shadow lover

After checking that my uncle’s leg needs a minor operation, but the problem is not serious. I asked for a single room during the hospitalization procedures. Sen Miao took the procedures and turned around to leave. I chased after her to comfort her and said, “Didn’t the doctor say Is it just a minor operation, after the operation, rest and recover soon.”

"That's what he said, but how old is my dad? Do you think it's easy to recover after surgery, but do you know that any surgery will hurt your body?" Sen Miao was a little upset, and I followed her into the elevator Lou entered the ward, and my aunt was sitting in front of the bed and peeling apples for my uncle.

"I'm back, I'm done. I'll have an operation someday."

"Next Mon"

"Oh, it's okay, don't worry, the director said it doesn't matter."

"Well, I see, Mom, you go home tonight, I'll be fine here."

"You have to go to work, okay?"

"Or, let me come. Anyway, I leave at three or four o'clock in the morning. I'm staring here and at home, Senmiao, what do you think?"

"Then watch for a few nights. My mother will come over in the morning, and I will come over at night after get off work."

"okay."

After discussing, it was decided that I would come to watch the night. My aunt came to accompany me during the day, and Sen Miao came to leave after work at night before the hospital was cleared at 10 o'clock. I saw her worried expression and felt a little distressed and a little bit envious. At 30:[-], Sen Miao went home with her aunt I went, turned off the lights, and sat on the sofa in the corner of the wall looking at the dark room.

I kept my eyes open until I got up and left at 03:30 in the morning. I worked normally during the day and stayed with me at night. When my uncle got up at night, I took the chamber pot to catch his urine. At first my uncle was embarrassed, so I said that I had done nursing before. It's Senmiao's father and my relatives, that's nothing.

A few days later, my uncle was pushed into the operating room for an operation. The operation went smoothly and was completed in about an hour. The doctor pushed the uncle back to the ward and told Sen Miao some usual precautions.

"Sister An, are you okay, you are painting here."

"Oh, I'm dazzled, you can come first later."

My mental state was in a trance. After several reminders from Xiao Zhang, I withdrew my outstretched hand. Mr. Ying and the others came to see my uncle a few days ago, and then a few of her friends came. They came yesterday. A lady I have never met, she took Sen Miao's hand and said: "Don't worry, I can help uncle find the best doctor for rehabilitation."

I bent down and held my face in my hands to clear my mind. I knew that Sen Miao would not kick me away before I was exhausted, but seeing people who appeared next to her one after another who were better than myself When I was a woman, my nerves became more tense every time.

In the afternoon, Mohan called me and told me that she had a fight with her girlfriend and that they were in a state of cold war. She told me the cause and effect, and then asked me if she said anything wrong. This is the way things are, and it was me. I accidentally mentioned An An, and I said you are not comparable, did I say something wrong? I, what's the point, break up if you love everywhere.

"Are you sincere or angry?"

"Oh, of course I'm angry. I know I have a bad attitude, but you said how could she say that I don't have her in my heart? I'm angry."

"She didn't say anything. You are too sensitive. When she takes the initiative to talk to you, then you can go down the slope. It's you who are competing. You're the one to blame."

"Where are you, please have dinner tonight."

"No, I have to go to the hospital at night. Sen Miao's father is in the hospital. I'll go to watch the night."

"Look for a nurse. You can stand vigil at night and work during the day, can you bear it?"

"Well, yes, Mohan do me a favor, help me contact a better rehabilitation doctor, money is not a problem, the main thing is to make Sen Miao's father recover as soon as possible."

"Okay, let me take a look for you. I said that you are much more generous with Sen Miao than you were with Auntie before. Now you don't feel bad about money. It's useless if you don't mind it."

"Mohan, don't make fun of me. I don't have any status, and my abilities are limited. That's all I can do."

"Do you... feel tired?"

"Hard work is nothing, as long as...she...no, I'm going to work, I'll hang up first."

I want to say that hard work is nothing, as long as Sen Miao can take a serious look at me, Sen Miao and I were not in a relationship before, and there seemed to be no ambiguity, so what are we? I don't know how Sen Miao defined our relationship.

After finishing work, I went directly to the hospital with a cosmetic case. In the corridor leading to the ward, I fell down on the ground in disappointment. I asked if I needed to contact my family members, and I said I would leave without finishing the nutrient solution.Two hours later, I went to pay the medical bills and then walked to my uncle's ward. After entering the room, Senmiao was massaging his uncle's legs, "Are you busy today? It's so late."

"No, I'll do it, I'll press it."

