Cold violence

Zhou Yu sat for the whole morning this time, and no one came out to look for him during this time, so he sat alone until noon.

Surprisingly, Lao Huang didn't say anything, but called Zhou Yu to the playground when he was preparing for his lunch break.When Zhou met, he found that He Chu was there.

It was obviously going to rain in the morning, but the sun came out at noon, and the cool wind was mixed with waves of warmth.

He Chu didn't see Zhou Yu, so Zhou Yu leaned on the fence of the playground and watched him quietly.

The noon sun was very strong, even though it was already October, it was still so hot that people couldn't keep their eyes open.

Zhou Yu squinted and looked at He Chu's back.

This figure seems to have been seen many times, every line of his body can be presented in his mind without Zhou Yu looking again.

He Chu tied the school uniform jacket around his neck in an irregular manner, and put it on loosely. He put one hand in his trouser pocket and the other casually hung on both sides of his body.

Zhou Yu just saw the profile of his facial features, and suddenly thought of what kind of appearance can be called "appearance like Pan'an".

Although I have seen this face countless times, I just can't help but want to smile for him.

He saw He Chu raised his head slightly, but his eyes were downcast, with a somewhat lonely look on his face. He was very different from the young man who looked forward to flying like last year.

Zhou Yu just looked at He Chu like this, until Lao Huang finished handling the class affairs and called out "He Chu", he turned around slowly, saw Zhou Yu, and walked towards him unhurriedly come over.

At that moment Zhou Yu could almost hear his own slow heartbeat, it was the sound of his heartbeat to He Chu at that time.

He Chu walked to Zhou Yu's side, took off his school uniform and hung it in his arms, and nodded slightly to Lao Huang.

Zhou Yu just woke up like a dream, and called out: "Teacher."

He Chu was expressionless, looking a little strange.He usually smiled, but this time he stopped smiling, and Zhou Yu suddenly felt that the person in front of him had changed a lot.

Not only is the sunny boyishness on his body gone, but his facial features also seem to be much stiffer than usual.

It turned out that getting along day and night made him ignore the changes in the people in front of him.

It seems that he can see every bit of his life, but now he has not seen it for a long time, and suddenly feels——it has really changed a lot.

But He Chu didn't look at him, and he didn't even stand beside Zhou Yu.

"Do you know why you two were called out?" Lao Huang stood in front of the two of them and said in a deep voice.

"I know." He Chu held the school uniform in his hand, lowered his head, and didn't look at Zhou Yu.

"You speak for yourself first."

"When the first class was over, there was a conflict in the class, and I didn't handle it properly." He Chu said.

"What do you think?"

"I think it's his fault for him to slander my deskmate, and spread it too much as an insult to Zhou Yu's personality. I want to solve it, but there is something wrong with my solution, and it's my fault." He Chu said with a low voice. He turned his head and made a gesture of admitting his mistake, but his toes were drawing circles on the ground, and his tone was neither humble nor overbearing, obviously without the meaning of "acknowledging his mistake".

"Won't you call the teacher when you have something to deal with? A dignified class leader, hitting a classmate in front of the whole class? Do you think this is reasonable? As for what you said, I will talk to Zhou Yu later, so you can tell me first Tell me what you plan to do next."

"Abiding by school discipline and school rules, respecting teachers and friends, never bullying classmates in the name of class monitor, reporting to the teacher in case of trouble, studying hard and listening carefully." His series of promises were more fluent than jingles, but his tone was neither too slow nor too slow People can't jump out of the slightest flaw after hearing it.

After hearing what he said, Lao Huang didn't want to criticize him anymore, but he waved his hand towards He Chu, who was a little irritated, and said, "It's good to understand the truth, He Chu, I only let you see that you did well last year. Continue to be the squad leader, you have to show me your ability as the squad leader."

"Yes, thank you teacher for trusting me, I was too reckless."

"Well, that's it. You go back to work first. I have something to talk to Zhou Yu alone. Keep your voice down when you enter the class."

He Chu didn't speak, and looked up at Zhou Yu, with a dull expression and no emotion in his eyes.

Zhou Yu was taken aback by the look in his eyes, and instinctively felt that something was about to happen.

Lao Huang didn't speak. After seeing He Chu returning to work according to his words, he looked at Zhou Yu without blinking.

Zhou Yu also looked at him with open eyes.

"Is there anything else you want from me?"

Lao Huang just stared at Zhou Yu without saying a word, until Zhou Yu took the initiative to speak, Lao Huang frowned and said in a low voice:

"I also listened to what the class said. After all, I have not supervised your exam room for this monthly exam, and this exam is not strict, so I still want to ask you something."

"Ok."

"Tell me the truth, did you copy it?"

what?

Zhou Yu's expression changed again and again, first he looked at him with a little disbelief, then smiled lightly, and finally there was only a little doubt in his eyes.

At last he said: "I thought you were going to ask me why I wasn't here this morning."

"You answer my question first." Old Huang said in a deep voice.

