Cold violence

He Chu suddenly asked himself:

Back then... How did I treat Zhou Yu back then?

It was as if Zhou Yu didn't want to think about that time, his actions towards Zhou Yu at the beginning were also his eternal nightmare for so many years.

Whenever he dreams back at midnight, he can think of Zhou Yu's appearance at that time, as well as his so-called superior posture, which makes him feel like his heart is about to be crushed.

I just wish I could travel back to the past and beat up my old self severely.

Maybe in this way, I will be a little bit thinner.

"Zhou Yu," He Chu's voice was a little hoarse, with a sour taste, his voice was slow, and every word seemed to carry heavy thoughts: "I just want to apologize to you. At that time... It’s just that I was too timid, so I let you down, you said you don’t need to apologize, but I want to tell you seriously that I was wrong.”

Zhou Yu raised the corners of his lips silently, smiling mockingly.

Looking at the elite of the domestic shopping malls who has been reported countless times on domestic websites with pictures, his current appearance is different from all the pictures he has seen before. The man who sat down in front of him with his body downcast didn't look alike at all.

What is this?Are you sorry?Or do you want to start all over again?

"As I said, I don't need your apology, and I don't need all of you."

His voice was smooth and steady, without the slightest emotion mixed in it.

But if He Chu raised his head at this time, he could see that Zhou Yu's whole body was trembling slightly, and the fingertips of his two hands were fiercely pinched into the flesh, and he couldn't stop the point from spreading up from his chest cavity. pain that goes deep into the bone marrow.

Why do you feel angry?Is it because of He Chu's humble attitude, or because he feels unworthy?

Or... no matter how many times I told myself "I don't need it", but in the deepest part of my heart, I still kept the old habits, and I didn't want He Chu to be sad?

"You're lying." He Chu suddenly raised his head and looked at Zhou Yu. Zhou Yu closed his eyes, covering the emotions in his eyes.

As if remembering something, He Chu's eyes that had been gloomy just now became brighter, and his tone was firm: "We've been together for so long, you're lying."

Zhou Yu took a deep breath and said with a smile, "You also know that we were together, why should I lie?"

He bit the word "pass" tightly, reminding himself and reminding He Chu.

We were just together once, and we were together before, and now we are going each side of the road, why bother to talk about the relationship before?

"Or do you want me to tell you clearly that I am not rare at all, and I don't even like the group you try to integrate into. Since you chose to hate me at the beginning, then you'd better stick to it Hate me, do you want me to look down on you when you come to me like this now?"

"Are you letting go now? Zhou Yu, did you forget what you said back then?"

He Chu stood up abruptly, a little annoyed by Zhou Yu's invulnerable attitude.

He was a proud person, even if he knew that Zhou Yu had such a temper, it was inevitable that he would be a little unscrupulous at this time.

It's really been too long since I talked to Zhou Yu, and now Zhou Yu is facing him, every word is like a knife in his mouth.What was he like before?

At that time, Zhou Yu was a person who couldn't bear to say harsh words even when joking.

But why... why couldn't I feel it back then?It wasn't until now that all the tenderness he had had was gone, that he suddenly felt that he had been treated so tenderly by such a gentle person before.

He looked down at Zhou Yu condescendingly, watching the other party raise his head and look at him without fear. Under the warm light, his fair face became a little transparent, and there was no expression on that beautiful face, as if he was looking at someone. stranger.

Then he watched the expression on that face slightly loosen, Zhou Yu's lips opened and closed several times, his Adam's apple slid up and down a few times, and his voice was cold, he said:

"Yeah, I forgot."

Did you really forget?How could it be forgotten.

What kind of posture he was at that time, how humble he was, how he put down his body to face the person in front of him, naturally he couldn't forget what he said at that time, let alone every word this person said at that time.

He just wished he could engrave it on himself word by word, to remind himself how disgusting he was back then.

No wonder He Chu ignored him back then.

Even now, he just thinks about it, but he can't accept it.

"Why, you came today just to quarrel with me?"

--no……

He Chu was slightly taken aback, knowing that he was too excited.

He took a step back, sat back on the sofa, and covered his eyes blankly.

"Do we have to do this?" He took a deep breath, but choked himself, covered his lips and coughed violently.Zhou Yu looked at him, but didn't have any intention of helping him.

I still remember that time, when the teacher caught the two of them having breakfast in class, He Chu also coughed like that, but Zhou Yu patted his back lightly in the office.

Such a time... Is it really impossible to go back?

He Chu coughed until his eyes were red, and even his nasal cavity was sore. He looked at Zhou Yu's exposed ankle, and then looked in the direction until he saw the face that he wanted day and night, and his voice. Trembling slightly, he heard himself say:

"Is that all we can do?"

Is this the only way?From talking about everything in the past, to now I don't talk about speculation.

Can't even do the simplest... the courtesies in the mall?

"Or is it just that we can only do this? You can even greet Li Qi, even Li Qi with your smiling face, what about me? Tell me, what about me?"

Do you have to treat me like this?Are you unwilling to give me your tenderness that even strangers can have?

