shadow lover

When the cold wind blows and the snowflakes fall, I ask in a low voice if the girl next to me is cold. I have been away from home for more than five days on a business trip, except for a call to Sen Miao on the day I first arrived.I just saw a coat at a sales event, and the catwalks of the models attracted many people who came to the exhibition.

After work, Xiao Zhang and I also walked around the exhibition hall. Xiao Zhang said how it could be so cold here, and she said that her fingers were frozen from the cold.I would laugh along with her when she complained about the jokes, and when I saw Xiao Zhang shivering in the padded jacket, I took off my coat and put it on for her.

"Sister An, I'm neither cold nor cold."

"Nonsense, you are shivering and saying that you are not cold."

"Sister An, give me your clothes, what are you wearing?"

"I don't have one more thing. It's okay. Think about what to eat."

“Of course it’s hot pot on such a cold day”

Xiao Zhang said that he still wanted to eat hot pot, so I asked him to go to the hot pot restaurant to order food, and he quickly returned to the event site to buy the dress. playing mobile games.

"Eat, didn't I tell you not to wait for me."

"Hey, how about that, let's start."

"This is for you, let's see if you like it." He also casually brought a fleece knitted sweater to Xiao Zhang.

"Sister An, I love you to death, really."

"Don't, you just work hard."

"Sister An, we still have a few days before we can go back. I really can't stand it anymore. I feel like I'm almost unconscious from the cold. I won't come here again."

"The event will end the day after tomorrow. I'll buy a return ticket when I go back to the hotel after dinner. Don't worry."

"Sister An, hasn't Sister Fu contacted you yet?"

"Well, no, eat vegetables."

"Sister An, or leave."

"Children don't care about adults' affairs, you hear, eat quickly."

I don't know when Xiao Zhang changed his address to Sen Miao to Miss Fu, and when Xiao Zhang felt that it would be more comfortable to part ways than to be together so indifferently.After dinner, we went back to our residence. While Xiao Zhang was taking a shower, I bought a return train ticket online, then looked at the phone screen for a long time and hesitated to press the dial button.The moment I dialed the phone, I became cautious for some reason. My throat was also extremely tight when I heard the tone of the other party, and I stuttered as soon as I opened my mouth.

"Sen Miao, you...you...I'll go back in two days. Need...do you need to bring some special products? I'll go buy some."

"Oh, no need."

"Sen...Sen Miao, how is uncle?"

"Well, okay, why don't you see if there is anything suitable for the elderly, and I'll give you money when you come back."

"Okay, no...no need."

"Is there anything else? If nothing else, hang up."

"okay."

After turning off the phone, I subconsciously wiped my forehead with the back of my hand. After a few minutes of talking, I broke out in a cold sweat. I sighed and blamed myself for being useless. Then I got up and went downstairs to buy cigarettes. I stood in the white snow and smoked one by one. Cigarettes on fingertips, maybe because I have something in my heart, I feel cold after standing outside for nearly twenty minutes.

Before going back, I went to the specialty store to buy some local specialties and brought them back to my uncles and aunts. I originally wanted to put my thoughts on Sen Miao on this business trip, but I didn’t expect that when I came back to see Sen Miao, I would I actually developed a feeling of rejection towards her, and my spiritual support also disintegrated a little.

After getting off the train, I went straight to my uncle and aunt with big bags and small bags, but hesitated when I raised my hand to ring the doorbell. After a while, I pressed the doorbell and the auntie came over and opened the door.

"I'm back from a business trip. Is it cold over there? Didn't I tell Sen Miao not to let you buy things? Why do you still bring so much back? Your uncle and I have bad teeth and it's nothing to eat now."

"Auntie, these are local specialties, and I didn't buy many. These are clothes for you and uncle. Can you see if they suit you?"

"You kid has already said that your family is welcome. Let me see, this fabric is not bad. How much is it? Auntie will reimburse you."

"Not much, a few hundred yuan is not expensive."

"I called Sen Miao and asked her to come over for dinner at night. You can go home after dinner."

"Well, okay, Auntie, I'm going to wash the vegetables, don't be too busy."

The aunt then called Sen Miao and asked her to come over for dinner after work, and asked her to buy some of my favorite food on the way back when she came back. When Sen Miao arrived at the aunt's place at about seven o'clock, I went out from the kitchen to welcome her in. When she saw me appearing at the door, she glanced at me and then bent over to change her slippers, and said lightly, "I'm back."

