Cold violence

Zhou Yu knew that He Chu had always been curious about his past and heart, and now that He Chu was so angry, he suddenly wanted to tell He Chu what was in his heart.

But the hurdle in his own heart was too sad, it was too difficult for him to speak, and it was too difficult for him to face the unbearable in his heart, he couldn't open his mouth.

Because every time he recalled it, he would feel that his whole heart was dripping with blood.

He was afraid to tell the story, and he was even more afraid that He Chu would leave him because he couldn't accept it after hearing it.

Only Zhou Yu himself knew how dark his shady side was, so much so that he wanted to hide that Zhou Yu, and it would be best if no one saw it.

Standing at the door of He Chufang, he wanted to ask He Chu a lot, but he finally let go of the knocking hand.

At this time his cell phone rang, he was a little surprised, but he just looked at the lit cell phone screen in silence, and took a while to answer the call:

"Mother."

Then he turned and went back to his room.

He Chu had actually calmed down at this time, sitting on the head of the bed listening to the movement outside the door, hearing Zhou Yu's footsteps getting closer and further away, he hammered the bed board hard, turned over and buried his head in the pillow .

He knew it, he knew that Zhou Yu would be like this, he didn't say anything, he didn't ask anything, he just let himself hold back.

After being together for so long, even living together for so long, Zhou Yu has never quarreled with him. The reason is that Zhou Yu has such a personality at all.

Even if you don't want to tell him what you want to say in your heart, even if you know that he may be angry, he won't come over and tell you, let alone tell you his true inner thoughts.On the contrary, if he thinks you are angry, he will come over and ask you to get to the bottom of it.

Even Zhou Yu's personality was told to him in Jingzhou back then.

When He Chu thought of this, he became even more angry.

——I even know you because others told me, so what am I?

He got his wish to be with Zhou Yu, but he was really tired after so long.

It happened to be divided into classes. In the freshman year of high school, he spent a lot of energy trying to integrate Zhou Yu into the class, and now he has to start all over again?

Really, he felt that he couldn't stand the pressure anymore.

But he still couldn't help holding a little hope, maybe... Maybe the new classmates in the new semester won't be the same as before?Maybe they will like Zhou Yu's character?

"What the hell...why do you think so much every day..." He rubbed his head a little irritably.

He felt that he had become a little unfounded recently, and had to think about the start of school from time to time, and he had even imagined various scenarios after school started, as well as his various moods, which was really exhausting.

He thought too much, so he simply stopped thinking about it. He sighed and fell asleep gradually while lying on the bed.

When He Chu woke up again, it was already dark, and the curtains in the room had been closed by someone. The whole room was dark, only the dim light from the street lamp downstairs came in, and only the outlines of things could be seen.

He Chu fell asleep so dizzy that he didn't want to think about it.

He let out a long sigh, and when he turned his head, he saw a figure sitting by the bed.

The owner of the back figure seemed to be in a trance, and didn't notice He Chu's slight sigh.

He Chu could only see that his back was slightly bent, and he couldn't see his figure clearly in the dark, as if he was "subdued".

He Chu sat up and smelled an unusual aura from that person.

He drank.

The strong smell of alcohol could even run straight into He Chu's nasal cavity, making his stomach feel sour.

"Why do you drink so much? I'm sorry, I made you unhappy by talking too much today. Don't do this next time, okay?"

He Chu fell asleep and felt that his mood had improved a lot. Then he remembered the hurtful things he said before, and cursed secretly that he was really not a thing.

Zhou Yu didn't speak.

He leaned closer to Zhou Yu, unable to see his face clearly.

Zhou Yu not only closed the curtains, but also turned off the lights in the living room. Such an atmosphere made He Chu feel a little flustered.

What he said today was too serious, it must have made Zhou Yu sad.

He Chu wanted to reach out to hug him, but Zhou Yu spoke first.

"He Chu," Zhou Yu lowered his head and circled his fingertips, his movements were childish, but his voice was so low that He Chu felt that he would lose his voice if he lowered it any more. Zhou Yu said slowly:

"Did I make it difficult for you?"

There was helplessness in this sound, which made people almost think he was sighing.

