Cold violence

Zhou Yu always had a premonition that something might happen between him and He Chu, but he didn't expect such a day to come so soon.

He has always been watching He Chu's state, his anxiety and uneasiness, and Zhou Yu's inner thoughts expressed in every movement.

But he thought that He Chu was not a fragile person.

He must have his own way of dealing with it and his own way of recuperating. After he finds a solution to the problem, he will be the same as before. He thought... He Chu will definitely not be the one to let go first.

It's not that he doesn't want to help He Chu share some of the burden, it's because he wants to but is powerless.

Because He Chu couldn't see it, every time Zhou Yu wanted to go up to ask something, He Chu always turned his back, and his back was full of "rejection".

He also couldn't see that when Zhou Yu was watching him, when Zhou Yu was in his eyes, he would always frown tightly, his eyes full of hesitation.

He forced back the little bit of courage that Zhou Yu had finally found out.

The little emotion that I finally wanted to express was blocked back like this.

He Chu didn't know, but someone always noticed.

Zhou Yu was not good at expressing how much he liked He Chu, but he never mentioned it to He Chu.

He is a person who finds it difficult to reveal his inner thoughts to the public. Even if that person is He Chu, he will feel how ridiculous it is for him to speak out his thoughts - this is the conclusion he has drawn since he was a child.

Who will understand him?Who would understand the mind of a madman?

How would he tell He Chu about those thoughts that even he thought were crazy and ridiculous?

He was afraid to say these words, but he was even more afraid that He Chu would not want him because of this.

Does he want to tell He Chu what kind of rebellious person he is in his bones?

Tell He Chu the crazy things he did because of some inconspicuous things?

Tell He Chu that he is actually very timid, and then use this humble gesture to beg He Chu not to leave?

How could it be possible, he couldn't do it, and He Chu didn't care to know.

To put it bluntly, since his father died and his mother didn't love him, how can he love others?

Before he had learned how to love himself, they had told him that he was not worthy of love from others.

He could see He Chu being isolated by them, but he was really powerless.

In the week before the monthly exam, he even wondered if He Chu was about to go crazy... It was unbelievable that he was so haggard...

At that time, he thought that if He Chu said to break up at this time, he would not feel strange at all.

But He Chu just didn't say it, he would rather keep himself cold than say those two words.

Zhou Yu was almost in fear, waiting for the guillotine on his neck to fall.

It existed, and Zhou Yu knew that he wanted to cut through the mess quickly and let He Chu be relieved, but he knew that he could not accept such a result, and he was also afraid that he would be sad.

No one felt sorry for him, so when he was young, he knew that he had to protect himself and not make himself sad.

For so many days, the entanglement in his heart was no less than that of He Chu.

He Chu didn't return to work at noon on Monday, and after Lao Huang left, Zhou Yu saw He Chu standing outside the door through the glass of the back door, and gestured to him.With a jump in his heart, he knew that this day had finally come.

"I asked for leave with Lao Huang, and I won't come this afternoon if I have something to do." He Chu leaned in the corridor downstairs, lowered his head, and pressed randomly on his phone.

The sound effect that came with the phone kept thinking, showing an anxiety that didn't match his own state - He Chu was calm, even too calm.

Since they met, it was the first time that He Chu treated him so indifferently.

Yes, that is indifferent.

Zhou Yu looked at the faint blackness under He Chu's eyes, and his sickly white skin, and knew that He Chu probably didn't sleep well last night.

He clenched his fist nervously and found that his palm was icy cold.

Obviously, it has been envisioned countless times, but when it actually happened, I was still a little dazed.

"I think it's better to tell you in person." He Chu put the phone away and stood up straight.

"En." Zhou Yu responded lightly, as if he already knew what He Chu was going to tell him. It was not surprising at all, just like they had discussed countless times before what to have for breakfast the next day.

"Zhou Yu..." He paused when he said this, and looked at Zhou Yu hesitantly, but found that Zhou Yu just looked at his feet silently, without any curiosity.

