Cold violence

After He Chu left, the room seemed to suddenly become empty again.

For the first time, Zhou Yu realized that a person's sense of existence could be so strong that he only stayed in this room for a few minutes, and his aura became extremely strong.

Those words just said are still in his mind, every expression of He Chu is in his heart, the kiss just now... It's like a dream, but the touch is still the same as in memory.

If it was in the past, Zhou Yu would never have kissed He Chu at such a time and place, and his rationality would not allow him to do so, but so many years have passed...

They've all changed so much.

Zhou Yu had thought of He Chu more than once, and thought of the memories he kept in his heart.

In his memory, He Chu always seems to be the boy with sunshine, the boy he likes.

He also thought about it for so many years.

But now that we really met each other, I realized that time is not forgiving.

He faded away the arrogance from his body, faded away those lofty splendors, and unabashedly showed the truth of his heart in front of Zhou Yu, only then did he realize that even He Chu's facial expressions had changed too much.

But why not myself.

He had taken pictures together almost throughout his high school years. When he was a teenager, he thought it was silly to take pictures, but in the end they broke up, and all he left was a graduation photo.

He remembered that he was standing in the corner of the last row, taking photos carelessly.

He still remembered He Chu's appearance at that time. As the class monitor, he stood in the middle, but there was no smile on his face, only trouble was written on his face.

And that turned out to be a photo of him and He Chu, such a precious photo.

But since when did He Chu stop laughing?

Maybe it was the heavy studies in the third year of high school and the pressure from the college entrance examination that made him lose his smile, or maybe it was his entanglement back then that made him bored.

He thought that after such a long time, he had given up on this person long ago, but this person found him again and said that ridiculous "like" to him.

Like it?He also likes it, but until now, this word of liking can no longer be said.

He likes it so desperately, likes it so much that he wants to fight against his whole world for him countless times, but He Chu didn't give him that chance, from when they were together to when they separated completely, he didn't.

Now it's his turn to tell He Chu that he doesn't like it anymore, just like what He Chu said to him once, looking at He Chu's lonely expression, he doesn't feel any pleasure like revenge at all.

Because how can you not like him, how can you be happy when the person you like is sad?

He is the kind of person who doesn't let out a certain emotion easily, but he will never take it back easily.

If you can really let it go, how can you really like it?

When He Chu was released that year, he no longer believed in He Chu's so-called "like".

Even if He Chu swears and is full of confidence, he doesn't believe it anymore, but he believes in himself.

He really didn't need He Chu's "I'm sorry", nor did he need an apology from any of them.

Punishing myself for them that year was already the biggest mistake. The consequences of that punishment are still on me and cannot fade away. Is it because I hate those people?In fact, he was used to those indifferent attitudes.

What did you say? "Punish yourself for other people's mistakes is the greatest stupidity", he has always understood this truth, he just hopes that those pains can make him remember more clearly how stupid his thoughts were back then.

Is it too extreme?may be.

He just hated He Chu for no reason.

There is as much hate as there is love.

In fact, he should be thanking He Chu, not because of him for being who he is now, but for giving him such a period of time and giving him hope.

But it was the little hope during that time, and after so many years, he still laughed at his ridiculous feelings, and laughed at how unreasonable his extravagant expectations were.So all these years, as long as he thinks of He Chu, he will selectively avoid their last intersection.

Just like when he asked himself if he could change his liking for the same sex, he replied that he couldn't.

Now he asks if he can forget it? ——I can’t forget it.

He stubbornly attributed the source of his despair at that time to He Chu, but in fact He Chu was just following their trend.

But people just like to imagine the straw that broke the camel's camel's back as the culprit, whether or not he actually did something unforgivable.

He has always been busy these years, and he has arranged his life so full that he is absent from all meetings, big and small. He is separated from that person by a distance of the Pacific Ocean, and what is hidden under [-] kilometers is His thoughts are engraved in the marrow of his bones.

He only thinks about He Chu in his short spare time, this is the best way for him to control his thoughts.

