Cold violence

"Don't eat?" He Chu suddenly raised his head and found that Zhou Yu was staring at him in a daze. "Isn't it delicious?"

But Zhou Yu answered irrelevantly: "Actually...you don't need to do this."

The food He Chu cooks is naturally delicious, even the same taste as in memory, but he can no longer eat the same taste as before.

Their mood changed, and they felt that no matter how delicious something was, it was not as good as the bowl of porridge they used to drink in the morning.

At that time, it was really interesting. They could taste the fun of the clear soup with little water.

"Which one doesn't need?"

"I know what you are like best, you don't need to treat me like this."

You don't need to think hard about me, and you don't need to flatter me, because you are He Chu.

It is the person who stands proudly in the center of the crowd, at the top, and doesn't have to think hard for me.

In fact, He Chu never did many thankless things, because he was so proud.He would not take another look at a useless person, just like he did to the fallen Zhou Yu.

"Then let me ask you," He Chu put down the bowl and chopsticks, "If I didn't stalk you a little bit, if I didn't treat you a little bit shamelessly, would you look at me more? Would you pay more attention to me as a person? If I don't come to you, will you never think of coming to me once in your life?"

His previous fawning expression was swept away, and a series of questions were thrown out, even a little aggressive.

His eyes were deep, and there was an unknown light in his eyes.

Will you look at me more? Zhou Yu?

For a cold and unfeeling person like you, even if you think about it, your reason will not allow you to do irrational things.

"Yes." Zhou Yu admitted frankly.

"Then if I don't do this, what else can I do, Zhou Yu? You tell me what I should do."

"Why do you have to be obsessed with being with me?" He said softly, "I think it is unnecessary to be together again, and it is even a waste of both parties' energy. Your persistence today is nothing more than because It's just not available."

"not like this……"

He lowered his eyes, not daring to look at Zhou Yu's face again, "It's really not like this this time...".

Ever since he broke up with Zhou Yu, he seemed to have developed a mentality of avoiding Zhou Yu. When Zhou Yu looked at him, Zhou Yu's eyes always did not evade, as if he could look into his heart and see his deepest love. The timidity of the place, although the gaze is gentle, but in He Chu's eyes, there is always a sharp edge.

He didn't want Zhou Yu to see that timid He Chu.

Just like now, Zhou Yu just looked at him quietly, but it made him feel ashamed.

After all, he was the one who was sorry for Zhou Yu.

When he clearly understood Zhou Yu so much and cherished such a relationship in his heart, when he knew how difficult it was for Zhou Yu to come out for him, he still left Zhou Yu alone.

——Just because of a little bit of timidity in my heart, and that little bit of intolerable selfishness.

For so many years, whenever he thinks about his actions back then, he only feels regret. No one will understand the feeling of wanting to go back through time and space and start over again.

Once again, if He Chu was who he is now, he would never let go of Zhou Yu.

Even if Zhou Yu drove him away, he must lead Zhou Yu before leaving.

But no one can go back.

It was understandable for Zhou Yu not to accept him.

But he also knows that Zhou Yu is definitely not a person who just lets go. What he wants must be firmly held in his hands. He can only bet that Zhou Yu still likes him, but he doesn't want to be in front of him. face to admit it.

This non-existent gamble supports all his current psychological defenses.

"Then what do you want?" Zhou Yu seemed to be a little tired, and his tone was even a little soft, like a feather brushing the water without causing any ripples.

"Do you want me to have another relationship with you, and then obediently wait for you to dump me?"

He Chu felt a pain in his heart when he said this.

"You don't have to wait for me this time, just wait for me to come here. You just hold out your hand and accept my invitation." He smiled wryly, "No...you don't have to wait for me either, I will chase after you slowly I'll be fine with you."

"Can't catch up?"

"Then I don't need other people." He Chu smiled at him, "If you don't like me, I won't be like that. I can become whatever you like."

"Do you think it's worth it?"

He Chu looked into Zhou Yu's eyes and said seriously, "You deserve it."