Does he already know what I'm going to say?

He Chu suddenly thought, yes, he is such a clear person, he probably also knows what I think.

He spoke with some difficulty, the five words choked in his throat, and it became an extremely difficult thing to spit them out at this moment.

He clenched his teeth, as if he didn't know why he had to press so hard, and even clenched his fists, but he couldn't say these words.

This is his Zhou Yu, probably the last day, when I can think about Zhou Yu, add the word "my" in front of his name.

Having said that, this person has nothing to do with him from now on.

Maybe the two will part ways and go their separate ways from then on.Zhou Yu would still go her own way in the class alone, but He Chu would not.

He couldn't let go of Zhou Yu, but he was really fed up with being ignored by others.

He said to himself, it doesn't matter, Zhou Yu has always been here, it's because you are not good enough, you can't afford his liking.

He also said to himself that it was Zhou Yu who was too indifferent to you and had nothing to do with you. It was he who pushed you away, not you who gave up on him.

He also said to himself, you are still too young, when you are both mature enough and like each other enough, it will not be too late for you to chase him back.

He convinced himself like this, even though he knew that there were a thousand and ten thousand unwillingness in his heart.

Zhou Yu has never succumbed to the environment around her. He always stands on a high ground with a clear heart, but He Chu is different from him.

He Chu thought, in this life, he probably can only be an ordinary person. He has an inseparable connection with the world, and he can't let go of those things he fancy.

He was just a child, so he chose popularity between Zhou Yu and popularity.

He had struggled in his heart several times, almost turning that sentence into "It's nothing, just to tease you", he even thought about the tone of saying this sentence, how to make Zhou Yu not suspicious, but He swallowed anyway.

Zhou Yu didn't even want to look at him.

In the end, he leaned against the promenade with some exhaustion, and tried his best to say calmly:

"let's break up."

The tone of his words seemed to cover all the affection he had had for so long, and it was as heavy as when he said "I like you" to Zhou Yu in despair at that time.

It was so heavy that it seemed to crush him.

At that time, after Zhou Yu received the love letter, he said "I like you" with the courage to defy the world, but now he said "Let's break up" amidst Zhou Yu's sincerity.

In the end, I still can't survive the world.

In the end, I still feel that such feelings are not visible.

In the end, this relationship still has no results, no matter how much I liked it at the beginning.

But Zhou Yu didn't respond for a long time.

He still bowed his head, but his back was straight.With his hands in his coat pockets, he couldn't see the complex look in his eyes, but his toes stopped moving, keeping the last stroke he had just made when he twisted the ground.

It was obviously a very light movement, but he seemed to want to grind out a mark of his own on the ground.

"Say it again."

After a long time, he opened his mouth slowly, the words he said were still so indifferent, even the tone of voice was the same as usual, as if he just didn't hear clearly just now, and he needed to confirm it again.

"let's break up."

When He Chu said these words, he suddenly felt that the power that bound him back then disappeared.

He knew there was no turning back for him.So with the lessons learned from the past, this time it was not so painful.

"Say it again."

Zhou Yu still repeated the sentence just now, without even changing his tone of voice.

"let's break up."

Zhou Yu said this, and He Chu followed his meaning and repeated it for the third time. When they were together before, Zhou Yu occasionally tricked He Chu, and when he asked him to repeat a certain sentence, he waited patiently. as before.

But if you listen carefully, you can hear the strong sadness and despair in his words.

"Let's break up", Zhou Yu heard this sentence three times, and finally understood the meaning of He Chu's sentence.

——From then on, the world has nothing to do with each other, except for the friendship of classmates in the next two years, they no longer have a so-called future.

It's just breaking up, it's not a big deal, the funny thing is that in the end, even He Chu stood in the position of "following the crowd", wanting to watch Zhou Yu sitting alone on a tall building with them.

But what's the point of sitting in such a tall building?

"Let's divide," he thought, "divided...it's good for them all."

