shadow lover

Xiao Zhang doesn’t know what’s wrong these days. He always makes mistakes at work, and he often laughs at himself in a daze without knowing why. When I finished work and packed the makeup box, Xiao Zhang came over to me and said, “Miss An, I feel like I like someone, I see her every day now, otherwise I can't sleep."

"Even if you fall in love, it can't affect your work. You know how many mistakes you made just now. What does that boy look like? Do you know him?"

"It's a sister, Sister An, I don't like men."

"Oh, yes, then the young lady you are so obsessed with must be very outstanding."

"Well, that is, she is the warmest person I have ever met."

"Oh, that sounds good, well, let's go home."

"Sister An, why don't you accompany me there, and help me see how you feel. If it's okay, I'll chase her and help me analyze whether my chances are high."

"I really don't know how to read this, I'm afraid I won't be able to help you out."

"Let's go, let's finish work early anyway, please, Miss An."

Under Xiao Zhang's hard work, I was dragged into the taxi waiting at the door by her. The direction the car was driving surprised me. Subconsciously stopped, the air conditioner in the store was blowing moderately cold wind, and the waiter at the bar greeted every customer who came to consume politely.After Xiao Zhang asked for two glasses of water, she found a vacant seat and sat down. After she sat down, she pointed in one direction and said, "Sister An, you see, the person who is chatting with a friend is the boss here. He has been here before." It is said that not only the environment is good, the boss is also very nice, and there are many repeat customers.” Looking in the direction of Xiao Zhang’s finger, I saw Sen Miao sitting with several people and talking and laughing, and the dimples on both sides of her cheeks stood out when she smiled. The smiling eyes at the corners of her curved mouth are still so desirable.

Looking back, I didn’t look at Xiao Zhang’s words of praise for that person in my ears. I kept silent for a while. Later, the person sent his friend out. She is quite satisfied and seeks suggestions for improvement. She is gentle and meticulous in front of many friends outside Mobushu.

When she came to the table with me and Xiao Zhang, I raised my head and met her eyes. This was the first time we met after we separated. Neither she nor I said a single word to each other. Xiao Zhang was happy. After asking for a group photo, I took Xiao Zhang's mobile phone and took a group photo of them. She was mature and intellectual under the lens.

After she walked to the bar, Xiao Zhang happily asked me if I was very charming, and I said yes, you have a good eye.Xiao Zhang said she wanted to follow, then asked me worriedly: "Sister An, do you think I have big hopes?" I didn't give an answer, hope, what is hope, and the difference between hope and dreaming, I don't know .

After that, Xiao Zhang started her pursuit. She went to check in at night from Monday to Friday, and went there whenever she was free on Saturdays and Sundays. Looking at her, I really felt that I was getting older. The motivation of young people and the I am particularly moved by the surging enthusiasm. I am not surprised that Xiao Zhang will be obsessed with Sen Miao's close and meticulous feeling with others, and it is not surprising that she will get deeper and deeper.

After about a month and a half, Xiao Zhang happily hugged my arm and said, "Sister An, she promised to try dating with me. Sister An, I'm so happy. Sister An, I'm going to sing all night." See Looking at Xiao Zhang's bright smile, I don't know whether I should be happy for her success in chasing that person, and I don't know if I have the obligation to remind her about that person. I think if I can't do it, I won't be partial Then I shouldn't intervene in their relationship. As a bystander, the greatest help I can do is not to express any opinions, just keep silent and watch what happens to them.

"Sister An, Sen Miao came to pick me up today, I won't go with you."

"Okay, got it."

"Sister An, I'm sorry, I've caused you a lot of trouble recently. I just made a mistake and you were blamed by customers again."

"It's okay, just pay attention next time, remember to go there early tomorrow and don't be late."

"Okay, I promise to be there on time."

When I was walking out, Xiao Zhang said that she was being picked up today. Before the words landed, I heard Xiao Zhang’s favorite cheers, and then I rushed forward. My eyes fell on the two people who were embracing each other. I tightened my fingers holding the box. , lowered his head and walked past Xiao Zhang, held his breath and quickened his pace.

After the operation, I quit smoking, but recently I became addicted to smoking again. I would want to smoke whenever Xiao Zhang mentioned Sen Miao in front of me. Seeing that Sen Miao came to pick up Xiao Zhang and wanted to smoke when he came home from work, I would suddenly wake up in the middle of the night and not stop smoking when I fell asleep.

Today, I went to the collector through the introduction of a customer. He left the CD I was looking for. He asked for 15 yuan and said that he would not give such a low price if it was not for the introduction of an acquaintance. For the price, I don't know if there is an element of cheating here, but I paid for it because it's what you like.For me, money is not that important to me. When you ask a person who is terminally ill and cannot be cured whether money is important, I think he may answer you, please let me be free. Painful death.

After getting the CD I had been looking for for a long time, I took a taxi to the water bar at night. According to the time period Xiao Zhang mentioned to me, Sen Miao would be in the store before nine o'clock in the evening. When I opened the door and entered the store, I saw Sen Miao Miao and Xiao Zhang stood in front of the bar, I watched them two walk in, we just looked at each other in silence, until I put the three discs on the bar and turned around to walk out of the store, Sen Miao and Come up and call out my name.

"Anyang, wait a moment."

"Are you... are you okay..."

"Well... not long after you left, a girl surnamed Han came to see me. She was very nervous about you."

"Anyang, you... are you together?"

"Sen Miao, Sister An, you... know each other..."

Seeing Xiao Zhang's bewildered face, I said I didn't know each other and then walked again. This time, Sen Miao grabbed my arm and said, "Anyang, don't go, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry I hurt you , I apologize, I apologize. Anyang, it has been more than a year. I have been regretting you for more than a year. I regret that I didn’t keep you and made you physically and mentally exhausted. Anyang, don’t go, I need you, stay, okay? , can you give me a chance to correct myself, Anyang."

"Fu Senmiao, do you know how scumbag your own behavior is now? Look at the child standing behind you. This is a perfect woman without any flaws in her mouth. Can you have some moral values? Can you not be random? Playing with other people's emotions."

"Yes, I'm scum, I'm mean and shameless, I'm not human, I use others to free myself, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

"Sister An, don't blame her. She told me that just because she tried to date me, it doesn't mean she will fall in love with me. Sister An, you..."

Xiao Zhang opened his mouth to make a rescue. I watched Sen Miao's eyes grow deeper and turned around to leave. Sen Miao, do you know the feeling that even breathing hurts? To love you by your side, but now I am no longer the Anyang who was full of longing and anticipation in my heart and never fell in love.

It was you who taught me to have my own position on love, not to be led by the other person's emotions easily, and not to believe that as long as you love her, she will fall in love with you in this world.If you find the wrong person, all the affection will be wiped out in the end and turn into hatred that goes deep into the bone marrow.I don't want to hate you, so I'm sorry I let you down, my dear Senmiao.