Because it is impossible for him not to think about this person when his mind is relaxed.

But the only thing left in him, the deep-rooted lovesickness, could not pass through the Pacific Ocean, and could not pass through the thirteen-hour jet lag.When He Chu called, he was evasive, even very irritable.

After He Chu came, he found a little happiness in the irritability that he hadn't noticed before.

If it wasn't for He Chu's insistence on coming, if he didn't agree to his request, wouldn't it mean that they would never have a chance to say a word and have a good talk again in their whole life?

When they were young, they hadn't learned to love someone. Now that he is no longer young, he has lost the courage to love someone again.

He knew that He Chu couldn't do it all over again, and he couldn't pretend that nothing had happened.

What has been said cannot be regarded as unsaid, and what has been done cannot be regarded as undone.No matter how open-minded a person is, as long as he sees the scar that fades with time but never disappears, he will think of those things again.

Not everyone can be so magnanimous. Most people are selfish, so they don’t want to be wronged, so they always think about taking some actions to retaliate against those people, so that they can also taste what they were like at that time.

Now he has indeed done this to He Chu, but he is not happy.

I even want to cry.

"He Chu..." He sighed, raised his neck as hard as he could, and poured the liquid around his eyes back into his eye sockets.

He thought back then, that was really the best time for Zhou Yu.

In his opinion, He Chu was never someone else.

Those people came and went and never stopped much, which made him accustomed to it, but He Chu was different among them, it was as if he would never leave Zhou Yu, no matter when Zhou Yu needed him, he would always appear.

Zhou Yu is actually a very dependent person. Once he gets used to something, he will never let it go. It is as small as using a brand and a series for all daily necessities, and it is so big that he is horrified to find that he has already used it. Can't do without He Chu.

Yes, he couldn't do without this person anymore, he was used to his existence, and what he had in his heart for He Chu was not only love, but even affection for him as if he were his own family.

But it was because of this stubbornness that the first conflict broke out between them, and it has been out of control ever since.

With the lessons learned from the past, what happens next seems to be a matter of course.

He knew that He Chu had always liked Jacky Cheung, so on He Chu's birthday this year, he collected a whole set of Jacky Cheung's albums and gave it to He Chu. He Chu was very moved, and Zhou Yu was also happy.

But he couldn't remember the songs that Jacky Cheung sang, and it was inevitable that he would appear a little insincere over time.

Compared to the time when He Chu learned the violin just for him, he felt a little sorry when he thought about it.

He is not good at expressing, and every time he listens to Jacky Cheung's songs by himself, occasionally for an entire afternoon.

They had a conflict because He Chufei asked him to learn a song by Jacky Cheung two days before school started.

He Chu didn't know why he was so stubborn that day. It seemed that if Zhou Yu had to learn a song, the connection between them would be deeper, and He Chu would feel more at ease.

Why do you have such an idea?Probably because he felt a sense of powerlessness from the bottom of his heart because of the start of school and the division of classes.

He could even be said to be a little flustered.

In the past year, with great difficulty, he managed to get Zhou Yu and most of the classmates who got on good terms with each other to go to other classes.

He felt a little uncomfortable, the feeling of falling short or nothing made him feel powerless, and even his attitude towards Zhou Yu became anxious.

But he knew that this matter was bound to happen, and Li Qi had mentioned it to him once before he and Zhou Yu got together.

What did Li Qi say at that time?How did you answer him?

——It turns out that I can’t remember clearly.

So when Zhou Yu was hesitant to learn the song that day, he couldn't help getting angry.

"Just learn to learn, learn to sing for me."

"I can't, I'm not good at singing."

"Just learn this one, I don't want more."

"I... I am not born with this, you can't force me..."

"Why can't you learn? Is it so difficult to pay a little for me?"

Zhou Yu felt that this statement was unreasonable.

"What do you mean it's so difficult to give for you? Singing and giving for you are two different things. You make it difficult for others to do so."