It's already known, isn't it?There's nothing to worry about, it's the same at first, I thought "forget it" so many times before, this time...

This time, it was a new mistake, and I wanted to tell He Chu again—forget it.

After we separated, He Chu would no longer have to be isolated like him, He Chu would no longer have to struggle every day to guess Zhou Yu's thoughts, and He Chu would not have to spend all day thinking about how to be a For a good monitor, he only needs to be like them.

He just needs to isolate himself like those people, and he doesn't even need to talk to He Chu. He just needs to ignore Zhou Yu, and those people might come up to curry favor with He Chu.

That's pretty good, at least... at least He Chu is happy.

He Chu felt happy...he could just assume that his little affection was not wrong.

If He Chu becomes unhappy and unhappy, then he will no longer be that He Chu.

They've been together for so long, Zhou Yu knew that he didn't pay much for He Chu, He Chu did everything for him alone, now he doesn't want to pay for himself anymore...

It's just the word "let go" and the word "fulfillment", there's nothing difficult about it.

After all, there was probably only so much I could do for He Chu.

Then he heard his own cold voice say, "Well, let's share."

He finally raised his eyes to take a look at He Chu, and smiled so relieved at him for the first time that even his eyebrows were crooked, and he said, "Let's break up."

This was the first time He Chu saw Zhou Yu smiling like this.

This smile made him inexplicably feel a little cramped, and his heart beat like a drum.

It was just that moment, but it seemed to make him feel that "the tenderness is like water, and the wedding is like a dream", beautiful like a dream.

He just looked at himself tenderly, his eyes full of connivance.

He Chu didn't dare to face Zhou Yu's gaze. He hastily opened his eyes and said in a low voice, "I won't come this afternoon if I have something to do. I've already helped you, you..."

"Don't rush to avoid me, He Chu."

Zhou Yu still smiled like that, stretched out his index finger to cover his lips: "I won't say anything, don't be so anxious."

Zhou Yu himself was good-looking, but it was a pity that he was too indifferent on weekdays. Now such a lively Zhou Yu seemed to be more and more alive.

He knew He Chu well, and knew what He Chu was going to do when he asked for leave, so he told him very consciously, it's okay, don't hide from me, I'm very sensible.

"Well. I really have something to do."

His mind was complicated for a while before he raised his eyes to look at Zhou Yu.

However, Zhou Yu withdrew his smile at that moment, and returned to his usual indifference, as if the tenderness at that moment just now was just an illusion, and he was still that Zhou Yu, a noble and untouched person.

Zhou Yuchao Hechu nodded, turned and left.

He looked at Zhou Yu's straight and thin back, he hadn't looked at that figure seriously for a long time, and in the autumn wind, he seemed to be tainted with a little bleak doubt.

He suddenly shouted: "Zhou Yu!"

Zhou Yu stopped in his tracks and turned his head to look at him.

He has slender eyebrows and light eyes, just like the countless times he looked back, waiting for He Chu to walk towards him.

He Chu stood where he was, and with just one glance, he suddenly felt his heart ache like a knife.

That was Zhou Yu, Zhou Yu whom he had liked for so long... Now he was slowly leaving him.

Not long ago, he was still saying the words "As long as you are still my brother's boyfriend, I will take you with me", but now he is not Zhou Yu's boyfriend.

After all, he still failed this person. He knew how sad this person was when he was alone, but he still didn't want him.

Just to fulfill his little selfishness, he abandoned this person he loved for so long.

This time He Chu is real, he can't say anything.

At this time, the deal is done, and it is useless to say more.

The distant wind blew from the north, and the leaves of the sycamore tree fell to his sky and eyes.

Zhou Yu stood in that piece of flying leaves, beautiful like a painting.

"what's up?"

"Goodbye."

He Chu smiled tiredly at him.

However, Zhou Yu just waved his hands, turned his head and walked forward.

——It’s okay, it’s just a split, it’s okay.

--See you.

The author has something to say: Is that... "Happy breakup, I wish you happiness", is that how it is sung? (hugging head)