"Why can I greet Li Qi with a smile?" Zhou Yu stood up and laughed mockingly, and the smile continued into the next sentence: "Don't you know why I am?"

do not you know?

Yeah...he knew it.

At that time... At that time, after he broke up with Zhou Yu, no one in the class took the initiative to pay attention to Zhou Yu except Li Qi.If it weren't for Li Qi's last bit of warmth, Zhou Yu might... really collapse.

At this moment, he was extremely jealous of the good brother who had been with him since he was a child, and there was never a moment when he hated himself so much like now.

It was you who destroyed your past with your own hands, so who can you blame?

Zhou Yu looked at He Chu and didn't speak for a long time.

He Chu is the boy he once liked so much.

I like it so much that I can't wait to share all the good things in the world with him, and only swallow the bad things.

I like it so much that I am willing to step out for this person.

I like it until I want to be nice to him until he can't bear it.

The boy who gave him hope and made him think that he could go out, the boy who said he would bring him home and made him feel safe for the first time, the boy who seemed to walk from the light seemed to make him feel warm A boy who got up——

Now, with the depression and annoyance that should not belong to him, she sat on the sofa in front of him and dared not meet his eyes.

"He Chu," Zhou Yu said lightly, "Do you still like me?"

He Chu suddenly raised his head.

Zhou Yu was expressionless.

He smiled self-deprecatingly.

"Yeah, I like it, I have always liked it."

After liking it for so many years, I still like it. It seems that these seven years are just a blink of an eye, and the person in front of me still likes me like he did back then.

This time it is not mixed with any impurities, pure love.

It turns out that time flies, and in the fast-moving time, I have liked him for so many years.

Just relying on memories to live, and my liking has not diminished in the slightest.

"yes."

Zhou Yu's tone was calm, as if he was telling himself: "But I don't like it anymore."

"Don't like it anymore?" He Chu asked back, "What do you mean you don't like it anymore?"

"Yes, I don't like it anymore."

"You're lying, you obviously still like it."

He Chu stood up and pulled Zhou Yu's shoulders. He was still a little taller than Zhou Yu, as long as Zhou Yu raised his head, he could look into He Chu's eyes.

Now Zhou Yu's eyes showed no fear at all, He Chu looked into Zhou Yu's calm eyes: "You look at me and say, that you don't like me anymore?"

Zhou Yu broke free from He Chu's shackles, and raised the corner of his mouth in a contemptuous arc.

"If you don't like it, you don't like it. How do you want me to prove it to you?"

"You won't. You obviously still like me." He Chu's eyes pressed hard on Zhou Yu, he paused every word, as if reassuring himself, and repeated: "You still like me. "

Zhou Yu seemed to sigh, and suddenly stretched out his hand to pinch He Chu's chin, pressed his face down, and then gently pressed it against it.

It was a kiss.

It was Zhou Yu's kiss after seven years.

Such a soft, crisp, winter-like kiss.

Different from before, there is no more warmth from him here.

He Chu was stunned in place, and Zhou Yu pressed his lips like that for a long time.

The distance between them was so close that He Chu could even count the number of his eyelashes and see the arc of his eyelashes.

Zhou Yu's lips parted slightly, and he licked He Chu's lips.

He Chu was shocked.

But Zhou Yu let go of He Chu's chin, took a step back, rubbed the place where he touched He Chu just now with his thumb, raised his eyes and smiled and said, "I don't feel anything at all, can this be called liking, He Chu? "

There was one-third of mockery and three-point indifference and hatred in that look, but He Chu lowered his head and reached out to cover his lips, not paying attention to Zhou Yu's appearance at all.

Zhou Yu's warmth still seemed to remain on her lips.

Zhou Yu slowly retracted his eyes, and his eyes returned to indifference.

He Chu looked up at Zhou Yu's indifferent smile, and suddenly felt a pain in his heart.

This is his Zhou Yu, he has been thinking about Zhou Yu for so many years.

His breath is still clean, without the smoke and smoke of the world, with that long-lost touch, and he just left again after a while.

"If you have nothing to do, I will trouble you to go back by yourself. I am going to rest, so I won't send it away." After Zhou Yu finished speaking, he turned around and bent down to pack the thin blanket on the sofa. He folded it carefully and put it away. Put it back in place.

After finishing everything, he turned around and looked at He Chu again, giving the final order to evict guests with his eyes.

He Chu raised his foot and walked slowly towards the door of his house.

He opened the door and saw Zhou Yu looking at him not far behind him.

His gaze was as deep as a pool of water.

So he said: "Zhou Yu, you don't like it anymore, it's okay, we will have a long time to come, and the most important thing I need is time."

Zhou Yu didn't reply, but looked at He Chu and smiled at him, then turned around slowly, and closed the door for him.

That smile was so bitter that even Zhou Yu felt like crying in his chest.

When the sound of He Chu's footsteps gradually faded away, he fell back on the sofa as if he lost his strength.

His stomach was aching, but he just covered his eyes with his hands.

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