I walked over and put down the small box in my hand to replace Sen Miao. The tape on my hand was stuck to the back of my hand, but Sen Miao didn't seem to notice that he got up to make way for me.

"I want my dad to undergo a period of rehabilitation and stay in the hospital. It's only half a month without much money. What do you think, Mom?"

"It's good, but this hospital is too expensive. The room fees for Tianguang alone cost more than 1 to [-] yuan. How much money can Anyang have? No, no, no."

"I didn't say to let her go out. I'll take it. My dad has to do rehabilitation treatment. According to the doctor's guidance, it will definitely get better sooner than raising it at home. This money can't be saved, in case there will be sequelae later."

"Auntie, I dragged my friend to contact the rehabilitation doctor, and I should be able to reply to my letter in a few days. Sen Miao is right. It is better to make recovery appointments under the guidance of the doctor than to make fools of ourselves. Don't worry about the money. As for the problem, I still have more to spare, you just need to settle down and accompany Uncle."

"Anyang, it's thanks to you watching at night during this time, otherwise you would say that my old lady can't bear it."

"Auntie, you are welcome, I should do it."

Afterwards, Sen Miao asked me, Anyang, how many friends have you made outside? This is not something ordinary friends can do.”

I replied to her and said, "Sen Miao, don't you have many generous friends around you? It's normal for me to have a few good relationships."

Two days later, Mo Han wrote back to help contact an excellent doctor, so that his uncle underwent rehabilitation treatment for more than half a month under the guidance of that doctor. On the day he was discharged from the hospital, Sen Miao drove his uncle and aunt to her house. Saying that she didn't need to accompany her, she said that uncle had nothing to do, and she didn't need to worry about what he could do if he was fine. He also told her to work hard and not be distracted by them.

It took more than two months from my uncle's visit to the hospital to his discharge. Although the time was not long, it was a bit difficult for me. After my uncle had an examination before he was discharged from the hospital and confirmed that there was no problem, Sen Miao let it go. Lifting the heart, the nervous nerves are also relaxed.

I know that she is irritable and unstable because of her uncle's hospitalization, and I also know that she is worried that when her uncle is old, even if it is only a small operation, there will be a certain degree of risk. I also know that she is not paying attention to me. It's because she doesn't have time to pay attention to my actions.

Today I fainted at the event site. When Xiao Zhang helped me to take me to the hospital, tears flowed from the corners of my eyes inexplicably. Sen Miao, don’t you think Mr. Mu’s love is too strong and that Sister Ke is wronged and forbearing, but Sen Miao, no matter what, Mu always loves Sister Ke. No matter what she does to her, she always has her in her heart. She is a bit domineering, but at least she still has love, doesn't she?

And what do you have to me, is it only the value of using, Sen Miao, do you know how repulsive I feel when I think of using these two words, I don’t want to admit that this is the original intention of you being with me in the first place, I don't want to admit that this is your intention to keep me by your side, but after a few months, I want to ask you if there is any friendship left between us.

Sen Miao, my dear Sen Miao, please tell me who I am.

Sen Miao, my dear Sen Miao, please tell me where I am.

Sen Miao, my dear Sen Miao, please tell me who I should love.

Sen Miao, my dear Sen Miao, please tell me what I should do next.

Sen Miao, my dear Sen Miao, please tell me, will you turn your attention to me when I completely become the shadow of Sister Ke, but then I want to ask you, Sen Miao, what is in your eyes? Who is it that you see?

Sen Miao, my head seems to be about to explode, it is really about to explode, I beg you, please take pity on me, please, please give me a little love, can I kneel down if you want I beg, as long as you want, I can be the person you want me to be, even if it’s just her shadow, as long as you want, I can even take out the organs on my body and offer them to Sister Ke with both hands, as long as you want.

Mo Han said that I was afraid that I would end up in Sen Miao's hands, and Mo Han said that I should get out of here quickly, or I would end up in a situation where I would get nothing and have no bones left. you.In her view, what she asks and what I give are all voluntary acts, no matter what the outcome is, she does not need to be responsible for me, because there is no such thing as where the responsibility comes from.Besides, everyone is an adult, if you stalk and stalk and appear to be a messy and unreasonable person, and your reputation will be ruined in the end, then you will lose a lot.

I listened to Mo Han's precise analysis word by word, yes, indeed, maybe I lost my love, lost myself, lost my self-esteem and lost everything. This is probably my final fate, but think about the debt I owe her. Years of agreement, helpless wry smile, forget it, the remaining months of company are not short, maybe it will pass after a while, right?