"So you see me that way too?" Zhou Yu asked.

It turns out that's how you see me too. What about the person who dragged me and swore to me last year that he wanted me to take the exam well and continue to win glory for the class?

Although Zhou Yu hated what Lao Huang said at the time, at least Huang trusted him.

It turned out that in just half a day, even Lao Huang began to doubt him?

The human heart is indeed a fickle thing.

"You child, why do you talk like that? I just asked this question, and I must still believe you, right?"

Zhou Yu almost wanted to sneer.

The old Huang in front of him, his class teacher, was wearing an extremely bright smile, even the wrinkles in the corners of his eyes were squeezed out, but the words he said were so ugly, it could be called hypocrisy.

If you really trust me, why would you ask me?

"Look, you did so well in the exam this time, and the teacher is happy for you, but those teachers in the office who don't know you may not be like me. You are so much higher than No.2. It's a good thing to win honor for the class, but other teachers feel uncomfortable, so I'll ask you, it's just a matter of procedure..."

"oh, I see……"

Zhou Yu nodded, as if he understood clearly.

"The teacher just came to ask you for a letter, so you just tell the truth?"

Zhou Yu stared into Lao Huang's eyes, looked at his clearly disbelieving expression, and nervous expression, and said slowly:

"And what if I say 'yes'? What do you think?"

Zhou Yu didn't think Lao Huang's words were so reasonable, he just thought it was ridiculous.

He felt that all the people and things that should not have changed had changed, and all the people he thought would trust him began to doubt him. It is really meaningless for a person to live like this, but he still has nothing. Do.

Looking at He Chu's reaction in the morning, He Chu hadn't looked him in the eyes for a long time, probably because of a guilty conscience.

Even the people he trusted the most and kept in his heart began to doubt him and run away from him, so what else could he say?

Zhou Yu, he never admits what he didn't do, but he never refute others' slander against him.

It's really disappointing.

He didn't even have the strength to resist, and wanted to laugh twice to express his inner ridicule, but in the end he just asked "what will happen if you say 'yes'", which is quite useless.

It's not that he didn't dare to bluntly say that he didn't copy it, he just wanted to see the reaction of those who had trusted him.

Lao Huang didn't respond, as if he couldn't digest the truth of this sentence.Zhou Yu said to himself again:

"Whatever, if you think it is, then it is; if you think it is not, then I am innocent. At worst, you can take out the test paper and give me a redo. I don't care."

"What's your attitude like this? I asked you if you did it, and you don't know if you did it yourself? What do you mean by saying these words?"

Lao Huang was a little irritable. It stands to reason that it is a good thing to have a student who is good at learning and has stable grades in the class, but this student's grades are too outstanding, and he is too disobedient. I can't justify my own face.

No matter how good-tempered I am, I can't bear the fact that my student is such a thorn.

He knew Zhou Yu's personality was like this, so he always pampered him more in class, but this person didn't know how to be grateful, which was really embarrassing.

"It doesn't mean much, literally."

What he said was too much, he knew that the meaning of what he said was to ridicule.

Laughing at the ridiculous trust of the teacher in front of him, mocking his teacher's expectations of him before.

Maybe it's not even counted as anticipation, but simply thinking that this student studies well and makes him profitable.

He also knows that some people say that he speaks too harshly, so many people hate him, but Zhou Yu's brain circuit is very long in aspects other than learning, and he often says what he says, and it takes a long time. It took a while for him to realize that what he just said might be too hurtful, and these conclusions were drawn from the changes in other people's facial expressions.

He felt a little annoyed, and when he wanted to say something to remedy it, he always had no chance.

But sometimes it's different, like now.

In fact, he will deliberately say some very annoying things, which shows that he is actually very unhappy.

"Is this how you talk to me? Do you have the most basic respect for the teacher?"

"Then do you have the most basic respect for my character?" After speaking, Zhou Yu laughed, asked himself and answered, "No."

respect?What is respect?

Putting unwanted pressure on me without authorization, is it respect for me?

Turning the grades I have worked hard into a tool to win glory for the class understatement, is it respect for me?

Is it respect for me to allow gossip to spread wantonly?

You want my respect, at least you have to respect me first, don't you?

Even if you are my teacher, everyone is equal when it comes to principles.

This time, Lao Huang stared at Zhou Yu for an extra long time, but he seemed to be unable to see Zhou Yu's expression clearly through the lens. The young man's frivolous tone was filled with infinite sarcasm, mocking his teacher's suspicion of him, He also ridiculed him for questioning him because he believed in campus rumors.

He was speechless. Facing such a calm and calm young man, he was so choked that he couldn't speak.

After a long time, Zhou Yu's expression didn't loosen at all. He turned around and said to the teaching building, "At school, you have to correct your attitude when talking to the teacher, no matter who you are."

After finishing speaking, he left quickly without waiting for Zhou Yu to speak.

There was anger in his words, but Zhou Yu didn't take it seriously.