"Am I overpowering others? But didn't I also learn the piano for you because of you? You just learn a song for me?"

"Is there any necessary connection between the two? What happened to you today, talking so unreasonably?"

It’s not that he really can’t learn it. He doesn’t like those old songs and pop music at all. If he memorizes the tune, he can’t remember the words.

He didn't tell He Chu that he had tried to listen to their favorite songs before, but there was really nothing he could do.

But now He Chu's words made him very uncomfortable, and he subconsciously had a rebellious desire to run counter to He Chu's wishes.

He really hated the attitude of others insisting on asking him to do something, not to mention He Chu's tone was so persistent, as if he couldn't do anything except follow his ideas.

Very uncomfortable.

"Am I unreasonable?"

"If you want to say that you are not unreasonable, then just pretend that you are not unreasonable."

He Chu shook his head a little irritably, not knowing where his anger came from, he refused to look at Zhou Yu's face, just lowered his head and said in a muffled voice:

"Isn't it just to learn a song? If you don't want to learn it, forget it! Anyway, no one can force you, right? Don't you mean that the more others say something, the less you will do it, and you have to fight against others?!"

What he said made Zhou Yu laugh angrily at him.

"What do you mean by that? Do you want to quarrel with me? Don't you know what I am? Or is it that you have always thought of me like this in your heart. Why do you have to be strong?"

He threw out several questions in succession, hitting He Chu's mind and making his inner irritability into a mess.

When Zhou Yu said this, he was very upset.

It was not easy for him to control his emotions, and he always got angry with himself in the past, just like when Lao Huang always talked to him, he felt irritable.

Now because of He Chu's presence, he didn't want to let He Chu see that side of himself.

But these two days, He Chu's state has always been wrong. For no reason, he will not speak for a long time. Zhou Yu can't call him when he is in a daze. ".

He felt that he had spent enough time with He Chu, so long that he was able to pour out his heart and soul to He Chu, and even wanted to tell him all the deepest fears in his heart, but he missed a chance to speak out, but He Chu's behavior simply brought the relationship between the two of them back to the original.

Even the two of them have gone farther and farther.

"It's nothing. I'm going back to my room. If you don't want to learn, forget it."

It's such an attitude again, He Chu always avoids the topic in the middle of what he's saying, this is how many times Zhou Yu has been treated like this in the past two days.

"He Chu!"

He Chu ignored him, as if he was avoiding Zhou Yu, he turned around and locked himself in the room.

Zhou Yu felt that he needed to ask clearly, so he blurted out the moment he opened the door and asked, "What's the matter?"

He saw that He Chu's movements seemed to pause, and then he closed the door in front of him. The sound of the door panel colliding hit Zhou Yu's heart, and the door in his heart seemed to be closed just like that.

He sat on the sofa and covered his eyes.

What happened?He Chu.

He Chu was actually very uncomfortable like this. He could feel the changes in He Chu's mood. The closer the school started, the less he was in the mood. He wanted to ask, but He Chu didn't give him that chance.

He Chu was avoiding him at all, even though they lived in the same house.

His state was completely different from when they first got together, and he suddenly thought, maybe this one now is the real He Chu.

He had a vague feeling that He Chu was like this because school was about to start.

——He is afraid of starting school.

He knew that many of his former classmates left after the school started, but Zhou Yu was never afraid of school starting. In his opinion, this was something that already knew the end, so why bother with it? He didn't understand why He Chu would do this.

Do you feel intimidated because you think you're meeting new people?This is not He Chu.

He Chu helped him a lot last year, and he was grateful to He Chu in his heart, but he couldn't express his gratitude, and he always felt that it was too hypocritical.

He is not afraid of the start of school, he doesn't care how many classmates change in the class, because he thinks that as long as He Chu is still with him, in the same class or on a floor or in a grade, as long as He Chu is still there, in his opinion, there will be no difference .

He Chu's popularity has always been very good, what is he afraid of?

What should I do?He Chu.What do you want me to do?