I actually wanted to talk, but the sentence I thought you stuck in my throat was not uttered. I followed Sen Miao into the bedroom before I spoke, and I said: "Did you not think about me these days when I went out?" For a second, is it because you won’t contact me if I don’t call you.” The words I blurted out surprised me a bit, and it wasn’t my intention to blame her, I just wanted to ask her why she didn’t contact me.

"I'm a little busy these days"

"Busy, when you are busy, you have time to chat and tease your friends in the group, and when you are busy, you have time to introduce girlfriends to others, but you just don't have time to talk to me."

"Anyang, what are you doing, are you going to quarrel right after you come back?"

"I'm going out to accompany my aunt, and I'll call you out for dinner later."

Sen Miao, do you really want me to lose my last face and kneel down to beg you for alms, but even if I do that, I know you won't help me, and I'm afraid you will even look down on me deep down in your heart.

We went home after dinner, and when I got home, I gave her the things I bought for Sen Miao. She just took a look and said thank you, then went into the bathroom, looking at the carefully crafted item on the bed. The selected coat was put there in ignorance, and the brain was as uncomfortable as the brain in the skull was about to burst, and the fingers of both hands subconsciously clenched into fists. Sitting in the bedroom with eyes closed, I took deep breaths and told myself It's okay, don't care, it's okay, don't turn your back on the horns.

The things I brought back were put away by myself. I opened the closet and looked at most of the clothes of the same style in the closet. I felt sore for no reason. I closed the closet and changed the clothes and then went to the bathroom to scrub.Sen Miao, do you know why I want to be lazy so much but dare not really let myself stop and relax, because I'm afraid, I'm afraid I won't be able to hold on.After taking a shower and drying your hair, I climbed into bed and lay next to you. You turned your back to me and fell asleep. In the dark night, I stretched out my five fingers to touch your back. When I was about to touch you, I lowered my arms , Biting his lip and feeling distressed.

Senmiao's birthday is coming up in a few days, and I will go shopping in the mall in my spare time. Even though I know she won't care about the gifts I send, I still choose carefully. As small as being hit by a meteor.

"Sister An, what's the matter with you, Sister An..." I was obviously out of shape when I was touching up the makeup of the changing staff. Xiao Zhang held my wrist when I picked up the eyebrow razor and then put the powder box in my hand Here, after all the backcourt personnel went out, I sat on the sofa dejectedly.Today's press conference was held by Sen Miao Company. She just sat here with several department heads to make up. While I was doing makeup for Sen Miao, a woman came in outside, holding a bouquet in her hand.

Sen Miao didn't say anything, but simply introduced that the person was the vice president of XX company. After she went out with the woman, several other colleagues mentioned to me that the woman often went to the company to approach Sen in the name of work. Miao, said to let me be careful, but also said that Sen Miao is not interested in her, but it is because of her work that she is not good.

I have been waiting for the press conference to end, but when I appeared in front of Sen Miao, she was led by another woman and walked out the door. Maybe it was because of anger or a long-standing emotion that burst out suddenly. I put the toolbox in my hand Throw it to Xiao Zhang and run forward to block the way of the two of them.

"Fu Senmiao, I'm still here, can you save me some face?"

"You are Sen Miao's girlfriend"

"Yes"

"I have an appointment with Sen Miao to eat French food, do you want to go together?"

"No need"

"Ma'am, do you think it's really good for you to keep Sen Miao off the stage in public?"

"Sen Miao, I'm sorry, but I'm really going crazy, I beg you, can I beg you to give me even a little love, I don't want face, I don't want dignity, I don't want anything, I kneel at your feet I beg you to be merciful and pity me, Sen Miao."

Sen Miao, I knelt down for you, knelt at your feet, leaned on your lap and wept faintly, Sen Miao, I begged you for mercy, please show me how I am, Sen Miao, I Sen Miao.

Sen Miao, you see, when you face such a selfless person, you will feel that I am embarrassing you. When you sternly told me to get up and not embarrass myself outside, have you ever thought of that sister Ke who made you feel so distressed? .Sen Miao, wounds don't count as marks on the body, those knives that cut through the heart are also extremely sharp, you know.