and sat silently drinking in a corner, listening to the girls talking about a new handbag from a certain luxury brand, or a cosmetic gift box limited to the New Year, from time to time wantonly laugh.

He sat alone in the corner, lonely like a ghost.Without those flattery and pretended composure, Zhou Yu was still that person who was out of tune with everyone no matter what his status or situation was.

He suddenly felt a little regretful.

If he went out with He Chu, he probably wouldn't be as embarrassed as he is now, at least he wouldn't be sitting here alone... He Chu would definitely not let the atmosphere between the two of them cool down.

Zhou Yu looked at Chen Siyan. What he said, "There are many girls chasing him" is indeed true. From the beginning of the party to the present, the girls around him have never stopped. The girls covered their lips and smiled.

Compared with Zhou Yu's desolation, it seemed that he was in high spirits.

It's really strange, it seems that in modern society it is unacceptable for a girl's appearance to age, but men become more and more popular as they get older.

Chen Siyan is an example. He lives his life very young and exquisitely. Although he is single, he is a standard golden bachelor. From his appearance to his family background, he can't fault him. The old man is indifferent and rigid, good-looking is good-looking, but in the words of those little girls, "you can only look at it".

He has been like this since he was a child, and he never thought that someone like him would like anything. After all, he is such a boring person... I really liked him... probably only He Chu.

Zhou Yu was sitting in the corner and scrolling through the news boredly, but he didn't know if it was almost New Year's Eve, and the feeds that had been refreshed several times turned out to be all entertainment news. He felt a little inexplicably irritated when he saw some specious remarks in those circles, He threw the phone aside, and began to stare at Chen Siyan and the girls around him in a daze.

Chen Siyan spoke freely and personable, and he was a likable person.

In fact, this is also very good, he thought, it is also very good that everyone around him can be happier.

If the people around you can be happy, no matter how cold the people are, they will be more or less tainted with their happiness.

He didn't look alone for long, but when he saw Chen Siyan looking at him, he didn't know what to say, he walked over from the girl and sat next to Zhou Yu.

"Why don't you come over and play together?"

Zhou Yu said sullenly, "Ask the question knowingly."

Chen Siyan smiled, nodded and asked him: "The girls asked me to come over and ask you, do you want to sing with them later?"

"What am I going to do? Let them have fun."

He gets dizzy when he mentions singing. Since he was in high school, he doesn't know anything about the songs others listen to. He can't remember the singers and song titles. The KTV is too noisy. Just thinking about it gives him a headache.

"You usually work too hard, and it's rare for them to take such a break. If you want you to go, they are too embarrassed to talk about it, but let me come and ask you. I said that you don't want the boss to put on a face, girls dare not Talked to you."

"I feel fine."

"Of course you think it's okay, others don't think so." Chen Siyan stretched out his hand and poked his arm, "What are you doing at home alone during the New Year? No one will be with you at this time, why not? Let's go together and listen to music."

"I don't listen to the songs they listen to, and it doesn't work if I go there."

"Then you go and sit there and do nothing, and it's okay to let them lick your face. If you go, they might be so happy."

"Whether I go or not has nothing to do with whether they are happy or not?"

"But if you go together, it will make them happier." Chen Siyan said seriously. Zhou Yu couldn't stand him staring at him for so long, and finally nodded. The cheers of the girls came out.

Zhou Yu thought, are you so happy?Obviously I can't do anything...

"I actually just think you need to communicate more with the outside world." Chen Siyan restrained his smile at the girl, and turned a little more serious when he spoke to Zhou Yu, "You shut yourself up in the company every day like this." And at home, two points and one line are too autistic."

"I'm not autistic."

"You spend too much time alone."

"I feel fine."

"You spend too little time communicating with people."

"Then didn't I communicate with other people? There are enough meetings every day." Zhou Yu asked with a frown.

Frowning seems to have become a habit of his for so many years. When he hears other people's opinions on his behavior, he will subconsciously frown, and then express doubts about himself.

"It's different. When you deal with official business and go out to socialize, you don't call it 'communication', it's called 'routine business'. The communication I mean refers to discussing non-work-related aspects with other people outside of working hours. Seeing that Zhou Yu's eyebrows were furrowed even tighter, he almost knit together, he added: "I know this is a bit difficult for you, but you can't close yourself up."

"I didn't close myself." He was silent for a long time, and finally he could only say this sentence.

He didn't know what was going on with him. Whenever Chen Siyan talked about these topics with him, he would subconsciously deny them, as if he didn't want to face them.