No one is worth it, and those others are not worth it to me, but you are worth it to me.

You are worth everything.

Zhou Yu didn't say anything in the end, he remained silent, watching He Chu tidy up the dishes, the kitchen that He Chu helped him clean up, and He Chu put on his coat again, it seemed that he really just came to his house for He showed his heart, just cooked him a meal, and left like that.

"Is there a chance to invite you to dinner next time?"

That's what he said when he left.

"If you are free."

Zhou Yu replied like this.

Then he saw He Chu smiled at him, turned around and walked into the elevator.

He closed the door, and leaned against the door panel tiredly, the air-conditioning wind blowing slowly, he only felt a chill down his back.

I still don't have the slightest immunity to this person after so long... He looked at the window with the curtains not drawn, and it was snowing heavily outside the window.

He Chu sat in the car for a long time without moving. He leaned his head on the steering wheel and let out a long sigh.

It is really difficult for Zhou Yu to accept him again.

At that time Li Bai said, "The road to Shu is more difficult than going to the blue sky." Now he understands what Li Bai said is more difficult than climbing to the sky. The words are to enter Zhou Yu's heart.

That is a road that is even more difficult than walking the road to the sky...

That year, He Chu was timid, cowardly, and even more proud.

He couldn't accept failure, nor the indifference of others, let alone loneliness.He left that person for his own selfish desire, but now he can't get him back no matter how hard he chases him.

Back then, he was the one who was cold to Zhou Yu, but now it is Zhou Yu who is the coldest to him, which is fair.It's just that I still feel a little unwilling in my heart, no matter how sad I feel, I don't want to just give up.

In the past, he always thought about starting over from the beginning. It was still a long time, and he was not in a hurry. Now that he thinks about it, if he can get it back... But Zhou Yu's attitude towards him can no longer be described as "cold". The above is "ignoring".

During the days when he didn't meet Zhou Yu, Zhou Yu never took the initiative to make a phone call with him. He was treating He Chu the way He Chu had treated him, or maybe he didn't want to see He Chu again. .

Cold violence...was the deepest fear in He Chu's heart back then, and he left Zhou Yu because of this.But he forgot to think about Zhou Yu, what should Zhou Yu do?How can he come here alone?

At that time, I may have thought that...he is used to it, so he should be able to face it by himself...

"He Chu, you are such a bastard..."

Zhou Yu should... hate herself...

He never thought about what kind of existence he was to Zhou Yu. It wasn't until later, in his thoughts day after day, that he realized what his leaving meant to Zhou Yu.

When he was studying abroad, in a foreign country where he was not familiar with, he was no longer that high-ranking young master. It was only when he was squeezed out by those foreigners because of his accent that he realized Zhou Yu's state of mind at that time.

He was alone, so lonely,

At that time, he wanted to grab everyone passing by him so much, and he wanted to grab this person fiercely to keep warm.As long as there is a little bit of light around him, he can't help stretching out his hand. If that light happens to take the initiative to warm himself, he wishes he would never let go.

Everyone hopes that there is a little light around them, so that when they fall into the abyss, they will not lose hope.

Zhou Yu should be the same too, wanting to firmly grasp the only beam of light around him.

But his beam of light never came back after briefly warming him.

After all, light cannot be grasped.

Said that Zhou Yu didn't hate him, even he didn't believe it himself.

At that time, Zhou Yu took a month's leave, and He Chu still doesn't know what Zhou Yu experienced during that month.He even changed his cell phone number to avoid Zhou Yu, not daring to listen to Zhou Yu's voice, for fear that he would be sad or that he would have a bad life...

He escaped like this, but when Zhou Yu came back, he saw his pale face, saw his thin cheeks, and knew that his life was not good at all, very bad.

He was not a person who was very good at taking care of himself, and since He Chu was not around, he seemed to pay less attention to his body.

He is cold and stubborn, often he doesn't even listen to He Chu's words, acting awkward like a child.

But many years have passed, and when I accidentally saw this person again at that reception, he seemed to have changed.