His state is really wrong. He Chu has been with him for so long and has never seen Zhou Yu like this. He sat next to Zhou Yu from the bed and said softly: "How could it be? I feel sorry for you before it's too late. .Why are you upset and tell me, huh?"

"Aren't you always curious about me...don't talk, I'll tell you."

He finally gave in.

During the time when He Chu was sleeping, after he received that call, after he got drunk.

Haven't you always wanted to know?Then let me tell you now.

The air conditioner blew the air into the room, Zhou Yu's voice was affected by the sound of the air conditioner, and he couldn't hear it clearly.

He Chu remembered what Yu Jingzhou said at that time, and didn't dare to disturb Zhou Yu at this time, so he could only breathe lightly and listen to him.

What Zhou Yu was going to say next was something he had always wanted to know. He sat beside Zhou Yu, took Zhou Yu's cold hand and put it in his own, waiting for him to speak.

Zhou Yu's hands were cold and soft, and he didn't respond to He Chu's intention at all, but just said to himself:

"My parents are in a business marriage. I seldom saw my mother since I was a child. I was with my father until I was four years old, in the United States. They have a legal husband and wife relationship. In fact, they live their own lives. My mother never Willing to see me, only when the two of them need to appear at the same time during the Chinese New Year, she will appear to be in harmony with my father on the surface.

"I thought she was so beautiful at the time. She was wearing the most gorgeous clothes, the most noble hairstyle and the most exquisite makeup. When she smiled, the whole home seemed to be lit up by her, even in those American cities. Everyone is dazzling. But she has never held my hand, and never paid attention to my son.

"She was also rarely close to my father, I don't know what happened to them, but I was never close to her.

"She is far away like a lighthouse in the middle of the sea, I can only watch from a distance. If I want to touch her, I have to risk my life.

"Until my father died, I was sent back to China to be with her. At that time, I couldn't even speak Chinese well, so she sent me to a full-time primary school. My classmates looked down on me for not being able to speak Chinese, and called me Is a monster who can only speak English.

"At that time, I really wanted to see her, but the people who came to pick me up on weekends were our housekeepers.

"All the classmates in our class despise me, and I know she also despises me as a burden. She thinks that I can't do anything well, and my grades are not good, and I will only cause trouble for her. She is so beautiful, but there is an extra me, for her Adding chaos made her lose the life she should have had."

He Chu couldn't hear him giving up on himself, and blurted out: "That's not the case!"

Zhou Yu raised a finger and put it on his lips: "Shh, don't talk.

"She hates my father, and I know she hates me too, so I never dare to take the initiative to talk to her. They bully me, and I can't tell her, because no one stands up for me...

"She wanted me to study so as not to embarrass her, so I studied desperately. Sometimes I saw them playing outside in Jingzhou, I was really envious, but I could only watch them play from the balcony, watching they are happy...

"Later I told the housekeeper that I like the violin, but the housekeeper finally agreed with me to spare time to learn, and our teacher often praised me for being smart... But when I was in junior high school, she thought I was wasting my studies, and she smashed my violin... At that time, I really wanted to resist... But she is my mother.

"Do you know how happy I was when you gave me the violin...but I can't tell.

"Nobody listened to me before, she locked me in the room by myself, she didn't listen to me, and she didn't allow others to listen...

"She didn't let me cry, she didn't let me laugh out loud, she didn't let me go out, she didn't let me have friends. They didn't like me... They all thought I was being conceited and wanted to make fun of me.

"I rolled down the stairs of my house once, and she saw me, and she said that I deserved it, that I couldn't help myself from falling to my death, so I could fall clean...

"When I was in junior high school, she remarried, and I was not at home... She gave birth to my sister with another man. I really envied that child, and I was even so jealous that she went crazy.

"She has everything. When I met her at the amusement park that day, I just...I really wanted to go up and ask her why she did this to me...

"Do you know how dark my heart is? Do you know how dirty I am? I really think I'm a piece of trash a lot of times. I'm ashamed to say what I think. Every night I have the same nightmare. I Thinking about killing myself in the past...