Under the light, his facial features are so clear, even the curly eyelashes can be seen clearly, but his eyes are blocked by the eyelashes because of his drooping action, making his eyes blurry.

"Is there something you can feel yourself, Zhou Yu. You should always be willing to try to change a little bit, even if it's not for others, you have to do it for yourself." Chen Siyan suddenly said earnestly: "No matter what, as long as you Once you take that step by yourself, you will find that the rest of the road is actually not as difficult as you think."

If you take a step out, the rest of the road will not be so difficult?

But what about me back then?After finally mustering up the courage to take a step forward, what was the result?

"Tsk, it's a pity that you don't want to be someone else's emotional consultant, but come to be my assistant."

Zhou Yu avoided the topic Chen Siyan raised. He knew that what Chen Siyan said was correct, but he no longer had the courage.

Years of experience have made his thinking and psychological construction stronger than before, but there are some things, such as the things that hurt him, that he just can't face.

He just wanted to protect himself, no matter what posture he took, he just didn't want to suffer the same injury again.

—A man cannot step twice into the same river.

No one would allow himself to be injured twice.

Although Zhou Yu was reluctant, he followed them to the KTV in the end.

Firstly, he felt that what Chen Siyan said was actually reasonable, and secondly, he didn't want everyone's face to be taken away by him alone.

Then he once again fell into an awkward situation that was out of tune with his surroundings.

KTV is indeed one of the favorite places of entertainment for young people, the din of people, cigarettes and spirits, girls' short skirts and roses, dazzle Zhou Yu's eyes all the time.

There was no doubt that the corridor was somewhat dark, and all senses except vision were amplified without limit, and the voices of people in those boxes poured into Zhou Yu's ears like a tide, making him quite uncomfortable.

When he was in college, he was known as a "good boy". He never went to bars, KTVs, lived at night, and never flirted with any girls in school.He lives a self-disciplined life, but has an inexplicable enthusiasm for classical music. The study of classical art abroad is actually much more sophisticated than domestic, so even though Zhou Yu seldom participates in group activities, he can still find some like-minded people. Young people are not lonely.

After working, he rarely came to these low-end places, but when he returned to China, he actually broke his precept and went to a KTV that he hadn't been in for so many years.

Thinking of this, his body involuntarily became stiff, and his expression was also a little nervous. Looking at it this way, his expression seemed more serious than usual.

He was a little uninterested, and a little bit tied up.The only thing he can do is to open the biggest and best box for those girls, and then order as much wine as they can drink.Then he sat alone in the corner seat, drinking wine, and listening to the girls singing songs that he thought were familiar but couldn't remember who sang them.

Chen Siyan was a completely different existence from him.

Not only can he make the girls laugh at the party, but he can also sing songs that he doesn't listen to with different girls here.This should probably be the life and state they should have at their age.

Occasionally go to the bar, go to the gym regularly every week, have regular short-term trips every year, have your own hobbies, or go out with the girl you like, so that your life is full of fun and sunshine.Instead of being like him - spending all day in front of the computer desk in the office, except for going to Wang Zhi's bar on a whim, he will always live between work and entertainment, and he will be like a real little old man when he is at home Make a cup of wolfberry tea.

Anyone living with him will find it boring.

Except He Chu at that time.

It was also a coincidence that as soon as he thought of He Chu, a text message came from his mobile phone, and the sender and the person in his heart turned out to be the same.

"Where are you now? I didn't find you in your company." He Chu said.

Zhou Yu glanced at the time, it was past eleven o'clock, so he replied, "Party at the company. Sing."

Then he thought: He Chu went to the company to look for him without authorization?He was a little helpless, but He Chu's text message came again.

"You can sing?"

"No, just listen."

In fact, Zhou Yu can sing a song that he learned many years ago, but it really doesn't make sense to tell He Chu.

"Is anyone around you right now?"

Zhou Yu was taken aback for a moment, and glanced around, feeling that there really wasn't anyone around him, so he replied, "What's wrong?"

"Shall we meet?" He Chu replied quickly every time, probably holding his mobile phone.

Zhou Yu was taken aback for a moment, and suddenly thought that he hadn't seen He Chu for some time.

It's been a long time since their first time. Although He Chu approached him a few times on the way, the rest of the meetings were all about business. Now that the year is approaching, both of them are busy. After careful calculation, In fact, the number of times they met was very small.

Even though they only met a few times, Zhou Yu felt as if the two of them were together every day.

"Is something wrong?"