Zhou Yu looked at the back of Lao Huang leaving, obviously angry, but his figure seemed to feel unbearable under Zhou Yu's questioning, almost fled in despair.

Zhou Yu slowly walked to the place where He Chu was standing just now, and imitated his appearance just now and looked at the place he had just seen.

It was windy today, and from his angle, he could see the colorful flags on the fence far away from the playground being rolled up by the wind and flying backwards, like a movement to break free.

He wanted to break free, but what to break free?

When He Chu thought about it later, he felt that this period of time was simply the most painful period for him.

After Lao Huang came forward to solve the problem that day, the rumors in the class gradually subsided, only occasionally, when he and Zhou Yu went out together, he could hear those seemingly unintentional discussions.

The words were ugly, as if they were deliberately speaking to two people.

Zhou Yu naturally ignored it, but He Chu couldn't.

Whenever he and Zhou Yu hear these words together, he will feel that these words are repeated in his ears all the time, in order to let him recognize what kind of person is around him, and to laugh at his stupidity and ignorance .

He subconsciously wants to resist, but those words can penetrate his many fortresses, and illuminate the deepest part of his heart, making him feel that he has made a huge mistake, so it is really impossible A person who forgives.

He began to suffer the same treatment as Zhou Yu.

Isolated by the classmates collectively, no one listened to what he said as the class leader, but he told Li Qi to tell the classmates but he did it quickly; when he went in and out of the class, he could hear someone pointing at him; even He was sitting in the first row, and when Li Qi was not in front of him and wanted a group discussion, he turned around, and the people behind him pretended not to hear them, and they discussed happily with the people in the third row.

He also began to have some very short nightmares intermittently, but the final results were all suddenly awakened in the middle of the night.His sleep quality has also become poor, and he suffered from insomnia several times.

He was angry at first, angry at why those people treated him like this, and then he was wronged. He has been a young master since he was a child, and everyone flattered and flattered him. When did he endure this kind of grievance of being isolated?

He wanted to question those people why they did this to him.

He asked himself, he never did anything wrong, just getting close to Zhou Yu and not being with them, he would be treated like this by them.

The feeling of being isolated from the whole world was so bad that he almost thought it was an illusion, and he tried desperately to break it, but this place became a shackle that bound his hands.

Let him truly feel that where he is is not an illusion, but Zhou Yu.

Zhou Yu was still by his side, still alone, keeping the closest distance to He Chu, as long as He Chu stretched out his hand, he could touch his fingertips.

But his calm expression and calm attitude made He Chu dare not stretch out his hand.

He is like a mountain collapsed in front of him without changing his face, no matter what happens in front of his eyes, he can turn a blind eye.

He Chu admired his calmness, but he didn't want to turn himself into a person like Zhou Yu.

Until the end... Finally he felt a deep panic.

Panic about his current situation, and even more fear when thinking about whether it will get worse in the future.

But the source of his panic turned out to be Zhou Yu.

Zhou Yu's always indifferent attitude towards him had already made him feel extremely bored.

Because Zhou Yu saw everything in his eyes, but he didn't want to share it for him at all. He just walked forward by himself, not looking at He Chu who was lingering in this environment beside him.

He looks so fickle even though they have a relationship of lovers.

He even wanted to question Zhou Yu, ask Zhou Yu when he would stop having the same expression forever, ask Zhou Yu if he could be more proactive towards him, and ask Zhou Yu if he could speak for him when he was isolated.

But he knew that Zhou Yu couldn't, because Zhou Yu was also a victim.

It was like a dream, he was ups and downs in this long dream, but he couldn't grasp the piece of driftwood in his heart called "Zhou Yu".

He suddenly thought, if he were no longer with Zhou Yu, would the situation be resolved?Is he no longer isolated?Will they become the classmate they like again like before?

All this is because of Zhou Yu... If there is no Zhou Yu, will everything be better?

But if he doesn't want Zhou Yu anymore, what should Zhou Yu do...?

If he violated what he once said, how would Zhou Yu think of him?

The words are still ringing in my ears, the person who once made the promise was me, and now the person who wants to go back on it has become me.

He frantically wants to get rid of this situation, but he still likes Zhou Yu.

This kind of liking is not much less than when I first saw Zhou Yu. On the contrary, the more I get to know this person, the more I feel sorry for him, and the more I want to spoil him. At that time, he thought that even if it was a unilateral contribution, as long as the person is Zhou Yu, Then he also admitted.

But people are greedy creatures. When they get one thing, they want more, and the demand will never end.

Why can't I find a place between Zhou Yu and others?It seems that the two can never blend together, as long as you choose Zhou Yu, you choose to be isolated.

But if he broke up with Zhou Yu, Zhou Yu would still have many people pursuing him... like I pursued Zhou Yu back then?

But he couldn't accept that there were other people around Zhou Yu, even if he was no longer with Zhou Yu.

No one can understand how much entanglement, even despair, is in their hearts.

He Chu lay on his back on the bed, and then buried his head deeply into the pillow.