"She called me today. She called me for the first time in a long time. She asked someone to investigate me and knew about our affairs, but she said I was disgusting, that raising a dog was better than me, and that I It's a pervert who asked me why I didn't die, you said why I didn't die... I know she doesn't like me all the time, she thinks I'm delaying his marriage and her happiness, but she is my mother, why is she She treats me like this?

"I don't care about anyone's cold eyes on me, I don't care at all, but why is she wanting me to die? Am I really so damn...

"He Chu, I don't know how to treat others well, and I have never liked others. I like you and I like you very badly, but can you...can you not treat me like they do? Can you not despise me Disgusting, don't dislike me for not being gregarious, don't dislike me for not being able to speak, can you stop treating me like today... I'm afraid that one day I can't help it and it will be true...

"Can you……"

"I can."

He Chu felt that he couldn't listen anymore.

Listening to Yu Jingzhou say these words is a different feeling than listening to Zhou Yu telling him.

He hugged Zhou Yu in his arms, tightened his arms little by little, felt Zhou Yu's cool body temperature, and wanted to make him warmer, but Zhou Yu's cheeks were hot again, leaning against his neck, Like a brand.

He didn't cry, as if he was just calmly stating a story that had nothing to do with him, but He Chu felt more uncomfortable than what he himself had encountered.

The heart seemed to be slowly clenched and squeezed into a ball by a hand. The name of that hand was Zhou Yu, and it locked him tightly inside.

He suddenly felt that his worries for these few days were unnecessary, because Zhou Yu didn't care whether he was treated coldly, didn't care whether he had friends, and didn't care whether he had such achievements.

——All he cares about is the little warmth he has now, and he wants to hold that little warmth in his hands.

How much He Chu likes Zhou Yu, maybe Zhou Yu likes He Chu thousands of times, but he doesn't say it, because no one listened to him when he was young, no one listened to that little child alone How scared I was at the time, and no one listened to how much the child wanted to share his joy with others after his achievements.

This is his chance...

How could he be mad at him?How could he vent all the unhappiness in his heart to Zhou Yu?

Maybe Zhou Yu won't remember what he said or did when he wakes up tomorrow morning, but He Chu will remember.He thought that he would definitely remember every word Zhou Yu said today, and as long as he could remember for a day, he would definitely take this person to heart and hurt him.

How about being isolated and disgusted?As long as he is still by Zhou Yu's side, Zhou Yu is still his, and he is still Zhou Yu's, and they can be together to keep each other warm.

"I can do anything."

He Chu kissed Zhou Yu's hair, and repeated it again, solemnly saying it like an oath: "As long as you think, I can do anything."

"I have always been by your side. From now on, I will pet you, I will follow you, I like you and I prefer you. I only have you here with me. Let you stop worrying about me and let you do whatever you want with me. You want to leave None."

"Listen well, you are nobody to me, you are the one I like, you are my boyfriend, you are the one I, He Chu, want to spoil, you are the one who can do whatever I want with me, what do you want to do? Anything is fine, you don't have to care about other people's eyes, you just look at me, I will take you, take you out, and go where you want to go."

He helped Zhou Yu up, let Zhou Yu look him in the eyes under the weak light, and asked word by word:

"Listen well?"

Holding Zhou Yu's cold and thin face, he found that his hands were wet with some slipped liquid.

This was the second time he saw Zhou Yu cry, and the tears rolled down silently, covering his cheeks.

He was still crying silently, not even sobbing.

Maybe he didn't even realize that he was crying, but only knew that there was some liquid gushing out of his eye sockets, maybe all the sadness in the past also flowed away.

"Don't drink so much next time, you have to invite me to drink with you, okay, huh?"

He reached out to wipe his tears for him, then lowered his head to kiss his eyes, which trembled slightly under his lips.

"He Chu..."

"I'm here."

"I want to kiss you and I'll stamp you too."

"Okay... come here, I'll be yours after the building is over. Kiss me well, and I'll give you one back after I kiss you."

Zhou Yu cautiously put his arms around He Chu's neck in a childish way, and kissed his soft lips lightly.

Those lips carried He Chu's body temperature, which was the warmest temperature he had ever felt.

I really want to never let go... He Chu.