Zhou Yu still doesn't want to see He Chu that much, even though the two of them now have an extra layer of "partnership".

He didn't want the relationship between the two to go any further, so no matter what the other party said, Zhou Yu would not let the relationship between the two make any progress.

But He Chu didn't seem to feel Zhou Yu's rejection, he still called and texted Zhou Yu when he was free, pestering him non-stop.

In fact, they look very similar to each other in their freshman year of high school. When they first started to be at the same table, Zhou Yu didn't talk much, and He Chu was a stalker. There were some things that the two of them knew very well, but they were just embarrassed to say it. Export only.

"No, but... I want to see you."

He Chu's words were actually sent in two parts.

Maybe he accidentally pressed a certain button on the phone, and the text message was sent directly. After a few seconds, another text message from He Chu came in. He said, "We haven't seen each other for a long time."

It's been a long time since they met in private, more than two weeks ago.

Zhou Yu is a person who distinguishes between public and private, which can be seen from his exams and normal studies.

Zhou Yu held the phone, feeling a little helpless.

Maybe it was what Chen Siyan said that had an effect, or maybe Zhou Yu really felt that time alone was a bit difficult, and by some coincidence, he sent He Chu his address.

After posting, he felt some inexplicable, some small excitement, and some small expectations in his heart.

what to expect

Zhou Yu suddenly felt that what he was feeling now was a little funny.

Looking forward to the change in mood when He Chu came because of his rare letting go?

This way of thinking is simply too wrong... He said it as if he wanted to see He Chu so much, so he pretended to be cold, but in fact, he really wanted to see this person in his heart, and wished that he would appear in front of him in the next second in front of.

No, I didn't think that way, just a little bit, just a little bit.

I don't know why, but amidst the noise of the girls, suddenly, I want to see someone so much, but it just so happens that that person is He Chu.

In this place where he was alone, he just had a feeling that "He Chuzai wouldn't be so embarrassing".

But after He Chu received his message and didn't reply for a long time, Zhou Yu became a little unhappy.

It's rare that I want to see you, but you don't even text me back?

But in fact, it's just that he drank a little too much, and his way of thinking went back to many years ago, which made him a little bit willful involuntarily.

After drinking too much, he couldn't tell the difference between reality and imagination. He felt as if time went back ten years ago, and he should still be the boy He Chu carefully held in his hand.

When he was drinking in high school, he liked to be alone, but now he wants to be self-willed, probably because there was such a person around him.

This kind of irritability caused by waiting for a long time made him feel a little strange.

Why are you angry?Why be angry if He Chu doesn't come?Whether he comes or not, aren't you all alone?what do you expect

It happened that the girls were booing, and it was rare for the boss to come out to play. Everyone wanted the boss to relax, so they shouted together, insisting that Zhou Yu sing a song before giving up.

Zhou Yu wanted to decline, but Chen Siyan also followed them and said to them in a mysterious way: "Let me tell you quietly, your boss sings really well..."

Zhou Yu was a little helpless, but he really couldn't think of a reason to reject others' kindness, so he let go after thinking about it: "Then order the song "The Distant She", and then call me when you finish singing." Then he sat in the middle of the crowd. On the far side, Chen Siyan immediately sat down next to him.

"You can still sing Jacky Cheung's songs? I always thought you didn't listen to anything but classical music."

Chen Siyan touched him with a drink, then smiled and said, "Forget it, I'm disrespecting you, you won't even be able to sing after drinking too much."

"It's still far away, but it's not an example." Zhou Yu hooked the corner of his mouth and drank the wine in his glass, "...Actually, I only know that song."

"It's been so long since I've known you that I've never heard you sing a Chinese song. Today, thanks to those little girls, I can feast my ears." Chen Siyan lazily leaned on the sofa, and sat there with Zhou Yu. form a stark contrast.

Zhou Yu glanced at the girls, seeing them still wearing the skirts they wore at the banquet, laughing and huddling together, the corners of their mouths could not help but smile a little, "Have you ever heard me sing other songs?"

"I only heard one song, that song "You Are Not Alone". One day you sang it to me when you got too drunk."

"Then you are in good time, I only know that one English song."

When Zhou Yu mentioned this song, there was still a faint smile on his face, and his eyes were almost full of tenderness.

The things he likes are actually very single. He likes this song and has liked it for many years.

- Youarenotalone, you are not alone.

It's like a psychological comfort for himself, as long as he hears this song, he will feel that there is such a person beside him, and he will never be alone.