He also learned to talk and laugh with people in the midst of drinking and drinking, he also learned to be gentle and polite in front of people, he also learned to keep smiling in front of women, and even occasionally said a few words to make the woman opposite her laugh, but that Zhang's beautiful and indifferent face was still pale, which made him look a little unhuman.

At that time, he thought that his surroundings had also changed, maybe even he had forgotten who it was.

Fortunately, Zhou Yu still remembered him, but he didn't want to get close to him anymore.

It doesn't matter, not wanting to let himself be close is much better than he no longer remembering himself.

As long as he still remembers himself, it means that he still has a small place in his heart, and it's not too late for him to find him.

Before meeting Zhou Yu again, He Chu could always see him on various financial websites, but He Chu didn't dare to look for him, fearing that he would run into a wall in front of Zhou Yu, afraid of Zhou Yu's indifferent rejection.

But no matter how he avoided before, the moment he really saw Zhou Yu, he had only one thought - he wanted Zhou Yu to come back to him, and he wanted to be with Zhou Yu again.

He knew that it would be difficult for Zhou Yu to accept him again, but the last time Zhou Yu accepted him too quickly, but he let go of that hand because of his youth and frivolity, this time no matter how difficult it was to hold that hand tightly again , He will never give up easily.

Zhou Yu has changed, why hasn't he changed?

Just like what He Chu said, Zhou Yu is worth it.

No matter how many obstacles Zhou Yu put him in, no matter how coldly Zhou Yu gave him, as long as He Chu made up his mind, as long as the person in front of him was Zhou Yu, no matter what He Chu did, it would be worthwhile.

He Chu confirmed his mind once again, and this time he swore to himself that as long as he was given this chance, he would never let him go until he died.

He Chu let out a long sigh of relief, and took out an old-fashioned mobile phone from his bag. It was a popular style many years ago, and now it looks very old. There should be something that will never appear in a person with a high status.

But when He Chu looked at him, there was a lot of tenderness in his eyes.

He looked down at something, carefully wiped the screen of the phone with his fingertips.

That was his mobile phone nine years ago. The mobile phone has not been replaced, and the mobile phone card is also the one from that year.

After graduating from high school, he put the phone card back into the phone, and has not stopped charging it until now, just to keep the old memories.

He flipped through the records of text messages one by one. The above were all the text messages that Zhou Yu had sent to him in those years. There were many text messages, and the last one was sent on the night when they received their transcripts for the college entrance examination.

That day, he rushed to the company for a busy day because of the internship arranged by his family in advance, and when he came home at night, he happened to see the text message from Zhou Yu.

He was almost ecstatic at that time, because the timing was too coincidental, and he never thought that Zhou Yu would still be willing to contact him.

But the moment he saw the text message, He Chu almost collapsed.

Because Zhou Yu said "goodbye" to him.

Since then, He Chu has never received any news from Zhou Yu. After asking all the people around him, they only know that Zhou Yu has gone abroad. I won't bother you either.

He just disappeared, saying only "goodbye".

This time... is really goodbye?

How could it be possible, who said that Zhou Yu would really let him go after he said goodbye?

At the beginning, He Chu still had some unrealistic fantasies, but that year, he didn't even receive Zhou Yu's "Happy Birthday".

He didn't dare to call back the phone all the time because he was afraid that Zhou Yu's voice would not be heard on the other side.

There was only one time, when Zhou Yu celebrated his birthday, he finally mustered up the courage to call Zhou Yu, but at that time, the mobile phone number was displayed as empty.

Hearing the mechanical female voice on the phone, he felt as if his heart was so empty.

The person I love really left, went to the ends of the world that he didn't know, and never looked back.

He suddenly thought, when Zhou Yu called him countless times, was he feeling as desperate as he was then?

Those days...and Zhou Yu's pain...it's something he can't make up for now...

He Chu wiped the phone screen again, put it in his windbreaker pocket, and drove towards the school.

It doesn't matter, he thought, the future is still long, and Zhou Yu is still there, he said he came back to chase Zhou Yu, so he will do what he says, and he will win.